Chapter 115: To be alive may be more painful than to die

Pulled back to consciousness by the faint pain in his heart, Shen Yu coughed violently and opened his eyes.

In front of me was the familiar bed tent of the dormitory, and the window on one side faintly revealed some white skylight.

"Are you awake?"

Shen Yu heard a somewhat hoarse female voice, turned his head slightly, and saw Tan Yue standing on the edge of the couch.

He has always felt that Tan Yue is a rigid woman who does not understand people.

She often stood there quietly, her black sand dress was not stained, her hair and makeup were not messy, and most of the time she looked like a dummy.

However, at this time, her always meticulous and delicate hair was also a little scattered, and she looked more kind in her embarrassment.

"Why are you here......"

Shen Yu struggled to sit up, but felt a dull pain in his heart.

He remembered that Yu Ziye was looking for him to drink last night.

When I raised my wrist, I saw that the red dot of the blood oath had disappeared.

Oh, okay, just take it.

Tan Yue looked at Shen Yu quietly, feeling some changes in his body.

"The last time I went out, my heart was not fully cultivated, and now that it is torn apart by two forces, you'd better not act rashly. ”

Shen Yu's hand holding the bedpost turned slightly white, and finally dragged his body to sit on the head of the bed, and sighed lightly:

"You know everything?"

Tan Yue frowned, and a slender hand unconsciously pinched the corner of her skirt:

"Do you even know what you're doing?"

Hearing Tan Yue's low questioning, Shen Yu pulled the corners of his lips, revealing a self-deprecating smile:

"Yes, I'm like a child who is not favored, trying to please me......"

He lowered his eyes, as if staring at the pattern on the soft quilt, coughing quietly from time to time.

When Tan Yue saw him like this, she felt a lot of emotion in her heart, as if she saw herself back then.

Back then, he was also a disciple who worshiped in Tongding Pavilion and devoted himself to pure cultivation.

But he also has a demon in his heart, and he has achieved a small amount of cultivation success, so he greedily wants more power.

At the expense of everything, he took the lives of his parents, used the power of ghosts, and finally dominated one side.

But after losing all the pain and becoming numb......

It is a thousand times harder to live than before.

Even though no one is invincible, he has never been able to pass the level in his heart.

Forgiving yourself is the most courageous thing.

"After that...... What are you going to do?" Tan Yue asked Shen Yu.

Shen Yu didn't answer, he looked up and peeked into the sky from the window, and birds flashed past the top of the mountain.

Once you have no burden and no obsession, you don't know why you live.

"Don't think about cutting off your life," Tan Yue seemed to know what Shen Yu thought:

"It took a lot of effort to keep it. I hope you're worthy of me. ”

"Why did you still save me, I already know that Shen Yanhe's primordial spirit is no longer on me. ”

Shen Yu's eyes were clear, and he looked at Tan Yue lightly.

"You just remind me of my old self. She whispered.

She also knows very well that only by living can she atone for her sins.

Tan Yue's words seemed to surprise Shen Yu.

He always felt that whether it was Tan Yue or Yu Ziye, it was just for Shen Yanhe to help him in every way.

"But," Tan Yue added with a frown:

"Yu Ziye's purification spell, cultivation is not enough, you are still in danger of falling into the demon at any time......"

When Shen Yu heard this, as if he had known it for a long time, he was not surprised, and talked about something else:

"In the past, I liked to leave a way out for myself before I did things. This time was no exception. ”

Tan Yue frowned: "What is the back road?"

Shen Yu sighed lightly: "I thought at the time, even if I made a mistake and asked my brother to kill him with a sword, then I would not let him have a good time." ”

Hearing this, Tan Yue couldn't help but show fear on her face, and took half a step forward:

"Don't you ......?"

"That's right," Shen Yu closed his eyes and smiled, "I used the forbidden technique to seal thousands of ancient evil spirits and raised them in my primordial spirit. ”

When Tan Yue heard this, it was like a thunderbolt from the sky.

Even if she wanted power again, she never thought of using the primordial god to seal the evil spirit.

This is a reckless and extremely easy to get out of control.

There is no turning back.

Now, even if Shen Yu wants to end all this, there is nothing he can do.

If he rashly kills his primordial god, Wuzhou will suffer again.

"You, you're crazy......"

Tan Yue's voice trembled involuntarily, but Shen Yu smiled desolately:

"I'm crazy. ”

"In this life, I have never lived to understand. ”

As he spoke, his face turned pale, he closed his eyes tightly, and said with patience:

"You'd better leave quickly and go find your Shen Yanhe......"

Tan Yue grabbed the corner of her clothes tightly, looking at the smile on Shen Yu's face, her hands trembled a little.

Shen Yu took a breath, with a smile, as if teasing her:

"Yu Ziye's prohibition of the Yuan Shen...... She didn't ask me to untie it...... Ahem...... It's her ...... who wants to die."

Tan Yue was shocked, her expression was flustered for a while, she glanced at Shen Yu, and her figure disappeared into the room.

Shen Yu closed his eyes and smiled sadly.

He will be able to hold on any longer, just for a moment and a half.

After a long time, the sunset was approaching, and Yu Ziye came to Yanwu at this time, and landed lightly on the hillside not far from the market.

She was alone, and she only carried the Xuehua given to her by Shen Yanhe in her arms.

During the Lantern Festival, she and he set off the lanterns on this hillside.

When she was about to leave Tongding Pavilion yesterday, she found that Xuehua next to her pillow had forgotten to return it to him.

Maybe it's providence.

Yu Ziye walked to the market, walking through the lively market, and his ears were familiar and unfamiliar Tocharian language.

Passing by the central liquor shop, the doors and windows are closed, and it has closed.

Also, Yu Ziye smiled, the sun was setting, and it was about to turn on the lights, and the central government must have sold out the wine at this time, so go home.

"Wine-brewed dumplings, wine-brewed dumplings, do you want this girl to taste them?"

Hearing this shout in Wuzhou, Yu Ziye looked back in amazement.

The enthusiastic stall owner held a few round and glutinous pink dumplings in his hands.

Yu Ziye's nose was sour, her eyes were red as if she had been blown by the wind, and she pulled her hood:

"Come three, thank you boss. ”

She took the oiled paper bag from her boss and opened it gently.

Three round pink dumplings huddled together, exuding a familiar, grape wine taste.

During the Lantern Festival, Shen Yanhe took out the oiled paper bag from his arms, which was this wine-brewed dumpling......

For a while, all kinds of emotions came to his heart, Yu Ziye stuffed a ball into his mouth, but the tears couldn't stop flowing.

As soon as the stall owner looked up, he saw Yu Ziye crying with pear blossoms and rain, and immediately panicked:

"Little girl, don't cry, I don't want your money if it's not delicious!"

Yu Ziye sniffed, clutched the oiled paper bag tightly, waved his hand and walked away quickly.

This delicious sweet dumpling tastes so bitter now.

Sitting on the hillside, Yu Ziye calmed down.

After eating three dumplings, my stomach was comfortable and warm, and I looked at the children playing on the hillside with an indifferent expression.

It was an earthly bliss.