Lu Li tilted his head and frowned, "I'm not related to these people, why should I think about them every day? besides, these people have broken my heart, why do I have to bother thinking about them?"

Today, I saw that everyone was doing well, and I suddenly remembered what Mingyang said, he said: If everyone is better than you think, will you think, it turns out that without you, people are doing very well. Then you will feel that you are actually useless at all, wouldn't it be more sad?

At the time, I thought he had a point, but now it seems that he is a little ...... Specious.

Today, Huang Ning took me to check everywhere, and I saw that everyone was in good order, and all kinds of activities were carried out, and I saw that everyone was doing well, how could I not be happy? I think I was really happy in my heart, but ...... The people who came around to see me had cold eyes, and they even seemed to say, "Why are you back?"

At that time, I really understood what it meant to be like a man. Lu Li smiled bitterly, "That's why I wondered, did I make a mistake before?"

Lu Li turned his head to look at Lao Kun and said, "Senior, your family is gone, but you are here every day watching these fellow clansmen, watching them grow up, practice, become demons, grow old, and even ...... Die. You must be very firm in your desire to protect your kindred, right?

So you just asked me why I didn't ask you to give the demon clan a bigger place to live.

It's not that I don't want to give the demon clan a bigger place to live, it's just that I know how difficult it is for you, as the patriarch, and how much you want to protect your fellow clan and protect the North Underworld. ”

Lao Kun just smoked a dry cigarette and quietly listened to a lot of Lu Li's heartfelt words.

"Seniors, Mingyang and I have turned the long river of time in the picture of the human world laid by my uncle, and I have seen the change of dynasties for 5,000 years, sometimes I am very strange, those who are desperately resisting in front of the wheel of history, those who are guarding the broken rivers and mountains of the old dynasty and refuse to let go of them, if they know that they are just hindering the process of history, and even because of their obsession, the change of dynasty has become longer, causing more people to be displaced, what will they think?

Senior, I am wondering today if this is the way I am, because I want to live up to Master's trust and lead everyone to find a better way out, so I have always hoped that I could come back and lead everyone personally. But now, under the leadership of Great Elder Huang Ning, everyone has obviously had a good time, but they can't find a good place to go for a while. Then should I let go of my obsession and stop thinking about the demon clan?"

Lao Kun finally listened to Lu Li's words, but he didn't say a word of comfort, approval or denial, but laughed. "Xiao Luli, the truth, it's not like that. ”

"Hmm, sam, am I not right?"

"If I'm not mistaken, you said before that your ancestors fled with several large boxes of books, so you have read a lot of books from the world since you were a child. ”

"Yes

Yes. What's wrong?"

"You and that kid from Mingyang have seen with your own eyes the whole process of the change of the dynasty for five thousand years, those who have fought desperately against the wheel of history in the change of dynasty and chaos, even if they come back from the dead and see the beauty of the new dynasty, if you let them return to the battlefield in the past, they will still resist desperately. Because they are not preventing a change of dynasty, but they are treating the world with their hearts. The righteousness in their hearts made them make what they thought was the most correct choice when danger came.

Lu Li, those books in the human world record the bloodstains of the change of dynasty, and also record how those living people, in the troubled times, paid for their lives, futures, and even reputation in order to stick to their bottom line.

Do you think those mortals wrote those stupid people in the history books because of their self-touching?"

After hearing this, Lu Li's heart suddenly brightened, and he actually laughed, "It seems that the books I read before and the joys and sorrows of the human world that I read have not been able to integrate them." ”

Lao Kun knocked the cigarette pouch on the table, "You, you take it seriously when I say that." ”

"Huh?"

"When I say that, it's just that I think so, and I think so, and I don't have to think so. You are a child, how you see the world, think like this, and do this, you should not be influenced by an old man like me. Even, you shouldn't be influenced by yourself. ”

"Influenced by myself?"

"Xiao Luli, you were born without a father and mother, and your ideas are more mature than ordinary people, which is a good thing, but because you were a child, you were chewed by a bunch of mortals, so you must be strong when you have to, but if the world is peaceful, you want to hide, and it's best that everyone can't see you, isn't it?

But you, empathy is too strong, and you are too harsh on yourself, so when others are good, you will feel that others are good because of their ability, and when others are bad, the first thing you think about is your fault.

It's not me Lao Kun who hits you, in fact, many things, what does it have to do with you?

You don't want to put it down because you're afraid that because of your weakness, you will cause them misfortune, right?"

"Senior ......"

"Lu Li, you've done well enough. If you still blindly criticize yourself and try your best to judge your character by what has not happened, you will not be able to accomplish anything. ”

"Senior, I...... I don't think I'm always myself, and besides, I'm just thinking that the demon clan is doing well, and I don't need to do anything anymore. ”

The corners of Lao Kun's mouth rose, "Let's take a look again." ”

Lu Li crossed his knees with his arms around and looked up at the ocean, the Kun had completely swam over, and in the wide sea, the clouds swam around.

"Am I being harsh on myself?" Lu Li remembered that Qi Pingliu and Mingyang had said this about themselves, and he felt as if he was indeed harsh on himself. Thinking of this, Lu Li hurriedly shook his head, "Oh no, my predecessor just said that I should not be influenced by others, hiss, oops, then I have it."

Didn't you blame yourself?"

Lu Li shook his head, unable to understand for a while, "Senior?" Lu Li turned his head to see that Lao Kun had already left.

Lu Li sat on the steps in a daze, thinking about it all night: Why did he feel like a stone in his heart when he left the demon clan's station? Could it really be as Mingyang said, that he can't see the secret realm?

Lu Li thought about it all night, and finally thought that it was not that she couldn't see the demon clan good, but she just felt that the demon clan should be better, but she Lu Li didn't have the ability to lead the demon clan to become better, or that Huang Ning had done a good job, even if Lu Li led the demon clan here, she couldn't do better than Huang Ning.

Then there is whether Lu Li blames herself, Lu Li remembered that when she was a child, she always heard those aunts and aunts chewing the root of her tongue behind her back, she just pretended not to hear it, and endured it silently, not that no one told her to let her be patient, and even her mother-in-law once told her that when she heard such unspeakable words, she should tear their mouths fiercely! But Lu Li didn't listen to her mother-in-law's words, she just silently got tired of the grievances into her stomach, Lu Li now finally understands why she did this when she was a child, because in Lu Li, they are not talking nonsense, she was indeed born to be a father and mother, so, to a certain extent, she is the root cause of her own tongue being chewed.

When she was young, how could Lu Li understand these things, but now that she has seen and heard more, she understands her innermost thoughts when she was a child.

"Xiao Luli, why are you still here?"

Early the next morning, Lao Kun saw that Lu Li was still sitting on the steps in a daze, a little worried.

When Lu Li saw Lao Kun coming, he stood up and respectfully gave a disciple salute, "Senior Kun, thank you." ”

"Huh?" Lao Kun looked puzzled, "I can't stand your gift, after all, your teacher is the kid from Xiangbei, even if he is no longer there, his two junior brothers are still there, your master is still there, how can I accept this gift? Oh, hurry up, if that kid Qi Pingliu sees it, maybe he will have to say something." ”

Lu Li smiled and stood up straight, "No, everyone knows that there must be my teacher in a threesome, and Uncle Qi is not such a stingy person." ”

Lao Kun looked incredulous.

"By the way, senior, what about Uncle Shi, I didn't see him last night. ”

"He, he may not be able to go back to Zhoushan, or he may go to Mingyang's kid, who knows, he is a busy man, but there is no need to tell me where he is going. ”

The corners of Lu Li's mouth rose, "Senior Kun, I first met you, I thought you were very serious and didn't smile, so I didn't dare to laugh with you at all, but after knowing you for a long time, I realized that you really love to talk, and you are very good to us juniors, and you really care about us." In particular, you enlightened me twice and benefited me a lot. ”

Lao Kun's heart was warm, but his mouth was hard, "I don't have time to enlighten you, what does it have to do with me what you think about every day." ”

Lu Li naturally knew what Lao Kun thought, so he pulled it

Holding Lao Kun's hand, he said: "Okay, the predecessor's Beiming is really a good place, every time I come, I have a great harvest." By the way, senior, are you going to go to the stall now, since Uncle Shi is not here, and I have nothing to do, then I will go too. I think it's closer to my seniors, maybe I can have unexpected gains, seniors, don't think I'm stupid, don't take me. ”

The corners of Lao Kun's mouth rose, but he showed the dignity of an elder, and questioned Lu Li: "Will you come out of the stall? Don't drop our wine jug and scare my guests away." ”

"How could it be?" Lu Li went out of the stall with Lao Kun, who was very diligent all morning, Lao Kun sat on a chair and smoked dry cigarettes, with the illusion of taking his granddaughter out to set up a stall to make a living.

Near noon, a little child ran over, Lu Li greeted with a smile, "Little friend, are you helping your father to drink?"

The little one shook his head.

"That's ......"

"I'm coming for you. ”

(End of chapter)

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