knew that it was a mistake to love him, but it was difficult to turn around in this life. This is the portrayal of Mu Nianci.

The fact that a person's life is so long is not that mistakes are not allowed. As long as you know your mistakes and can change them, you can do good. Everyone understands this simple truth, but not everyone has the determination to rein in the precipice and the courage to abandon the past.

It's like Yang Kang. Every time he was faced with a choice, he still chose the wrong path in the end. But the choices are not endless, just as there is always a limit to trust between people. Every road has an end in the end.

In fact, I know that falling in love with him is a mistake, but I can't turn around, I can't turn back.

I always remember clearly that in the ring of the martial arts competition, Yang Kang always had a smile on his face, and he always wandered on the edge that I couldn't hold or catch up.

His smile hadn't changed for years, as if intentionally or unconsciously, as cunning as his heart.

I've been lost in it for so many years, and I've never been able to find out the depths.

I always remember clearly that behind him was the flag waving in the wind.

In his hands are delicate and small embroidered shoes. On the banner of hunting, four big characters flickered. At the tip of the flowery shoe, two red threads are intertwined.

The flag is obvious, and the shoe is unintentional. A flag determines my future, and a shoe predicts my life.

Those shoes are a craft that my mother has taught.

Threading, leading, embroidering, interweaving. The upper is delicate and delicate, and the red thread on the toe is staggered.

Most folk women will make such a style of shoes, and they wear it for the rest of their lives.

The pattern of making shoes is a tradition of the previous dynasty, and its name is "wrong to the end".

Years later, I was alone at the sight of the name. At that time, Yang Kang was no longer there.

I had a hunch, and I knew it would end like this.

He loves fame and fortune, covets wealth and wealth, and also recognizes thieves as his father and betrays the country to seek glory. The father whom he cried out with all his mouth was not his biological father, and the king was not the king of his kingdom. He didn't even recognize his ancestors, and he wanted to obsessively revert to his surname.

He clearly knew that his name originated from the hatred of Jingkang in the Great Song Dynasty. As a citizen, the national shame has not yet snowed, but he indulges in his dream of wealth and does not think about it, and even does not hesitate to ruin his reputation and help the abuse.

I used to be so naïve to believe that any decision he made was for another reason, and that every wrong thing he did was a momentary confusion. But when the facts pushed me to the truth little by little, I finally painfully admitted that the person I loved was not a bloody man at all.

I hate him, and I hate his deception, and I hate his capriciousness. But no matter how sure I am, no matter how resolute I go, I still hate it very much.

I can't hate, I really can't hate, no amount of emotion can win the deep love for him.

I know very well that my ending is also a mistake to the end, and there will be no return.

I took my son to the Jiaxing Iron Gun Temple.

Empty courtyards, decadent walls, spider silk, withered vines, all you can see is desolation. There was no one around, except for many crows flying overhead, their cries screaming terrible.

An earthen mound

Standing alone behind the temple, there is no coffin, and there is no monument.

The man under the loess used to grind with my ears and temples, and was gentle and delicate, and also made me deeply resentful and disheartened.

But I couldn't see him anymore.

Knowing that he was to blame, he still couldn't help but feel sad and born from it.

He enjoyed the royal wealth during his lifetime, but he would never have thought that he would be so hastily and desolate after his death. The so-called hegemony and eternal glory did not belong to him in the first place, so it was impossible for him to get it in the end.

No matter how long he has been the little prince of the Jin Kingdom, his essence is still unjustifiable. His obsessive mistake after mistake will only make people with a conscience hate and scold.

Later, some people on the rivers and lakes talked about his fate, and everyone applauded.

They say that it is forgivable to do evil in heaven, but it is impossible to live if you do it yourself, and they also say that the cycle of cause and effect and retribution are unpleasant.

The person they grit their teeth hate, this person with bad character, is my only relative in this world.

Yang Kang will never know again that even if he has committed an unforgivable mistake, there is still someone in this world who misses him and thinks about him.

There is also a bright and lively son who looks like him. The weeds in front of his grave have grown wildly and are no longer knee-long.

The son's name was changed, and the word was changed. The name given by Brother Guo has a deep meaning.

The fact that a person's life is so long is not that mistakes are not allowed. As long as you know your mistakes and can change them, you can do good.

Everyone understands this simple truth, but not everyone has the determination to rein in the precipice and the courage to abandon the past.

It's like Yang Kang. Every time he was faced with a choice, he still chose the wrong path in the end.

may have had a moment of hesitation, but after all, he refused, refused to give up his prestige and prominent identity, refused to give up his untrue ambitions, and refused to be a citizen of the Great Song Dynasty for me.

The dizzying ten-zhang soft red, I can't resist it after all, and he can't give it up after all.

He has gone farther and farther on this road of no return, and he has lost his mind and nature.

But the choices are not endless, just as there is always a limit to trust between people.

Every road has an end in the end.

After his death, he was eventually buried in his homeland. But no one will come to worship him but me, and put a pinch of earth on his grave, and a stick of incense.

In fact, I know that falling in love with him is a mistake, but I can't turn around, I can't turn back.

The embroidered shoe and the half-sleeved shirt I still carry with me.

People are alone, yesterday is not today, and the infatuation of a pair is still delusional in the end.

Yang Kang is always keen on chasing fame and fortune, rather than growing old with me.

On those moonlit nights after parting, he didn't even know I had been there.

I stood alone outside the window every night, watching the shadow guess his thoughtful expression.

Later, when I thought of these past events, I was a little stunned, obviously it was a heart-pounding beginning, why did it become the starting point of a tragic turning point in my life?

I believed that everything was predestined. It is destined that I will meet Yang Kang, it is destined that I will be implicated with him, and it is also destined that it will not come naturally.

he

Since his parents were separated since he was a child, his life experience was twists and turns, and after revealing the truth, leaving the nest and breaking the cocoon was his fate.

I was so convinced that he was the blood of his father, and that he would inherit his father's courage and integrity.

The power and fame of the Jin Kingdom are just a fog before his background is unknown, and he should know how to make trade-offs in the end.

At that time, I thought that my heart was firm and flexible enough. Therefore, whether it is fate or calamity, it can be borne without fear.

So there is no need to discern whether this relationship is perfect or not, it is my own willingness, and I have no one else from the beginning.

And because his destiny is also my destiny.

After that I thought I was awake all along.

For me, family hatred can be let go, but national hatred cannot be forgotten.

The belief in my heart is so strong, I will never be distracted by love. It is precisely because of this that I will reach out again and again, wanting to bind Yang Kang's increasingly obsessed heart.

His duplicity is not so obvious, and the lies are one for the other. The more you want it to be seamless, the more mistakes you have to make mistakes.

The most ridiculous thing is me, those are obviously excuses that cannot be justified, but I have never thought to distinguish which sentence is true and which is false.

I saw the colors in Yang Kang's eyes. It's not that he doesn't love me, it's just that he still loves too many others, and he still refuses to give up. So he sank into bottomless greed, and every step was frightening.

I can't tell if the person who is caught up in these lies is me or him?

Later, I finally admitted that my sobriety was nothing but self-deception. Because my departure can't wake up his obsession, and my persistence can't change his decision. I can't even stop my own sink.

Lost in my hopeless love, I can't howl if I want.

is such a person, Mu Nianci loves him with all her heart, Huang Rong was worried that Mu Nianci would come with her to rob her brother Jing at first, but in fact, Mu Nianci was only Yang Kang in his heart.

Some people, including Guo Jing, have expressed doubts about this, "Brother Yang is so bad, why is Miss Mu Nianci still so desperate for him?"

Huang Rong also deliberately added that Mu Nianci was really a good woman with both good looks and appearance, but because she used the wrong love for a while, she ended up like that. is a pun, and he persuaded Guo Xiang not to use wrong feelings.

However, Guo Xiang's reply was: "Mom, she has no way." Since she is happy with Uncle Yang, Uncle Yang is different in a thousand ways, and she must be happy to the end. ”

In one sentence, it perfectly explains Mu Nianci's various behaviors, and also perfectly explains the infatuated men and women in the world from the beginning to the end.

Even though Yang Kang is not a thousand, but who made Mu Nianci fall in love with him from the beginning? Since he fell in love with him, he had to be by his side consistently, in fact, Mu Nianci was also trying his best to persuade Yang Kang to turn back in the process, but Yang Kang was deeply trapped in the rich and gentle township of wealth and status, and he fell deeper and deeper, and it was difficult to extricate himself.

But even so, she can only insist, she looks forward to the day when Yang Kang can turn back

After all, it was the first and only man in her life.

Huang Rong, the female Zhuge , can also be said to have exhausted the organs, but unfortunately she often miscalculated in the Condor. Her words were originally to persuade her daughter not to have feelings for Yang Guo, but it backfired.

After these words, Guo Xiang felt deep pity for Yang Guo's unfortunate life experience on the one hand, and at the same time strengthened his previous feelings for him: he will start from the beginning! It may also be here that Guo Xiang is destined to be lonely for a lifetime, which is also quite regrettable.

After Baoying broke with Yang Kang, I thought that from now on, I could finally be freed.

I held my dagger in the air, and the bright light stung my eyes, and suddenly I couldn't see everything around me. At that moment, I thought sadly, maybe I had never seen it clearly. I am wholeheartedly obsessed with this moth to the flames of the relationship, and I have long embarked on a road of no return similar to Yang Kang.

I just want to use this way to force myself to break up.

Broken hair is like breaking love, which means that the heart cannot be reborn when it dies. I really want to let myself go, never see him again, don't listen to his explanations, and ignore his life and death.

His biased life, I can't save it even with all my might.

When the strands of hair were cut in absolute absoluteness, I watched them be blown away by the wind and flutter in all directions. The treetops in the fields, the flowing water and the streams, as if any place can hold my sorrows, the sorrows that are obviously roofless but fluttering and weak.

This sorrow made me see clearly that this dagger was not a sword that cut silk after all, and all I did was just draw a knife and cut water. There is no trace on the surface of the water, the water is constantly flowing, and my heart is still thinking about it, and it is not dead.

In pale love, the person who knows that he is wrong to the end, but still insists on going his own way, is me.

The night at the summit of the Iron Palm Peak, I was willing. After going around and around for so long, I'm overwhelmed.

Only in that moment can I forget everything for a while. Forget the hatred of the country and the family, forget the right and wrong, and forget the dark thoughts of the man I love.

In that moment, he and I were both innocent. Simply love, simply loved, drunk and dreaming when the affection is not exhausted. Even if the world is boiling after that, I only hope that there will be such a moment.

Leaning into his arms and closing my eyes tightly, I remembered our first encounter. This man, he's always wandering in places I can't control. This has been the case since the beginning, without exception.

In the darkness, I turned my head away gently, tears streaming down my cheeks, drop by drop, as if falling into a miserable turbidity, without even the slightest sound.

No one's love is as deep and hopeless as mine. I obeyed it, but I also betrayed myself.

When I left Iron Palm Peak, I didn't look back.

There is no feeling of heartache, and it turns out that the pain will be numb after a long time. Life gradually darkens between hope and despair in this repeated way, and finally only the afterglow before it is extinguished.

This faint light is powerless to illuminate me, much less to guide me. My path is at my feet, but I don't know where it will lead.

But I knew I had to move away from him.

I lived in meditation for a while.

Life can still be so peaceful, without contention, without complaints. A door separates two completely different worlds, the red dust outside the door is surging, and the door is relieved.

The faces of the Daoists were peaceful, and I could not see any mottled traces of the world on their faces.

I can only secretly wonder if they have had an unforgettable past like me?

How can we see the sun in the floating world? How should we be vigilant about the obsessive mistakes of the past?

When I was leaving, I borrowed a robe, and the viewer looked at me and shook her head silently, the worry in her eyes undisguised.

All kinds of people in the world are trapped in a love word. Only a pure heart can relieve tiredness, and absolute worries can forget feelings.

Don't wonder if you'll regret it. Too much consideration shows that this is not sincere.

The love is to know that there is nothing, but still move forward.

Don't explore whether it's worth it, the feelings of this world can't be explained, and there is no need to worry about whether it will stop at the point and whether it will be free.

As the saying goes: love is indispensable, the help has its own fate, and those who know through it have no entanglement.

Rather than a longer quantity and a short amount, it is better to go with the flow and be at ease. Do what you want, you can last a long time.

And then I had a baby.

I took him and settled down in a small village. The climate there is mild, the people are simple, and people get up early to work and rest at dusk.

What they are passionate about is just some trivial things.

There are no disputes here, and there are no major troubles.

Only a calm life, stable reality.

If, I can live in seclusion here with Yang Kang. During the day he went down to the fields and ploughed, and I spun and weave at home.

We taught him to read together, taught him martial arts, and watched him grow up day by day.

When we get old, we will think back to the spirits of our youth. All regrets and mistakes can be forgotten.

I often look up at the sky, and the vastness of the sky makes me believe that the world is so wide.

As long as there is love in the heart, everything is still possible. Even if you make a mistake again and again, like Yang Kang, there will be a day when you will get lost.

Everyone knows the inseparable relationship between Rong'er and Brother Guo, and I only envy her for meeting such a man with a pure character.

We can work with him to withstand adversity, experience hardships together, and help each other on the same path.

When it comes to the depth of feelings, Yang Kang and I are not inferior, but our hearts are fundamentally opposed.

His ways are contrary to mine, and we will never meet and go hand in hand.

I never hope that he can be as benevolent and righteous as Brother Guo, I just hope that he is willing to be his true self.

And this, after all, has become a dream that is destined to be shattered.

I lowered my head, and the entanglement of the two red threads on the tips of my shoes was shocking.

No matter how mysterious life is, what can't be walked back and forth is often the same dilemma. If you ignore your mistakes and don't change them, you are actually cutting off your way out.

Akan, now I and you are

There is no more choice. I live alone in this desolate world, and there is no possibility of happiness. For the rest of my life, there will be no more disappointment, and there will be no more hope.

My life and yours have been wrong, but neither of us has the right to blame anyone.

Because the direction of life is in our own hands from beginning to end, your path and my path are our own choices. Everyone should face the decisions they make as they deserve.

Therefore I will lose my happiness, and you will pay back your life.

If all mistakes can be corrected, everything can be repeated. Akang, what else would you choose?

Do you know that this "if" still means nothing to me? Because whether it was, is, or will be, whether I fell in love with you or left you, I have never regretted it.

Even if I am too gentle by nature, I will always be the woman with a heavy heart when I first met you.

Jin Yong pays great attention to the complexity of his characters, and he also tries very hard not to write Yang Kang as a pure villain, such as the hesitation between avenging his biological father and thanking Yan Honglie for his nurturing kindness in the Baoying ancestral hall, and the instant apology after stabbing Guo Jing in the palace, but he always quickly slides these ingredients that may enrich his humanity and emphasizes his enthusiasm for fame and wealth, so as to avoid the dilemma faced by Yang Kang, transform the complex moral dilemma into the moral character of the character, and turn the tragedy of fate into a clear distinction between good and evil, the moral preaching that good and evil are rewarded.

There are two sides to the story, but who is at fault?

(End of chapter)