About eight years ago, one night I uploaded the first chapter of the Mage's Codex to the starting point. I was supposed to be in the office that day, and all I was thinking about was having fun.

During that time, my life was full and idle, my work was easy and interesting, my colleagues were kind and literary, and when we went out to dinner, we were discussing literary genres and existentialism.

So writing is a kind of spice and venting for me – without any utilitarian intentions, I write down what comes to my mind and then show it to everyone. During that time, I was productive and active. I wrote a lot of interesting short essays and short stories, purely because I wanted to write them.

The first person book was signed. Then, I began to take the formal path of online writing on and off.

Now, eight years later, I realize that things are a little different from what I originally expected.

Eight years ago, I loved words, I loved ideas, I loved all kinds of interesting ideas, and I was not shy about sharing.

Eight years later, I have become cautious and silent. I don't like to "write" and "share" like to "write" anymore like I used to. Because I feel that I have the effort to write those paragraphs and short articles, I can actually write them in the body of the serial. I have the energy to think about other whimsical ideas.,Can be used to think about the follow-up plot of the text of the serial.。

- Brains and divergent thoughts were frozen by this book, and turned into pale statues.

In fact, there are other terrible things. For example, if I look at what I wrote 10 years ago, I think, "I'm good at writing now." However, this seems to mean that I haven't made much progress after ten years. The level of writing stayed there, and there was no growth.

Sometimes when I reflect, I know why. There are always some routines and patterns in online articles. No matter what kind of subject matter and style, it is actually the same. You first have to make the reader feel that the protagonist is in some kind of predicament, and make the reader feel that they want to see him get out of it.

And then you make people and things that make the protagonist unhappy – and the reader wants to see the protagonist get out of trouble.

In the process, you also have to tell the reader what kind of characteristics the protagonist has, so that they can expect that the protagonist can turn over or kill in the future.

Then the protagonist is in a predicament, various clues are intertwined, and contradictions are detonated - the "big climax" comes.

For example, the protagonist who is despised knows that there will soon be a school competition. And now he is being bullied and given powerful secret exercises.

For example, a man is destitute and desperate, but he has the skill to live the flesh and bones of the dead. And now the girl he likes, the powerful father is about to die, and he is still being bullied by his rival, his future father-in-law.

Dilemma – anticipation – eruption. Such a pattern runs through almost the entire web article, the authors are proficient in writing, and the readers are also proficient in reading. And then it's stuck in a loop, and it's hard to get out.

So after writing for so many years, I found that I was still the same person I was eight years ago, and I had learned almost nothing.

The book started with a desire to try something new, a little more "advanced" to me. I don't want to write like this all the time. And want to write a main line, and then there are several branch lines intersecting. There may be only a few connections between the branches, but they will eventually coalesce and explode in a concentrated manner.

If you follow the well-known "mature" online writing method, there should be three or four short-term and fast dilemmas, expectations, and explosive climaxes in such a long process. Those branches that eventually converge should be picked out separately in the process and used as a segmental advancement - no suspense, no foreshadowing, just flat and direct narrative to reduce the thought process, and then mass sales pleasure.

This time it's more capricious, and I want to maybe make a breakthrough - who said that the rhythm of online articles has to be short and flat to model readers to buy it? Then, as you know, it failed. The first order was so miserable that I once wanted TJ to reopen.

In fact, the reason for the small number of first orders was quickly figured out - I didn't further call myself more patterned and routine, but wanted to try "advanced". This makes the first half look "dull" and "slow".

But it's just because of that feeling — I look at what I wrote ten years ago, and I think it's good.

It's as if Ding Yi said, I'm already a few hundred years old, and I'm still teaching physics in college.

Eight years ago, when I was here, I was still thinking about its structure and technique. Now, my instinct is to think "where is the coolness" - which makes me feel a little ashamed.

However, the problem does not stop there - what is more terrible is that when I want to break through and try, I am still thinking about how to "online readers". This makes me want to deviate from the stereotyped way of writing in the process of writing, and I can't help but want to get closer to the stereotyped way of writing. This state is terrible...... When writing down every word, sentence, and plot, the instinctive thought in my head is not "how is it here", but "what will the reader think about this place".

Yes...... I was going to write a testimonial essay. As a result, it has now become a discussion of writing techniques.

I guess it's because of my status issues these days...... Right now I'm quitting smoking. The "clean" period after the last quit lasted about two and a half years...... Then accidentally relapse. Before the relapse, I thought I would never smoke again in my life, but I took it lightly during the Chinese New Year last year and have been relapsing until now.

Last night, I watched a movie about a man who successfully quit drugs. So I thought about it, and I'm going to quit it in the new year. As a result, the whole body now feels like a fog, and the consciousness and body are in the wrong position. And because of the abnormal disorder of work and rest in the past few days, and the combination of various factors, my mind is now chaotic and chaotic, and I don't know what to say when I speak.

By this point, I couldn't remember the last time I went to bed.

But it also has something to do with what I said earlier - the grades are not very good, so the mentality is unbalanced, so the sleep is irregular, and I am anxious, so I can see that I made several promises this month: how much to update on a certain day, and then it didn't happen. How many updates will be made in the next few days, and then they will not meet the target.

Actually, I was also a little miserable during this period - I woke up in a daze. Then wash and shovel the feces and feed the cat. Then sit down in front of the computer and start coding.

When I wrote about the excessive plot that I didn't feel very much, I thought: Will they not like it? But this is excessive...... Why don't you add a setting and add a suspense to attract everyone? No, no, no, no, you haven't tasted enough of the bitter fruit of random settings?

When I write about my favorite plots, I want to smoke. But after a while, I was discouraged: it seems that there are not many subscriptions for new books, and it seems that everyone doesn't like it very much...... Hey, if only more people could see this kind of plot.

And then spend hour after hour in this tangled and contradictory state, watching the time pass and renew the time approaching, and I am amazed, ah...... Why haven't you finished writing yet.

And then now I realize that I have fallen into a misunderstanding...... When I wrote a long, long time ago, I only wrote what I liked to read. If you like it, show it to everyone, and then find resonance. But nowadays, when I write, I often ignore my own subjective feelings, and think about "what will happen to the readers".

Personally, this means that I can't devote all my emotions and energy to words, and be distracted by other things—tips, subscriptions, reviews.

Actually, that's just the point of getting to the problem I want to talk about – the problem is probably all on me.

I forgot how I felt when I uploaded the first chapter of the Codex to the starting point website eight years ago...... At that time, I didn't think about subscriptions and income, but only about whether the story was interesting or not, whether it was what I wanted to express. At that time, there was no craftsmanship, and I didn't think about any skills and rhythms, everything came from instinct.

Now I think too much and worry too much, and I don't have that kind of "original intention". Many of my thoughts are actually about financial interests—though in large part because time goes by, and I don't have to think about so many practical things to live in the realm of dreams forever—but they do seem to have had an impact on my writing.

So if I consider today, January 1, 2019 as the starting point of the new year, I hope that I can get out of this predicament. When the demon hit the shelves last year, I said that I wanted to leave something in a hundred years, and I still think so. It's not that I'm not satisfied with the finished part of Kamage's book—I'm actually glad that I'm able to stick with it and practice a new way of writing.

Rather, I hope that in the next year, when I write, I can use "good looks" as my sole purpose. It's not to ignore the feelings of the readers, but I think it's beautiful...... You're going to think it's good-looking, hahaha.

It's like who thinks that my Liu Shengci's book is not good!!

This is a not very festive New Year's message. But I'm a person, because of a bit of so-called literati, I don't like to canvass for votes with everyone and ask for all kinds of things. But I think it's good - gentlemen's friendship is as light as water.

In short, it's almost like that, in the new year, I hope I can get back to my original intention and get better and better. Everything is my own problem, and I will adjust it well. The new book didn't get a good grade, but I won't give up. Take your time and write slowly...... Hard work always pays off.

I also hope that when you do anything, you will not forget your original intention. Don't forget why you did it in the first place, and why you persevered.

In 2019.

When we were young, it was the year that existed in science fiction. Let's forge ahead.