There are so many things that I want to say to her.

But in the face of her crying and trembling, there was not a word that could be spoken.

Whatever the reasons and excuses, the fact that I did something I shouldn't have done to her doesn't change. Cornered by the cruel situation, he didn't pay close attention to the people around him, nor did he pay attention to Minerva's situation and understand her well. This alone is already an irreparable mistake, not to mention the violence that followed.

This is a crime, and no matter how you justify it, it will not change.

To be honest, Roland would rather hear Minerva's accusations against him than to explain, or at least it would make him feel better.

Maybe it was a coincidence, maybe it was some kind of predestined fate, but when there were still three girls in the house, Roland had actually woken up.

In the haze, the exchange of answers between the three people entered Roland's ears word for word. Linked to his ugly behavior of violence against Minerva, Roland, who experienced the shame and embarrassment, could not wake up at that time to apologize.

When Valrhona realized that he had woken up and left with the spider, leaving the room alone with him and Minerva, Roland finally made up her mind and stood up to apologize to Minerva. Only at this moment can he completely and honestly apologize to the girl who was hurt by himself.

"I'm sorry—"

It's extremely simple, and it's a sincere apology that pours out all of Roland's apologies.

He had repeatedly imagined Minerva's reaction to this.

Shouting rebukes, brushing away, sneering—if these images came true, he would probably fall to his knees and beg Minerva for forgiveness.

Minerva, however, cried.

Tears welled up in her clear blue eyes, falling down her fair cheeks, and a small whimper overflowed from the mouth covered with her fist.

Looking at Minerva, who suddenly entered crying mode, Roland suddenly panicked, wanting to say something to comfort her, but his mind was blank, and he couldn't say a word that could be used.

After opening his mouth for a long time, he held back the same words as before.

"I'm sorry...... I've done so much to you. ”

"No...... That's not true. ”

Shaking her head with a complex expression of shame, overwhelm, and a little joy, Minerva lowered her head to sort out her mood, and once again fell into the confusion of what to do, and Roland did not say a word.

An embarrassing and ambiguous silence hung between the two.

Roland couldn't think of what words to use to express his remorse and apology, the heaviness was difficult to convey in words alone, no matter how much he said it, no matter how good it sounded, if his heart could not be conveyed, it would be meaningless. At the same time, he also vaguely felt that what Minerva wanted to hear was not necessarily an apology.

If she had to blame herself, Roland was willing to bear it.

If the method of atonement is pointed out, Roland is also willing to do his best to atone for his sins.

Even if he was asked to kneel down and bow his head to admit his mistake, he would not hesitate to kneel on both knees.

Aside from asking him to apologize for his sins with death—the only one that could not be promised until it was all over—Roland was willing to make every effort to seek Minerva's forgiveness.

Little did he know that Minerva was thinking the same thing.

The young girl who sought the other party's forgiveness waited silently for the other party to speak first, without saying a word.

Soon, the anxious Roland couldn't help it first.

"I know it's not an apology. ”

With his head bowed, he said, like a sinful sinner:

"I did something very excessive...... Honestly, I don't dare to ask you to forgive me, but ...... I hope to make amends...... At least give me a chance to atone for my sins. Whatever you ask for...... Although it is a bit ...... if you want me to die or kill someone or something But as long as I can do it, I will do my best. So...... Can you tell me what I should do?"

"Roland?"

Minerva felt relieved and a little lost at the same time as she was entreated.

Roland is still that Roland, but in some places...... Temperament, or determination, seems to be a little different.

"It's the same on either side. ”

Like an epiphany, like a lament, Roland whispered.

"That's what we're going to have to deal with. ”

Mikana's family's business.

Things in the Holy City.

Betrayal of the Mother Goddess.

And - Li Lin's matter.

"Everybody's desperate. In order to implement one's own ideas, in order to deny the claims of others, in order to change this world that cannot be changed without change. All are desperate. Whether it's the church, it's the elves, it's humans, it's the orcs, it's you, I, everyone is the same. ”

There is still room for improvement in the world – and it is precisely because of such a promising future that people can face the harsh reality and continue to strive for a "better future". Regardless of the means, there is nothing wrong with this matter in itself.

But whether it is the church, the countries, or Li Lin.

They have chosen to deny others and assert themselves as the only right way to change the world. The nations did not hesitate to resort to war, sending thousands of people to war and purgatory, and the Church forsaken humanity and cost the lives of thousands of believers in a gamble with no chance of winning. And Li Lin ...... He simply denied humanity and hope, regarded everything as numbers and symbols, and used formulas and calculations to construct a world that was "absolutely correct" and only lost humanity and hope.

At present, Li Lin is the closest to achieving the goal. With his skill and strength, the odds of a "world of eternal peace" are quite high. In some sense, this will be the most unique and correct answer in the long-term exploration of the ideal society of the intelligent species, but Roland shuddeers at the thought that a world in which everyone is normalized, and even rebellion and hope are turned into quantitative values and controlled, will be the only future.

"I want to change that. Even now, I'm not sure I'm qualified to say that, but I really can't stand it—whether it's glorifying death or ignoring humanity, I think it's wrong. At least I don't think that's the right way of thinking. ”

A small village from my childhood is faintly in front of me.

Perhaps indulging in a world of false peace.

Maybe it's ignoring the cruel cramped world.

Maybe I was born in that isolated environment that I have such naïve and naïve ideals.

Can...... Is this wrong? Is naivety and naivety a sin that deserves death?

Not so, right?

The world is indeed cruel, and ideals and innocence alone cannot support the weight of reality.

But the world should also allow ideals and innocence to exist, leaving room for people to breed hope.

"I'm going to correct this mistake. Use what I know to correct the cruelty of the world. I knew it was arrogant, a fantasy that bordered on fantasy, but I couldn't stand it. For this reason, I need strength, the power to change all this, the strength to fight against Li Lin. It's not enough for me alone, I need your strength, everyone's strength, and even the power of other countries. I decided to do it because I couldn't stand it, because I wanted to change. ”

"Roland, you-"

"So, please give me a chance to atone for my sins. I don't want to hesitate anymore, I don't want to watch someone die in front of me for inexplicable and unreasonable reasons because of my own hesitation. In order not to repeat the same mistake again, please give me a chance. I know it's a selfish request, but I beg you to do it anyway-"

"Needless to say. ”

Minerva stretched out her hand to block the eager Roland, and shook her head slightly.

"I beg forgiveness or something...... Actually, it should be me. ”

"Needless to say, I know it all. ”

Roland nodded, then shook his head again.

"But these are two different things. I can't forgive myself and I want to make it up to you. ”

"Is it ......?"

Minerva, who finally understood Roland's voice, showed a surprised expression, and in the blink of an eye, the flush that was almost dripping blood reached the base of her ears.

"Our conversation just now was all ......"

"Ah, I'm sorry...... I woke up at that time. ”

“......”

The two of them blushed together and lowered their heads.

The aura of youth and embarrassment continued to evaporate in the air.

“...... Lower. ”

"I'm sorry. ”

“...... Excessively. ”

"I'm really sorry. ”

"If you sincerely want to apologize, don't say you're sorry. ”

The girl burst into tears and laughed, staring at the boy deeply, deeply, as if all her thoughts and feelings had been poured into it.

"Let me hear it...... The voice of your heart. ”

Calming down, the boy took a deep breath, and the rapid heartbeat slowly calmed down.

"If you do, will you forgive me?"

"Yes. ”

Without any hesitation, the girl replied in the affirmative.

Taking another deep breath, the boy spoke.

"I like you, I love you, Minerva. ”

“...... I'm so happy. ”

Almost about to cry again, holding back tears of happiness, Minerva took Roland's hand.

"Really...... It's a pleasure...... It's strange, obviously happy, why, but the tears can't help but ......"

The slender palm wanted to withdraw back to wipe away the tears, and a strong hand held the girl's palm with a backhand.

“......”

After wordlessly confirming each other's intentions, the girl's graceful and light body threw herself into the boy's arms, and the gentle fragrance filled the boy's nose.

Holding her soft body tightly, Roland rolled over and pressed Minerva down on the bed, her lips folded together. Without any worries, they begged each other's lips and breathed each other's breath. The warmth of "happiness" ripples in my chest.

In the dim light, Roland awkwardly removed Minerva's clothes and cautiously asked:

"Is that okay?"

Honestly, the question bordered on stupidity, but Roland couldn't help but worry that the previous painful experience would cast a shadow on Minerva. Fortunately, the girl blushed and gently bowed to him.

"Hmm. ”

The coquettish answer prompted Roland to make up his mind and let go of his worries completely, and the boy covered his body over his fair skin and kissed Fangze.

"Hmm...... Ah......h

With the gentle and powerful movements of the young man, the girl's mouth leaked a happy gasp that was close to pain, and the young body was entangled and jumped rapidly.