Chapter Ninety-Five: A Painful Choice
Zhang Yunyan had already felt the love of the second prince, and at this time she had a new understanding, feeling that it was the love between brother and sister, and it was the heart of gratitude.
Now it's different, it's a marriage event, my brother will have new ideas, and the original love is two different things, and it can't be replaced.
Yunyan can't help but have scruples, if she is looked down upon by the second prince because of this, it will be too unworthy.
This is really, it is difficult to agree, it is difficult to give up, it is indeed difficult.
Zhang Yunyan thought about it, and for the two roads in front of her, she could only choose to give up marrying her brother and return to her homeland.
There is her roots, the homeland where she grew up, and the place where she spends her life, with unrelenting complexes and unfulfilled vows that cannot be given up.
Xiao Tianlong saw that Zhang Yunyan had not agreed to propose, and sighed, looking a little lost.
He sighed: "Yun Feiyan, I understand your thoughts very well, who can not want their hometown." The old man has been away from Tianyue Country for more than three years, and he misses it every day. He changed his words, "You are concerned about your hometown, it will not affect the marriage with the second prince, you can go back to your hometown to see when you miss it in the future." Don't worry, I'll send you back in person by then. ”
Xiao Tianlong's words may be the best of both worlds, not only to marry a good brother who is in love, but also to return to his own time to visit, to relieve homesickness, to fulfill the unfulfilled vows, neither of which will be lost.
"This ......" Yun Yan's open mouth closed again, and she didn't continue.
She listened to the words of the best of both worlds for the national teacher, and she was a little moved, and her hesitation was not completely eliminated, and she didn't know how to answer for a while.
Zhang Yunyan thought about it, but still didn't dare to agree, after all, there are thousands of years of time and space barrier between the two places, even if there is a treasure of heaven and earth to travel back and forth between the two worlds, it can solve the pain of homesickness for a while, and can only go back occasionally to take a look.
There are not many such opportunities, and the time is short, and it is difficult for her to complete the mission she has shouldered, and it is difficult for her to soothe her homesickness.
In addition, Zhang Yunyan has the most worrying things, and she can't be unscrupulous. Once something goes wrong with Tongtian Baolin, or for some reason she is cut off from returning home, she will be miserable and depressed for the rest of her life.
If she is blocked in her hometown, the husband and wife will not be able to see each other in this life in two worlds for thousands of years, and can only miss each other from afar.
The situation is even more miserable than that of the Cowherd and the Weaver Girl, as if it was a farewell to death.
If this is the case, not only will it hurt itself and the Zhang family, but also the second prince, and it will be worrying to think about it.
Zhang Yunyan sighed and said helplessly, "I'...... I'd better go back, lest I ...... Giving birth to a lot of trouble......"
She was very bitter in her heart, and her clever mouth was a little clumsy, and she spit out helpless and reluctant words.
Xiao Tianlong shook his head and felt deeply sorry: "The marriage event can't be forced, you really don't want to forget it, it's a pity that such a good marriage is a pity, and it's a pity that the king and queen love you." ”
Zhang Yunyan listened to the words of the national teacher, and felt the pain of loss again, and secretly complained to herself. Pain is useless, it is a choice she must have, and the only one, there is no other.
Although the marriage is good, it is a dilemma, and this good marriage is really a dilemma.
Yunyan was bitter and depressed, why couldn't she get the best of both worlds, could this be her life?
Zhang Yunyan doesn't believe in fate, and has been working hard, her experience is still bumpy, struggling.
At this moment, it is another dilemma, she is very distressed, is the marriage event so bumpy, can't she do it as she wishes?
She lost her fiancé Jun Jiaxiang's brother, and now she has lost her second prince, and it is really difficult to have a beautiful love.
Faced with the longed-for good marriage, Zhang Yunyan either agreed to stay or return to her hometown, and she had to choose one of the two, and ambiguity was useless.
This is the marriage of two eras, thousands of years of time and space barrier is a terrible reality, which cannot be changed, she can only choose to go back to her hometown. There are unfinished business, there is homeland and family affection, and in my lifetime, my hometown has given me a lot of memories that cannot be abandoned......
Her choice was inevitable, albeit reluctantly, very hesitantly, and she had to make a painful decision.
Zhang Yunyan looked at Xiao Tianlong, with anxious emotions in her eyes, and also had the pain of reluctance: "National teacher, I want to ask the king to send me back as soon as possible." ”
She was homesick and wanted to leave as soon as possible.
In addition, there is another reason, she is suffering from the pain of loss, and she does not want to worry about marriage anymore.
She felt as if she had done a bad thing, she had no shame to face the king, and she didn't dare to see the second prince, so she couldn't wait to leave Tianyue Country immediately.
Her state of mind at this moment could not be more appropriately described as evasive.
Zhang Yunyan rejected a rare good marriage and pushed the lovely beautiful man away, which was very reluctant and unavoidable. She has always been in love with her brother in the other world, and she is tormented by another loss.
She wants to escape from her beloved brother and get rid of the torment of fruitless love, although she can't escape, she can't get rid of it, she must face it, and it is also the inevitable state of mind at this moment.
The new pain of loss reminded Yunyan of her fiancé Jun Lin Jiaxiang, she was supposed to sing with Jiaxiang's brother and husband for the rest of her life, but her brother died because he saved himself, and his heart is still painful.
Brother Jiaxiang is also a lovely beautiful man, and he is also a longing for a good marriage, so she lost it, she could only suffer silently and cry silently.
Now that another beloved brother had left her, and such a good marriage had been rejected with great reluctance, she was deeply saddened, and a new wound had been added to her bitter heart.
Yunyan really wanted to be with the second prince for the rest of her life, but she was blocked by the reality that she couldn't have both. She didn't have the courage and ability to break through thousands of years of barriers, so she could only make a helpless choice, and could only be tormented by the pain of new loss.
Zhang Yunyan remembered the fate that Yue Hanmei said, and sighed secretly, how can she have a fate with the second prince?
Even if there is, it is a longing and love between the two worlds, and it is an unattainable dream.
What is lost cannot be regained, and then there is only pain, which cannot be dissolved for a while.
At this moment, Yunyan just wanted to escape, and wanted to leave her beloved brother as soon as possible, and leave the Tianyue Kingdom where she forgot to fight with her life.
She had no way to get rid of the pain of loss, she had feelings for Tianyue Kingdom, and she also felt the love and enthusiasm of friends from other worlds.
Zhang Yunyan loves her brother from the other world very much, and she is also very painful, and she wants to escape. However, she can't forget her beloved, and she still misses her from time to time, so she can only let time heal the pain in her heart.
Yun Yan was about to leave, and when she thought of the second prince, she sighed secretly, such a lovely marriage is over? Farewell to her beloved brother forever, can't you think of a way to achieve your wish with the best of both worlds......
Everything is unsolvable, this is an unresolved marriage, it is a fruitless love, she can only miss love and continue to suffer.
The next day, Zhang Yunyan had just had breakfast, and Xiao Tianlong came to inform her that he would send her back today. The national teacher must find the eldest prince as soon as possible, and then return to the Tianyue Kingdom.
The national teacher did not mention the marriage again, nor did he talk about the attitude of the king and queen, let alone the reaction of the second prince, it seems that this page has been turned.
Zhang Yunyan was tormented by the pain of loss, and seeing that the emotions and words and deeds of the national teacher were the same as usual, she guessed that the marriage matter was not mentioned to the king.
Yes, she disagrees with this marriage, and there is no need for the national teacher to mention it again.
At this moment, Yunyan's mood was mixed, not only relieved that the king did not know about this, but also felt even more cold because of this, and the desire to save the beautiful marriage faded away.
This page has already been turned, and it is pointless to think about it again, and it will only add to the annoyance, so let's treat it as if it has not been mentioned, and forget it.
Zhang Yunyan felt that she was ridiculous, a little shameless, the royal family had no intention, but she was delusional, self-torturing, and too self-inflicted.
However, she is in the country of Tianyue, she can't forget her beloved brother, she can't give up her beautiful marriage, she can't control her thoughts, she can't forget, and she can't "just treat it as if she didn't mention such a thing".
Although the king did not know that she was delusional, and the second prince did not know her affectionate love, his mind could not be calm, and he was still very disturbed and tormenting himself.
The beloved brother was lost, really lost, completely lost, and Zhang Yunyan had a deeper pain of loss.
After the loss of her beloved, she felt that this marriage was very precious, and she fell in love with the second prince even more, which also deeply pierced her heart.
At this moment, Yunyan was very painful, thinking of the hard-to-find love, she couldn't help but think of Brother Jiaxiang, and shed tears of heartache.
Her fiancé Jun has long since passed away, which has caused her grief to this day......
She and Brother Jiaxiang are a pair of handsome men and beauties made in heaven, their feelings are so sincere, and their love is so deep, they can't imagine that they will be separated by yin and yang, and their beautiful marriage has come to naught.
If Jiaxiang's brother was still there, the two of them would have already married and would have been intoxicated with beautiful love, so why not struggle alone.
She and Brother Jiaxiang will also have the crystallization of love, and there is more than one child, the family is happy, how happy it should be.
At this moment, Zhang Yunyan thought of Brother Jiaxiang and the beautiful love that had been lost, and felt endless pain......
Yunyan is very painful, misses it very much, hates her life for being miserable, and still has no fate with Brother Jiaxiang.
Now, her brother from another world has also left her, and another beautiful marriage has been lost, adding new pain to Yunyan's heart, which is really painful.
Jiaxiang's brother has been lost forever, and the second prince has also been lost forever, why is her marriage so unsmooth? Where is her love? Where is her beloved? When can she throw herself into the arms of her husband?
I don't know, she doesn't know anything, only pain, only longing......
The two brothers are very loving people, and such a lovely man will never meet again. This is her dream of marriage, which can only be dreamed of, not realized.
The marriage in the other world has been lost, and it is irretrievable, Zhang Yunyan can only find another reason to comfort herself.
She felt that it was okay, this marriage could not be done in the first place, so it was regarded as if it had not been mentioned, and it had no impact on all aspects.
Yun Yan came to Tianyue Country unexpectedly, just a hurried passerby, and after leaving, everything did not exist, and this page will become a historical fact thousands of years ago.
This magical journey was like a dream, and she felt it so deeply that she could not forget it.
Since she is a hurried passerby, it is impossible for her to participate in it, and regard the interaction and friendship with the second prince, as well as the reluctant marriage, as a beautiful dream.