Chapter 330: The Past Matters

Liu Laodao finally couldn't help it, and looked at Li Yunxin: "What happened to Brother Xin?"

Li Yunxin only sighed again: "How is she now?"

Lao Dao knew that he was still reluctant to say - perhaps because he was "unwilling to say" - and was changing the subject. Pen Fun Pavilion www.biquge.info but what Li Yunxin asked was also what Lao Dao was often worried about. The person in Li Yun's heart refers to Shi Kuizi.

Liu Laodao knows that his heart brother is sometimes like a big child who makes a small sex. The question is tight, and I don't know if I want to brush my sleeves away. So he only spoke about his own business first.

He accompanied Li Yunxin and sighed: "Before you left, you sealed her with a talisman." I'm looking at it these days and I feel like it's not going to be good, like ...... The people are gone. ”

To be gone is to be dead. If a few months ago, Lao Dao encountered such a thing as "people are gone", he would not have said it so "lightly". For secular people, the boundary between life and death means eternal separation, which cannot be crossed by human beings. However, in just a few months, he has seen more life and death. Therefore, we know that in the Xuanmen method, death does not mean the end. Maybe he couldn't do it himself...... But Li Yunxin will always have a way—he believes in him.

Li Yun snorted in a sad way. I thought about it again: "Expected. My talisman wasn't meant to keep you angry. It's just sealing the soul and suppressing the corpse. She is now dead, but my soul is sealed in my corpse. You...... If you have a heart, you will always go and talk to her. The soul is still conscious, and every day it is trapped in a dead body, suffering. ”

Lao Dao was stunned for a while: "This is what she looks like, I just think she is unconscious...... Is that what it looks like?"

"You know, when a person dies and leaves his soul, Yan Jun is going to bring people with him. So there's no way to do it. Li Yunxin raised his head to look at Liu Laodao, and hesitated for a moment, "Sanhua's original body, I didn't do well." Now I know that there is another way that is better than what I used to do. But I haven't figured it out yet. For her good...... Just wait a little longer. ”

Liu Laodao only sighed and agreed.

After a few breaths of silence between the two, Li Yunxin coughed lightly, raised his hand and touched his nose: "How do you like it?"

He said this softly and quickly, and Lao Dao frowned and said "um", only thinking that he had heard it wrong.

Li Yunxin slowly stretched out his hand and approached the copper stove to roast the fire, leaned back slightly, stared intently at the red charcoal in the stove, and inadvertently repeated again: "I mean you two, when did you ...... Do you like her?"

After speaking, he muttered again, "It's autumn in the end." With a twist of his finger, he drew a spell and flicked it into the fire, and the flames rose to the ground, obscuring his face in the light of the fire.

Liu Laodao heard it clearly this time - his face was also red by the firelight. The fire was raging and the heat wave was blowing. Where else is this to roast the fire to keep warm, it's just going to roast people. His heart is the body of a god and a demon, and it doesn't necessarily matter if the fire burns for a moment and a half, but he is different. So he hurriedly stepped back—sat still, pondered for a while......

finally realized what kind of trouble Li Yunxin might have encountered again.

Last time, he thought that Li Yunxin was dead, so he stayed in Shi Kuizi's Nanshan Mountain Temple. But Li Yunxin broke in in the middle of the night and sat without saying a word, and asked him what the red lady was. The look he looked like at that time...... It's a lot like it is today.

It's just that...... He's only been out for a few days, and he's got into such a romantic debt again?

Lao Dao didn't know what to say for a while—he wasn't a romantic seed, and he didn't know much more about the affairs between men and women than ordinary people. But such Liu Laodao looked at Li Yunxin like this, and there was some different feelings in his heart. He and Li Yunxin are also masters, servants, teachers and friends...... These four "also" words, it is difficult to say which of the two of them is in front and who is behind. Sometimes he looks like Li Yunxin's older apprentice, and sometimes he looks like an elder who takes care of him.

Originally, two people who were scattered at the end of the world got together and implicated a fateful result, but now for Liu Laodao and Li Yunxin, the two of them are probably the only ones in this world who can take out the words in their hearts and say them in detail.

As a result, the emotions that used to flood my heart many times have come back to life—some sourness and some relief. It's like an old grandfather who saw his grandchildren wake up from a nightmare and kick the quilt, so he slowly walked over and fell asleep softly......

He knew that his brother was now in trouble that made him frightened and frightened...... Ducked back.

So even at his age and experience, he felt particularly embarrassed and embarrassed to say "like it or not" bluntly, but at this moment, he had to put his face on the face - just as if he had heard some ordinary gossip, and cleared his throat: "This matter." I can't remember. More than ten years of things - when did you like it, when did you have any thoughts in your heart...... It's hard to say. ”

"If two people didn't know each other before, and they didn't have any impressions, how could they meet and ...... Well...... What if you get along for a long time, slowly, that, you like it...... This thing is like the melting of ice and snow, how can it be said from what moment it began to melt. But Brother Xin, what are you...... Have you met a girl you like?"

Lao Dao is not very used to saying the word "like". But he managed to stick his tongue and speak these words smoothly. Then he asked casually, just about some short things in the parents, or something like "I should go north tomorrow to see the demons there."

After saying this, Li Yunxin was silent for a while - his face was hidden behind the firelight, and Lao Dao couldn't see it.

After a while, I heard him cough softly: "...... I do not know. ”

Lao Dao thought that there might be such an answer, but he didn't expect that there would be such an answer. According to his understanding of Li Yunxin...... As soon as he says "I don't know", it is almost the same as "yes". He was stunned for a moment, and couldn't help but ask, "Whose girl has such a ...... What is the skill?...... Bai Yunxin?"

"How could it be. Li Yunxin replied immediately.

Lao Dao's curiosity was aroused by him: "Which one have you seen before?"

Li Yunxin said after a while after the firelight: "I haven't seen it." ”

Lao Dao was stunned again: "I haven't seen it, why did you like it?"

Li Yunxin stood up suddenly, and the strong wind that brought up caused the flames to shake for a while, so the shadows of the two people also danced on the wall: "When did you say that you liked it!"

Lao Dao hurriedly raised his hand: "Okay, don't say that." But since Brother Xin wants to ask me, he has to tell me the ins and outs. Tell me about those things...... Well, my brother knows it. What's so embarrassing about you? The two of us are now each other's companions and dependent on each other!"

When Li Yunxin heard these words, his expression softened again. He stared at Liu Laodao for a while, then raised his hand and waved it to suppress the vigorous momentum of the furnace. Then he sighed and sat down, "Yes." Why not. But my thing ......"

He frowned, and tapped on the palm of his hand with the folding fan of the tearful bamboo bone: "My business...... It's going to be a long time. ”

After a slight pause, he stared at the fire for a while, and finally spoke: "There is a kind of person who can't experience any emotions. I...... That's the kind of person he used to be. ”

Lao Dao knew that Li Yunxin was finally willing to say something that had been hidden in his heart for a long time. Therefore, as usual, he accompanied him, so that he would not be discouraged. So he also sighed in a low voice: "Alas. People are not plants and trees, who can be ruthless. The sad things of the past...... That's it. ”

But Li Yunxin shook his head: "I didn't feel any emotion when I said it, but I didn't mean what you said." I mean...... I can't really feel it. Well, in the past, I taught you the science of mind, and this is also an example of the science of mind. I told you earlier what 'psychological causes' are, what 'physiological causes' are – and now I'm talking about physiological causes. ”

Lao Dao didn't seem to understand when he heard this, but he already knew in his heart that this was Li Yunxin trying to use other methods to hide his emotions - he originally said that he didn't want to recall his life experience, but now he only said that he was teaching himself "heart science" - take himself as an example, maybe it won't be so embarrassing to talk about.

He also has a delicate heart, and when he knew Li Yunxin's thoughts, he only nodded: "Okay, Brother Xin, you can talk about it." I'm old, learn hard. ”

Li Yunxin smiled: "Then don't say anything like serotonin - it will take a long time to explain." It's just that some people, because they are born with a different head from ordinary people, or have a handicap, can't experience many emotions of ordinary people. I can't ...... this experience For more obvious examples, such as the man who has grown into his teens, he doesn't have much of a smiling face and an angry face. There are many emotions that are innate to ordinary people, and he has to slowly write them down and distinguish them carefully before he can understand them. ”

Lao Dao frowned slightly.

Li Yunxin thought for a while: "For example, when you walked to the entrance of the alley at night, you saw two gangsters robbing a woman with a knife. You stand there and watch for a while, and one of the gangsters sees you. And with a look of rage, he turned and pointed his knife at you from afar—what do you mean, you say?"

Lao Dao's brows furrowed even tighter. Tsai thought carefully for a while before he tentatively said, "Isn't it...... What do you mean by telling me to go away and not be nosy?"

- He felt that this answer was too simple, and Li Yun would never ask this. But for a while, I really couldn't think of anything else.

But Li Yunxin smiled faintly: "That's exactly what it means—ordinary people will think like this." But for that kind of person...... Maybe he should be stunned first. Stunned for a moment, think about what that gangster's expression was - oh, angry. And then think about it, what is he going to do when he angrily points a knife at me? But how does he know? One person points to another, maybe he has something to talk about, maybe he just points casually, maybe he refers to the person behind him -- how does he know what the gangster is pointing at himself?"

Liu Laodao was indeed attracted by this example at this time. He frowned and thought for a while, then asked suspiciously, "But...... The thief was committing a murder - and he was afraid of being seen. Now that he had seen it, he should have known that the thief was intimidating him. ”

"Herein lies the problem. Li Yunxin paused and said softly, "Ordinary people think that it is bad for gangsters to rob with knives. But what if that person doesn't feel bad — he doesn't recognize that robbing someone, cutting someone with a knife is a bad thing? What if he can't understand what the person who is robbed, the person who is cut by the knife?"

Liu Laodao was stunned for a while, and slightly realized what Li Yunxin meant, and then he was stunned: "...... Is there really such a person?"

Li Yunxin glanced down at the charcoal fire in the furnace, picked up the stove hook on the side and dialed it. Then he whispered, "That's the kind of person I am." ”

Lao Dao didn't know what to say for a while, so he only heard Li Yunxin say softly and slowly: "That example is a slight exaggeration. Actually, when I was a kid, I was like that – I didn't feel pain often, and I was numb to everything. It's hard for me to understand other people's emotional behavior, and I have to think about what other people do out of instinct before I understand. ”

So he was treated as mentally retarded. The kind of place I lived in when I was a kid wasn't a good place. A group of children of all sizes are in a circle, where is there anyone to care. Mentally retarded people are always bullied...... Beating and scolding and not giving food are all commonplace. Ordinary people may find it difficult to live or die. But at the time, I saw ...... Nothing to feel. ”

"I don't feel much pain. People scolded me and laughed at me, and I didn't know what they meant. I don't know what it means, and I certainly don't feel scared to be sad. I don't feel anything when someone is nice to me and secretly gives me food—I don't know what that person means by being nice to me. I...... There's only one shell. Ordinary people's bodies contain seven emotions and six desires, but I don't. Li Yunxin paused and thought for a moment, "So when I came here, you know, I practice very quickly." ”

"What calamities do those Taoist priests want to go through, and they have to give up their desires...... I've already experienced what they're doing. The Taoist priest must be too forgetful, and the swordsman must also be too forgetful. They have been cultivating for hundreds of years...... I was born like that. ”

Liu Laodao was dumbfounded, and he really didn't know what to say. stared at Li Yunxin for a long time before he struggled to squeeze out a sentence: "Then you ...... Nowadays......"

Li Yunxin smiled: "Today? But back then...... What should I do?"

"People say I'm mentally retarded, but I'm not. Actually, I'm smarter than those people – except I have many, many things to observe, to learn, and to think about. For example, I slowly realized that someone was throwing a fist at me with the intention of hitting me. Ordinary people are afraid when they see it, and they will hide. As for me, I saw him swing his fist at me, and then I thought about the possibilities - what he was going to do. According to the circumstances and circumstances at the time, find the 'most likely' one among these possibilities, and then think about how they will react when they encounter this possibility? Will they laugh, or will they scream, or will they cry?"

"Thinking about so many things, and then reacting—pretending to be scared, staying away. As I grew up, I became proficient in these things...... So they said I grew up and had a good head. Actually, it's just...... I just need to learn a lot more than they do. One thing they do unintentionally, it takes dozens of thoughts to turn in my mind. Li Yunxin lowered his head and thought for a while, "After a few years like this, I gradually realized ...... I'm surrounded by a bunch of idiots. It's stupid in my eyes - like a kitten or a puppy. ”

"In a few years, it's easier for me to know what they're thinking and what they're likely to do – because of their unintentional emotions, their actions...... In fact, I have been simulating and analyzing it in my head for so many years. There are so many possibilities - I have to think about them all. ”

Li Yunxin turned his face to look at Liu Lao and said, "Later, I was adopted by a person. The conditions are better...... Have clean clothes, be well fed, and sleep peacefully. Then, read some books and do some things. I found out that not everyone in the world is like cats and dogs - there are still some people who are as smart as me. Those people wrote things, books, theories — some of which I thought were ridiculous. Some of them make sense to me. ”

"This looks like this...... Ended up being a psychiatrist. He stopped, thought about it, and seemed to think it was funny, "Ha...... I go to talk to others about feelings and do counseling. You see, that's the power of knowledge. ”

He was silent for a moment, then tilted his head slightly, as if thinking about the past.

And then ...... Here we are. ”

"You ask me what I'm like now—I'm a normal person now. But you know, what is the reason why a person is Zhang San instead of Li Si, Wang Wu, and Zhao Liu?"

"Then the Masonic quantums are running around and snatching away, and their gender and body have to be changed, and what do they use to prove that they are themselves? ”

"I came into this world with memories of the past. Once upon a time...... Feel. A feeling of numbness and emptiness, a feeling of not knowing what feelings are...... are all stuffed into the head of an ordinary person. Li Yunxin frowned slightly, "I can understand the emotions of ordinary people." But I can't fully appreciate the emotions of ordinary people - past experiences, memories, separated in the middle. ”

"So when I was in Weicheng, that Yueyunzi treated me as a jerney, and came to the courtyard to talk to me about despair, reconstruction, and Taoism. Joke...... Those of them need the heart of the Tao and the tribulation...... Isn't it just to be what I used to be? Li Yunxin smiled and shook his head, "It's all the leftovers that I played." I don't need to give up any desires. I get that feeling. I don't need any Dao Hearts either...... At least that's what I used to think. ”

Liu Laodao was already stupid when he heard it. It was only at this moment that Li Yunxin mentioned the Dao Heart, and he suddenly came to his senses: "In the past, Brother Xin'er's current trouble, is this Dao Heart?"

Li Yunxin was silent for a while, and sighed: "Yes." One...... I didn't expect it. A feeling that was very foreign to me. If I were an ordinary person, there would be opportunities for trial and error. But I'm a demon cultivator in the real realm now—if I make a mistake, I won't be able to recover. ”

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