Chapter Thirty-Eight: Doubts in the Heart
Feng Shaoyang heard that Xue'er just asked herself to pay for a piece of clothing, and hurriedly said: "Xue'er, I'm really sorry, I caused you to have your clothes damaged and disrespectful." ”
Xue'er listened, and Zhengse said: "You have to remember, you are a man who is in the sky, some things, if you do something wrong, you are wrong, you don't need to say anything sorry, instead of begging for forgiveness, it is better to take responsibility with all your might." ”
Feng Shaoyang muttered to himself: "No need to apologize, take responsibility with all your might!" Then pondered for a moment, then looked at Xue'er with deep eyes, and said softly: "I understand, thank you!"
Only then did Cher breathe a sigh of relief, knowing that the depression in his heart had been relieved.
Then, Xue'er asked suspiciously, "What did you hear outside that door? ”
He hesitated for a moment, then sighed, and said slowly in a somewhat sad voice: "After I sent Uncle Qingyun away, I just walked outside the door and heard you say...... said that my soul was sealed and I would not be able to cultivate and advance for the rest of my life......" He paused for a moment and raised his voice to explain: "I was just anxious to see you, and I didn't mean to eavesdrop on you talking to the Dao Master. ”
Then, he continued: "It was only the surprised voice of the Taoist that startled me, and after listening carefully, I realized that you were talking about me. ”
Feng Shaoyang slowly walked two steps, came to the edge of the Qingxin Cave, looked at the mountains and green trees in the distance, and said in a somewhat heavy tone: "Xue'er, I listened to it at the time, and I felt that I was the most useless person in this world...... So, I often think that if I don't exist, or if I'm gone, maybe that's a good thing for you. ”
When Xue'er heard this, she was a little moved, and said, "Then you ran desperately to the cliff just to jump from there and understand everything from there?"
He hung his head and whispered, "I was so disheartened that I didn't want to see anyone to act so recklessly, but I didn't want to cause you to be trapped here......"
Xue'er saw his expression, so she said: "I can understand your mood at that time, so I don't blame you, I am afraid that no one can handle this matter calmly, not to mention, you have endured so much pain and suffering, and you have seen some progress, but you have heard this thunderbolt message on a sunny day......"
He blushed and said, "Cher, I feel very relieved that you can understand me, and I know that you will definitely understand me." ”
Xue'er smiled a little strangely and said: "Hehe, this can be regarded as a heart-to-heart, in the future, no matter what stupid things you want to do, you must think clearly first, whether I will follow you and accompany you, understand." ”
"No, in this life, you can only make a mistake once, fortunately this time it didn't cause a catastrophe, otherwise, I would really die a hundred deaths!"
Xue'er reprimanded: "You are really, don't say the word 'death' again in the future." ”
"Okay, okay! I'll just stop saying that in the future. ”
Feng Shaoyang looked at Xue'er's bright eyes in Qiushui, his heart moved, and he said softly in a slow tone: "Xue'er, I ......"
Seeing that he had only said half a sentence, Xue'er asked suspiciously, "What's wrong?"
"I ...... Can I ask you a question?"
"What's the problem?"
He hesitated, and said, "You...... Who the hell is it? Why are you helping me like this?"
“......”
Seeing that Xue'er was silent, he quickly explained: "Oh, I don't mean anything else, it's not that I don't believe you, I'm just confused." ”
After a pause, he turned his head to look at the distant mountain again, and said slowly: "I don't know who I am, where I came from, why did I come to Qingbi Mountain to cultivate?" I asked the Taoist chief several times, but he didn't answer positively, I was afraid that he would be embarrassed, so I didn't ask again. ”
Xue'er also said with some hesitation: "I don't mean to hide it from you, it's just that it's not the right time, you know too much, but it won't benefit you, and when you have the ability to bear all this in the future, you will naturally know." ”
He said a little anxiously: "I want to know why I can't practice qi, I have to spend your cultivation in vain to help me, what is the reason why you make such a sacrifice." ”
Cher asked a little angrily, "Don't you trust me?"
"No, Xue'er, don't get me wrong, this has always been a question in my heart, you suddenly appeared, but pushed me off the cliff, but you taught me to practice qi, and passed on the true qi to me, you have paid a lot, but I don't know it. Like you said, how much more have you given me, and what have you lost, I want to know, really want to know, all of this! I'm afraid...... I'm afraid that one day, you will leave suddenly, I don't know where to find you, I don't want to, I don't even have a chance to do a little bit for you!"
Xue'er's heart fluctuated when she heard this, how to say this, and how to say it to him? Thinking of this, she couldn't help but breathe, and even her breathing became heavy.
Feng Shaoyang saw that her expression was different, her eyebrows frowned, knowing that this question made it difficult for her to answer, she was afraid that she would be angry again, so she hurriedly said: "Xue'er, don't be embarrassed, I don't ask, and I will never ask again in the future, I just know that you are sincere for my good,"
Xue'er pondered for a while before she said slowly: "There are many doubts about you, and I still can't understand them in detail, just like the thing about your soul being sealed, who did it, and what is the purpose?"
When he heard this, he stopped asking questions and was silent in thought.
"But there is only one place where these mysteries can be solved. ”
He was surprised and asked, "What is it?"
"Kunlun Mountain!"
"Is it the Kunlun Mountain that is thousands of miles away?"
Xue'er nodded slightly and said: "There is a secret realm stone left by ancient times in Kunlun Mountain, which can be familiar with the secrets of the heavenly machine, if you can go to investigate, you will definitely know the clues." ”
He listened excitedly: "That's great, so you can know who I am!"
Xue'er said with a smile: "Please also ask Shaoyang Gongzi to be calm and not impatient, not to mention how to get the tens of thousands of miles of journey, and how much cultivation is needed to open the enchantment of the secret realm stone, but now you have to go out of this Qingxin Cave and leave Qingbi Mountain." ”
Feng Shaoyang listened, bowed his head and was silent, a little lost.
When Xue'er saw it, she smiled and comforted: "Don't worry, as long as you cultivate quietly, when you succeed in cultivation in two years, I will definitely accompany you there." ”
He nodded and said solemnly, "Okay, I will definitely listen to you!"
Then, Feng Shaoyang looked at Xue'er's pretty expression and said thoughtfully, "Xue'er, I'...... Also want to know ......"
Cher was a little angry and said, "What do you want to ask? ”
He said with some nervousness: "It's not ......"
Seeing that he stopped questioning, Xue'er was worried about what he was asking, so she thought for a moment and said, "What is it, let's talk about it!"
"You ......"
Xue'er looked at him and stopped, and said, "You are really, always talking and hesitating, how do you look like a dignified man!"
When he heard this, his face turned red, and he said urgently, "I...... I want to look at your face, it will warm my heart......"
"You?!"
"Xue'er, don't get me wrong, I don't know, why you always use a thin veil to cover your face, it looks very mysterious, although I look at the other side, but I can't see you clearly, but I want to look at you and remember your appearance, I'm afraid...... One day, you left me, and I won't find you again......"