Chapter 65: I Want to Live
Time is like water, spring goes to summer
When Lin Yifan opened the closed door again, his feet had unconsciously stepped on the rising morning sun and stepped into the vibrant early summer season.
At this time, the gentle warm sun is bathing the countless mountains and forests inside and outside the Wangquan Peak. It makes all the animals and plants on this mountain even more prosperous, and everything is so full of infinite vitality.
In the early morning, after the sound of opening the door accompanied by the lifelong "squeak" of the cuizhu zhai, Lin Yifan, who had not stepped out of the door for more than half a month, at this moment, greeted the warm sunshine of the newborn, and slowly walked towards the meditation room where Xuanxuzi meditated step by step.
At this time, the meditation room is still the same as before, and the people are still the old and the young who are extremely familiar, and the silence is still the familiar silence that was once there. It's just that the person who took the lead in breaking the silence in this room in this meditation room was this Lin Yifan.
"Old man, I'm here again......"
"Oh...... Is there something wrong?"
"Of course ......"
"What's the matter......"
"Learning Art ......"
"What art ...... to learn"
Xiuzhen asked......
"Well, not bad...... is good" Perhaps satisfied with Lin Yifan's opening words, Xuan Xuozi slowly opened his deep eyes and asked: "Little cub, you can learn art if you want to, but I don't know if you still remember the condition I mentioned half a month ago?"
"Of course I remember ......"
"Well, the little cub is good, although the time to think about it is a little longer, but seeing that you seem to have gained something in the past half a month......" Xuan Xuzi praised a sentence and then continued: "Little cub, since you remember the conditions I set, then you can tell me now why you want to learn art with me......
At this time, Lin Yifan, who had already closed the door for more than half a month, faced this Xuanxuzi after an examination, only to see him think for a moment and then wait, he said unhurriedly:
"Old man, that's the case, with my temperament, I must know that I have never had any lofty ideals, let alone any lofty ambitions, so ......"
"So if I come to tell you now, I want to learn this cultivation from you and ask, what is it for the glory of the ancestors, the immortal and the god, and the completion of the unfinished legacy for the senior sister...... Wait, these seemingly lofty and gorgeous slogans, I guess you must not be so easy to fool......!"
"And before that, when I asked Brother Xue why he chose to embark on such a path of cultivation that he didn't seem to like, Brother Xue told me that he was just trying to live at first......
"Before that, I didn't understand the meaning of the word "alive" in Brother Xue's words, but after all these days, I was finally able to understand the helplessness in Brother Xue's heart......
"Now, I'm thinking that no matter what the initial purpose of learning art from you is, there must be a premise, and this premise is that first of all, I have to be like Brother Xue, I, Lin Yifan, want to live, and I must live well......"
"Therefore, for the reason you asked me why I must learn art from you, then my answer is the same as Brother Xue's reason, for myself to be able to live and live well...... ...... are you satisfied with this answer?"
After speaking, Lin Yifan stood quietly in front of Xuan Xuozi. Now he was planning to stop thinking of other reasons to say anything more to this Xuanxuzi. Because he understands that no matter how much he says, how can he believe those impetuous and prosperous words with the shrewdness of this old man.
It's just that as this time passed little by little in his meditation room, after listening to Lin Yifan's words, Xuanxuzi, who was sitting on the Zen kang, neither agreed nor disagreed, but slowly closed his eyes, as if he was asleep.
After waiting for this Lin Yifan for a long time, he saw that he still didn't want to speak, and now, this Lin Yifan, who was really unwilling to wait, said to Xuanxuzi anxiously: "I said old man, the answer you want has been given to you, whether you are willing to teach or not, you quickly give me a clear word..."
Hearing this, Xuan Xuozi smiled in his heart, and felt that the heat of this appetite was already a little bit, so he slowly spoke:
"Okay, you little cub, you are so impetuous, this is a big taboo for Xiuzhen to ask the way, early in the morning, you will follow that son Lin Xinmei to Huilongtan to continue to learn to meditate, and you will come to me to talk about this art after half a month......"
After saying that, this Xuanxuan Zi no longer cared about Lin Yifan, who still had a question mark written on his face, and began to close his eyes again.
............
When the sun was erected, when a rooster crow finally broke the silent black curtain outside the Wangquan Peak, a glimmer of light finally lit up in the green bamboo house.
Immediately after, a figure burst out of the flickering candle-lit room. One foot high and one foot low, stumbling towards the direction of Huilongtan.
.........
"Brother Xue, you go and call Yifan first! Didn't the master explain yesterday evening that we should take him back to Longtan today to meditate and practice?"
When the sky outside the window lattice was already exposed, the room of Xue Zilin and his wife finally lit up, and Li Xinmei's voice also sounded in the room with the flickering lights.
"Okay, Xinmei will go ...... now"
Xue Zilin answered, then reincarnated out of the door and went to Lin Yifan's room. It's just that when he opened Lin Yifan's door, he saw that outside the candle flame that was about to burn out the last trace of lamp oil, there was still half of Lin Yifan's figure.
"Brother Xue, is Yifan up?"
Just before Xue Zilin could recover from his surprise, he heard Li Xinmei asking him outside the house, so he quickly turned around and walked out of Lin Yifan's room and said, "Xinmei, that Yifan is not in the house......"
"Bah...... How could Yifan not be in the house?" Li Xinmei was a little surprised: "It's still so early, so where will he go?"
"Xinmei, I'm thinking, you said that Yifan, this kid won't go back to Longtan to meditate and rest by himself!"
"This ...... I'm afraid I won't take this, didn't the ancestor say yesterday that he hadn't agreed to him to learn art? You said that even if he took 10,000 steps back and said that he really had this diligence, then the hour he went would be too early......
Li Xinmei shook her head, and she really didn't want to believe it, because in her impression, from the first day she met this Lin Yifan, there were only a handful of days for this kid to leave his house in the morning sun, let alone so early today......
"Could it be that this is because the ancestor didn't promise him to follow him to learn art immediately, and he couldn't think about it and secretly ran out to do something stupid?"
As soon as Li Xinmei said this, she was a little anxious in her heart, and then after thinking for a while, she said: "That Brother Xue, since you said that Yifan may have gone back to Longtan, then why don't we hurry up and go back to Longtan first to see if he is there, if we don't look for him separately, what do you ?......think?"
"Okay, Xinmei, just do as you say......" Xue Zilin also meant this in his heart, and then hurriedly took Li Xinmei and hurriedly rushed towards Huilongtan.
It's just that when the two of them hurried back to Longtan, the scene in front of them made the frightened hearts of the two almost laugh out loud at this moment.
At this time, I saw that Lin Yifan, who had frightened the husband and wife before, was now lying crookedly on the reef by the pool, snoring, snoring, and snoring......
After a chuckle, the couple hurried to the reef, squatted down and pushed Lin Yifan's body while calling softly: "Yifan, don't fall asleep, wake up, wake ......up!"
At this time, Lin Yifan, who was snoring and playing against Zhou Gong in his sleep, suddenly felt that someone was pushing him, so he responded casually, and then opened his sleepy eyes in a daze.
It's just that when Lin Yifan saw the person in front of him clearly, he quickly wiped the hadazi at the corner of his mouth, and greeted him with some embarrassment: "Oh, Brother Xue, sister-in-law, you ...... early."
"Yifan, why are you asleep here? You see how cold it is here, how humid it is, what if you get sick when you come back......
Li Xinmei said as she helped Lin Yifan who was lying on the reef up.
"That, that sister-in-law, in fact, I ...... I had been meditating here all morning, but I just fell asleep somehow...... Lin Yifan explained.
"Yifan, if you want to meditate and practice in the future, you don't have to be so early, just follow us, you know?"
"It's not that Brother Xue, I remember that I used to follow...... Follow ......"
Lin Yifan originally wanted to say that when he followed Ye Qing in Sanqingguan in the past, he went to the side of Xiaojiang to meditate and practice so early every day, but when he recalled his senior sister's current situation and the happy and warm days of the past, all of a sudden, his nose was sore and tears rolled down.
After the drops of men's tears kept rolling down Lin Yifan's handsome cheeks, Lin Yifan, who had already collapsed a little emotionally, finally couldn't control the sadness in his heart, and could only cry out on the reef side of Longtan with a turn of his head.
At this time, seeing Qi Lin Yifan crying so sadly, Li Xinmei, who was already in a heavy mood, hurriedly stepped forward and choked up and comforted: "Yifan, don't cry, you have to believe it...... I believe in my sister-in-law, Qing'er, she must be a person with great fortune, she ...... She ........."
Li Xinmei's unfinished words originally wanted to comfort Lin Yifan, who was immersed in grief, but just half of the words of comfort, she, who was already kind-hearted, saw Lin Yifan crying so sadly, and suddenly her heart was inexplicably heavy, and tears rolled down in an instant.
At this time, Xue Zilin, who was on the side and was not good at expressing his emotions, could only silently sigh and breathe the infinitely heavy breath in his heart, and then in that infinitely sad atmosphere, he turned around gently, silently looking at the mountains in the distance that were already a little vaguely visible, and he really didn't dare to say more.
After the sky had already revealed a trace of crimson, the sadness on the side of Longtan this time had gradually dissipated.
At this time, Xue Zilin, who had always been silent, saw that the mood of his several people today had already been in a mess, and he had lost the state of mind that cultivated meditation, so he turned around and looked at Li Xinmei, who was already with tears beside him, and said lightly:
"Xin Mei, you see, let's stop practicing today, let's take Yifan back first!"
"Alas......" After sighing deeply, Li Xinmei gently raised her hand and scratched the tears in the corners of her eyes and said, "Okay! Brother Xue......"
Seeing that he had obtained Li Xinmei's consent, Xue Zilin turned around and comforted Lin Yifan, who was still a little immersed in grief and couldn't extricate himself.
Under the persuasion of Xue Zilin's soft words, Lin Yifan's mood was much better, and then, after raising his hand to wipe the tears that still kept rolling down, he followed behind the two with a heavy heart, and slowly walked towards the Cuizhu Zhai under the Dragon Pond step by step.