Chapter 69, I only wish to die
[The seventy-first year of the Great Qiankang Yuan, March 25, Chenshi, in the Wenyu Pavilion in the back garden of Xufu]
After a while, Yao Zibei returned to Xu's mansion.
Originally, Wangxian Tower was only two streets away from Xu's Mansion, and if she was faster, she could walk there in a few moments. But when she saw that the former Zhao Xiaogang had been reduced to a blind beggar, she couldn't help but feel something in her heart. As she walked, she thought back to her unbearable past, and her steps slowed down.
She hurriedly entered the kitchen and was about to pack a hearty breakfast for Xu Ke, but saw that Hu Yiyi had already walked in with a smile and said to her:
"Don't be busy, Xiao Wuzhi has already gone out. ”
"Huh?" Yao Zibei couldn't help but blame himself: "It's all my fault, I bought vegetables so late, so that Brother Xu didn't have time to eat breakfast......
Hu Yiyi said with a smile: "My sister Zibei, don't blame yourself! Xiao Wuxian has already gone out before the time of day today, even if you come back early, he will not have time to eat your breakfast." ”
Yao Zibei was a little worried: "Why did Brother Xu go to work so early today......? That cat demon is hard to catch, isn't it?"
Hu Yiyi patted Yao Zibei on the shoulder and said, "Okay, my good sister, don't guess! Xiao Wuxian has nothing to do, he went out early this morning, just to avoid you......"
"Why is this?" Yao Zibei said with a more sad face: "Sister, has Zibei done something wrong these days? Brother Xu refuses to pay attention to me!"
"Haha, my good sister, you're ...... Haha!" Hu Yiyi couldn't help laughing again, she took Yao Zibei's arm, took her out of the kitchen, and said, "Come, let's go to Wenyu Pavilion and sit down, my sister has something to tell you!"
Seeing that Hu Yiyi's words were suddenly so solemn, Yao Zibei had to put down the work at hand and follow Hu Yiyi to the backyard of Xu's mansion.
On the way, Hu Yiyi asked casually: "My sister went out to buy vegetables very early today, why did she come back so late?"
Yao Zibei immediately replied: "Sister, I met a beggar in front of Wangxian Tower today, do you know who he is?"
"A beggar?" said Hu Yiqi, "who is he?"
"He is Zhao Xiaogang, the same person who beat me with a leather whip that day!" Yao Zibei said.
"Is he? He has become a beggar? Do you still hate him today? Do you want my sister to help you beat him up and help you vent your anger!" Hu Yiyi said.
Yao Zibei shook his head and sighed: "Cough! Forget it, don't hide it from my sister, when I saw him today, I didn't hate him at all in my heart, but I felt ...... He's pathetic!"
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As the two spoke, they had already come to Wenyu Pavilion and sat down, Hu Yiyi had already prepared breakfast in the pavilion, and saw soybean milk, spring rolls, Hu cakes, buns, rice porridge and other things on the stone table.
Hu Yiyi brought a bowl of millet porridge exuding hot air to Yao Zibei, and said: "Sister, you have been out for a long time, and you are hungry, hurry up and eat first, let's eat while eating, chat, sister has a great good thing, I want to talk to you!"
"Hmm!" Yao Zibei was really hungry at this time, she picked up the porridge bowl, drank several mouthfuls of rice porridge in one go, she picked up another meat bun, opened her mouth and bit it.
"What's the good thing, sister, say it quickly!" Yao Zibei asked again while eating.
Hu Yiyi sat down opposite Yao Zibei, she looked at Yao Zibei, her eyes were full of pity, she thought about it for a while, and then said:
"Zibei, my sister said goodbye to Xiao Wuxian last night, let him marry you, and the day for you to marry has also been set, just on the fourth day of the next month......"
"Ah......" Yao Zibei couldn't help but be stunned when he heard it, and the bun filling in his mouth almost fell into the bowl. Then, in an instant, her face was full of joy again, and she asked again:
"Sister, is this true? Brother Xu really agreed to marry me?"
"Hmm!" Hu Yiyi nodded again and again: "It's true, Xiao Wuxian has agreed to marry you! If he dares to go back, see if my sister doesn't pick his skin!"
"That'...... That's really ......" Yao Zibei lowered her head, in order to hide the shyness on her face, she hurriedly swallowed the rest of the bun filling into her stomach, the joy and excitement in her heart at the moment were really indescribable.
"But ......" Hu Yiyi said a little apologetically: "Sister let Xiao Wuxian just take you as a concubine, if my sister feels wronged, my sister will ...... again."
Yao Zibei hurriedly said: "No, no, no! Being able to be with Brother Xu is Zibei's great luck! As for what the title, Zibei never cares, sister must not embarrass Brother Xu again, and please rest assured that Zibei will not feel wronged......
"That's the best...... Hu Yiyi said reassuringly: "Fortunately, the 'Sister Xiaoyan' who Xiao Wu's favorite is also a reasonable person." In the future, even if Sister Xiaoyan also enters the gate of the Xu Mansion, my sister believes that the two of you will be able to become a pair of good sisters!"
"Hmm!" Yao Zibei picked up a big meat bun again, opened her mouth and took a big bite, she said while eating: "Sister Xiaoyan is the best! If she can become Brother Xu's wife, I will be happier than anyone else......"
"It's just ......" Yao Zibei suddenly said a little sadly: "Sister, Zibei is already an unclean body after all, if Brother Xu knows about that incident, will he dislike me?"
Hu Yiyi said: "Sister just rest assured, Xiao Wuxian is definitely not that kind of person! When he comes home today, I will tell him about it......
"Sister......" As soon as Yao Zibei thought of "that incident", her face was immediately full ......of sadness, and she asked again: "Brother Xu really doesn't care?
Unexpectedly, before the words were finished, Yao Zibei suddenly felt a wave of nausea in her chest, she hurriedly put down the bun, covered her mouth, and ran to a bowl in the wing, opened her mouth and vomited violently, until she almost vomited all the breakfast she had just eaten, she took a breath of relief.
After Yao Zibei slowly returned to Wenyu Pavilion and sat down, Hu Yiyi saw that her face was pale for a while, and her chest couldn't stop rising and falling, so she couldn't help but reach out and hold her pulse.
Hu Yiyi asked with concern:
"What's wrong with my sister? Isn't it that you've had a cold these two days?"
Yao Zibei nodded weakly, until this moment, she still felt a little dizzy, in the previous few days, there was a burst of boredom and discomfort in her chest, and at this time she "came to the door" for no reason.
Hu Yiyi caught Yao Zibei's pulse, groaned for a while, and suddenly blurted out: "Sister, you are pregnant!"
When Yao Zibei heard this, his face suddenly turned gray.
With Hu Yiyi, the world's miracle doctor, if he says that he is pregnant, then there is no doubt that he is pregnant.
However, the child in her arms has nothing to do with the man she loves the most.
Sometimes there is nothing more painful in the world than this.
Yao Zibei closed his eyes, and immediately remembered that night, that tragic scene.
On the night of the 10th day of the second lunar month, on the red pear wood bed with carved beads, in her extremely aggrieved tears, a man named "Wu Dengkui" turned over and pounced on her, and since then she has taken away her most precious thing as a woman.
If she let the time go back to the past, to the night of the tenth day of the second month, even if she died, she would not let Wu Dengkui succeed, but that night, she chose to suffer silently......
No matter how bitter the past is, it has really happened, and there are all kinds of medicines in the world, but there is no such medicine as "regret."
Yao Zibei stood up weakly and walked silently towards Hazel Lingju, so much so that Hu Yiyi called out behind her: "Sister, sister...... What's wrong with you?" she also turned a deaf ear.
She went back to her room, closed the door, and collapsed on her bed, she looked at the ceiling in a daze, tears in her eyes, silently dripping......
At this moment, Yao Zibei's heart just wanted to die.