Maybe the content of the update is not very good recently.,Probably after the chapters of Qilian Evil Ghost!It feels like it's a little crooked.,No ideas.,Or the ideas are very messy.。

I went home, and I remembered the girl I had a crush on when I was a child, she was much better than me, and she was a doctor.

She doesn't have to be like me, she doesn't have to leave her hometown to work, and she doesn't have to run around. She is not only good-looking, but also has a good character. I knew I didn't deserve her, but I couldn't help but think about her.

In the end, I couldn't hold back and asked someone for her contact information.

I've always been worried, I'm afraid she won't like me, but I'm even more afraid that she'll like me.

I'm not good enough to be by her side, and if she likes me too, wouldn't I be like me, suffering from long-distance lovesickness every day?

Fortunately, I chatted with her for a few words, and before I could mention it, she opened her mouth first. She was also very direct, asking me if I had any thoughts about her, and I had to acquiesce (or admit, I was dizzy anyway) under her questioning. Then she told me directly that there was no drama between us, and told me not to keep sending her messages in the future, which would cause misunderstandings between her colleagues. (Maybe she has someone she likes, too!) Anyway, I feel sad.) I am indeed incompetent. When I was studying, I was often bullied, I could only forbear, forbear, forbear, I thought I would be a blockbuster like Han Xin, but so far I am just a worker. ）

In fact, my biggest wish now is to be able to earn enough living expenses for two people by writing online novels, and then buy a suite with her in a small county town, have breakfast every morning, send my beloved to work, and then go home to code words, and when she is about to rest at noon, I will make a meal and send it to her, or pick her up, eat together, and then, continue to code words. After she gets off work in the evening, we will read books and watch movies together. If she works overtime, I'll write more Braille at home and update a little more, anyway, if she doesn't sleep, I will stay with her and not sleep.

I think it's naïve and beautiful......

I didn't forget her because of her decisive refusal, maybe everyone is the same. I am now more eager to succeed and more eager to be recognized by her, which makes my novel even worse, and my heart is more chaotic. I know that I am in such a hurry that I have forgotten what the ancients said: "Don't be happy with things, don't be sad with yourself." ”

I thought about it for a day today, I felt very uncomfortable, and I called home, and I may have passed on my uncomfortable feelings to my parents, for which I feel very sorry. I don't want to do this, but sometimes the pressure of life just overwhelms me, and I even want to die. I really couldn't extricate myself, so I ended up talking to my sister for a long time before I was relieved.

I used to think that if I couldn't make a name for myself outside, I would never go home. But in the end, I didn't do that. My parents are getting older and older, and they are just a son like me, and I can bear the pain of homesickness, but can they bear the longing for my son? I can't get famous, because I don't have the ability to do it, and I have no reason to put this pain on my parents.

Alas~ I know that there are not many people who read my writing, so I thought I sent an article to the space to talk about it, when you are my friends. I don't ask you for a tip, because I know I'm not good enough.

Thank you to the people who have seen my work, and thank you to my editor, who chose to sign my work. This time, I'm going to have to come up with a decent ending.