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Atherston Cemetery in winter is like a dark girl in the rebellious period, and there is also a green spring light in the cold winter weather, but this spring light is separated by a layer of indifferent alienation, which makes people feel no vitality and enthusiasm at all.

After Cheng Mo's question was asked, a cold wind blew, blowing Bai Xiu's hair standing in front of the tomb flying, she took off the scarf, and then wrapped her honey-colored hair under the blue cashmere scarf in the way of YSL women's headscarves, and then put her hand back into the pocket of her woolen coat before she said unhurriedly: "I think Hans Christian Andersen's story has its own factors, and in your narrative I see a cowardly, A sensitive and inferior writer, his character has led to his failure to gain true love, and there is really nothing to sympathize with. As for Kierkegaard......"

Bai Xiuxiu stopped, turned his head and glanced at Cheng Mo before continuing: "Maybe I'm not a genius, so I can't understand what he pushed himself and his loved ones into the abyss of pain, although his goals and desires are very noble, raising love to the dimension of religion, and making himself and his loved ones immortal in history, but all this seems to me to be as meaningful as giving his loved ones realistic happiness." ”

Bai Xiuxiu's voice contained a trace of imperceptible loneliness, obviously remembering something.

Before Cheng Mo could speak, Xie Minyun shook his head and said: "Instructor Bai, I don't agree with you, you have overlooked one thing, that is, Kierkegaard was born in a pious religious atmosphere since he was a child, he was a Christian, and the theology at that time could not explain why God was opposed to man (bringing pain and disaster to believers). Kierkegaard, on the other hand, sacrificed his love to God, trying to think about his place in existence and thus climb to the top of true faith. The difference between a genius and a madman is that a genius controls madness, while a madman is enslaved by madness. When Kierkegaard, a genius, realizes that he has a far higher ethical responsibility than ordinary people, he can only choose to be cruel and unkind to himself and Regina, he knows that only in pain can he understand the nature of pain, and he will never be able to write "Either/Or", "Trembling and Fear" without suffering...... In fact, it is the fate of a genius thinker not to be understood, and he cannot even defend himself so that his actions can be understood and tolerated by human ethics, because moral struggle and inability to defend himself are the tests and torments he must face. In fact, he has no way to defend himself. ”

After a pause, Xie Minyun said in a tone of infinite pity: "People who are ahead of their time are destined to suffer great pain that is not understood by the world......

Bai Xiuxiu chuckled and said, "So this story is to tell me that those of you who understand philosophy have clear brain circuits, and you have to connect the universe with yourself, morality and human nature, and worldliness and love at every turn?"

Cheng Mo stared at the epitaph of "that lonely man" on Kierkegaard's tombstone, and said in a low voice: "Although what Senior Sister said is very right, the reason why I came to pay tribute to Kierkegaard and tell the story of Andersen and Kierkegaard in front of Senior Sister and Chairman Bai is not because of the gap between Andersen and the upper class that cannot be bridged, nor because of Kierkegaard's noble sacrifice, but because of ...... Both Andersen and Kierkegaard were deeply influenced by their father, because Andersen was able to write so many wonderful works, and because his father was a shoemaker, he was sensitive and inferior, so that he could not find a home for love for the rest of his life....... As for Kierkegaard, his devout religious beliefs and his father's infidelity were shadows that he could not escape, and I guess he was tormented on the eve of his marriage, because he found a great conflict between thinking and love, and he was not sure if he would be able to love only Regina for the rest of his life. As a result, Kierkegaard suffered greatly from the contradiction between his faith, himself, and his lover, and finally he chose the most rational way to completely unify the three..... That is, to refuse to marry, to obey one's own will, to think deeply, and at the same time to maintain a steadfastness in love, so that the person who is morally worthy of one's love will not violate his pious faith..... For Kierkegaard, repentance is not only a religious task conception, but also a complete sublimation of love into eternal spiritual love..... Decades after his death, his unloved writings were finally 'rediscovered' by the world, and this misunderstood sage used his life to complete this great leap of faith. ”

After Cheng Mo finished speaking, he finished saying a large paragraph in the cold air, his voice was not at all an indifferent narration like the beginning, but like a lonely monologue, after his voice stopped, there was only the sound of whirring wind in the cold air, and after a while, Cheng Mo said very sadly: "Kierkegaard reminds me of my father." It also made me think about myself......"

"My father was also a staunch existentialist, Kierkegaard, Heidegger, Sartre, Nietzsche and Wittgenstein, the masters of existentialism who my father looked up to.... I used to hate my mother's departure and complained about my father's coldness, but now that I think about it, these are all different ways of expressing love. In fact, my father never said a bad word about my mother, but only told me that he ignored her feelings, and that she couldn't watch me die, so she chose to leave, and I shouldn't be resentful. I didn't understand it at the time, but I didn't understand it until after my father died....."

This also made me thoroughly understand that any kind of love should not be a constrained behavior, but a choice of oneself. Love itself is a selfless gift, and acceptance and rejection are your business, but you can't ask the other person to express it the way you want, and you can't ask the other person to continue the love for eternity. Because love is not selfish possession, just like the selfless love of parents for their children, is giving children a wider freedom, the best way to love is actually the same, in fact, it is never two people who stay together until they are old is love, people who stay together can sleep in the same bed, can be numb to the habit, true love is never-ending lovesickness.... Just as Abraham walked alone on Moriah's road, Kierkegaard walked his own path of love with celibacy, which is inaccessible and therefore has a different scenery. ”

The white roses in front of the tombstone were swaying in the cold wind, Xie Minyun turned his head to look at Cheng Mo, his side face was solemn, like a lonely thinker.

Cheng Mo also tacitly turned his head to look at Xie Minyun, and he said softly: "So I have always been very grateful to Mrs. Cheng for never interfering too much in my private affairs, and never asking me to be what kind of person I become....."

Xie Minyun said softly: "There are also requirements, I hope you can be a good person, you really can't do it, and you can't be a bad person." ”

The two of them were sprinkling dog food beside them, and Bai Xiuxiu's feeling that was still a little touched just now immediately disappeared, and she said lightly: "Okay! Philosopher, now that the story is finished and the hanging is over, can we go?"

Cheng Mo looked at Bai Xiuxiu, who was turning around, and said, "Chairman Bai, it's like your love for your husband..... Will it disappear completely because you like another person now? If your current one asks you to forget about your dead husband and cut off all ties with him, can you do that?"

Bai Xiuxiu was silent and walked quickly towards the path they had come.

Cheng Mo stood behind and said: "In fact, eternity has never been the goal of love, but the beautiful wish of our human beings. Loving only one person does not mean that it is more sincere than loving two people at the same time, but it depends on how much you are willing to give to the other person......"

Bai Xiuxiu still didn't speak, and the sound of high heels echoed in the empty cemetery.

Xie Minyun glanced at Cheng Mo and said, "I thought you just wanted to untie Instructor Bai's heart knot, but I didn't expect you to untie it with me?"

Cheng Mo immediately shook his head, pulled Xie Minyun to follow Bai Xiuxiu, and said with a serious face: "How can there be?" I know you understand me..... For people like me, the burden of love is far greater than happiness, and it is easier to be alone. ”

Xie Minyun bit his lip, and said coldly: "You mean that falling in love with me makes you feel heavy?"

Cheng Mo said as a matter of course: "Of course, you are so good, you are beautiful and have a good family background, and you are smart and can still fight..... How can I not be stressed?"

"It's my pleasure to put a little pressure on you. ”

"No, it's my honor to find a wife like you!" Cheng Mo said sincerely.

Xie Minyun said lightly: "Don't think too well about me..... I'm just afraid that one day I won't be able to defeat God's genes and forget you, how pitiful you should be......! But listening to your story of Kierkegaard today, I wonder if I should elevate the love between the two of us to a religious stage. ”

Cheng Mo smiled bitterly: "Don't ...... You are not religious. There's no need to make each other so miserable......"

"But the more painful it is, the more profound it becomes!" Xie Minyun said in a very serious tone.

Cheng Mo took his hand out of his pocket and reached into the pocket of Xie Minyun's down jacket, he clasped Xie Minyun's warm hand tightly, he took a deep breath of cold air and said, "I don't want to be so profound now, I just want to be superficial and live a good married life." ”

Xie Minyun bit his lip and said, "If you can win against me in PK..... Maybe I'll say yes....."

Caught off guard, Cheng Mo almost choked on his saliva and coughed several times, "That's not what I meant..... However, the requirement for PK to win over you is too strict, right?"

Xie Minyun thought for a while and said, "If you can help get the artifact this time, maybe I will also consider it carefully." ”

Cheng Mo sighed: "It seems that the love between the two of us has really risen to the religious stage!"

Xie Minyun patted Cheng Mo with the corner of his mouth, and said with a light smile: "I have confidence in you!"

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The three of them left the cemetery, Cheng Mo found the mailbox and sent the postcard to Shen Youyi, and then returned to the car. Bai Xiuxiu proposed that she drive, Xie Minyun had no choice, and sat in the back seat with Cheng Mo, Bai Xiuxiu changed into a pair of flat shoes that had been prepared a long time ago, reset the navigation goal and drove the Grand Cherokee onto the road.

Bai Xiuxiu's driving is not as "gentle" (slow) as Xie Minyun, nor is it as rampage as Shen Daoyi's driving, fast and steady, and has the feeling of a professional old driver. On the way, the three men bought camping gear and galloped towards Christianfeld just in case.

There was no rest along the way, Xie Minyun and Bai Xiuxiu drove alternately, and they arrived at Christianfeld eight hours later, unlike Cheng Mo imagined, Christianfeld stood in a flat field by the sea. There is no bare land to be seen here, there are grassy forests everywhere, the cold winter wind is not so biting here, the bare branches and scattered red roofs are scattered in the withered yellow fields, when they arrive at the small town of Christianfeld with the church as the core, it is as if they have pressed the button of crossing and returned to the Middle Ages, the elegant seriousness and delicate rigidity fill their eyes, the air is very fresh, the air is often accompanied by the fragrance of wild flowers and elk, gray stone houses, The white wooden attic, the Gothic church and the angel fountain in the center of the town all give the impression of a stern and grim town.

The three of them first walked around the small town, and found that the town was not in the peak season, but there were some people in the town, and there was no shortage of "tourists" in cafes and taverns. Xie Minyun opened "BOOKING" only to find that there were no regular hotels in the town, all of them were homestays, and almost all of them were full.

After turning several pages, Xie Minyun finally found a homestay with a room, and after contacting the other party, the other party told him that there was only one double room, and this was not the time to be picky, and it was better to have a room than to set up a tent outdoors.

Xie Minyun immediately settled down, and the three of them rushed directly to this famous house called Kapok, at this time it was evening, Cheng Mo and Xie Minyun were resting in the room, and Bai Xiuxiu went to visit the person in charge of Ou Yu in Christianfeld.....