He walked up the stairs to the classroom window and looked in, and in the blazing white light, two figures came into his eyes.

One of the boys, with long hair and a cynical look on his immature face, was looking at the girl next to him quietly with an obsessed face, while the girl kept her head down and was studying, as if she hadn't noticed, and the boy just watched quietly, as if she was the only one in the whole world.

Wang Yuze, who was outside the room, saw the girl's side face, as if it had been hit by five thunderbolts, it was her! It was really her! It was exactly the same as in his memory, under the moderate eyebrows, there were black and white eyes, the eyes were not very conspicuous double eyelids, and there was a shallow and small mole on the rosy lips, and the corners of the mouth were slightly raised at this time, with a slight smile. The slender fingers held the pen hard, and the blood vessels on the back of the hand were clearly visible. She wasn't pretty, but he never forgot her.

That girl's name is Lan Xi, and the boy next to her is Wang Yuze more than ten years ago, who was them in middle school.

This is where he and Lancey meet, and eventually come together.

He remembered that he hated this girl very much at first, twittering was always so noisy, and Wang Yuze liked a girl with long hair and a quiet girl.

But during the long-distance running that winter, the inexplicable Wang Yuze began to like this girl who used to hate him.

Maybe it's like a movie says: "When you find out one day that you like someone you hate, this relationship is the deadliest." ”

In this way, Wang Yuze thinks about her every day, and always can't help but want to see her. Wang Yuze still remembers that his tablemate asked him, "What are you looking at?" Can I help you count it! You watched it 72 times in 45 minutes in a class, what do you look at?" and Wang Yuze replied embarrassedly: "No...... Nothing!"

Finally one day, Wang Yuze couldn't help the liking in his heart, and when the two suddenly looked at each other, he summoned the greatest courage in his life and said with his lips: "I love you." ”

At that time, it was so innocent, Wang Yuze thought that the other party should not understand what he was saying, so when he looked at each other more and more, he either said "I love you" or "I like you", anyway, she didn't tell her when she came to ask. In this way, Wang Yuze felt very happy.

Later, the inexplicable whole class knew that Wang Yuze liked Lan Xi, and the only thing he didn't know might be Lan Xi himself.

Half a year later, when it finally came to Lan Xi's birthday, he prepared a birthday gift early and planned to give it to her personally, but before he could study at night, Wang Yuze's classmates hurriedly ran over and laughed at him: "You are out of play, I saw Lan Xi writing letters to others." ”

His heart was instantly disillusioned, but he said indifferently, "Oh, really? Then he turned and left.

He felt the tightness in his chest, he couldn't breathe, he knew that his hands and feet were shaking, but no matter how he restrained himself, there was no way to stop.

At this moment, Lan Xi suddenly ran over and said to Wang Yuze: "Don't leave after school, wait for me at the school gate, I have something to tell you." With that, he walked away.

Wang Yuze, who was stunned, didn't even hear the ridicule at the table.

His heart instantly became hot again, and the heart that was about to dry up began to exude vitality as if it had been instantly moistened by the elixir and jade liquid.

But soon he began to worry again, if all the cruel refusals were then, then what would he do?

He lowered his head and gently stroked the birthday present in the drawer, silently.

In this way, between the gains and losses, he finally stayed up until the next night's self-study, Wang Yuze took his birthday gift and walked to the school gate nervously.

Soon, he saw the figure that haunted him, and the street lamp slowly stretched her figure.

In the end, Lan Xi walked in front of Wang Yuze and looked at him with a smile.

At this time, Wang Yuze lowered his head nervously, his heart was like turning over the river and the sea, his heart was pounding, he was a little looking forward to it and a little at a loss, he didn't know what to do, let alone what to say, and he didn't even notice that his palms were full of sweat.

"Do you have something for me?" Lan Xi began.

Wang Yuze raised his head and looked at the girl in front of him, smiling like a peach blossom, making him feel that everything was so unreal, like in a dream, but soon he reacted, clumsily took out the birthday gift, and handed it to her: "Yes, this...... This, and that...... Happy birthday to you!" unconsciously stammered even when he spoke.

Then Wang Yuze saw Lan Xi smiling even more happily, and his eyes were like crescent moons.

She took it slowly, and at the same time took out a piece of letter paper in her hand, handed it to Wang Yuze and said, "Don't look at it now, I'll look at it when I get home." ”

Wang Yuze felt that the whole world was bright, she wrote it to me, not to others! The huge sense of happiness instantly enveloped him, making him feel that all this was so unreal, and he felt that he was so lucky. He didn't know what was written in it, he just knew that he wrote it for himself, and that was enough!

"Why, don't you want it, then I'll take it back!" he said, trying to take back the letter in his hand.

Seeing this, Wang Yuze hurriedly took it: "Yes!

"Okay, I think it's all written in it, go back, be careful. Lan Xi said happily.

Wang Yuze clutched the letter tightly, he couldn't wait to get home immediately, and he was reluctant to give up the person in front of him, but he still said: "Okay, I know." ”

"Well, goodbye. Lan Xi still said with a gentle smile.

"Goodbye. Wang Yuze replied reluctantly.

Looking at her departing back, Wang Yuze turned around and ran home, but he couldn't wait, so he finished reading the contents of the letter under the dim street lamp.

It turned out that she had known it for a long time, and from the very beginning she knew that Wang Yuze's lips were "I love you" and "I like you". From the very beginning, she knew Wang Yuze's friendship with her, but this sudden feeling made her not know what to do for a while, first of all, she felt that they were still young and should study hard, but after a long time, she saw all his intentions for her, so she planned to carry her childlike innocence and accept Wang Yuze and accept this feeling.

After Wang Yuze finished reading it, he was stunned by the huge sense of happiness.

He didn't expect that he, who had never been very lucky, would one day Lady Luck would give him such a big share of luck.

Sitting on the side of the road, he smiled stupidly, and read the contents over and over again by the dim light, and only then did he remember to go home after I don't know how long it was.

And so they were together.

Fighting, occasionally making a fuss, one party is angry and hides at school, and the other party is very tacit to find it, like hide and seek.

Like other couples, they talk about life, celebrities, and favorite music, and often sing for each other, hoping to express their joy through singing.

If it's not convenient to speak, buy stationery and write it.

In this way, one after another, he treasured them all, and even arranged them in order, and placed them at the bottom of the box, not allowing anyone to touch the box. He knew that the little box contained all his happiness.

Day by day, and finally they graduated.

Watching Lan Xi leave in the car, Wang Yuze felt that Lan Xi didn't seem to have much reluctance, which made him very anxious, and because he couldn't see her, his heart was empty.

High school opened, and they were separated in two schools.

Although he can't see Lan Xi, Wang Yuze's heart is still very happy, at least she belongs to him.

Finally Lan Xi is going to have a birthday again, Wang Yuze looked at Lan Xi's birthday gift to himself, the two little pigs stood there quietly, he asked faintly: "I can't be with her anymore, I can't say to her with lips anymore I love you, then I'll find someone who can replace me, you two say okay?"

He ran alone for a whole day, searched half the city, and finally found a doll in a mall that could say "I LOVE YOU", and then he decided to give it as a gift without hesitation.

As he was leaving, he stumbled upon another watch, the silver-white body was decorated with beautiful flowers, and he thought it was beautiful, and he planned to buy one for Lanxi. He felt that one would say "I LOVE YOU", and the other would be serious and ticking, hoping to let Lan Xi know that although I was not there, I wanted you to know that I love you every day, hour, minute, or even a second.

On this day, Wang Yuze came to Lan Xi's school early, and he saw many good friends from middle school, Lan Xi was also there, and they were talking and laughing together.

And Wang Yuze still often looks at Lan Xi quietly, just like he did in middle school.

He thinks about time to stop at this moment, he no longer wants to spend the rest of his life together, he just wants to watch quietly at this moment, and he can give up everything else, as long as he can always be by her side, looking at her so quietly.

But time will not hear Wang Yuze's prayers, and this day has passed after all.

He didn't remember how he got back, but he remembered that the next day, he had received a letter from Lancey that someone had brought him, and that letter was the beginning and root of all his suffering.

Lan Xi finally decided to give up this relationship in order to study hard, in order to be able to get into a good university, for a good future, and for life to have no regrets.

He looked at the letter again and again, the difference was that the last time it gave him great happiness, this time it threw him into the bottomless abyss.

He didn't believe it, he couldn't believe it, he wouldn't believe it was true, he took the letter in his hand and sat there all day.

The next day, the first thing Wang Yuze did when he woke up was to take the letter in his pocket, if it was fake, the letter would definitely not exist, but when he touched the letter, he froze, and after a long time, he slowly took out the letter, and then slowly opened it, and read it word by word.

When he read the letter again, he felt his world crumble, shattered into nothingness, unable to see any light, unable to feel any warmth.

He didn't take any leave of absence that day, didn't go to school, and sat at home alone for the day without eating. But when night fell, he looked up at the night sky: "Tonight is so similar to that day, there are so many stars, and there is the same breeze, but why is it so cold today?"

He watched, and finally tears flowed from the corners of his eyes, and then it was like bursting the embankment, unstoppable.

He suddenly knew that a person could cry for so long without stopping, and that a person could shed so many tears at one time. He took out the gifts from Lan Xi, as well as the letters he had written, and he stroked them over and over again, even the fragrance of the letter paper still remained, but he was no longer a person. He looked at the letters, hugged the two little pigs, and cried all night.

On the third day, Wang Yuze came to the classroom in a daze, afraid that his classmates would see the red and swollen eyes, so he pretended to look down and read the book, but when he looked at it, the handwriting was blurred, and tears fell on the books.

In the blurred tears, Lan Xi stood in front of him with a smile on his face, and said to him, "Do you have something to give me?" "Okay, everything I want to say to you is written in it, go back quickly, be careful." Then her figure faded away. Wang Yuze looked at the dissipated figure, feeling that he really couldn't breathe, and even his eyes began to darken, and his brain began to appear dizzy, he didn't know what was wrong with him, he just thought that he was going to die?

Later, his tablemate found out that something was wrong with him, shook him awake and asked him what was wrong, but when his tablemate saw his face clearly, he was startled, only to see that Wang Yuze's face did not have any blood, and it completely showed a dull appearance, so frightened that the tablemate immediately asked: "Yuze, are you ...... Are you alright? What's wrong with you?"

"I'm fine, just a little uncomfortable, it'll be fine for a while, you don't have to worry about me. ”

At that time, he was still a child, how did he know what to do, and when he heard Wang Yuze say that he was just a little uncomfortable, he didn't pay attention to it anymore.

In this way, whenever Wang Yuze recalls that sweet past, he will laugh stupidly, and whenever he sees the reality clearly, he will cry uncontrollably.

He didn't know if he would cry blindly, and he couldn't remember how many times he had blackened and dizzy in front of his eyes.

He wanted to ask Lan Xi a lot: "Why? Why don't you want me?" But he knew Lan Xi too well, she was the kind of person who would make her hate more and more if she was stalked, and he didn't want Lan Xi to hate himself in the end, so he didn't ask why, but in his heart he asked "why" countless times.

Lan Xi is like a shining goddess, carrying something called happiness, descending into Wang Yuze's world, for which he is grateful to this world, grateful to all the people in this world, and let him meet her.

He cherished, cherished all the bits and pieces of Lan Xi, even the smell of those letters, he was reluctant to let them dissipate.

He loves, that love is in his blood, carved into his bone marrow, and he can give anything for Lan Xi, even his own life.

After that, she took away what she called happiness, leaving behind a shattered and devastated body.

The last letter, word by word, is like a knife, to strip away his love for Lan Xi little by little, and to extract the sweet past from his soul.

In the end, Wang Yuze finally understood that he was not afraid of the cold, but he couldn't give up the warmth given by Lan Xi, and he didn't lose to pain, but only lost to his longing for sweetness.

In the end, Wang Yuze chose to leave the city, the city that made him flee even if he couldn't give up.

"Lan Xi, it's my biggest regret that I can't be with you in this life! If there is an afterlife, please let me find you and spend my life with me! Okay?"