During these days, Xi Zhi always heard her mother telling her father that she should be in a hurry about her marriage. But what she loves in her heart is her husband Qiao Luoyu. But she also knows in her heart that there should never be any personal relationship between teachers and students, and this relationship will eventually face social criticism, not to mention that she is wishful thinking, she thinks about others a thousand times a day, but people may not put themselves in their minds for a day. Even if he takes 10,000 steps back, this society doesn't care about us, and Mr. Qiao has affection for himself, but he has a disabled leg, and he doesn't care, and it's hard to ensure that his parents don't care.

Xizhi has lived in the boudoir since she was a child, and has never been in love with any man, even if she goes to study in a private school, her eyes are focused on Mr. alone, and she has never paid attention to other boys.

On this day, Xi Zhi got out of school and wrote at home. At noon, Lian Yu ran over, with a worried face, looking at Xi Zhi just looking like she was spitting out. Xi Zhi looked up and asked, "What's wrong?"

Lian Yu looked at Xi Zhi's eyes and said, "Miss, it seems that someone has come to the door to propose." Xi Zhi was shocked and asked, "Who is it?" Lian Yu said: "I heard that it was Yin from Runing Mansion who came to ask for a marriage. His son-in-law is young and weak, and he wants to get married to our family. The lord has already agreed. ”

Xi Zhi didn't know what it was like in her heart, she hadn't even seen this son, how could she talk about marriage? 'I don't have to hate this body for a long time' The pain she tasted today, she looked at Lianyu in a daze and said, "You have a sad face, why is it?" Lianyu bowed her head and said: "Miss cares about Mr. Qiao, Lianyu knows." ”

Xi Zhi's heart throbbed, and she murmured, "Then what should I do now?"

"Go to the gentleman and show your heart. "Pity Yu said.

"But he can't promise me. A layer of mist floated on Xi Zhi's eyes.

"Who said that, I see that when you were in his house that day, my husband was not without affection for you. Lianyu said, "You can go and try it." ”

"Who would look up to a woman like me who is not outstanding in appearance and not very good at learning?" said Xi Zhi.

"Miss, why do you always say this? In my opinion, there is no girl who is more beautiful and more talented than you on this huge Bianliang Road. Can the people taught by Mr. Qiao be wrong?" said Lianyu with a smile.

Xi Zhi was moved, thinking that if her teacher could know her heart, maybe the teacher would be able to take her out of here and go to a place where no one knew them, so that no one would say that they were teachers and students. She nodded, put down the pen in her hand, and pulled Lianyu out the door. On the paper she left behind, there was a line of poetry: If the surplus will not be enough, I am afraid that the years will not be with me.

In the private school, the people have dispersed, and outside the corridor of the silent study, the blue hibiscus flowers bloom all over the garden. A flute sound came slowly, half of the song contains autumn thoughts, half of it is far away, and it sounds smart and affectionate, as if it can entangle people's hearts. Xi Zhi slowly approached, and Qiao Luoyu was looking at the hibiscus flower in the garden. Lian Yu didn't approach on the side, and Xi Zhi stepped forward.

"It's a nice sound. Xi Zhi sighed, "It seems that I am drunk with this hibiscus flower." Luo Yu put down the flute, his thin back merged with the halo shining into the corridor, and said: "The sound of the flute and the hibiscus flowers are ruthless, but it can be said that Xi Zhiyi said that this situation is also affectionate." Xi Zhi said: "Mr. actually heard that it was me." Luo Yu turned his wheelchair, looked at Xi Zhi who was dressed in a light pink silk robe, and smiled: "What's the matter with me?" Xi Zhi said: "Recently, I read "Song of Long Hatred" at home, and there is a sentence 'Mandarin duck tile cold frost is heavy, and who shares the jade and cold', which is particularly sentimental to read. Luo Yu said: "The Yiren have passed away, and they are just empty mourning." Xi Zhi said: "But after all, Tang Xuanzong once had a period of time with Yang Guifei. Luo Yu's heart moved, and he did not answer. Seeing that he didn't answer, Xi Zhi's face turned red. He continued: "I like to stroke the qin, Su Shi said, 'If there is a sound on the qin, why not sound it in the box.'" If the words are on the fingers, why don't you listen to them on the fingers of the king?' What do you mean by that?" Luo Yu said: "All kinds of things in this world must be compatible with each other, if only one party is intentional, and the other party is ruthless, it will not work after all." Fuqin is like this, and so is the, if I only have fingering, and without the natural long-term affection of this flute, there will be no good music. "The piano flute has been considered a perfect match since ancient times, and only the piano flute is the most tacit understanding between heaven and earth...... "Xi Zhi muttered, Qiao Luoyu slowly lowered his gaze towards Xi Zhi, Xi Zhi looked at Luo Yu tightly, wanting to see if he reacted, but for a long time, Luo Yu just stopped talking, Xi Zhi was sad in her heart, knowing that she had no chance with him after all, and said: "The falling flowers intentionally follow the flowing water, and the flowing water has no intention of falling in love with the falling flowers." Sir, I'm sorry, I said so many upside-down nonsense words today, disturbing your. Xi Zhi was wrong, Xi Zhi said goodbye. When she turned around, tears rolled down, and she wiped them off with a handkerchief and hurried away. Qiao Luoyu raised his head and looked at her back, and there was a trace of sadness in his heart.

On September 20, the Nguyen Mansion hosted a banquet to congratulate Nguyen Si Zhi, the daughter of Nguyen Van Van of Bianliang Road, and Lu Yin Cong, the son of Yin Lu Shaoyuan, the governor of Runing Province, on their engagement. Unmarried couples do not need to meet to avoid suspicion. Xi Zhi stayed in the room, listening to the sound of firecrackers outside the door, thinking that all the people on Bianliang Road knew about it. Then he also knew, Xi Zhi thought. But what can he do if he knows, he just understands the meaning of my going that day, but he can't change the facts.

Lianyu has been accompanying Xizhi in the room, knowing that Xizhi is melancholy, so she doesn't go outside to see the excitement. She quietly ran to Xi Zhi's side and asked, "Miss, don't you really want to see what that Lu Gongzi looks like?" Xi Zhi said: "I won't tell you, I always have a faint feeling in my heart, as if I and this Lu Gongzi will not be able to get married at all." It's as if this person has nothing to do with you. Lian Yu said: "If it's really like what Miss said, then does Miss have a fate with Mr. Qiao?" Xi Zhi said gloomily: "Even if he is interested in me, it will be even more difficult for us to get married." Although I was not afraid, I always felt that there was a lot of fog ahead in my heart, and I couldn't figure out the way. She sighed and said to Lianyu: "Mr. doesn't like me, that Lu Gongzi and I are just the words of my parents, and I have no real feelings." It seems that I am emotionally alone. ”

There was footsteps in the hallway, it was Mrs. Ruan. The woman was dressed in a purple shirt with wide sleeves, and a gold-inlaid step on her head swayed lightly, looking graceful. When she saw Xi Zhi, she asked, "Why don't you go outside and take a look, even if you don't want to see others, it's good to see Yin Cong." Xi Zhi snorted and said, "What's so good." People don't like me, they just follow my parents' will. Mrs. Ruan said: "When we get along in the future, we will naturally have feelings." Oh, by the way, you got engaged today, and you didn't invite your husband to come, is that appropriate?" he said and walked out, leaving a sentence: "I'll go and invite someone." She stood up and shouted, "Don't go, don't go!" But the mother had already walked away.

After a long time, there was no movement. Xi Zhi was reluctant to go out, and if her husband came, she would not go out. Late at night, the people had dispersed, and Xi Zhi was stunned to think about whether Mr. was here, and she was guessing what this Lu Gongzi looked like. The mother came into the room and pulled Xi Zhi to talk about her thoughts about not wanting her daughter to marry, and Xi Zhi felt bitter when she heard it. Mrs. Ruan said: "Mr. Lu has no appearance and character, I heard that you are proficient in piano and calligraphy, and I also admire a girl like you." "Xi Zhi thought that my piano was for his flute, and my books were his mantle. She asked in a low voice, "What about Lu Gongzi, do you have any hobbies?" and her mother said, "He usually likes to hunt in the forest." Maybe some poetry books, too. When Xi Zhi heard this, her heart was at a loss. But he heard his mother say, "Your family affairs are set on the tenth day of the tenth month of October." There are still twenty days. Xi Zhi's heart suddenly felt a pang, and she asked, "Why is it so fast?" and her mother said, "This is still fast? How old are you, it's time to get married." ”

"That'...... Did you ...... that gentleman came today?" asked Xi Zhi in a weak voice.

"That gentleman of yours, although he looks arrogant, he is not unsympathetic, I don't know how to shirk it today. If you don't come, you won't come, there's not even a reason. Mrs. Ruan's face was obviously displeased.

Xi Zhi seemed to have been struck by lightning, and her face turned pale. Although she knew that no one told her that her husband should not come, she didn't expect her husband to even have a reason to refuse. It can be seen that in his heart, she should be lighter than a feather. Yes, a teacher, who is still so talented and born with a face like a crown of jade, how can he like a female student who is not outstanding in appearance and is a little stupid, and his talent is not looked down upon. Xi Zhi couldn't help but sneer, Mr. Secretly, you are too ruthless!

Suddenly, Xi Zhi seemed to feel that this boy who had never met her was better to her than her husband, as if she felt that everyone in this world had abandoned her, only that Lu Gongzi was still thinking about herself, and a warm current surged in her heart instantly. He said angrily in his heart: "Qiao Luoyu, don't think that I have no one to like anymore! Everyone in this world is more affectionate than you, I was wrong before! Besides, how can I fall in love with you who can't stand up!" Thinking of this, he immediately stopped, and began to feel sad and painful for Qiao Luoyu in his heart.

She forced a smile and said, "Oh yes. Well, let's get married on the 10th day of October. ”

The wedding day is getting closer and closer, but Xi Zhi has to fiddle with the bamboo leaves and chess pieces brought back from the bamboo forest every day, guessing that this chess piece should be the teacher's, but I don't understand why it is embedded in such a thin bamboo leaf.

At the beginning of October, news came that the imperial court wanted a group of young men to serve in the conscription. Xi Zhi once heard her mother say that although Lu Yincong is the right age, her father's official position is still relatively high, so she can not push it off. The wedding day is getting closer and closer, and a large number of officers in the city of Bianliang Road have begun to appear door-to-door to catch strong men. Xi Zhi's dislike for the Mongols was even worse.

On the seventh day of the first month of October, Lu Gongzi sent someone to send a bracelet, saying that it was for Xi Zhi. There are eight beads on this bracelet, which are silver, shining with a beautiful halo, and the beads are strung together with several small round balls, which has a unique charm. There is also a letter, and I took out a piece of paper, and on it was quite delicate words: Sister Zhizhi, I will treat you well for the rest of my life. It's just fifteen words, but it's very sincere, and Xizhi is quite comforted in her heart. But after a while, he still couldn't resist the deep grief in his heart, and the bracelet was untied and put aside, and he picked up the chess piece again, with tears in his eyes.

Late at night, it was pitch black in the woods. Xi Zhi followed the person in front of her and walked forward, she couldn't see that person's face, she only vaguely knew in her heart that he was Lu Yincong. The two of them shuttled through the woods, and Xi Zhi was confused. Suddenly, there was a shout in front of her, and Xi Zhi ran forward to take a look, and it turned out that Lu Yincong had fallen into a big pit for hunting. Xi Zhi thought that she was his wife and should save him, so she jumped into it and jumped in. The pit was overgrown with weeds, and Xi Zhi felt a faint pain on her body, thinking that she had fallen and injured herself when she jumped in. Suddenly, she saw that the person in front of her was not Lu Yincong, but Qiao Luoyu who she was thinking about, and she was surprised. Qiao Luoyu stepped forward to support her, and asked softly, "Xi Zhi, did you hurt yourself in the fall?" The pain on Xi Zhi's body was gone, and she was surprised: "Teacher, you can walk!" Qiao Luoyu smiled and said, "Yes." Xi Zhi looked at him and said, "Brother Luo Yu, actually, you also like me, right?" Luo Yu gently pulled her into his arms, looked at Xi Zhi affectionately, and a kiss fell on her cold lips.

Suddenly woke up, a dream. Xi Zhi found herself lying on her bed, with a red wedding dress and beaded jewelry next to the bed. I knew in my heart that if it was dawn, it would be the tenth day of October.

There was a burst of leakage, and Xi Zhi got out of bed and looked out the window at the endless night, thinking far away. The falling flowers were silent, and the moonlight tonight turned the courtyard into a dream, but in her heart, after all, she sighed endlessly. Looking back at the blood-red wedding dress, my heart was only painful and painful, and I was dazed. How much I want to cut off the wedding dress that wrapped around her heart, let her escape from this desperate situation, and escape into the arms of Qiao Luoyu, just like the last dream. But who could save her, and who could hear everything she hoped for, but it was just her own wishful thinking. The autumn breeze poured into her robe, and she closed her eyes, tears sliding down her face.

Quietly dressed, she ran out. On the bluestone pavement, through the cold and sadness, the autumn wind swept the ends of her hair, but she felt extremely heavy. After running for a long time, I looked back, the vast night, the cold January stared at her quietly.

When she ran to the private school, she knew that she would never be able to come here again. The familiar hibiscus flower, the familiar figure as warm as jade, the familiar breath and voice, she has to say goodbye at this moment. Turning around, she looked at the place where Qiao Luoyu used to blow the flute, and shouted loudly: "Brother Luoyu, God is so ruthless, and you are also ruthless." We will never have a chance again in this life!" A gust of wind blew her handkerchief out of nowhere......

Back in the room, Xi Zhi couldn't sleep anymore, and two lines of tears wet half of the pillow. She said faintly trembling in her heart: "God, I just want to marry someone who is happy with me. ”

The East has turned white, and some relatives and friends have gathered in front of Ruan's mansion to send off relatives. Suddenly, there was the sound of horses' hooves. After a while, Lianyu hurriedly ran over, came to Xizhi, and said, "Miss, there is news bigger than the sky!" Xizhi hurriedly asked why. Lian Yu said: "Miss knows that the government has been arresting Zhuang Ding recently, and I happened to arrive at Runing Mansion the day before yesterday." The Lu family was powerful, and they could have said that they would not go, but who knew that their family was unwilling to negotiate with the Mongols, although they packed up the house and prepared to get married, they still let Lu Gongzi go out to hide yesterday, and the son went out hunting. But who knew that when he met the Mongols who were about to leave in the woods, the Mongols couldn't help but say that they had taken him away, saying that they were the number of people who were forced to serve. An old servant of his family came home to tell the news. Xi Zhi hurriedly asked, "That means they knew the news yesterday." Lian Yu said: "Yes, they said that they hurriedly chased after them yesterday, but the people who chased them all came back, some said that they didn't see the arrested people at all, and some said they saw it, but they didn't see Lu Gongzi." Their family is now telling us that they are in a hurry to find a way. Xi Zhi said gloomily: "It has always been the children of rich families who do not do forced labor, and the poor families have to be forced to go by the majesty of the government." Who knew that Lu Gongzi's fate was ill-fated, and he was also arrested. "Lian Yu said: "Miss, what should you do about your marriage now?" Xi Zhi said: "Now the captured strong man does not know where he was taken, saying that he is a miscellaneous errand soldier, but there is no fixed number of what to do, where to rescue?" Before the words fell, I saw a woman walk into the house and said: "Miss Xi Zhi, our family Yincong knows that you are proficient in piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, and I admire you very much." Xi Zhi hurriedly stood up, lowered her head and whispered, "I really don't dare to do it." I...... I don't know how to play chess and draw. Mrs. Lu said: "Now my son is suffering, but he is not dead, and he will come back after the conscription." You've got the name of husband and wife. Xi Zhi didn't understand what this meant. Mrs. Ruan came in with a heavy face and said, "Now I have asked our master, there are currently Jiangsu, Zhejiang, Jiangxi, and Huguang provinces that need to build water conservancy, and Lu Gongzi should be transported there." Mrs. Lu burst into tears when she heard this, and choked up: "It's not close, I don't know where he went, what should I do?" ”

As the night fell, Mrs. Ruan entered Xi Zhi's room in a haggard state, and Xi Zhi asked, "Mother, what's wrong?" Mrs. Ruan said: "Child, you don't know, the Mongols have never treated us Han people well, this is because our family's official position is quite high so that they have not been treated badly, but do you think that Lu Yincong was arrested to do conscription, can he come back alive?" If you remarry, the people on this Bianliang Road will say that you are not chaste, and no one will dare to marry you. You're so young......" Madame Nguyen said with tears in her eyes. Xi Zhi said: "It seems that I am a sad person with this Lu Gongzi. He sneered as he spoke. Mrs. Ruan said: "It's okay if the Lu family over there gives you a letter of resignation, but their family will not take out this letter of resignation when they die, you think, if his son comes back in the future, it will be bad if he doesn't have a daughter-in-law, and even if his son dies, they always have to find the body, and they don't want their son to be lonely in the tomb at that time, and they will be buried with you after you die." Xi Zhi shuddered at the thought of being buried with someone she had never met, and she hurriedly said, "Then what can be done now?" Mrs. Ruan shook her head and said, "I haven't thought about it either." I can't ruin your life. Alas, if only that Lu Gongzi could come back. Lianyu came over and said, "Madam, don't be too sad, let me help you go back first." ”

Xi Zhi looked at the silver bracelet blankly, the handwriting on the paper was still warm, and she couldn't help but feel that everything that happened was like a dream. Lianyu came back and closed the door tightly. asked, "Does Miss have any plans now?" Xi Zhi shook her head. Lianyu said: "Then why don't you say it to Teacher Qiao anymore, Lianyu also heard what you said to Mr. in the distance that day, I don't understand those poems or anything, but I always feel that I haven't clearly expressed my heart." Xi Zhi turned her head to look at Lianyu's eyes and said, "Those Mr. Shiwen know in your heart, although you don't understand, but he must be clear." Forget it, I won't take the initiative to find him again in this life, and he just doesn't like me and doesn't love me. Lianyu asked, "What should the young lady do?" I listened to Madame's meaning, no one will marry you again on this huge Bianliang Road. Xi Zhi didn't say anything, but she looked at the words on the paper in her heart. The four words 'one life' slowly overlapped in his eyes, and his heart suddenly felt extremely pitiful for this person.

This night is breezy, the moon is missing a small side after all, and between the dust projections, the red candle is clearly extinguished. Xi Zhi sat at the writing table and said to herself, "If I wait like this, I don't know when!" Even if I have someone who is in love with me in the future and wants to marry me, but not to mention that this society will not agree, even I think that Lu Gongzi is too pitiful. ”

Lianyu said: "Miss, but you really can't wait for a lifetime for someone you have never met." ”

Xi Zhi suddenly had an idea in her mind, this idea made the sorrow in her heart for many days be swept away for a while, her eyes lit up, and she said softly: "Let's go find Lu Gongzi!"

Lian Yu's eyes widened, and she asked, "Miss, you said we were going to find Lu Gongzi!" Xi Zhi smiled and said, "Yes, I haven't been far away since I was a child, and I just want to go outside to enjoy the scenery of heaven and earth." Escape from this pedantic and ignorant Bianliang Road. If I can find Lu Gongzi, I will find it, if I can't find it, I don't want to come back after all, with my only learning, I can also be a teacher outside!" Xi Zhi asked, "What's wrong?" Lian Yu said, "Miss, Madam won't let you go out of a girl's house." Xi Zhi said: "Of course you have to accompany me." Let's just go out. Lian Yu said: "Of course, I accompany Miss, but the two of us go to find Lu Gongzi too little." Xi Zhi said: "Who else can I find but the two of us? If there are too many people, I will let my mother know, and once she knows, she will never let me go out." ”

Lianyu's eyes were bright, she held Xizhi's hand, and said solemnly: "Miss, Lianyu has no relatives and no reason since she was a child, and she came to the Ruan family at the age of three, and Miss Domeng took care of her. I will always follow Miss, and I will do my best to protect Miss absolutely on this trip!" Xi Zhi smiled, looked at the eyes of the beautiful jade, and said, "I know that you are the best." We grew up together, I am two years older than you, and in my heart, you are my own sister. After thinking about it slightly, she continued: "Good sister, let's hurry up and steal some silver money from our mother these days, and then buy a few small clothes for women and men, so that there will be a lot of danger." Then let's set off at night and head straight south!"