At that time, the five sisters of the Song family[28] were so talented that they became famous in the Central Plains, and even entered the palace as a female gentleman. Therefore, many wealthy families sent their children to the Song Family School Palace. For the sake of one day, the glory of the ancestors.

But when I went to the school palace, I was trembling and walking on thin ice.

Because in fact, my family is not rich at all.

A few acres of thin fields at home, barely surviving.

My parents saved a lot of tuition fees from between my teeth and sent me to the Song Family School Palace, just to find a good marriage for me.

If you know one or two sons of rich and noble families, you will have the opportunity to fly on the branches.

If I fly on the branches, my family's investment in me will be worth the money.

Therefore, my parents' wishful thinking was blowing.

And I can only wear gold and silver, pretentious.

Wearing an invincible mask, but with an ant-like inferiority.

I don't care what the gentleman says, what he writes in the book.

My time, basically, is spent calling friends, left and right.

I have a gentle singing voice, and I often meet my friends with songs. My singing voice is mesmerizing.

By my side, there were a lot of sons and brothers who quickly went around.

I faithfully fulfilled my parents' entrustment, looking forward to being hit by a marriage with a huge disparity in wealth and status, to change the fate of myself and my family.

In fact, it is to sell yourself like pork.

I'm a little envious of pork.

At least it was sold above board and upright.

And mine was sold, but it could only be concealed and pretentious.

This feeling makes me extremely painful.

However, the pain, sometimes, is like Hua Tuo's hemp boiling.

After a long period of pain, I became numb.

So I was so confused, hating myself for being unbearable, and at the same time becoming the person I hated.

Early one morning in September, I was taken to the gate of the school palace by a carriage rented by my parents.

I stepped out of the carriage like a lotus, and when I looked up, I saw the morning sun shining on a man's face.

The man, standing on the steps, was tall and unusually pale.

The sun was shining brightly on his face.

The light seemed to shine from his face to my heart.

I suddenly felt dizzy and froze in place.

The little girl next to me, Ah Qiao, saw that my expression was different, and reminded me in a timely manner: "This son is Jiang Xian, the only son of Jiang Yuan outside the city. Jiangjiatian has a lot of properties, and the business is doing well. There are a lot of silver trumpets and cloth villages, all of which belong to their families. It's a proper gold owner. ”

Listening to Ah Qiao's detailed analysis of Jiang Gongzi's details as clear and clear as the goods on the counter, I didn't feel happy.

Since when did I see that everyone has to wait for the price to sell.

Ah Qiao saw that I was still staying where I was, unmoved, and a little anxious. She said in a low voice: "Miss, Gongzi Jiang just entered Mr. Song's school palace today. You go up and talk and make a good impression on him?"

I think I am smiling and looking forward to it on weekdays, and my eyes are bright. Dealing with these people who enjoy the ancestral shade, they are proud, and they produce a little parasite that they are also amazing characters, and they are not at ease?

But I didn't rush forward and start a planned encounter.

I suddenly felt uneasy and hesitant.

I began to look ahead and backwards, and I suffered from gains and losses.

There was never a single step.

Under my watchful gaze, Jiang Gongzi finally turned around and disappeared into the depths of the morning light.

I regret that I missed this opportunity.

But in my heart, there is a puzzling feeling.

A feeling of being full.

Instead of the empty, drowsy feeling of before.

Whether it's fear, regret, or bitterness, it makes me feel like I'm real. It's not just a chess piece in the hands of parents who dream of getting rich for nothing and selling their daughters to get rich.

What's more, in these fears, regrets and bitterness, there is also a hint of expectation hidden in me, which makes me happy.

So, seeing the back of Jiang Gongzi's departure, I walked into the school palace with this complicated emotion.

The school palace has long been noisy.

Everyone was disturbed, and their faces were childish, but they could not hide their desire to chase fame and fortune.

My eyes suddenly fell on Jiang Gongzi, who was sitting quietly in the corner of the school palace.

He was a little quiet and a little indifferent.

The surroundings were bustling, but he only watched coldly, neither welcoming nor moving.

But this face, which is like an iceberg that rejects people thousands of miles away, makes me feel as if I am obsessed.

My gaze is always involuntarily following this iceberg.

And the occasional glance that catches me when I accidentally sweep over an iceberg will make me panic and uneasy. As if someone had penetrated the secrets of my heart, I could only hide my eyebrows in a panic.

What makes me even more uneasy is that my concern has gradually evolved into all kinds of strange illusions.

I always feel that my own crampedness, my own mind, has been understood by the iceberg.

It was as if he was beginning to pay attention to me, to observe me.

His gaze seemed to weave a dense net, firmly controlling me in it, leaving me with nowhere to hide and making it difficult for me to sit still.

Although I was confused by reality and delusions, I didn't dare to go to the iceberg and ask for clarification.

No matter how clever my tongue is, no matter how exquisite I used to be, in front of the iceberg, I actually stammered and was at a loss.

But if you give sincerely, it is the beginning of humility.

I couldn't contain my panic and could only dodge the iceberg desperately.

One day, after I sat down in the school palace, I cautiously looked around and secretly observed the movement of the iceberg, but I was surprised to find that the iceberg was sitting behind me.

My face flushed, and my heart went wild.

Did he really see through my clumsy hiding and come to make fun of me?

I trembled and waited for him to strike.

I waited for a long time, but the iceberg behind me did not move.

I waited anxiously, and finally mustered up the courage to turn my head and look at the iceberg behind me.

The face of the iceberg still seems to be shrouded in a layer of cold. His eyes were lowered, and he was immersed in the book in front of him.

My troubles didn't seem to bother him in the slightest.

Looking at his calm appearance, I felt a little annoyed.

I cleared my throat and made my voice as soft and tactful as possible: "Jiang Gongzi, what are you looking at?"

Iceberg finally looked up, and he glanced at me, but there was a hesitant expression on his face. He asked, "This young lady, are you talking to me?" Bingshan's expression became a little embarrassed, and he twisted: "I have just arrived, and I still know people slightly, so dare to ask Miss Fang's name?"

He doesn't even know my name!

If he is always watching me in secret, why doesn't he even know my name?

It seems that those so-called observations and cares are really just my own wishful thinking!

I'm not lost.

Seeing that I didn't answer, Bingshan was a little confused. He raised his voice and said, "What is Miss's name?"

I came back to my senses and muttered, "My surname is Lu, and my single name is a plum character." ”

Bingshan nodded, as if he had nothing to say, and said, "Does Miss Lu like plum blossoms?"

I forced out a forced smile and said something mindless: "Exactly." Do you like plum blossoms?"

Iceberg was stunned for a moment, quite in a dilemma, probably out of politeness, he actually smiled and replied, "I like it too." ”

As soon as this remark came out, both of us felt embarrassed, so we didn't say anything more.

After that, I just hid the iceberg even further.

Occasionally, when we met on a narrow road, I also shrunk my neck, or looked at him left and right, pretending to ignore it and hurriedly avoided it.

In between my husband's classes, I always saw the iceberg, standing in the corridor of the lotus pond, my back lonely and lonely.

At this time, I always had the inexplicable urge to walk over, pat him on the shoulder, and easily say, "Hey, you know what? ”

However, this thought just swirled in my mind over and over again, tormenting me.

I knew I wasn't going to take that step.

Since it's a business, it's better to sell yourself to someone who has no emotional ties.

But if you are open to others, you will be easily harmed.

In addition to low self-esteem, my withdrawal is probably a kind of self-preservation.

Although I held back, I knew that one day, someone else would appear by his side.

This day came quickly.

Soon, next to the back of the lotus pond, there was a graceful woman.

The woman is called Liang Hanyu, and she is also a student of the Song Family School Palace, and it is said that she is a fellow villager of the iceberg, with a lively temperament and a delicate face.

More importantly, this Liang Hanyu worships the iceberg as a god, sticking to the iceberg like glue and lacquer, and follows it everywhere.

Bingshan seems to love this girl a lot, and he has changed the usual cold air, and he even talks and laughs. It is like a god, contaminated with fireworks in the world.

As a result, I was forced to fall into the whirlpool of love and affection between the two of them.

Everything was expected, but I was still hurt.

My heart felt like a scar that would never heal.

All I saw was a handful of salt in this scar.

The woman next to the iceberg, no matter how she looks or has a family background, is better than me. According to common sense, I should be able to completely die.

However, I just couldn't let it go.

I was alone, I couldn't get interested anymore, and I was in a constant relationship with others.

A lot of time and energy was squandered by me, and I was secretly sad and confused.

This torture, I thought would be endless.

Who knows, a year later, it came to an abrupt end.

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On that day, my carriage had just arrived at the gate of the school palace, and I met Bingshan and Liang Hanyu.

As the saying goes, the road is narrow.

My gaze wandered away, as if searching for a hole to hide into.

My expression was subtle, but it was enough to attract Liang Hanyu.

It was probably the woman's keen sense of crisis that made her look at me closely.

Then she smiled and came in my direction.

I was so startled that I couldn't help but retreat again and again, and almost fell to the ground.

Liang Hanyu smiled and said a little mockingly: "Lu Mei, why are you so flustered? Are you afraid of me?"

I sputtered, "How can I be afraid of you." You're too careful. I smiled hard and diverted the subject: "Hanyu, where are you going?"

Han Yu suddenly dragged the iceberg behind him and held the iceberg's hand affectionately. She looked at me provocatively again, and said with a victor-like haughty expression: "Jiang Xian invited me to his mansion as a guest. It is said that Jiangfu is the most magnificent and extraordinary in this Qingyang City. ”

My heart was sour, and I smiled very contrivedly. I said astringently: "Exactly, Jiang Gongzi's family background is solid, I ...... We have heard of it among our fellow disciples. ”

Liang Hanyu suddenly had an idea, pulled my hand, and said sweetly: "Lu Mei, since you have also heard of the good name of Jiangfu, why don't you go with us." ”

I was shocked. This Liang Hanyu must have sensed my heart for Jiang Xian and wanted to use this trip to humiliate me.

So I hurriedly refused: "Well, you should go by yourself." Me, I still have homework to do. ”

Liang Hanyu covered his mouth and smiled, as if he was disgusted: "What homework can you have? ”

Bingshan seemed a little surprised when he heard Liang Hanyu's words calling himself a hostess. He cautiously persuaded: "Since Lu Mei is unwilling, don't force her." ”

I just wanted to agree, but Liang Hanyu rushed forward, couldn't help but say, dragged me with a belt, and pulled me into the carriage of the two of them.

I just like that, dazed, stepping into that road, the point of no return.

After getting into the carriage, Liang Hanyu unscrupulously and sweetly loved Jiang Xian.

I was on pins and needles, so I could only stare at the window, pretending to be shocked by the beautiful rivers and mountains outside the window.

I was shocked by the view outside the window.

Qingyang City is surrounded by mountains, like a pearl among the jade mussels.

On weekdays, the small town is beautiful and quiet, and it is a place where you can unload your armor and return to the field.

Najiang Mansion is located next to the Green Duck River in the east of the city.

The river is as transparent as a white chain. There are often colorful ducks with a leisurely look, playing in the water, reflecting the white water of the river with nephrite-like green.

It was supposed to be a tea journey, but our carriage traveled for a long time.

The white water green duck that should have appeared a long time ago has also disappeared for a long time.

The scenery outside the window is becoming more and more unfamiliar, but it seems to be entering the mountains.

I hesitated a little, and finally mustered up the courage to interrupt Liang Hanyu and Jiang Xian's tiredness: "Gongzi Jiang, this is not the way to your house. ”

Jiang Xian didn't look at me at all, but said with a faint expression: "This is the way to my family's garden." ”

I was a little embarrassed, but Liang Hanyu and Jiang Xian continued to be sweet and greasy unmoved, proving that I was just doing more.

My embarrassment ended quickly.

Jiang Xian's villa finally came out after a long time.

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[28] Five sisters of the Song family: the daughter of Song Tingfang in Qingyang County, Beizhou in the Tang Dynasty. The five daughters are all erudite and talented, and they are respected as bachelors in the palace.