Chapter 148: Feelings
I was afraid that she would seek death again, so I ordered the acupoints of her hands and feet, bandaged the wounds on her chest, and let her sit on a chair to rest. She didn't say a word, just looked at me with pleading in her eyes.
Neither of us said a word, and there was only one voice in the dormitory, the child's rapid panting.
As I listened to the child's breath, I remembered many, many things from the past: how she first entered the palace, how I taught her to practice martial arts, and how I doted on her. She has always respected me, feared me, served me submissively, and did not dare to disobey my heart in the slightest, but she never really loved me. I didn't know it, but when I saw her look at Senior Brother Zhou that day, I understood.
When a woman truly loves someone with all her heart, she will look at him like this. She watched in a daze as Senior Brother Zhou threw Jinpa into the ground, and watched him turn around and leave the palace in a daze. Her vision taught me to think about it for a few years, and now I see it again.
She is heartbroken for someone again, but this time not for her lover, but for her son, the son she had with her lover!"
Xiao Jiang, Guo Jingren only listened to a lamp and said: "The eldest husband was born in the world, and he was so humiliated by others, and he became the king of a country in vain!" When I thought of this, I couldn't help but be angry, and when I lifted my foot, I kicked an ivory round stool in front of me to smithere...... What's wrong with your hair?' she didn't seem to hear me, just looked at the child. I really didn't understand that there can be so much love and so much pity in a person's eyes. She now knew that I was determined not to save the child, and while he was still alive, it was a moment to see more.
I took a mirror, put it in front of her, and said, 'Look at your hair!' It seemed like decades had passed for her in just a few hours.
She was not yet ten years old, and in the midst of all these hours of fear, sorrow, remorse, disappointment, and sadness, and so many gray hairs appeared on her sideburns! ’
She said it very bluntly, forgetting that I am the emperor and the master. I wondered, and thought to myself: why did she ignore her face when she had always cherished her face? I threw the mirror away, and saw her staring at the child without a moment's eye, I have never seen a person who would look forward so earnestly to the child alive. I knew that she wished that her life could burrow into the child's body, and replace his life, which was being lost bit by bit. ”
Xiao Jiang and Guo Jing glanced at each other at the same time when they heard this, and when they heard the heartbroken misfortune of others, they couldn't help but think of their own happiness, because the dear person was sitting next to him.
I only heard Master Yideng continue: "I really can't bear it, and I want to save her child several times, but that piece of brocade is wrapped in the child's chest. There is a pair of duck ducks embroidered on the brocade handkerchief, and the affectionate head and neck are leaning against the head and neck, the head of this pair of duck ducks is white, this is originally the lip gloss of the old man with a white head, but why do you say 'poor old man is white first'?
In a cold sweat, my heart hardened again, and I said, 'Well, you two want to grow old together, but leave me in the palace to be the emperor!
She glanced at me, one last glance, and her eyes were full of resentment and hatred. She never looked at me again, but I will never forget this sight until I die.
She said coldly: "Let go of me, I want to hold the child!" She said these two words very harshly, as if she was my master, and it was difficult to disobey, so I untied her acupoint.
She held the child in her arms, and the child must have been in terrible pain and wanted to cry, but she couldn't make a sound of crying, her little face was swollen and purple, and her eyes looked at her mother, begging her to save her. But my heart was hardened, and I didn't have the slightest compassion.
I saw her hair turn from black to gray and gray one by one, and I didn't know if this was an illusion in my heart, or if it was true, but I heard her say softly: 'Child, Mom has no ability to save you, but Mom can teach you not to suffer anymore, you sleep quietly, sleep, child, you will never wake up!' I listened to her sing softly to coax the child, and she sang so beautifully, and it was so, and it was so, and it was it, you listen!" Everyone heard him say this, but they could not hear the slightest singing, and they could not help but look at each other in shock.
Seeing this, Zhu Ziliu hurriedly said, "Master, you are tired of talking, please rest." ”
Master Yilan ignored it and continued: "There was a smile on the child's face, but then his whole body twitched in pain. She said softly, "My precious heart, when you fall asleep, your body will not hurt, and it will not be bitter at all!" ”
Xiao Jiang, Guo Jing couldn't help but exclaim when he heard this, and Zhu Ziliu also had no blood on his face. Master Yideng ignored it, and said: "I screamed, took a few steps back, and almost fell, and my heart was chaotic and dazed. I saw her slowly stand up and say in a low voice, "One day, I will use this dagger to stab you in the heart." She pointed to the jade ring on her wrist and said, "This is what you gave me on the day I entered the palace, you wait, one day I will return the jade ring to you, and one day this dagger will follow!"
Before he finished speaking, the little novice hurriedly came in and said, "Master, this thing has been sent from the mountain again." Holding a small cloth bag in both hands. A lamp was uncovered, and everyone exclaimed in unison, it turned out that the bag was the baby belly pocket made by the Jinpa. The brocade color has turned yellow, but the pair of mandarin ducks woven on it are as bright as new.
A knife hole was pierced between the two ducks, and next to the hole was a pool of blood that had turned black. A lamp looked at the belly pocket, silent, and after a long time, he said: "The mandarin duck weave wants to fly twice, hey, wants to fly twice, and in the end it will become a dream." She hugged her son's corpse, laughed loudly, jumped out of the window, flew up the house, and disappeared in a blink of an eye. I didn't drink or eat, I thought hard for three days and three nights, and finally came to my senses and passed the throne to my eldest son, and then came out
The family is a monk. ”
He pointed to Zhu Ziliu and said: "They have been following me for a long time, and they are unwilling to leave, so they will live with me in Tianlong Temple outside Dali City."
For the first three years, the four of them took turns to assist my son in the court, and later my son became familiar with government affairs, and the country was peaceful.
We encountered the matter of collecting medicine in the Snow Mountain and Ouyang Feng hurting people, so everyone moved here, and they didn't go back to Dali. I was so hardened that I refused to save the child's life, and for more than ten years I taught me day and night not to rest, hoping to save the world and atone for this great sin. But they did not know what I was trying to do, and they always hindered me.
Alas, in fact, even if I save thousands of people, the child will always die, unless I return my life to him, how can this sin be eliminated? I am waiting for the news of Aunt Ying every day, waiting for her to come and stab the dagger into my heart, I am afraid that I will not be able to wait for her to come, but my life is over, and this cause and effect is difficult. Well, I've finally got it. ”
Xiao Jiang was puzzled: "Senior, how did Ouyang Feng's painting get into her hands, and what does this painting have to do with it?"
Master Yideng took the "Great Solemn Treatise" on the small table, flipped it to one place, and read: "The story in the painting comes from Tianzhu Jiaocheng: there was a king in the past, whose name was corpse, who was diligent and ascetic, and sought the right and other methods of enlightenment. One day a great eagle chased a pigeon, and the pigeon flew into the armpit of the king of corpses, and raised his body in terror. The eagle begged the king to return the favor and said, 'The king saved the pigeon, but the eagle starved to death.' The king thought of saving one and harming the other, but it was not reasonable, so he took a sharp knife and cut off the flesh and the eagle by himself. Then the eagle said, 'The flesh of the king shall be equal to the body of the dove.' 'The king of corpses ordered the scales to be taken, and the pigeon and the meat were put on a plate, but the flesh was cut off, and the pigeon's body was still low.
The king continued to cut his chest, back, arms, and threats, but it was still not as heavy as the pigeon's body, and the king raised his body to the scale. Then the earth shook, and the heavens rejoiced, and the heavenly maidens scattered flowers, and the fragrance filled the road. The Celestial Dragons, the Yakshas, and others all sighed in the air, 'Good and good, so brave, unprecedented. Although this is a myth, Yilan said it in a merciful and solemn manner, and everyone couldn't help but be moved when they heard it.
Xiao Jiang said: "A light senior, she is afraid that you will not give in, so she uses this painting to move your heart." ”
Yideng listened to what Xiao Jiang said, and smiled: "That's right." She left Dali that day, resentful, and must have visited the rivers and lakes, intending to learn art in order to seek revenge, so she met Ouyang Feng. That Ouyang Feng learned her mind, and must have planned this strategy on her behalf and drew this picture for her.
This scripture is widely spread in the Western Regions, and Ouyang Feng is a native of the Western Regions, so he must know this story. ”
Xiao Jiang sighed: "The old poison uses Aunt Ying, this is a poisonous plan to kill people with a knife." ”
Yideng also sighed: "Ouyang Feng has been drawing this picture for a long time, and it has been ten years since he arranged this plan. In the past ten years, I haven't met a chance, and that's what luck should be. Aunt Ying must have wanted to hurt someone at will, and instructed him to come and ask me to heal. It's just that if there is no escort from someone with strong martial arts, it is easy to go up the mountain, which is why you are allowed to come, it seems that she can't wait. Huang Rong said: "Senior, I know."
She has one more thing on her mind, which is more important than seeking revenge on you. "What's the matter?" Xiao Jiang asked
"The old urchin was imprisoned on Peach Blossom Island by Huang Yaoshi, and she was going to rescue him. So she told her about learning Qimen and mathematics again, and said: "Later, I learned that even if I studied for another hundred years, it would be difficult to catch up with my father, so I ......" A lamp laughed, stood up, and said: "Okay, okay, it's a hundred, everything is okay, and today I finally got her wish." ”
(End of chapter)