Chapter 110: The human heart is difficult to discern
Shen Yifan was discovered before he could hide, and smiled a little embarrassedly: "At the end of this mission, the general will transfer me to Bianliang." I want to ask some private rules and the like in Bianliang, and they said they can come and ask you, you are good at this kind of thing. ”
Han Yan walked down the steps, looked at him for a while, and asked, "What do you want to know?"
Shen Yifan was stunned for a moment: "You can ask anything?"
Han Yan looked at the closed door behind him, walked a little farther away, and nodded: "Ask, as long as I think I can answer, I can tell you." Seeing that Shen Yifan didn't speak, he added: "Let me introduce, I am responsible for explaining the rules of the Ouchi for the new guards in the Ouchi, and occasionally training the new guards for the kind of position." The Ninth Prince took you to Bianliang, just to let you into the Great Interior, right?"
Shen Yifan hesitated for a moment: "Sort of, temporarily enter the inner hall to be in charge of the puppet palace case." ”
Han Yan shrugged: "You still have the rank of seven killings, and you are holding a good fortune, it seems that you are a beautiful difference." But it's really difficult for a newcomer like you to be in charge of tracking down the puppet palace. ”
Shen Yifan asked, "Do I need to pay attention to anything?"
Han Yan tilted his head: "Now there are only two chief and deputy privy envoys in Da Nei, Prince Huan and Little Wangye. Originally, the two princes were in charge of Ouchi, and the other two adults were in charge of the Kirin Pavilion. Now the position of privy deputy in charge of the Qilin Pavilion is vacant, and it is basically taken over by the little prince. And the puppet palace case that you are responsible for, in addition to the guards that the adults will assign to you, there should also be the little prince involved. Therefore, during your time in the future, the first person you need to understand is not our privy envoy, but the little prince who has the most contact with you. ”
Shen Yifan understood all of this, nodded when he heard the words, and motioned for him to continue.
Han Yan said: "Then let's talk about these two princes." First of all, although the Lord is a privy envoy, he has always been unquestionable about the Qilin Pavilion. What he did was basically to be in charge of the investigation of the new guards, the assignment of tasks, the torture of some of the captured prisoners, and so on. In fact, the Privy Council, or our internal system, should also be aware that not everything needs the consent of the Privy Council and the Privy Vice-Envoy to be carried out, and only the more important part of it needs the participation of adults. And the puppet palace you are responsible for clearly falls into this category. In other words, as long as you have a question, you can ask the two adults directly. ”
"The Privy Envoy stays in Ouchi almost every day, and his resting place is also in the palace. You can report or ask adults at any time, and adults will never blame them. And the little prince, although he has taken over the affairs of the Qilin Pavilion now, he will also take care of the affairs of the big house, but he has always been lazy. If adults are people who will take the initiative to find something to do if they have nothing to do, then the little prince is a person who will basically not have much to do as long as he does not make mistakes. But what is certain is that the little prince is definitely not a person who is a corpse meal, and all things that are difficult can also be asked to the little prince. It's just that because the little prince stays in the Qi Palace, and there is a certain distance from the Great Inner to the Qi Palace, so we usually look for adults, which is more convenient. There are also the archives of the Kirin Pavilion and the interrogation of the prison......"
Shen Yifan listened to him silently talk about these trivial details, nodded from time to time, and wrote them down carefully.
Han Yan carefully told Ouchi about a bunch of Ouchi's habits and some skills outside the rules that were taught to the new guards like an endorsement, and he talked for nearly two moments before he stopped, and asked, "Is there anything else you want to ask?"
Shen Yifan thought for a while and asked, "Can you tell me about the temperament of the little prince and the issues that need to be paid attention to when getting along with him?"
Han Yan was slightly stunned: "Didn't I say it? The little prince is not in good health, and the time he came to Da Nei is also unstable. He is accustomed to putting together things that are not urgent for a period of time, so we are also used to putting down the things that are not urgent first, and sending the important things to the Qi Palace. Except for very special circumstances, the little prince will not spend the night outside, which means that he will return to the Qi Wangfu every day before sunset. So when he is not in the Qi Palace, you will hand over the things that need to be handled by the little prince to his personal guards or personal maids. The little prince who can handle it on the same day will deal with it immediately after returning home, and ask you to enter the palace or send it to the palace in person. Every time the little prince leaves the mansion, he will tell his maid where he went today, so if there is something that he needs to deal with immediately, he will ask his maid to find him. In addition......"
Shen Yifan interrupted: "I remember this, I'm asking...... Is the little prince really as conscientious and responsible, unpretentious, kind and humble, and mingles with the guards?"
Han Yan seemed to hear a little bit of the meaning of the words, so he didn't answer: "Then what do you think?"
Shen Yifan hesitated for a moment: "Moody, reckless of human life, and hard-hearted as iron." ”
Han Yan couldn't help but chuckle: "I'm just curious, as the deputy general of the Seven Killing Army, it's normal for you to kill decisively and kill people as commonplace, why do you make such an evaluation?"
Shen Yifan closed his eyes and asked, "I don't know if Lord Han knows the murderous aura?"
Han Yan laughed: "Murderous aura, although I am not good at martial arts, and I am not a guard who runs errands, but I don't even know murderous aura, right?"
"I have no intention of looking down on adults. Shen Yifan apologized first before he continued, "Don't hide it, I was also a Jianghu before I joined the army, and the rivers and lakes are very different from the battlefield. But I think the killer's eyes are the same. The extreme disregard for life, that kind of look comes from the heart, and it can't be pretended. Little prince, how many people has he killed?"
Han Yan shrugged: "As far as I know, he has never killed anyone himself. Not to mention killing, even birds and beasts he may not have killed. ”
Shen Yifan frowned: "Haven't you killed?"
Han Yan replied very briefly: "He has a habit of cleanliness." ”
Shen Yifan was really choked by his answer.
Han Yan passed by him and walked out: "After you know what kind of person that guy named Tang Xiaoyu is, if you know a little more about the little prince, you will know why you think he is reckless of human life." ”
Shen Yifan asked, "Are you saying that I was wrong?"
Han Yan's footsteps paused slightly, and he continued to walk forward: "You are not mistaken, but what you see is not the same little prince as what we see. Regardless of whether he could understand it or not, he left on his own.
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It's late at night, and the lights are still bright and lively outside the window.
Zhao Qingyan shrank on the low couch in front of the window and read a book around the quilt, looking up from time to time to look outside for a while, and then re-arching his gaze to the book without turning it for a while.
When the flame of a short candle on the table flickered and went out, Jiang Wuyan, who was in a daze, also came back to his senses: "It's almost the fourth watch, aren't you resting?"
Zhao Qingyan stretched out his fingers and turned the pages of the book, and said lightly: "I don't want to sleep." The long eyelashes cast a shade of gray, making the already bloodied face even paler.
Jiang Wuyan turned to face him on the stool and asked, "Is it convenient to have a few words with me?"
Zhao Qingyan turned his head to look at him, and nodded almost inaudibly: "Say it." ”
Jiang Wuyan asked, "Don't you think your requirements for Hao Xuan are too high? ”
Zhao Qingyan closed the book, put it aside, and asked softly, "Isn't it slow?"
Jiang Wuyan hesitated for a moment: "Maybe half a move is slow, but it's only half a move." ”
Zhao Qingyan made a sound similar to a sneer in his nose, but there was no fluctuation on his face: "Since you know why I punished him for kneeling, why did you tell me this?"
Jiang Wuyan said: "No one will be without mistakes, you are too demanding." ”
Zhao Qingyan looked at him fixedly: "If I am not mistaken, you will also be slow." Are you making excuses for yourself?"
Jiang Wuyan nodded, and admitted it: "Even if it is." Because I know the reason for the distraction, that's why I'm going to tell you. The pain of the deceased is really too unbearable, and you should forgive him this time. ”
Zhao Qingyan turned his head to look at the scenery outside the window and did not answer. After a long time, he said in a low voice: "Do you think that if I don't punish him, he can forgive himself?"
Jiang Wuyan looked at Zhao Qingyan's back, with a little unbearability in his eyes: "The choice is in your hands, you have pushed yourself too hard." ”
Zhao Qingyan didn't answer his words, but just asked softly: "Do you remember the vast appearance of twelve years ago?"
Jiang Wuyan seemed to understand what he meant, and was silent.
"You said you didn't want me to push us too hard. But if you don't persecute it, where can you forget the hatred?" Zhao Qingyan looked at his shadow on the window paper, with no emotion in his eyes, "I can't forget the hatred myself, and where can I be qualified to ask Hao Xuan to forget?"
Zhao Qingyan smiled softly, but there was only sadness and loneliness in the laughter: "In addition to pain, what else can make us forget our hatred for a while? Jiang Wuyan, you shouldn't say such things." ”
Jiang Wuyan was silent for a long time, and only asked to spit out a sentence: "If you don't look back, you won't be able to go back." ”
"Then it's all gone. ”
Jiang Wuyan didn't say anything more, stood up and walked out: "There are three days left to get hired, and then I will leave." ”
Zhao Qingyan didn't move, let out a faint "um", and said no more.
Jiang Wuyan had already pushed the door out, grabbed the door with his hand, and finally said: "What I can do is to block the edge of the cliff so that you don't jump." If you want to jump, the only one who will accompany you is Ran Haoxuan. ”
"It's enough to have him. This is Zhao Qingyan's reply.
With him, I will have nothing to fear.
Jiang Wuyan's pupils shrank, opened his mouth, and closed it tightly.
Have you ever seen a pair of geese?
There are each other by the side, so they are never afraid.
Have you ever seen a widowed geese?
When there is no support around you, how can you live strongly?
People are not geese, and what you want is not as simple as husband and wife.
What you do is to cut open your broken heart again and fit the wound to another person. There is another person who bears your pain for you, and you also bear the pain of another person. You surrender your life to others to maintain temporary peace.
Don't you know what you'll be like if you lose your significant other?
Could it be that the man who stands on the top of the heroes of the rivers and lakes, leads the power of one side like the sky, and whose talent and arrogance have never been bent and damaged by half a point, and who is admired by the whole rivers and lakes, has ceased to be decadent and sluggish overnight, and is not a warning?
Do you think you'll be stronger than him?
Jiang Wuyan smiled bitterly.
He understands these words, and Zhao Qingyan also understands them.
Knowing this, there is no need to say more.
It's not that I'm stunned for a while, but I don't want to wake up at all.
Jiang Wuyan gently closed the door and left, leaving Zhao Qingyan alone in the empty room.
Zhao Qingyan's fingers grasping the quilt slowly contracted, and he fell into the quilt, and his palms trembled slightly. The thin lips pursed slightly, squeezing the last few traces of pale blood until they disappeared completely. did not expose his heart, only those eyes that were as deep as the stagnant water of a deep pool. The jet-black pupils are enough to swallow all emotions, enough to hide all the thoughts.
"Young Master, it's time to rest. I don't know how long it took, Ran Haoxuan walked back to the room and reminded softly.
Zhao Qingyan tilted his head slightly, looking at Ran Haoxuan silently, and the dim candlelight could not illuminate the emotions in his eyes. His hair hung down on his cheeks, his back was a little bent, and he was curled up in the quilt, which was too different from his usual appearance in front of people, as if he had changed into a different person.
Ran Hao was stunned, subconsciously lowered his head, and did not speak again.
"Then rest. Zhao Qingyan said lightly, put away his contemplation, slowly stood up, walked to the edge of the bed and sat down, a little careless, "The rest of the simple bracket doesn't need to be removed, so it's okay, let's rest." ”
Ran Haoyan was slightly stunned, but he didn't ask more, he answered in a low voice, and only when Zhao Qingyan lay down did he blow out the candle and go to the outside room to lie down.
The night was dark, and the sounds outside had calmed down. But the master and servant in the house had their own hearts and minds, and could not sleep for a long time.
Zhao Qingyan reached out and held the cold jade pendant on his chest, and gently closed his eyes, but his slightly furrowed eyebrows revealed his difficult to calm down.