Unwillingness-(10)
The alarm clock on the wall of the villa is still turning, the design is beautifully designed with a brass background, and the bright light in the dining room is shining on the clock?
The clock moved in bursts and minutes, and the time passed quietly and slowly.
Time pulls back to today.
Chen Huaiyu at the dining table couldn't eat anymore, she looked up and secretly glanced at Shen Ling, I don't know if this man still remembers that this piece of bread was her intention back then.
Maybe he remembered, she thought, but it wasn't seven years ago, time had passed, and they weren't the same people they were seven years ago.
From that day on, she insisted on going to him every day for advice, and gave him bread in the same way as a reward.
In fact, Chen Huaiyu was not rich at that time, maybe he could comfort himself, at that time, the peasant families were not rich, but now the whole is strong, and the people at the grassroots level are basically richer and more prosperous than before as long as they are not lazy.
Because there are more ways to make money, the policy is more perfect.
Now those children in Chen Huaiyu's hometown village want to eat 1.5 yuan of bread, eat as much as they want, they can eat until they vomit, and they have all kinds of tricks.
But seven years ago it was different, at that time she remembered how much her monthly living expenses were, and her life was as good as she could.
The fine clock on the wall was still turning, and she cut a small loaf of bread with a knife and fork, put it in her mouth, and ate it.
When she first met Aunt Wang, she went to the supermarket with Aunt Wang, and she took the same style of bread on the shelf and told Aunt Wang that she liked this bread and liked it very much.
At that time, I liked it because she felt that this was a symbol of her heart for Shen Ling all along, and the meaning was different.
Later, every time she came, Aunt Wang would prepare one.
Now that I think about it, Aunt Wang's behavior is obviously for her liking, which may have inadvertently hurt Shen Ling's self-esteem.
This thing is enough to remind him of the poor days in the past, and reminds him of the days when he was not well fed and clothed.
"I'm full, go upstairs, you eat slowly. Shen Ling, who was on the other side, put down his knife and fork, he glanced at Chen Huaiyu and spoke.
After speaking, he got up and went upstairs, the man was tall, his temperament was excellent, and even his back was extremely good-looking.
Chen Huaiyu glanced at his back and exhaled.
He was gone, and she felt much lighter.
The atmosphere of pressure disappeared all of a sudden, and she directly threw away the knife and fork in her hand, what knives and forks are not knives and forks, what exquisite imported tableware, what dining etiquette, you!
She likes to use chopsticks, or she likes to hold bread with her hands.
She picked up the piece of bread with her hand and ate it fiercely, what she was reluctant to eat back then, now she wants to eat well.
But as she ate, her heart ached.
It was as if she was eating not bread, but her own youth.
After eating the bread, she wiped away her tears and prepared to go upstairs to tell the man that since they had all broken up, he would not go to her again in the future, and her brother's affairs......
If he was really willing to help with her brother's affairs, that would be fine, but if he didn't want to help, then forget it.
She clapped her hands, went to the kitchen to wash her hands, and walked to the second floor of the villa.
went up to the second floor, and the familiar door skillfully pushed open the bedroom door, and Shen Ling happened to walk out of the bathroom.
Shen Ling had just come out of the shower, there were still droplets of water on the fair and clean skin on his face, his soft black hair was a little wet, and he stared at her with a pair of deep and dark eyes.
Chen Huaiyu was caught off guard, took a step back, glanced out the window, and did not look at him.
Her face burned, a little embarrassed.
Although they are both adults, the two of them have been talking for so many years, and everything that should be done and what should not be done has happened, but today they have already said that they have broken up, and it is really embarrassing to be in a room like this.
Chen Huaiyu thought about it, thought of his younger brother's matter, and simply found a sofa to sit down.
Shen Ling in the room sat on the edge of the bed, looking at her without speaking.
The two remained silent and continued to be silent.
There is a faint fragrance of lotus flowers in the air, lotus flowers can be seen in the lotus pond in the countryside, and she likes to get a few lotus flowers when they are in full bloom every summer.
Once she fell and was covered in mud, she remembered that time she had promised Shen Ling to give him a lotus flower.
Chen Huaiyu's face was dyed with a faint flush, she took a deep breath, staring at the carpet under her feet, the carpet in the room was very precious, I heard that it was imported back from the material, and invited a domestic special designer to design it, and also invited a powerful handicraft master to make it by hand.
"We have already said that we broke up today, since we broke up, let's not meet in the future, let's get together and disperse, as for my brother......"
She paused, and the next words got stuck in her throat, making it a little difficult to speak.
It's hard to ask him for help.
Chen Huaiyu secretly took a deep breath before continuing, "Can you help me with my brother's school?" He likes that school very much, if it's very troublesome, forget it." ”
Shen Ling didn't speak, silent, silent, continued to be silent.
The room was quiet and there was no answer.
The faint scent of lotus flowers wafted into Chen Huaiyu's nose, she took a breath, raised her head and looked at him silently.
Looking at the expression on his face with a very indifferent expression, she suddenly felt a little sad, obviously he brought up the matter of her brother, but now that she is here, he is like this.
If you think about it, the difference between loving and not loving is really huge.
She loves him, so if he has something, even if he doesn't say it, she will find a way to help him and defend him.
But what about him?
He never took the initiative to say what to do for her, let alone maintain her self-esteem.
After four years together, she didn't seem to dare to ask him to do anything in front of him, she was afraid of causing him trouble, afraid that he would refuse, and now she was afraid that she would lose the only bit of self-esteem and pride.
In fact, in the final analysis, it is because she knows that she has no status in his heart, and he doesn't love herself.
So in the past few years, she didn't dare to make demands or be capricious.
When night falls, the scenery outside is extremely beautiful, the master bedroom on the second floor can see the outside scenery through the floor-to-ceiling windows, Chen Huaiyu stares at the outside scenery, looking at the distant moonlight.
Seven years ago in the fall.
Chen Huaiyu sat on a small stool in the family hall, and she and her mother were choosing the vegetables to eat that night.
Thinking of the situation of Shen Ling's family, she tentatively said to her mother, "Mom, do you know a person named Shen Ling in our class? ”
They are a place where everyone likes to live together, preferably around the road, and the villages are connected by a relatively wide road paved with small stones mixed with dirt.
Speaking of Shen Ling, Chen's mother really knows.
"It's the Shen Ling whose father has a bad leg. Chen Huaiyu tentatively opened his mouth again.
"You say he's a poor thing, hey. Mother Chen sighed and opened the conversation.