Zong Xin has also figured out a lot of things these days, and he knows why he has always maintained a yearning for Bai Yu, because he likes her, and it is the first time he likes it from the bottom of his heart. This feeling Zong Xin has not found in the demon and Dugu Xingyue, nor has he found it in Ning An, but for Zong Xin, this feeling is not unfamiliar, and this feeling is the same for Mrs. Hua Rui at the beginning.

Originally, Zongxin really didn't find out, but after making love with Bai Yu, he found out about it. Zong Xin is not so stupid, but Bai Yu has always maintained a clear state in front of Zong Xin, no matter how high Zong Xin's martial arts practice, he will always look up at Bai Yu, thinking that she is a spotless fairy, and he does not dare to have the slightest thought about Bai Yu.

After the two made love, Bai Yu was no longer the spotless fairy, but a living woman. Zongxin also found that he liked her very much and was willing to spend the rest of his life with her. This is the second time that Zongxin has taken the initiative to have this idea, but the first time he faced Hua Ruifu, Zongxin missed...... was taken by Meng Chang first, but this time Zong Xin can guarantee that he is the first to succeed.

"Xianggong, we seem to ...... Never sat alone together. Bai Yu was very shy and didn't know what to say.

Zong Xin nodded and said, "It's true...... You seem to have something to ask me. ”

"Yes, I want to ask you...... Why didn't you kill me?" Bai Yu said: "If it weren't for your reminder, I wouldn't have found out the timing of the demon preparing to sneak attack. I can't be vigilant forever, you're deliberately acting for demons, just so that we don't kill each other. Moreover, even if I restrain your acupoint, with your skill and physical strength, you can completely conflict with the acupoint and directly subdue me, I won't have time to kill you at all. Maybe the demon doesn't know, but I know very well that you didn't kill me on purpose. ”

For the things in the cave, Bai Yu is the real party. Because the demon has been looking for an opportunity to kill himself and eat meat. After subduing Zong Xin, Bai Yu has been controlling Zong Xin's acupoints, and at that time, Bai Yu discovered that Zong Xin's physical strength and skill have not regressed at all, and from that time on, Bai Yu knew that no matter what he did, as long as Zong Xin wanted to kill himself, it would definitely be easy.

Zong Xin said: "Do you want to hear the truth or lies." ”

"Listen to the truth, of course. ”

"Monks just don't understand emotions, so at this time, they should say that they should listen to lies first. Zong Xin took Bai Yu into his arms, and although Bai Yu was shy, he didn't stop it.

Bai Yu snuggled in Zong Xin's arms and said depressedly: "Okay, listen to the lie first." ”

Zong Xin said: "Because I love you, I am even more reluctant to kill you." So even if I starve to death, I won't kill you to eat meat, if I am really forced to kill you, I will only let the demon eat your meat, and I will never eat a bite. ”

Bai Yu nodded, and then said, "What about the truth?"

"Actually, I wanted to kill you for meat, but that was before making out with you. Zong Xin said: "I didn't know how I felt about you before, but after making out with you, I understood that I really love you." I am willing to give up everything I have now for you, to keep your hair up and be an ordinary person for you, just the two of us, find a place where no one knows, and live a life of male farmers and female weavers...... It's better for me to bring a little money, buy a piece of land, buy some properties, and then let others serve the two of us, and live a comfortable life, it's too hard for men to farm and weave, I can't take you to live this kind of life, not to mention that our martial arts are so good, where can't we get a little money?"

'Poof~' Bai Yu covered his mouth and laughed, this Zongxin is quite good at joking. originally thought that he would talk about ordinary life, but it turned out that he still had to get a little money to live the life of a rich man. Of course, it's not wrong to think like this, Zong Xin has such a high level of martial arts, it is too easy for him to want money, and if he has the ability, he should live a better life, but this wind of words turned too fast, which made people want to laugh.

Bai Yu said: "Are you really willing?"

"Yes, if I were a person without a conscience, I would definitely do it. But I'm a person with a conscience, and I want to do it but I can't. Zong Xin said regretfully: "I can't leave this big family behind, and ...... My heart has been forced to accept a lot of unexpected circumstances, and I am responsible for them. ”

In fact, these words were also expected by Bai Yu, but after hearing these words, he felt a little happy and a little lost. Zongxin is not a heartless person, but a responsible man, who will not give up his responsibilities and obligations because of his momentary pleasure. At the same time, it would actually be good if he could stay and fly with him, although Bai Yu knew that this chance was very slim.

"I'm really happy that you can say that. Bai Yu smiled: "But I have one more question I want to ask, what is the difference between you loving me and the other three women?"

"The difference is that I love you a little more. ”

"How much?" Bai Yu asked, which made Zong Xin not know how to answer.

Zong Xin thought about it carefully for a moment, and then said, "I'll do the math...... You account for half, and the demons, Dugu Xingyue, and Ning An together account for half, and that's probably it. ”

"That's a lot, but I'm ...... Not as good as you think. In the cave, I ...... Very inferior. Bai Yu suddenly laughed, she really didn't expect Zong Xin to answer like this. In Zong Xin's heart, he was so important. In fact, the two had only made out a few times in the cave, and their performance at that time was ...... To be honest, Bai Yu himself didn't want to think back, he was too inferior, and he was not even as good as a woman in a green building.

Zong Xin comforted: "You are just too perfectionist, and when you think you are imperfect from the first moment, you will do everything. In fact, you just haven't figured out one thing, and it's not shameful to want to live. This is the human instinct to survive, just like making people commit suicide by holding their breath, this will never succeed, the human instinct is to live, and there is nothing to be ashamed of. ”

"Really?" Bai Yu immediately took a deep breath and held it in his chest, wanting to try to see if he really couldn't commit suicide.

This breath was held for a long time, and Bai Yu's face was flushed, but in the end, Bai Yu couldn't help but gasp. In fact, at that moment, Bai Yu was almost ready to seek death like this, but in the end it was unsuccessful.

Zong Xin said: "I know what you're thinking, and I can't stop it, I just want to tell you that there is nothing to be ashamed of living." You just didn't figure it out at the time, you thought your body had betrayed you, it wasn't, it was just the instinct to survive that forced you to do it. ”

Bai Yu plunged into Zong Xin's arms, although he didn't make a sound, Bai Yu's tears kept flowing out, and he forcibly endured his humble sobs.

Bai Yu had never experienced anything like that in a cave since she was a child, and after she ate her first cockroach, she thought she was no longer pure, and at that time hunger made her head dull, almost broken jars, and regarded herself as the worst woman in the world. What hurts oneself from purity is the heart that wants to live, so in order to live, Bai Yu will do anything.

After eating his fill, Bai Yu came to his senses completely. Recalling the events in the cave, Bai Yu was ashamed and wanted to die. After leaving Zong Xin this time, Bai Yu really planned to hand over the dragon vein to the master and find a place to commit suicide. But after Zongxin's enlightenment, she seemed to understand one thing, and there was nothing shameful about wanting to live.

Bai Yu's solidified heart finally melted, and she had no intention of committing suicide, but was ready to accept her current self and accept that unbearable memory. No matter how disgusting and humble this memory is, it is a part of her, and a very important part. What happened in the cave made her figure out a lot of truths, and at the same time she wondered what she really needed to be a human being.

In the past, Bai Yu thought that he had a heart to save the world, and wanted to purify the world through cultivating immortals. But after experiencing that incident, Bai Yu really understood that as an ordinary person, what they needed was not at all the ethereal things given by the gods and Buddhas in spirit, they didn't have too ambitious pursuits, and the things that ordinary people pursued were so simple that Bai Yu couldn't believe it at all, it was just a full mouthful.

It's not that Bai Yu didn't understand it before, and countless people had told her this truth, but Bai Yu didn't understand what was so great about eating a mouthful of food? In order to figure out some truths, Bai Yu even locked herself in her room for several days without sleeping, drinking or eating. And after a while, there will be a habit of avoiding valleys, and for Bai Yu, hunger is not a serious problem.

But now she understood, and she understood how terrible hunger was. In the face of hunger, Bai Yu's original fairy image no longer exists at all, for a few cockroaches or scorpions, she is willing to sleep with Zong Xin, and is even willing to seek Zong Xin's favor in the most humble way, as long as these things can enter her mouth, the sense of happiness is unimaginable.

Since Bai Yu has experienced the feeling of intimacy between men and women, the attraction of that kind of thing is second only to the thirst for food from hungry food. Bai Yu admitted his depravity, and he was no longer the pure and immaculate fairy he was at the beginning. It's just that after regaining her senses, Bai Yu didn't want to see such a self, she had learned all her life to avoid such a self from appearing in her vitality, but it was a pity that she didn't stand the test.

Bai Yu cried and cried, and felt that his movements were a little strange. Without noticing at all, Zong Xin had already flattened Bai Yu, and the two of them were lying on the bed, although Bai Yu's head was still in Zong Xin's arms, but at this time Bai Yu didn't want to cry anymore, because she felt ...... Zongxin had other ideas.

What Bai Yu didn't expect was that Zong Xin held her like this and didn't do anything again, and soon Bai Yu heard Zong Xin's soft snoring, which made her sure that Zong Xin had fallen asleep.

Bai Yu did not push Zong Xin away, but hid in his arms and remained motionless. Although the two of them don't spend much time together, it's actually a lot. This is the first time that Zongxin has hugged himself to sleep so quietly, feeling very relieved and warm, as if a world surrounds him, and there is no safer place than here.

Bai Yu got a sense of security that he hadn't felt for a long time, and he relaxed all his body. Although there was an urge to look forward to what Zong Xin would do to him just now, but now Bai Yu finally understood that Zong Xin really liked him, because at such a close distance, Bai Yu could completely hear Zong Xin's heartbeat, and his heartbeat seemed to be calling his name.

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