Chapter 32 The Past Is Like a Dream
When it comes to the word happy, the simple understanding is to open your heart and relax your whole body, which is also a feeling that makes people feel happy and comfortable.
Opening up may not be something that everyone can do, ordinary people are more willing to share their thoughts and feelings with some people, and even have thoughts that they don't want others to know for the rest of their lives.
Fortunately, the most common way for people to smile is to show whether they are happy and happy at the moment.
If there is a reason for a person's reluctance to open his heart, it may be difficult to speak, or it may be the fear of some kind of consequence.
But since it is unwilling, there is naturally a reason for unwillingness.
And happiness is the same, there will be a reason, and the root of it lies in whether a person's body and mind have been satisfied in some way.
There is nothing in this world for no reason, and so is people's mood.
And at present, it can be said that Jiang Li's body and mind are unbearable, so how can he be happy?
Fortunately, there are many people who are willing to help him and do things that they are willing and can, and at the same time he admonishes himself to think less so that he can be at peace with his body and mind.
Finally, use a smile to remind yourself that you must remember and be happy.
Although there is some self-deception, if you cover it up well, at least others can't see it, then the people around you may be happier because they see themselves smiling.
Because it is extremely difficult to distinguish whether other people's laughter comes from the real feelings of the heart or whether it is a long-term medicine to hide the pain.
However, there are always exceptions to everything, for example, in sleep, if you can still laugh when you are asleep, then the dream must be a good dream, and the smile is not fake.
Just like Jiang Li at this moment, he actually fell on the cushion in Mu Qing'er's room, fell asleep, and was laughing stupidly.
The reason why he was able to fall asleep like this was because he was too worried during the day, and he subconsciously came to Mu Qing'er's room.
Seeing that he had a tired look on his face, Mu Qing'er casually played a soothing song for him, and then there was this scene.
In his sleep, Jiang Li dreamed of his childhood.
When I dreamed that I was five years old, I opened my first sight after being rescued by Shizun, and saw the smiling faces of Shizun, Grandpa, and Yue'er's little girl.
When he was eight years old, he brought back a little girl and a baby out of nowhere, and said that he would let them play with him in the future.
When he was ten years old, the eldest brother made a wooden wheelchair for himself.
When she was twelve years old, Yue'er's girl pushed the two of her to come to the city quietly, and found out in her dream that Brother Mo had been secretly protecting his brother and sister since then.
It was also at that time that he met the little monk and laid the foundation for today's worship.
When she was thirteen years old, Qing'er was five years old, and she was fighting with Lanyi to feed herself with medicine and food.
When he was fourteen years old, Yue'er, who was cheeky and a year or two younger than him, carried himself, but in fact, he could barely get off the ground at that time.
It wasn't until he was eighteen years old that he successfully quenched his body, and walked back to Jiang's house for the first time to participate in his grandfather's 60th birthday, and saw the joyful expressions of his grandfather, father, mother, and Yue'er after seeing him.
That day's birthday banquet lasted for a long time, and it did not disperse until the evening, during which people kept coming forward and shouting "Young Master Jiang" to themselves, so they were happy like a "fool".
However, at this moment, a group of people suddenly rushed in, dressed in black and masked, and began to slaughter without saying anything, followed by endless shouts of killing, screams, and cries for help......
In order to protect himself and Yue'er, Shizun, grandfather, father, and mother rushed to the group of people desperately.
Yue'er was about to rush out to kill the enemy together because of some cultivation, but fortunately she was stunned and hugged by Brother Mo.
I also wanted to rush up to do something, but I was stopped by my mother who turned around and said that she wanted to take care of her sister.
In the end, he was forcibly carried back by Brother Mo, and at the last glance, he saw that his mother was careless because she told herself, so that her shoulder was cut by a thief.
......
Seeing Jiang Li suddenly become painful, and constantly shouting miserably in his mouth, "Mother, Mother, Mother......"
Mu Qing'er was very distressed, and walked forward and squatted down to wipe the cold sweat on his forehead and the tears in the corners of his eyes for him.
But Jiang Li, who was still struggling in his sleep, grabbed her soft, and still shouted in pain "Mother, mother, mother......"
Maybe it was because he grabbed her hand, as if in a dream he finally grabbed his mother's hand and shouted "Mother!" in a thrilling way.
Then he woke up and opened his eyes, and looked at the jade hand he was holding on to for the first time, and naturally saw the shadow that was squatting in front of him.
The heart is complicated and difficult to understand.,I don't know if it's because I can't really catch my mother and lose.,Or because I came into contact with the person I've always loved again.。
But instead of letting go of his hand, he grabbed it tighter.
Seeing that he still refused to let go of himself when he woke up, Mu Qing'er was a little embarrassed, and said coldly: "Since you are awake, let go." ”
Not only did he not let go, but Jiang Li leaned half of his face on her hand, rubbing like a child and saying, "Don't let go." ”
"Why not?"
"No. ”
"I don't want to be like that. ”
"Then I won't let it go. ”
"I'm angry. ”
"It's so pretty!"
Mu Qing'er glared at him and asked, "When did you become like a scoundrel?"
"Did you know I was a scoundrel the first day?" Jiang Li said as he looked up at her, blinking in passing.
"I don't like scoundrels. ”
"It doesn't matter. ”
Looking at his indifferent expression, Mu Qing'er raised her hand and pretended to use mana, and then said, "If I don't let go, I will use mana." ”
"Do it, I'm already a waste person anyway, I don't care. Jiang Li played a scoundrel again.
However, seeing him mention the word waste, Mu Qing'er felt very unbearable and a little distressed, and finally said helplessly: "Why bother?"
"It's not bitter. ”
"What if you don't let it go?"
"Can't be how, but it's fun. ”
"I'm not happy. ”
"I like it. ”
"Do you like me to be unhappy?"
"Nope. I like you!"
As soon as Jiang Li's words came out, the air became extraordinarily quiet.
At this time, it seemed that there was only each other in the eyes of the two, and they couldn't pretend to be next to each other.
However, Mu Qing'er's mood was very complicated at the same time, and she thought of a lot of things in an instant, and finally refused: "But I don't like you." ”
"Used to love. Jiang Li is very sure of this.
Mu Qing'er's silver teeth bit lightly and said, "Yes." But I don't like it anymore. ”
"Are you still blaming me?" Jiang Li asked with a frown.
Knowing what he was referring to, Mu Qing'er shook her head and said, "No, I'm sorry for you." ”
"It's not your fault. ”
"The Father pays the debt to the Son, and he is my Father. ”
"He's been punished. ”
"Punishment is not necessarily forgotten. ”
"Why not?"
"How to forget?"
"Stay with me. ”
"No way. ”
"Why not?"
"Someone won't forget. ”
"She knows I'm coming for you. ”
"It doesn't mean to let go. ”
In the end, Jiang Li sat up, looked at Mu Qing'er squarely and said, "She doesn't mind, she also hopes to have a sister-in-law." ”
Hearing the word "sister-in-law", Mu Qing'er almost cried, but she still shook her head in pain and said, "Impossible." ”
Jiang Li was a little distressed, and said softly: "Why again?"
"She should hate me. ”
"Why hate?"
"Because of my father. ”
"He knew his wrongs and repented, and kept the grave for five years. ”
"Not enough. ”
"Are you still blaming me for abolishing his cultivation at that time?"
Seeing that she had become so stubborn, Jiang Li was a little unhappy, or angry, so he expressed the doubts in his heart.
Mu Qing'er shook her head and said, "No, I'm grateful to you for sparing his life." ”
"That's enough. Jiang Li said seriously again.
But she still shook her head, still insisting: "Not enough." ”
"I said that Yue'er has already forgiven him, and this time she also offered to bring Uncle Mu here to meet you. ”
Jiang Li hoped that he could convince her, perhaps not to teach her to agree to be with him, but to hope that she could live happily and become the carefree "Qin Fairy" as before.
"I like you" and "I want to be together", if you can only choose one of the two, he will choose to put the good in his heart.
Just because of him, no one loves him, only himself.