A newcomer came to Taoyao's room. A woman in her early thirties. They hugged each other and slept together, and I was afraid of disturbing them sitting on the couch reading a magazine. The sun set, the fiery red sunset smeared the window lattice, and Tao Yao woke up rubbing her eyes.

After dinner, Tao Yao found a guitar and asked me to sit on the sofa with Zhang Huiping, the woman who lived with Tao Yao, and listened to her sing. With the intermittent clanging sound, the thin and crisp song of Tao Yao echoed in the bedroom.

Tao Yao suddenly lowered her head and whimpered after singing. The sorrow of crying is like a trumpet to collect troops.

"What's wrong," I put my arm around her shoulder.

The cry is like a train going away. I took her guitar and wiped away her tears. She reproached me for taking so long to come to see her. I said that the martial arts tournament was about to start, and I wanted to keep the matter with Ling Bo secret until the end of the engagement.

That night, we went to Bashui Lake and walked on the plank road, the bottom was sparkling, and the aquatic plants were clear. The lake is about an hour away from the sanatorium. It was originally a famous scenic spot, and later it was said that there was an evil dragon in the lake, so there were fewer and fewer people, and now every evening the mountains and forests are empty, and the grass and trees are silent.

"Let's play a lie detector game," Tao Yao said, "I'll ask you to answer." ”

Tao Yao took off her shoes and sat on the plank road, her toes playing with the surface of the lake, thoughtful.

"What color do you like?" she asked.

"Blue"

She stared into my eyes "You're lying"

"Blue is freedom"

"But you—didn't lose your freedom"

"Maybe... The body is free, but the heart has too many shackles. ”

"I'll ask you again, what is your best memory"

I thought about it and said that she was listening to the rain pavilion.

But she felt that I was lying, she said that there is no happiness in a person's life, only pain, one after another.

I felt terrified, why did Tao Yao think like this.

"When you're happy, you should laugh. When I see you, you rarely laugh. She asked me.

"No, laughter does not mean happiness, warmth is more important than laughter. I can laugh with my friends, but I don't have anyone to look up at the stars. ”

The moonlight covered her skin with a layer of snow. She propped her hands on the plank, her toes waving on the water, as if she were writing.

"If one day, I leave. Will you miss me?"

"Why do you ask this all of a sudden?"

"Will you," she insisted.

"Of course, but, why leave"

"Don't miss me, never. I don't want you to miss me, and I feel a lot more sad for no reason. ”

"Tao Yao, don't say stupid things, none of us will leave anyone. "I hugged her, tightly, worried that she would be swept away by the sudden tide.

She was like a lost soul, hanging her hands, and let me embrace her.

The night breeze was cool, the moon hung in the air, and I was thinking about Taoyao's words on the balcony. Why would she leave me, and not let me miss her? Where was she going, to her sister's, or to another jungle. I couldn't think of the reason why she left, I picked up the memories bit by bit, and I knew so little about her. I don't understand her hesitation, her helplessness, her cries for help, and her hope in me.

A cold wind parted the treetops in the distance, like ocean waves, like a winding water snake swimming towards me, I leaned on the iron railing, the street lamps downstairs swayed, and the stars in the sky were scattered. At this time, the floor-to-ceiling window was opened, and Huiping walked up to me in her pajamas.

"Still not sleeping?" she asked

"Tao Yao said she was going to leave me"

"She didn't belong to you in the first place"

"Why"

"You think that if you sleep with her, she belongs to you. ”

"I don't understand"

"You'll understand later"

"I'll probably never get it. ”

"It depends on the time, it could be tomorrow, it could be decades. ”

"It's all so incomprehensible"

"If you feel too far away from the world, it's because you've never put yourself in someone else's shoes. ”