448. A monster born in the brains of two
Ansas and Nelly looked at each other:
"Do you remember?"
Nelly looked at the spectacle of the kneeling corpse behind Anzas, the bright red waterfall flowing down Marlene's neck to the ground, converging into a blood-colored lake, reflecting the colorful night light.
Nelly looked at Raven.
Raven says:
"I don't know ...... either"
Ansas interrupted:
"Don't look at him. ”
Nelly reflexively turned her head, but she immediately realized something was wrong:
"Can you see Raven?"
Anzas says:
"I can't see that part of your consciousness, it's just a mental phenomenon, don't you know very well?"
nelly says:
"You're my ...... too"
Anzas says:
"No, I don't belong to you completely, you and Herwen created my birth together, if I had to say, I can be regarded as your and Herwen's 'child'. ”
The girl's expression was a little complicated, and at the same time there was confusion, shyness, vigilance, and doubt.
Ansas laughed:
"Oh, I forgot, children don't have that strong connection with men and women in my perception.
"To put it simply, I mean the same thing to Herwin as Raven is to you, and I'm actually a part of Herwin, of course, different from your Raven you.
"I'm on the edge of Hewen and deeper than that, I can't get too close to him, and it's very incomplete, I'm just made up of some not-so-good pieces of his mind, so I can't accurately reflect Hevin himself. ”
Nelly asked:
"Why do you say that you are me and Herwen......"
Anzas says:
"Why? Because you created it. ”
nelly says:
"But I didn't do anything. ”
Anzas says:
"No, you're spreading, you're infecting, Hewen may not be the first patient, I can't understand what this is, although it's not a problem for Hewen, the whole me, but it's very dangerous on the psychological level of humans.
"Even if this phenomenon cannot interfere with reality and can only affect the mind of the infected, it still has the potential to have a negative effect, it seems to be positive in you, but that's because you need it.
And for someone who doesn't need it, it's torture, it's painful, because he won't be able to distinguish between reality and illusion, he won't know whether the person in front of him is real or fake, and he won't be able to make decisions that are in line with his heart. ”
Nelly asked:
"If it's just a purely psychological phenomenon, why can you show up in front of me and kill Marlene yet.
"I'm even starting to wonder if I've ever met Marlene today, are you all hallucinations on my part, and I'm getting worse again?"
Ansas raised his sword Snowy Owl:
"Because of it.
"Hewen didn't intend for you to actually fight to the death with a vicious former demon hunter, and if you failed, there was only death as an option.
"He left this sword to make sure you don't have an accident, and it's because I borrowed the power of this sword that my image is Anzas, but at the end of the day, I'm still a part of Hevin, a darker part, and that's why I can use the power he left behind.
"I'm him, but it's not exactly him, I'm a terrible guy, and if I didn't know I didn't have to, I might even want to replace him when I get the chance.
"Of course, you can rest assured, I'm just giving an example, I'm actually Hewen, we are a whole, there is no so-called substitution, that's a plot that only happens in third-rate horror, you can see me as Hewen caught in some kind of negative emotion.
"Like Raven, you may seem like you're talking to him, but you're essentially just talking to yourself, you're trying to redeem yourself.
"You're talking to yourself. ”
nelly says:
"So, you're actually Hewen, right?"
Anzas says:
"Actually, yes, but from the way you feel, you don't think I'm the Herwin you know, everybody has bad thoughts, moments of wanting to kill others, moments of being dominated by desires, moments of jealousy of others, and I am made of these things.
"So please be careful not to let me hurt you. ”
Nelly struggled to understand:
"But you're actually still Hewen, just a Hewen with a very different personality and a somewhat different appearance. ”
Ansas nodded:
"In the usual way of judging by human beings, it may be disputed whether I am Herwin or not, but the fact that I belong to Herwin is irrefutable.
"It's not academically accurate, but you can see me as a sub-personality of Hervin. ”
nelly says:
"Hervin asked you to protect me, so you killed Marlene?"
Anzas says:
"No, Herwin will kill her too, but we didn't make this choice for the same reasons, and you have to ...... it"
He turned to the corpse, still kneeling:
"Isn't it beautiful?"
Nelly shook her head:
"You're not Hewen. ”
Anzas says:
"That's why I'm telling you, in the senses, you don't feel like I'm Herwen, I'm not Hewen in any period, I'm not any side of Herwin.
"If you simply take out your cravings for food, you won't feel like you're the monster of eternal hunger.
"What if you add a little bit of ** and the desire to kill? Create a creature that knows how to eat, mate, kill, it won't be any one person, but it still belongs to its owner.
"Can you understand me? I'm Herwin, I'm not Hewen, and I don't want you to have undue expectations from me, that would make it a little difficult for me. ”
Anzas danced a sword flower, then handed the snowy owl to Nelly:
"I've restored the protective magic above, and it will protect you. ”
Nelly took the snowy owl and asked puzzled:
"And what about you? Where are you going?"
Ansas smiled elegantly:
"I'm going to do what I want to do, to satisfy my desires, but you don't have to worry about what bad things I'm going to do, I'm all part of Herwin anyway, I'm just going to do things he wants to do, but won't do.
"If I don't hurry, he's going to get him back.
Nelly asked:
"Didn't you come on the strength of the snowy owl, and if you gave it back, what would you do?"
Ansas turned:
"My birth requires magic, but when I come, this world will naturally provide me with strength because it owes me.
"Just because Herwin doesn't want me anymore doesn't mean I didn't exist. ”
Nelly looked at the man's back.
She didn't know if she was dazzled or hallucinated, and it didn't seem to be a human standing there.
It's a monster as tall as a mountain.