After a quarter of an hour, Zhi Yao finally saw the content on the paper:

From birth, I was an abandon.

I was a child that no one wanted, and I didn't know who my parents were.

I grew up in a beggar's den, and I fought with the beggars who ate and grabbed food from the dogs in order to have enough to eat, and I was scarred every day, and I never had a full meal.

Then one day, someone saw me and asked me if I would like to live a good life, live in a big house, and have food to eat every day.

I agreed, thinking I had a good life to live.

But that was the beginning of a nightmare in my life.

The man was a well-dressed beast who liked to do things to children, and at first he just thought I was good-looking, and I couldn't hide my scars.

Until one point, he saw me recuperating from my injuries.

That night was the nightmare of my life.

I resisted, but how could a five-year-old beat him.

Later, I wanted to die, but I was saved every time.

I hate him, and since I can't die, then I'll let him die.

So, I started pandering to him on purpose, just to kill him.

That night, I cut his neck with a knife.

Blood splattered my face, but I smiled happily, and I was finally relieved.

Kill him and I will run away, hiding from them.

This is the first time I have killed someone, but I don't regret it, I just regret not killing him earlier.

Later, I met a dying man, and I saw him fall from the sky and lose his breath.

I stepped forward and took his stuff and opened the door to a new world.

Without a teacher, I have been cultivating for thousands of years, and I have all relied on my own exploration.

I'm not a good person, and I never kill mercilessly, because of their dirty eyes.

My life is terrible, so when I see him living on the streets, I feel like I see myself.

I thought maybe I could give him a good new life.

I took him back, and after recovering from his injuries, I took him as an apprentice and named him Pei Qing.

Unlike the others, he has very clean eyes and is sometimes a little clever.

His handwriting was ugly, so I asked him to copy my handwriting, but it still didn't work.

He would grill fish for me to eat every day and say things that he thought were funny.

I occasionally laughed with him, though I didn't find it funny at all.

We tied lanterns together and guessed the lantern riddles, because he said that this is the worldly Lantern Festival.

For the first time, I felt like I wasn't alone.

Life, it turns out, can also be plain but happy.

However, this happiness does not belong to me after all, and one day, he seems to be different.

It's still him, but it's different after all.

I began to gradually distance myself from him, and I didn't have much contact with him except for cultivation.

Unexpectedly, he slowly grew up, and his eyes gradually became the same as some beasts.

I was disappointed and chased him away.

One day, he returned, but he too had fallen into the spell.

I killed him with my own hands.

But his demon seed could not be eliminated, so he could only seal it.

Later, I refined this tower and used it to seal his demon seed.

And I've been here for 2,000 years.

I've long been used to being alone.

It's just that I've already advanced to Mahayana, but I can't ascend.

Because I can never get rid of the nightmare in my heart, even if it was thousands of years ago.

It has become a demon in my heart, and I can't let myself go.