Chapter 161: Heart
Tang Zixi didn't say anything, and he didn't get angry unexpectedly, just looked at him quietly.
Li Yu was not afraid of her making trouble, he was afraid that she would be like this, and he was defeated not long after, and sighed: "Then, this is what you want me to say." Say it first, if what I say upsets you, don't blame me!"
Tang Zixi snorted and listened respectfully.
"The reason is actually very simple, to put it bluntly, that's what it is. Li Yu sighed and said, "Because you are a rare body of all spirits, it is of great help to cultivate demonic skills." If my guess is correct, Li Ling wants to take you away and hand you over to Mo Wujiang to ask for merit. Although Mo Wujiang is powerful now, he is sealed in a large hall for some reason, as long as the distance is far enough, there is actually no danger. But if he is allowed to obtain the body of all spirits, it will be different, maybe he can escape directly from the sealed land, and then I am afraid that no one will be able to stop him. ”
"So that's the case!" Tang Zixi smiled, then let out a long breath, as if he had some extremely important matters on his mind, and said, "Didn't you say that the master who saved you at the beginning was very powerful?
"I don't know about that. Li Yu glanced at her secretly, a little surprised, she didn't react, how did he know about the body of all spirits Tang Zixi had already known from Tiange and their mouths, paused and continued, "That master just said that there are some things that she is inconvenient to intervene in, and saving me is against the original intention." ”
Tang Zixi frowned, and said, "What kind of reason is this? Could it be that the safety of the common people in the world is not as good as his original intention?"
Li Yu said helplessly: "Miss, the master has her own reasons for doing things, let's not speculate." ”
Tang Zixi squinted at him, saw that Li Yu was uncomfortable, and coughed lightly: "You look at this son like this, don't you like me?" After speaking, he laughed twice, and after laughing, he found that Tang Zixi was still looking at him like that, and he couldn't help but start to get nervous in his heart, turned his face slightly, and began to glance around, but when he turned back again, he found that Tang Zixi was still looking at him intently, and finally couldn't help it, and begged for mercy, "Miss Tang, if you have anything to say, just say it, don't be like this, I'm a little scared!"
Tang Zixi opened his mouth and said, "Have you ever seen Xiaobai?"
"Ahh Why are you asking about this all of a sudden?"
Tang Zixi nodded, sat down a little tiredly, and closed his eyes on one leg of the offering table.
Li Yu stood in front of her nervously, like a child who had done something wrong, with a fierce ideological struggle in his mind, whether to tell her the truth or bite the truth. Just when he thought that the other party had fallen asleep, Tang Zixi suddenly spoke again.
"Actually, my relationship with Li Ling is not what you think. ”
Li Yu was stunned at first, and then said happily: "Really?"
But Tang Zixi didn't seem to hear his words, and continued to himself, "Since I was a child, I have been a very unassertive person, I don't know what I want, it's all others who say that I should be like this, I should be like that." I've never really made a decision for myself. Even when I ran away from marriage, it was because of the support of my mother and nurse that I escaped. And then along the way, I encountered a lot of things, and I met a lot of people, whether it was good or bad, without exception, I was the one who passively accepted. To say that it sounds good is to be submissive, and to say that it is bad is to be weak and incompetent......"
"Miss Tang?" Li Yu had never seen her with such a solemn expression, and was a little frightened.
Tang Zixi waved his hand and said, "You let me finish!"
"Okay!" Li Yu sat down cross-legged.
"It's like I don't like silver, but I can't do without it, I don't like power, but I want to be controlled by it, I don't like my own character, but I just can't change it. I can't change anything, and I don't want to change anything. After all, I'm a coward, a coward who is afraid to try, get by, and resign myself to fate!"
Tang Zixi clasped his hands on his knees, looked at the mottled murals on the wall, his eyes became confused and sad, "I don't know what I live in the world!"
Li Yu's lips squirmed a few times, as if he wanted to interject, but in the end, his eyelids drooped gloomily. He knew that Tang Zixi couldn't listen to anything at this moment, and rashly interjecting would only attract disgust.
"Once, I also thought that I liked Brother Ling, because I really liked being with him, I liked his serious concentration when he tended to the flowers and plants, I liked the ease and elegance when he stroked the piano and played the flute, and I liked his pure appearance when he smiled. ”
Tang Zixi smiled, revealing his neat teeth, remembering the good old days.
"At that time, Brother Ling was really as bright as the sun in the sky. He never seemed to be bothered, and he was smiling every time he saw it. He once said that the biggest dream in this life is to fight the sword world and be a comfortable idler. I thought, what he thinks is good, that's good. Speaking of this, she raised her eyes and glanced at Li Yu, and said with a smile, "Do you think I'm stupid?"
Li Yu shook his head and said, "No, if there is really such a man, I also want to be friends with him." It's just ......" Speaking of this, he took a long breath, looked directly into Tang Zixi's eyes and said, "Are you sure what you see is real?"
Tang Zixi smiled faintly and did not answer, but turned his head slightly.
Li Yu knew her mood at the moment, so she didn't ask more, but changed her words and said: "I know that some things are a little difficult for you to accept for a while, but you have to remember my words, there are few men in this world who can really resist the temptation of power! I am no exception!"
Tang Zixi raised his eyes to look at him, and said with a puzzled expression: "Is power so good, why do I think it's a burden?"
A smile appeared on Li Yu's face and said, "That's because you are simple-minded and don't have such a strong desire, so it's not strange to have this kind of thought." And you are of noble birth, you have always been a person of power, and there is no feeling of being enslaved and oppressed. When you said that you were controlled by power, you were only referring to those rules and constraints, which in my opinion is really not worth mentioning. ”
Tang Zixi frowned, but did not refute his words. It is true that she has never had a tight life since she was a child, and even the emperor is also very kind to the Tang family, those people don't even have time to slap her, how can they easily offend her. So strictly speaking, her power control is really just because there are too many rules to follow, and she is a casual person.
Li Yu smiled, and then said: "Men are different, how many people like to be ridden on their heads to show off their might? How many people like to be called around and live like a dog? Everyone is the same person, why should others be superior to me? But any man who feels that he has the slightest strength to fight will not give up, otherwise where do you think so many fights and killings come from? Even if you meet someone who keeps saying that he is not interested in them, it is either because he hides it too deeply, or because he is too weak to have such an extravagant hope! This kind of psychology is even more serious for those who were once high, and no one can accept the blow of falling from the sky to the ground. ”
"Although I don't understand what you said, I can understand it. Tang Zixi nodded silently, and changed his words: "Is there no man in this world who is really not greedy for these things outside his body?"
"It's not nothing, but it's very rare. Li Yu scratched his head and whispered, "At least I have met one, but it's a pity that he ......" Speaking of this, he glanced at Tang Zixi meaningfully.
Tang Zixi didn't pay attention to him, her eyes looked at the void, and after this self-analysis, she seemed to have vaguely grasped something.
Li Yu hesitated for a long time, and suddenly began to squirm, and said in a slur manner, "Tang, Miss Tang, there is a sentence I don't know whether to say or not?"
Tang Zixi vaguely guessed something, frowned slightly, and wanted to refuse, but finally said, "Say it." ”
Li Yu's face suddenly turned red, the hand hidden in his sleeve clenched unconsciously, and his toes began to poke and poke on the ground unconsciously.
His twisted and shy appearance made Tang Zixi's head black, and he had the urge to kick his feet.
Suddenly, Li Yu's movements stopped, raised his head and said with a serious face: "If there is really such a man, who doesn't love the country and loves beauties, and is willing to give up everything for a woman, what do you think of this person?"
Tang Zixi said without thinking: "It's not good!"
"Ah-" Li Yu was stunned, swallowed back all the words he was about to say, and said after a moment of silence, "But you obviously didn't say that just now." ”
"What did I say?" Tang Zixi glanced at him and said lightly, "Is it right for me to waste my time every day and wait for death to eat? Of course, if you really regard these things as floating clouds, it is fine, but as you said, is the reason why you are indisputable really because you don't want to? As the saying goes, everyone has their own aspirations, and everyone has his own reason for living and the meaning of his existence. Just like myself, although I haven't figured out the meaning of my existence yet, it doesn't mean that I don't. So, I don't want to comment on other people's lives, because I'm not qualified to do that. ”
Li Yu looked at her with a shocked face, he never expected her to say such a thing, and said convincingly: "You are better than me!"
Tang Zixi looked at him, and he couldn't tell what the look was in his eyes. Miss Tang is already ice and snow smart, how can she not know Li Yu's thoughts?
"I'm grateful for everything you've done for me!You're a good person, you've been my best friend all my life!" As soon as he started, Li Yu's heart sank, "I don't want to deceive you, but it's better not to say some words." Do you understand me when I say that?"