When I was interning in Dongguan in the first semester of my senior year, the boss of the foreign trade company asked us a question at the regular meeting on Monday: "Dealing with customers is like falling in love, if you meet someone you like, will you take the initiative to confess?"

I remember that only one of the four boys in our company answered yes, and that person was not me.

I've always been a timid person and never dared to express my feelings to girls. Not only because I was not confident in my appearance, but most importantly, I was afraid of rejection, especially by someone I liked.

The taste of rejection is really painful.

However, even after most of my life, I still have the experience of confessing, and I confessed it in the second semester of my junior year (which happened to be the end of '18), and I still feel ashamed when I think about it.

At that time, my brother asked me: "xx, you have been in college for almost three years, do you have any girls you like?" If so, confess quickly, otherwise everyone will join the work in the future, and you will not have a chance to confess if you want to. ”

"What if I get rejected? I'm going to be embarrassed. ”

"It's nothing, confession is nothing more than two outcomes, acceptance and rejection are half each. Think about it, if she accepts, you'll have an extra girlfriend, and if she refuses, you'll have nothing to lose, won't you?"

I thought about it, my brother made sense, and with the mentality of giving it a go, turning a bicycle into a motorcycle, I decided to give it a try.

The first thing to confess is to find the object of confession. I closed my eyes, and the first thing that came to my mind was her image, and so my confession plan began.

"Brother, do you think it's better to confess by voice or message?"

"Either way, you can choose whichever way you think is more appropriate. "As a married man, my brother has a lot more experience in relationships than I do.

"Brother, I'...... Can I write a love letter?"

"What age are you still writing love letters? It's too old-fashioned, isn't it?" My brother looked at me with disdain, and I could only smile bitterly.

The first thing I tried was voice, and I recorded it several times, but I couldn't say a word, and I felt that this kind of sensual love words shouldn't come out of the mouth of people like me.

Then I tried to send a message, and the message was edited several times, and it started with a lot of love words that my scalp was numb, and I didn't put any emotion into it at all, I just felt pretentious and disease-free**.

Forget it, it's better for me to write love letters.

Prepare the pen and paper, I put pen to paper, I wrote a love letter immediately, then took a photo, deliberately waited until 12 o'clock in the evening to send it to her, and then immediately turned off the traffic, and waited until the next morning to check the message.

The next morning, the first thing she woke up was to turn on the traffic, and she replied with a large message, which can be summed up in four words: she refused.

I'm a little lost, but not sad.

I have never mentioned the rejection of my confession to anyone. I'm embarrassed to say this kind of thing, after all, it's not a glorious thing. I've always kept it a secret in my heart. I thought no one in the world would know this secret except me and her, but I was wrong.

She doesn't keep it a secret. During a big exam, she rented a room with my friend's girlfriend and accidentally said it as a joke to be told casually for everyone's amusement. In her eyes, the secret is just an after-dinner conversation for entertainment.

Ironically, if my friend hadn't told me, I would have thought my secret was unknown. At that moment, I was disappointed in her.

I just hope that everyone can become attractive people, waiting for others to confess to you, so that you don't have to experience rejection.