Tang Yuan smiled with satisfaction and said, "Okay, I know your thoughts." I don't know if I'm right, it's because you're too familiar with Xuanshuang, so you've long lost all your novelty with him. Until he left for a year, you felt unaccustomed to it, and it was only because of the inherent sense of dependence. Until the appearance of Ling Frost Ember, he gave you the formation of a crisis. In your opinion, Xuanshuang is a good friend of yours, or a little brother, but what about Ling Shuang Ash? Seeing his cold-blooded ruthlessness with your own eyes has further heightened the alienation that distance has brought to you. According to my guess, for such extreme coldness, coupled with that illustrious identity and martial arts that are difficult for ordinary people to achieve, people will have a vague and hazy appreciation and awe. He is so far away from ordinary people and from you that it is as if he lives in two different worlds, which creates a dreamlike reverie space. The more he ignores you, the more discouraged you become, and the more frustrated you become, the more courageous you become. Because of this, your affection for him will also deepen exponentially, and you will inevitably fall in love with him in the end. Just because the two of them have seen each other too little and have been together too shortly, he in your eyes only has advantages, and even if you really see the shortcomings, you will be deliberately erased by your mind, because you can't tolerate half of the stain left by your gods. Is this an illusion really as perfect as you think, and is he really your true destiny?"

Cheng Jiaxuan's eyes widened, stunned. From this and that, it is said that Jiang Yanchen is not like this? From the first love at first sight, the thoughts left in his mind are how deep his love for him is. After that, he tried all kinds of efforts to make him recognize himself and also have a good impression of himself, which lifted him higher and higher, and he lowered and lowered, which naturally widened the distance between the two.

He is cold to himself, which is only a deep embodiment of his personality, and he loves him so much that he can't extricate himself. It's no wonder that he has been jealous of himself countless times, and Chu Menglin, who grew up with him since he was a child and is the first lucky person in his eyes, is very disgusted with him.

All the shortcomings will only be exposed by the two closest people. It is impossible for people to remain perfect all the time, ordinary friends only see a certain side, and the truest essence can only be truly seen by staying together all the time.

She had seen his unstoppable arrogance, the sadness that flashed in his eyes, the helplessness of his serious injuries and coughing up blood, and the useless struggles he had forced. But in his world, he is just a bystander, and he can never really enter his heart, and he is not qualified to care for him and share it for him.

She was supposed to be his savior, but in his eyes, she became the most boring "cheap woman", because he was too strong and didn't want to show anyone the vulnerable side, but she was giggling all day long, bent on digging into his heart.

It was she who was too active, as if her territory had been invaded by outsiders, and that person was still a weak girl who was powerless in her eyes. Because of this, he will redouble his precautions and will definitely drive her away. At the end of the day, they are people of two worlds.

Tang looked at Cheng Jiaxuan from afar, and saw that hundreds of expressions flashed on her face, from the initial confusion to the gradual understanding, and on the way to repeated analysis, there was no confusion and confusion. He didn't bother, just silently poured a glass of wine and pushed it in front of Cheng Jiaxuan.

Cheng Jiaxuan looked at the beams of the room, the light in his eyes was uncertain, and he only saw something on the table in a trance, and tentatively raised his hand to touch it, his pale fingertips covered the body of the cup, and his finger bones were blue and white.

Then he spoke slowly, spit out the thoughts accumulated in his mind one by one, and whispered softly, as if in a dream, "Yes, maybe you are right...... I care too much about him, and every time I talk to him, it is regarded as the greatest gift that God has given me. Every time I say a word, I have thought about it several times in my mind, for fear that I will use the wrong word and phrase, and he will misunderstand me and hate me. Even if he just dealt with it casually, it would make me remember it for a long time, and I pondered carefully whether each of his words contained a derogatory connotation, whether he was sarcastic about me...... Sometimes I couldn't help but be sentimental, imagining that one of his words might have some affection for me...... Every time I go through it, I feel a sense of relief, as if I have completed one of the most difficult tasks. Where is this conversation between friends, this is the challenge of suffering and joy at the same time...... Yes, being with him can give me earth-shaking pleasure, but the price of this is such desperate pain. Don't say he won't want me, such a relationship, even if we can be together, I'm afraid that both parties will not feel happy. But...... I still can't bear him, I want to see him, I want to hear him, I ...... The love for him has not changed. I...... I'm really messed up...... Maybe I said that I was willing to die for him, but it was just a ploy to show myself in front of him, and to show how deep my love was in front of others?"

Tang said remotely: "Well, let me ask you again, if there is a chance now, when he is dying, you can save his life, but the price is to make him lose all his memories of you." When he recovers, you look to him as if you never appeared. On the other hand, you are in a state of disarray, and he meets another girl, and they fall in love with each other and eventually get married. After getting married, they will definitely be very happy, grow old together, and spend this life in peace and stability. If you knew that this was going to happen, would you have chosen to save him? Would you have been willing?"

Cheng Jiaxuan didn't think about it, and said: "Of course I won't be willing! I love him, I want to be with him, even if he can't, he must remember all the sacrifices I made for him and know my good ...... Now that he doesn't remember me at all, what's the point of what I've done for him?"

Tang Yuanyuan smiled faintly, as if such a result had already been expected by him, and said: "So, this also proves that my reasoning is correct, truly loving someone is not just trying to blindly possess it, but hoping to see him be happy, even if the next moment is his own destruction." Seeing a woman who is in love with him and can accompany him for the rest of his life, even if it is not himself, he should feel very satisfied and relieved, because his happiness is above your happiness. And now you, I might as well say that you may like him, but it's not love, what you really love is yourself. You only love him because you are happier with him, and you want to be happy, that's all. In fact, a girl doesn't need to say 'willing to die for someone' at every turn. If he truly loves you, he will never let you die. If you don't love, even if you really die, you won't be able to get any pity from him, on the contrary, he will think that you are pretentious and not a friend worthy of deep friendship. Girls should first have self-esteem and self-love, and then someone will love you. ”

Cheng Jiaxuan frowned and said, "It sounds very reasonable, but ...... I don't think it's possible for me to look at the happiness of others more than my own feelings in my life, and I just don't have such a great dedication! So, can't I learn to love someone?"

Tang said remotely: "You can learn it." It's just that you're too young to know what true love is all about. It's not an ordinary drink, but a long drought, a rain in the same boat, sharing the last drop of water in the desert! Now you are still young, you are still young, you are still not knowledgeable, or it is difficult to comprehend. After a few years, you will really understand that unforgettable love. Who didn't miss a few people when they were young, but if they couldn't let go of unsuitable love, it was the best choice. Not only does it take courage to let go, but it also gives the two of them a chance to be free, isn't it another kind of fulfillment?"

Cheng Jiaxuan was half puzzled, her face still showed an extremely painful weakness, and she asked in a low voice, "So...... Young Master Tang, have you really let go...... Feelings for Concubine Yun?"

Tang Yuanyuan seemed to have expected her to ask this question, smiled indifferently, and said: "If I didn't let go, how could I wait in the palace for many years, day and night, and see her and the emperor in love?"

Seeing Cheng Jiaxuan with her hands on her cheeks, looking at him with big eyes without blinking, she really wanted to untie her heart knot, and some things had to be explained more thoroughly. Scratching his hair, he continued: "Of course, letting go doesn't mean not loving her, it's just leaving her a way to find happiness." As for myself, as long as I keep my love for her in my heart, accompany her when she is lonely, and help her when she is helpless, I can't be a couple, but I can become my best friend, isn't it also a kind of creation? The world of the soul is incomparably vast, why not love, contain, and encompass the beauty of the natural world with your heart? In fact, as early as when I had a soft spot for her, I knew that with me, a poor scholar who was powerless, how could I be worthy of her peerless immortals? Only a dragon among men could be qualified to win her favor. Therefore, I had a lot of difficulties afterwards, and finally I had to go to high school, and when I saw her in the palace, I learned that she had already become the emperor's concubine, and I was not sad at all, but sincerely happy for her. Sometimes when you love someone with all your heart, you don't have the extra energy to think about yourself. ”

Cheng Jiaxuan cried and laughed, and poured one cup of liquor after another, and at this time, the scene was already a little ghostly in his eyes. Tang Yuanyuan's face was blurred, but his thoughts flew to the time the two had spent together, the road they had walked together, as if something had broken in his heart, and a decision was faintly in his heart, up and down.

gradually forgot the existence of all the people and things around her, and just wanted to expose her scarred heart to the sun, and let the light of the morning sun help her heal her wounds. muttered: "Maybe, maybe only leaving is the most suitable choice for me, but in this life and this life, I will always think of him in my heart, miss him, all my love, without reservation, is completely given to him." From now on, I will not love anyone again...... Love him as much as you do. Now I only hope that in a few years, when he has become a tyrant and is majestic, in his spare time, he will remember that there was a girl who was so small and almost humble that he had worked so hard to enter his life...... Maybe everyone thinks I'm stupid, but I'm such a stupid girl, so stupid, pitiful and in love with him......"

A mist rose in his eyes, his brain gradually went blank, and finally his body went limp, and he fell on the table. With a wave of his hand, he knocked over the wine cup on the side, and the wine poured out, and the water stains on the tablecloth spread one by one, spreading to the side of Cheng Jiaxuan's face. It looks like a drowning man, floating alone on the only piece of driftwood in the vast ocean, beaten by the wind and rain, looking so desolate and helpless.

Tang Yuan's heart suddenly rose with a little sympathy, a little love, and a little sympathy. Untied a coat and gently draped it on Cheng Jiaxuan's back, wrapping her thin body tightly, as if what he wanted to protect was a treasure worth cherishing. While holding her up so that her head could rest on his lap, he gently put his hands on her shoulders, knowing that she was drunk and unconscious, but still did his best to make her sleep more comfortable.