Chapter 127: Remorse
People like him were orphans by nature and left the barracks homeless.
Although he said that he could go back, in fact, he knew better than anyone else that he couldn't go back at all, even if he knelt down and begged, it would be useless.
He fled with him, having already betrayed the monarch, and he would not be trusted if he returned, because he had betrayed the general again.
No one cares about their lives except the general, he knows it, but what is he doing?
He never realized that he was such a two-faced person?
He only felt that his current self was strange and terrible, and it was so disgusting that it made him sick.
He would betray the general, this is something he never thought of, he was so deluded by a ghost that he would say such a thing, right?
No, that's not what he intended.
They're brothers who live and die together, aren't they?
He began to run in the direction the bearded men had left, stomping heavily on the red strips of cloth on the ground, as if to smash what he had just said, and it must be too late to chase after them.
But he ran until the sun went down, and he didn't run into the bearded man again, and he searched back and forth in that direction several times, but there was no one to be seen. Even if they were caught up and killed by the pursuers they sent, they shouldn't even have a corpse.
Where did it go?
He couldn't find his brothers.
Was it captured and returned?
Worried and remorseful, he couldn't tell which emotion was more, he ran back frantically, sneaked back to the garrison of the Dock City army to look for it, and still found nothing.
They're not here.
He didn't know how to leave the barracks, he was confused and didn't know what to do now, like a small boat lost in the ocean, pushed by the wind and drifting with the current, but he couldn't find the direction.
I don't know what happened to the bearded people, and I don't know what happened to the general.
His generals, how is it now?
When he joined the Loyal Army, he secretly promised that he would protect the general at the cost of his life, and later when Lin Xiao was born, he also thought about protecting this child.
The general was designed to be encircled and suppressed, isolated, and needed his help, but he had no way at all, and he couldn't even catch up with the general, and now the general's child would be ruthlessly killed if he stayed in the barracks, he should protect this child, why did he retreat?
He thought he was strong enough, but now he suddenly realized that he was terrifyingly weak.
From the beginning of the retreat in thought, it has been decided that he will not be able to become a general in his life.
When people blame themselves and are uneasy, there will always be a trace of luck.
He began to try to be lucky, the general is so powerful, surely nothing will happen, right?
For so many years, no matter when something happened, the general always took it calmly and calmly, in his eyes, there was nothing that the general could not do, even if it was like a year ago when more than a dozen of them were surrounded by thousands of people, the situation was critical, and the general came to the rescue alone and took them to successfully break through.
Therefore, he had a trace of luck in his heart, praying that God would let the general escape
This catastrophe.
At least the general will survive, right?
Absolutely.
Until I heard the news of the general's death and spread all over the world, this reluctant luck was also broken.
It was like when he was first seen when he was a child, when he was picked up from the pile of dead by the general and slapped on the cheek, he suddenly covered his face and cried like a child.
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Still in the northwest, he huddled in the crowd and looked at the imperial order, his eyes were so wide that he almost pounced on the notice board.
A royal decree announcing the death of the general, the whole country mourned silently, all the people commemorated it, the god of war of the Chaoyue country, General Huwei, when fighting with foreign enemies, the reinforcements did not arrive, and they defended the border city, died bravely, and died in battle.
Martyrdom and death?
Are you kidding!
Clearly not like this!
Use such a high-sounding reason to block the mouths of the crowd?
To say that the people in the world who are most familiar with the general are the garrisons in the northwest, not only can you see the general patrolling from time to time, but also have been protected by the general, if there is anything to ask for help from the garrison, you can quickly get help to solve it, the general will often go to the village to help, send them food and materials, and the lady will go to the village to see and administer medicine for free when she is free, and she is very kind to them.
The onlookers looked at the imperial decree notice, and many of them covered their faces and cried on the spot, unable to believe the sudden bad news.
His heart twitched at the sight of those tears.
Believed?
It's a lie!
Although he knew from the beginning that it was a dead end, he never expected that it was obviously the emperor who brutally killed the general, and in order to block the mouths of the people, Tian shamelessly wore such a high-sounding coat as a cover.
Bullshit martyrdom!
If dying of suspicion, dying of conspiracy, and dying of the emperor's ruthlessness is also martyrdom, then the general's hard work and efforts for so many years are like a joke full of irony.
He clearly stepped into the barracks just for protection, his position of power is just a cloud of the past, and even he, a bystander, can see it clearly with a pure heart, and now he is going to die unjustly and aggrieved like this for a trumped-up crime, and he died unclearly, and even his posthumous name is deceitful.
The rabbit dies and the fox cooks, and the bird hides the bow, is this the end of the hero?
The hero he has always wanted to be, can only get such a tragic and desolate end?
Like a drowning man, he wanted to cry out for help, but more and more water choked into his mouth and nose, like the flood when he was a child, and his remorse was about to drown him.
He really regretted it.
He can't turn things around, change the fate of the world, save the general, and protect him from this killing, it's just that he can't do it.
What made him saddest the most was that he failed to fulfill the promises he made and swore to follow the general to the death.
Even fear of death, the oath he made in his heart is like a joke.
Before leaving, the bearded man told him that a man should keep his promise and die, and he was never afraid of death.
He covered his eyes, and warm liquid slipped from the corners of his eyes
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Who of them didn't leave their hometown and come to the northwest battlefield with the determination to die, crawling and rolling on the battlefield to live and die, how many times did they rub shoulders with death, and there were countless scars and imprints on their bodies, was he afraid at that time?
He was not afraid of dying on the battlefield, but he was afraid of the ruthlessness of the emperor.
He is just a coward, a coward, a soldier who escaped from the battlefield, and with a soldier like him, how could the general not die.
The rest of his life will be spent with endless remorse.
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After a few days of depression, it occurred to him that he might be able to do something.
Since the emperor used a false reason in order to block the mouth of Youyou, then, he went the opposite way and exposed the real cause of the general's death, so that the people of the world could see the emperor's cold-blooded ruthlessness, and the end of the loyal ministers was actually a rabbit and a fox, which not only chilled the hearts of the ministers and put everyone in the court in danger, but also hurt the hearts of the people and caused dissatisfaction among the people!
If this is the case, you can justify the name of the general and take revenge on the cold-blooded ruthlessness of the emperor.
He certainly won't work alone, but what if all the people of the world are involved?
Even if it is a treehopper, if the people are willing to participate in the petition, the emperor has to pay attention to the hearts of thousands of people.
Water can carry a boat or capsize a boat, and the consequences of the emperor's loss of popular support are immeasurable.
Even if it is found that he took the lead in shaking things out and killing him quickly, killing one of him, and there are many more people, can he still kill all the people in the world?
Besides, the general has been fighting on the battlefield for so many years, resisting foreign enemies, all in order to protect the people of the world, people are grateful to him, so they will sing praises and praise virtues, and regard the general as the protector of the Asayue country, on the other hand, it is precisely because they regard the support of the gods that they killed the general, and now that the general is dead, they are sad and pity, and cry on the spot, so as long as they turn their grief into strength, go to expose together, and ask for a truth, they will definitely be able to return the general to justice.
Although his general will never come back, at least he should not be killed in such an unknown way, and the people should not be kept in the dark.
Finding his target, he finally picked himself up and began to run to the nearby village.
Even if he has lost the general, he has to do something.
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In fact, if others look at it, his sudden retreat and fear can be understood, it is normal for people to be afraid of dying, he just wants to survive, but it is precisely because such behavior can be understood, so he has no way to forgive himself.
If everyone on this battlefield is afraid of death, they have already been defeated.
I can't forgive myself, I can only try my best to make amends.
He ran rain or shine to various villages in the northwest, constantly explaining and lobbying the villagers.
But what frightened him was that he ran to the village for more than a month, and tried hard to persuade him, but he didn't know that he had said good things thousands of times, but with little effect.
Perhaps because he was too annoying to come every day, he was turned away by many villagers, saying that he was delirious and insane, and even forbade him from entering the village.
Countless cold eyes, countless ridicule, countless doubts.
But no one stood up and believed him.
Listening to these people's words, his heart cooled a little.
"Didn't the imperial court announce the cause of death? ”
"Yes, how can there be a fake when the imperial decrees have been issued, if it is really killed, then why did the emperor posthumously seal the title of the general to protect the country and the god of war. ”
"We are also very sad about the martyrdom of the great general, if you are dissatisfied with the emperor, you can say it, but please don't involve the dead anymore! ”
"That is to say, if you spread rumors, you will be killed, if you have the ability, you can go to the imperial capital and say it, don't take us with you if you want to die!"
"Yes, please don't come to our village again, you are not welcome. ”
Questioning, he was holding back the fire in his heart and wanted to hit someone, but he clearly knew that he couldn't use force indiscriminately, and if he did, it would only backfire.
He had to suppress the fire in his heart, in fact, under the anger was more uneasiness, he had never thought of such a situation.
Fortunately, he found a familiar face in the crowd, and his eyes lit up and he reached out his hand.
"Hey, you've seen me! Last time, I followed the general to save your life at Silver Snake Pass, and I sent you back to the village, do you remember?"
As long as there are witnesses in the village to prove that he is a member of the Lin family's army, what he said will be much simpler.
He looked at the young man expectantly.
The young man shrank back and whispered timidly, "I...... I do not know. ”
The man's expression was clearly remembering, what did he say? I don't know?
His eyes widened, only to feel that his heartstrings, which had been tense, suddenly collapsed.
The man next to him quietly touched the young man with his elbow, and the young man spoke again.
"Ah...... yes, I'm sorry, I don't remember you. ”
(End of chapter)