Chapter 143: Unintelligible Thoughts
"What happened to you just now?" Sitting in the car, Tong Zhen did not start the car.
"What about me. Ruan Xiyao knew what Tong Zhen was going to say, and deliberately acted as if she didn't know.
"What's wrong with you? What do you say? When you saw Xi Yuming falling asleep just now, you obviously wanted to cry, obviously worried about him, don't you admit it?" Tong Zhen looked back at Ruan Xiyao in the back row and said.
"How is it possible, you must be mistaken. Ruan Xiyao avoided Tong Zhen's eyes and looked out of the car window and said.
"Really, did I see it wrong?" Tong Zhen said, "From the time you heard that Xi Yuming was hospitalized to the time you went to the hospital and saw him sleeping on the hospital bed, your expression was so worried, so sad, others may not be able to see it, but you can't escape my eyes, you obviously like Xi Yuming in your heart, and you have long liked him." ”
"No way, you're talking nonsense. Ruan Xiyao argued.
"You like Xi Yuming, but you can't pass the level in your heart, that's ......"
"Don't say it......" Ruan Xiyao interrupted Tong Zhen's words, she knew that the level Tong Zhen said was Ji Cheng.
"Okay, I don't have to say it, but I want you to be brave enough to face your truest feelings. Tong Zhen finished speaking and started the car.
Ruan Xiyao looked at the scene flashing outside the car window, her eyes were moist, and she kept repeating a sentence in her heart, what should she do?
The temperature was rising every day, and the wind rushed into the car and picked up Ruan Xiyao's long hair, blowing her tears and hazy eyes, she didn't reach out to comb her hair, and her random hair was dancing.
She didn't think about her own inner affairs clearly, so how could she have time to care about what the scenery outside was like?
On the weekend, Liu Zheen and Ruan Xiyao got together, and heard Tong Zhen say that Ruan Xiyao was in a very bad mood these days, and she was bored in the room every day and didn't talk much.
"Zheen, you have to talk to Ruan Xiyao well, I'm really worried about her now. Tong Zhen said sadly.
"Actually, I have already seen the clues, but I didn't say it because of Ji Cheng, but I didn't expect it to be the current situation. Yoo said with a sigh.
"How do you say to persuade Ruan Xiyao now?" Tong Zhen was helpless, "I'm really anxious." ”
"I'm going to see her. ”
Liu Zheen got up and walked to Ruan Xiyao's room, the door was ajar, and when she pushed the door down gently, she could see Ruan Xiyao sitting at the desk writing something, worried about scaring Ruan Xiyao, Liu Zheen coughed lightly twice, Ruan Xiyao didn't look back, she knew that no matter who it was, she must have come to her to say something to her, so she stopped her pen and waited for Liu Zheen to approach.
"Xi Yao. Yoo Zhe-eun shouted softly, "I didn't bother you." "Hot search
"Jon, you're here. ”
"Yes, I'm here to see you, if you don't come for a long time, I'm afraid you'll forget me. Yoo Zhe-eun jokingly strode towards Ruan Xiyao.
"Sit down, how could I forget you. Ruan Xiyao put down her pen and turned back and said.
"What are you writing? Yoo knew that she couldn't see what was written on the paper, but she still walked over and picked it up and looked at it, "You see I forgot, I can't see what you wrote." Liu Zheen put down the score and retreated a little embarrassed, looked at Ruan Xiyao and said, "Ruan Xiyao, why do you write so many tunes, I heard Tong Zhen say that you don't plan to publish it." ”
"It's okay, I'm used to writing, when I was a music girl by the Ghost Emperor's side, I often had to have new music, so that I would be the music girl that the Ghost Emperor admired the most, but after I came to the world, I have been learning new music in the world, so I'll try to write it now. ”
"But you won't go back to the Ghost Emperor, why do you still write?" asked Yoo Zheen.
"Yes, I may never be able to go back, even if the Ghost Emperor doesn't have me by his side, there will be other music girls, what are you writing these for?" Ruan Xiyao said sadly. She thought back to the bits and pieces of this when she was a music girl, she had been used to it for thousands of years, but because of this habit, she was sent to the world by the Ghost Emperor to find new music, and she thought it was a very simple thing, but she didn't expect it......
"Ruan Xiyao, do you still want to go back to the Ghost Emperor to be a music girl?" asked Liu Zheen.
Ruan Xiyao also thought about the question of "......", but for a while Ruan Xiyao still couldn't answer this question.
"Xi Yao, this world now makes you have a lot of concerns, although you have many places that are different from us, but you are a very normal person in our eyes, since you are a normal person, of course there are seven emotions and six desires, if the ghost emperor let you come to the world, deprived of your seven emotions and six desires, then how can you integrate into this world, how can you learn new music, he is actually afraid that you will get a new life in the world, but there is no way, you are the best in the music girl, you are the most psychic, for the new music he can only give you a normal life, just in case, so you will have a three-step distance from us, Ruan Xiyao, we don't care about this three-step distance anymore, we have ignored this problem, in our hearts, we can see you no matter how far or near, so you must also insist on feeling what you want most and what you want to do. ”
"Maybe you're right, but I've always been obsessed with my Ji Cheng, and I only love Ji Cheng alone. Ruan Xiyao said thoughtfully.
"Then why do you smile happily when you see Xi Yuming happy, and cry sadly when you see him lying on the hospital bed?" asked Liu Zheen.
“...... I...... That's ......" Ruan Xiyao couldn't answer this question for a while.
"No one forces you to find Ji Cheng, but there is indeed a Xi Yuming in reality, he is a real existence, right in front of your eyes. Yoo said. "Do you remember when we first met? Now think about how funny I was at that time, why was I scared by you, and even thought that I had gone unlucky and bumped into a ghost, but then I tried to find you, but I didn't expect that we would become good sisters, good girlfriends, as long as you want, as long as you have the heart, as long as you take that step, you will find that everything is so beautiful. ”
"I can't take that step, Xi Yuming and I won't have any relationship beyond ordinary friends. Ruan Xiyao said.
"Xi Yao, do you regret coming to this world for all your current troubles?" asked Liu Zheen.
"......" Ruan Xiyao also thought about these questions, but she never had an answer in her heart, regretting it, she is a carefree and happy happy girl, she does not regret it, all the emotional fetters in the world make it difficult for her to sleep.
"I don't know if I shouldn't go to the Buddha Temple to ask the abbot for rebirth, if you don't have a good life, the most uncomfortable person must be me, and each of us wants you to be happy and as free as before. Yoo said sadly.