In fact, it's all at this point in time, I can't sleep, because this time it's really destiny that doesn't favor me, I missed another opportunity, I told you not long ago, this time the situation is not as good as last year, a hurry on the fire on a serious illness, just let the body a little better, but today because I made a mistake in all kinds of anxiety, let the opportunity drain from the fingertips again, the weight of the heart, indescribable.

Walking on the dark streets at night, I don't know where to go, what to do, my heart is dripping blood, it happens to rain again, I sit under the eaves steps of the road one after another cigarette butts, now such a scene, how should I go back to explain to my family? And how to deal with the family members who have been looking forward to it? This time I really even have the heart to die, I really want to sink to the bottom of the river, wash away my sins with death, and face Jiangdong's father and elders without words.

I used to tell everyone to wait until next month to come back, but now I don't need to, because I don't have anything to do at the moment, and I can't be busy with anything, because my mind is so chaotic that I can't get any more chaotic, and I feel like the sky is falling, and naturally I don't have the energy to update the novel, because I don't know what I should write......