I gave up, I gave up on these things completely.

I suddenly realized that life is nothing, and everyone is just trying to live better in this world, if you can't, then don't say anything.

I couldn't hold on anymore, something was endangering my life, but I let him hurt me as much as he could.

I was relaxed, free, and there seemed to be nothing to hold me back anymore.

————

Take it easy, I really felt how great the malice of this world was, so I gave up, gave up the struggle for survival, and just wanted to throw myself into the arms of death and let me perish completely.

I know it's wrong for me to do it myself, but there's no other way around, I just want to completely destroy my body and die completely.

What is it about this sick, screaming devil's coming?

————

In the year of the fire, Zhuang Bufan came to this ghost town and looked at the dark and gloomy sky.

He took a city out of his cuff, looked at it all, his chest was tight, he took a piece of parchment, and spread him out.

————

I thought, if it's painful to live in the world, why go on?

————

I'm a fool, I don't need to do it at all, just that, I think! At least a human head, it's a count.

I don't want to play anymore, give them heads, they just give them what they want, no matter what the other things are, but I finally understood that I couldn't even speak, and it was almost over.

Yes, why are you obsessed with this? I just want to waste my time, as much as I can, so that I can relax.

Of course, I really want to put an end to it.

Why don't I unload him? I'm addicted, my heart feels happy, it gives me satisfaction, but when you get satisfaction from reality, you don't think so.

Forget it, even if I lose, but no one comes to help me, I'm drunk.

But his health is not very good, and even his bones are about to break.

But so what? People don't know your mind, you have to do it alone, but there's nothing you can do.

Desperate, I don't know what else can cause me to laugh.

If you can, let me die and lie on the ground, and if I can, the taste of pain, which soaks the heart and lungs, and if you want to get it, you will lose it.

Ahh

What did I suddenly see?

Constantly screaming, what else can I say, there is still something stuck in my head.

One day, I saw a person jumping off a building to commit suicide, and I saw blood soaked in front of him, but I couldn't even speak.

When despair comes, there is nothing to save.

Wait a minute, wait!

Will I jump? When I think about it, no one understands, yes! When something appears in my arms, it's good to die!

He said, "People have obsessions, but what about me? I can never see where the road is.

I tried everything I could to get six hundred dollars, but I still couldn't get it.

I know, when can I die?

I saw people outside, hanging out.

I know it's my fault, but I don't know how to undo it, but when you know what happens to a person crazy, I see someone doing it, but I don't know what to do.

I...... I wanted to die completely, and I had no hope of seeing if I would starve to death.

I'm thinking, what am I thinking?

I have no desire for everything in the world, and I thought that I could suppress it somewhere and have more fun.

But now, I forgot everything.

I was happy, but I didn't know what to do next!

I've lost the ability to speak, yes, I know, why would I stare at this thing?

————

Wait, I was thinking about what I would do if my mom died one day? And when I thought about this, I saw a guy in the room, lying on the floor, dying of a heart attack.

When I saw this scene at that time, I was stunned, and they didn't expect such a result.

————

Now, I seem to have come to my senses.

Knowing my task and what to do, in the past, when I faced these things, I was a mess, and I didn't even have the will to help, which is very bad.

And now, the expression on his face is full of pleasure.

It's so light-hearted that I even sleep thinking about living like this.

I knew how stupid I was, how stupid I was, I didn't know what to do, my whole nerves, my brain was messed up.

Once people become sad, there is a bit of a problem, I am not very serious, or even if I try to write, but for what?

No one encouraged me, or rather, gave me a look and let me have a good time!

I read their texts, and some people read me, and I found a terrible thing, what I wrote, and what they saw, and they liked what I copied.

From that, I knew I had a problem.

I've always been in a certain pattern, I can't get out, I'm stuck in the quagmire, and I'm living in pain.

————

It's a chaotic world, how do I do it?

By the way, don't do anything, get out of here first, get in touch with some people, and then say, since you don't want to wait any longer, until you're twenty-five, or even thirty, and you're still like this, all I can say is, I'm sorry! You're a lot worse than I thought.

This is painful, it turns out that this is me!

What am I willing to do? All of a sudden, I want to go out and toss a coin in the air to see what my life trajectory is going to become.

In addition, some people can hold on, that is because they have a strong backing to support, and I! have nothing, so what should I do?

Seriously, with a responsible attitude to see through the laws of this world, and use this for me.

I know that another world is coming to me, and I need to push myself a little harder to keep me alive.

————

Become a waitress and see all kinds of people, what it's all about, and see what they look like.

I've almost forgotten what it's like to be alive, and my serious appearance has made me know that I have to go on like this for the rest of my life.

Once, I loved this place, but I was defeated by my endless fantasies, and I spent a lot of energy in it.

Makes my heart flutter and tells me when I can make some money so that some people can eat good food instead of being stupid and like a bitter cucumber.

When will this sick life end? I just hope to be faster, faster!

(End of chapter)