When I came home in the evening, I opened the door and saw a familiar and unfamiliar figure at home, I haven't seen him for two years. It seemed that when he heard the movement behind the door, the man turned around and said with a smile: Su'er, I'm back, and I don't say hello when I see Daddy, stinky boy. Han Shu was about to open his mouth, only to hear A-Niang snort coldly, and suddenly a fire rose in his heart, but he didn't dare to reveal it, but he prayed in his heart that he could spend these few days quietly, and it was better to be cold and lonely than to smash the bowl.

Consciously walk to the dining table, serve rice, pick up vegetables, and eat. After eating a bowl of rice, he walked straight to his room, lying on his side on the bed with his face facing the wall. There is not a glimmer of light, and I have become accustomed to exposing myself in the dark so that I am safe. The sun is good, shining warmly on the body, and there is always a trace of the urge to escape in the bottom of my heart. It's always a little uneasy to put yourself in an environment that everyone can know.

The wooden door creaked, and Han Su thought to himself, the wind is blowing again, this is broken. Just as he was about to get up and close the door, he only heard footsteps, Han Shu didn't have to look back to know who was coming, tangled for a while, but turned around and shouted: Daddy. I only heard Daddy answer and sat on his bed.

The father and son were silent for a while, and then Han Shu raised his head and asked: Why did you come back at this time, didn't Fengzhou do anything? Daddy rubbed Han Shu's hair and said softly: Don't you know that you are leaving Liangzhou, how about it, can you be admitted to the academy in Zizhou? Han Shu didn't know how to answer, just lowered his head. Daddy continued: It doesn't matter if you can't pass the exam, Fengzhou should be okay, after completing the school in Liangzhou, you can choose to continue to take the school or join the army. You are weak, even if you join the army, you will be admitted to the school, how to say that you will be a scholar in the future, and if you are better, you can be a teacher, and Daddy will be content. No matter what kind of situation is after finishing the college, Daddy is happy, it doesn't have to be what kind of grades will add glory to our faces, and Daddy is very happy to be a reader.

In fact, Daddy knows that you have been unhappy all these years, and you should be very unhappy. Aside from food and clothing, the other children finally have a complete home, and when they return home, they are happy, talking and laughing. Over the years, Daddy has been out and hasn't come back once for a long time.

Without waiting for Ah Dad to finish speaking, Han Shu raised his head and said coldly: Enough, don't say it, what are you talking about now, do you regret it, or feel guilty, in fact, you don't need it, I'm doing pretty well. A-Niang won't beat me, won't scold me, didn't force me to go to the field, I'm content, that's your adult's business, I don't want to care, let alone get involved. Daddy looked at Han Su in a daze, not knowing whether he was powerless to refute or really guilty, so he was silent for a while.

Daddy looked out the window: Su'er, I know that you are uncomfortable, such a home has brought you a lot of unhappiness, what you said is right, let the adults solve the matter. It's just that Daddy knows that you are going to leave Liangzhou after the autumn, and I want to come back to see you, and your Auntie, in fact, Daddy doesn't hate you Auntie, it's me who can't help it, and I can't blame others. Your aunt gave birth to such a son as you, which is already a great blessing, but I can't catch it myself, in fact, I have been working outside for all these years It's nothing, I don't want to block you if I don't go home, I see more of the same thing outside, men go out, women hook up at home, men play with other women outside, and there are women who hook up with other men when they do coolies outside.

I slowly know why, only part of them are restless by nature, in fact, most of them are forced by life, women grow crops at home by themselves, this is hard work, not a woman can resist it, your aunt is very tired, and she didn't ask you to work with her, blame Daddy for not having the ability to give you two a stable life. Now that I think about it, my father couldn't recognize himself before, and he always quarreled with your mother, so he decided to stay at home and no longer go out, so he went to Fengzhou in a fit of anger.

It's come to this, it's useless to say anything else, Daddy just wants to tell you, the matter between me and your aunt has nothing to do with you, you read your book well. Do what you should do in the future, we don't need you to care when we are old, we don't need you to bear us, I think so, although your aunt doesn't say it, she must think the same way in her heart, definitely. How things will develop in the future, what will happen between Daddy and that man, you don't need to worry about it, this is the grievance of the previous generation, and there is no continuation in your generation. Although Daddy is not a cultural person, he has heard and seen a lot outside in the past few years. There are many kinds of people in this world, good people, bad people, evil people, villains, everything. Let's be a man, as long as we have a clear heart, others respect me, and I respect others. I don't do anything good to be a good person, whoever is good to me, I am good to whom. To make friends, you have to make them with your heart, of course, some of them can't be on the table. There can be a lot of friends, many friends and many roads, there are not many brothers who make friends with heart, one or two is a great blessing" said and took out a cloth bag and put it next to the bed, "This is some copper coins that Daddy saved outside, you take it, I also left some on your Auntie's side, Daddy won't come back to send you after the autumn, these copper coins are enough for you to go to Zizhou College." Okay, I won't bother you, you sleep, Daddy is gone"

Han Shu kept his head down and didn't speak, when he heard the sound of the door closing, he raised his head, wiped his tearful face with his hand, looked at the cloth bag, and was silent. Just sit there all the time.

Han Shu got up early in the morning, or it can be said that he didn't sleep all night, standing in his door, he was waiting, waiting for Daddy. When the sky was just dawning, he saw Daddy pushing open the door and closing it gently, as if he was going to walk towards him, Han Shu hurriedly got into bed and covered the quilt. After waiting for a while, I heard footsteps outside the door fading away. Gritting his teeth, he kicked open the door, rushed out, and caught up with Daddy. The father and son walked side by side for a while, and Daddy said: Go back, it's cold in the morning.

Han Shu looked at his father and said softly: I know what you said to me yesterday, I also understand, I understand some truths, the children of the poor are in charge of the family early, and they can better understand the warmth and coldness of human feelings. The big husband does something and doesn't do something. Daddy took care of himself outside, and I went back. After speaking, he strode home, and did not dare to look back, he knew that his father was looking at him, he straightened his waist, as if to tell Daddy: I will do what you can't do.