(88106 .) This is a book that has collapsed, and it has collapsed miserably, and I am very grateful to the book friends who can read it until now, and I am very sorry.

In the early stage of the book, I was able to write myself crying and laughing, I was very emotionally invested, and what I wrote was also the story I wanted, and I was busy for thirteen or fourteen hours a day during that time, and I could persist in writing, no matter how hard and tired it was, it was worth it.

Then it collapsed.

In fact, three or four months ago, I wanted to cut it directly.

Because so many book friends can't say it's good, I feel that it is quite meaningless to write. Especially when I was so busy that I flew up, I slept at two or three or four o'clock in the morning every day, got up at eight or nine o'clock in the evening, went to the office of the graduation project tutor and was scolded, and when I came back to read the book review, I was still scolded.

I was very impressed once, I was busy at seven o'clock in the afternoon, I was so tired that I was about to write a book, but I saw the rampant words of liars in the book review area, the reason is that it has not been updated so late, the author must have lied to people, not keeping promises, this kind of person has a problem with the society and has no boss. As you can imagine, I was in no mood to write again, and I didn't sleep all night, so the next day I said that there were more liars, and it became a vicious circle, and I remember not daring to read book reviews casually since then.

I also feel that there is no point in working hard, it's better to live than to die, a little self-defeating and want to cut it, I'm tired like that every day, I'm scolded everywhere, it's too uncomfortable, the last time of college, it's really better to let yourself live a comfortable and free life, why bother to find guilt. This is also because I am not strong enough in my heart, I attach too much importance to not having a normal heart, or I don't see good remarks, but I want to drill the horns of the bull and trap myself to death.

Fortunately, in the end, I persevered, although it was not the story I wanted, but it was finally over, for me, this moment was relieved, not the story I wanted, it was difficult to devote myself to writing, whether it was time or emotion, it was almost enough to write a reasonable and natural ending, and there was no point in writing more.

Thank you again for your support.

In the end, everyone said that water is good, no matter what, I don't justify, the level is not in place, I haven't learned to walk, and I can't run if I want to. There are only two choices in this situation, one is the eunuch, and the other is to write it down at your own level, there is no deliberate statement of how many words come out of the water, is it meaningful for me to make up how many words? No meaning, if I really want water, I might as well write thousands of beautiful women and mentally handicapped villains pretending to be forced to slap the face of the rich second generation, these urban routines are used, and a lot of water can be used casually.

Some people say, garbage, you can't write, what else do you write, I want to say, no one is born to walk, you just go to a one-year-old child and say, can't walk, what else to walk......

Talking about me personally, I suddenly want to say that I grew up in almost domestic violence (my parents quarreled with me and my sister was the kind of punching bag that was kicked with a foot).

At the age of seven, the first grade began to sign up, and my parents never took me to it, and I have always been very independent, even lonely.

When I grew up, I studied in an ordinary university, my family was poor, and my freshman father called me, "Mi Erle, go out to work more, and the boss will do it for thirty and forty." "I was so sad that I wanted to cry.

Therefore, since the sophomore year, I have been doing projects by myself, managing my own tuition, living expenses, and social expenses, and I have also created two jobs (I have failed and lost a lot of money), and I have never taken money from my family until now. (If you have friends who have just entered college and want to have some development, you can talk to me, there are many projects that can be done in college after studying, which is much better than going out to work part-time, and doing part-time is a waste of time)

It's not a big ups and downs, but it's a lot of things, but I really doubt life in the matter of writing a book, which may be the reason why my heart is too sensitive and fragile, but I slowly look down on it a lot, and slowly correct the impatience in my own character, the character born in the environment for more than 20 years, it's really hard to change......

Finally, thank you again for your support!

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If you have a new book, I don't know how long, I won't send a book until I'm ready, I won't send a book before I don't have 300,000 manuscripts, and now it's only 10,000 words, and I won't be embarrassed. 88106 .