"I admire people who can write. "If I had changed places and changed people, I would have thought she was perfunctory to me, but at the moment I nodded happily. I don't know if the reason I nodded was because of her words or her attitude. I suddenly felt that the girl in front of me had a very familiar feeling, as familiar as her smile.

Shen Jing and I still sat for a long time that day and talked a lot, this time it was a little different from the last time, I felt like we had known each other for a long time. Shen Jing said that in fact, she especially doesn't like to study in the classroom all day long, that kind of life is not interesting at all, but there is no way, she has to study hard to be admitted to a good school, so that she can live a good life in the future, so that her parents can rest assured. Although she was a little melancholy when she spoke, there was a clear glimmer of light in her eyes, a look I often saw, a kind of ignorant pure hope. I suddenly felt that what Wang Ming said was wrong, not that Shen Jing was a little pitiful, but more that this world was sad, but no one felt like this, and no one could believe it.

"With such good grades, you will definitely be able to get into the school you want. I comforted her. She smiled, a little more confidence in her eyes. She said that her favorite is literature, so she wants to apply for the Chinese department, but the teacher said that she should apply for an accounting major, with her score should be no problem, and the accounting major can find a job very well, her parents also support her, but she does not like accounting at all, although her parents said let her choose, but she is still very confused.

From a very young age, our parents tell us what we can do and what we can't do, and this kind of education accompanies us all the time in our childhood, some people say that parents are the first teachers of children, which is right, and it is not an exaggeration to say that we are the shadows of our parents, because they initially formed our thoughts, and when our thoughts were not fully formed, we were handed over to our teachers, until our thoughts were fully formed, there were only three kinds of people we knew and were affected: parents, teachers, and classmates who were influenced by parents and teachers。 We grow up healthily in such an environment, and the influence of teachers and parents can be said to occupy almost all of our thoughts, which seems to be a good thing, because a person's growth will always be led by others. When we get older and mature, our parents and teachers tell us that you are already adults and you should be able to make your own decisions, and they have also decided to retreat to advice, and I always feel that there is something wrong with this, but I don't know what is wrong. I think Shen Jing's chances of reporting as an accountant should be much greater. And I don't know how to get back to her, and since I was a child, many people have told me not to disagree with other people's opinions, especially teachers and parents. Shen Jing and I became friends when we came back from the park, and in high school, the so-called friends between boys and girls just smiled at each other when we met, and we still liked to stand by the guardrail in the aisle in a daze, and the distance between us was still nine meters.

The last day of April was finally torn off the calendar. This made some small changes in our hearts, and I thought that if one month of happiness can lead to a lifetime of happiness, then this is the beginning. But the fact is that we are still more than a month away from the college entrance examination, in terms of time, the college entrance examination is like the day of the lottery, we want to see this day soon, but if it really comes, it will become hypocritical. I've always wondered how many of us will win, and I've often wondered how many of us have gotten tickets.

We had an unprecedented two-day holiday on May Day, which made me unaccustomed to it all of a sudden, from the moment I entered the third year of high school, the holiday became more expensive in our dictionary, either unwilling to appear or appeared after the discount. The old man seemed to be extremely reluctant to take the holiday, and when he announced the school's decision, I could clearly see a trace of dissatisfaction in his eyes. In fact, the old master has no need to worry at all, because Shen Jing is still in our class, as long as there is no accident, he can be ashamed in front of other class teachers, at least for a year, he doesn't have to deliberately avoid talking about the college entrance examination.

Wang Ming has been very excited after hearing the news, he said that he wants to relax openly for two days, Wang Ming is right, and I haven't thought about what I can do openly, and even have a slight feeling that I would rather go to class. I shook my head and tried to tune my mind to the feeling of being on vacation, and it took a lot of effort to get it done. As soon as the school bell rang, everyone rushed out of the classroom and rushed to the gate, and everyone's faces were filled with joy. When I packed up my things and looked up again, there was only me and the silence in front of me in the classroom. The holiday didn't seem to have an impact on Shen Jing, she still buried her head and wrote hard. I have little urge to learn, learning is just a work that must be done for me, and I have been doing it for thirteen years, perhaps because of this, my feelings for learning are fixed to the extent that I do not love or hate, if attitude is everything, then I am destined to be the mean.

I wanted to go out directly, but in the end I couldn't help but go behind her and sit down, I didn't bother her, just watched her quietly. Shen Jing's hair was tied into a short ponytail that looked a little clean, and I stayed behind her for ten minutes, and her head never lifted a bit. I began to wonder what made her so motivated, whether it was the teacher's supervision, her own potential, or the hope of her parents.

Wang Ming once said that no one in high school is motivated to learn by their own liking, it is very simple that everything in high school is programmed, and no one will be interested in what they already know, not to mention that this program is simply to use their own spears to stab the shields made by others, and others are the ones who ask us to make spears. These words are difficult for me to understand, but I agree with Wang Ming's point of view, in many cases, we study just to attack Xiao Ming who is dressed as Xiao Hua with the method of attacking Xiao Ming, we are just fools, many times I admit that this is right. Unfortunately, I don't know much about Shen Jing's motivation. By the time Shen Jing raised her head, it had been a long time later, and during this time I had been sitting in the back, repeating endlessly in my head: what is what. Shen Jing twisted her neck, stood up and stretched, rubbed her eyes, sat down again, and began to prepare to continue studying.

"When are you going to learn?"

This time the mouth is still in front of the head, and I don't know why I say that, because it's not good to say that in theory. Shen Jing was obviously taken aback, and hurriedly looked back. She still smiled very naturally, and asked with some confusion: "Why haven't you left yet?" At that moment, I didn't know how to answer, why didn't I leave? I don't know why, and I was even more curious about why Shen Jing asked like this. These messy things flashed quickly through my head, and I shook my head, "It's a holiday, don't be so serious, right?" Shen Jing's tone was full of helplessness: "When the teacher came just now, I gave a set of papers, and asked me to hand them in after the holiday." "Teacher?" I couldn't help but think. Shen Jing stayed in the end, and when I asked her if she wanted to go out and relax, she was visibly stunned. The smile in her eyes was completely overflowing with something she didn't know, and she lowered her head and said that it was better to finish the roll first! At that moment, my body seemed to be hit by something, and my breathing stopped instantly, and one fragment after another rotated in my mind almost blank.

I slept in my dorm room for two days after two days off, and I rarely got out of my bed when I went out to eat and go to the toilet. There were a lot of dreams in the middle, one of them remembered very clearly, there was a bridge in the dream, the bridge was very narrow, the long one could not see the end, the bridge was under the abyss, and the sound of running water could be faintly heard, the bridge seemed to be late, there was obviously an arc in the place where it was about to be completely hidden in the fog, there should be a mountain opposite the bridge, and the sound of the tiger and wolf was clearly heard. Just when I was depressed and wanted to go up, there were suddenly many people behind me, some in suits in front, some in student clothes in the back, so many people that I could only see the head transmission. Before my next consciousness came out, I had been squeezed onto the bridge by people in suits, so the people behind me rushed desperately to the bridge, I wanted to shout, but I was covered by all kinds of sounds, excited, painful, and indifferent, in short, all kinds of voices rushed into the sky, and I clearly heard more and bigger tiger wolf sounds. I was led to the opposite side of the bridge, I wanted to struggle but I couldn't exert my strength, I wanted to shout but couldn't make a sound, and when I looked back again, the bridge was already crowded with thousands of people, and many were squeezed off the bridge, and I saw despair and horror in their eyes, and they began to turn into skeletons, first one, then two and then countless people turned into skeletons and fell, I didn't have time to scream but suddenly found that the people in suits around me had turned into bulls and horses, ghostly yakshas... When I woke up, my body was covered in cold sweat, and I was lying on the bed in a daze, my mind blank. I passed by the classroom twice, the door was locked, and I couldn't help but feel a little relieved, although I don't know why.

The two days were over quickly, and the old master came to the classroom very early, and many people had said that the old master loved his students more than his own children, and many people knew that in fact the old master had no children at all. When he saw that there were only a few people in the classroom, the old master's face became a little gloomy, and he once told us angrily that we people did not understand the importance of learning at all, and it was a waste of life. I think what the old master said is a bit excessive, and I think he should also understand that the best way to deal with those of us who are not too naïve is to be a little sad about the lie, and tell us it with emotion and reason, and it is better to put on a half-stunned and slightly disappointed expression. Every time I hear him say this, I always feel a sour relief in my heart, and I don't know why this is so.

The old master's expression turned a hundred and eighty degrees when he saw Shen Jing, and the joy between his eyebrows and eyes fell to the ground. If you ask who is more powerful than ten Wuhan universities or one Tsinghua University, maybe many people will give you a roll of the eye: you are stupid, is this heaven and earth?

If you ask a teacher whether it is better for ten of his students to be admitted to Wuhan University or to be admitted to Tsinghua University? All the teachers will smile slightly and say implicitly: This cannot be compared! After all, it is Tsinghua University! The old master took the paper from Shen Jing, said some words of encouragement, and did not forget to pat her on the shoulder to show his affection when he left.