Chapter 36 (29)
Xuan Shuang said: "Forget it, what tacit understanding do we have? I can't understand you, and you don't understand, what am I thinking, and what do I want." You just want to cultivate an apprentice who is good enough to inherit the mantle and is better than the blue. And I'm here to avenge the killing of you...... Why bother? Why bother to put this one around you, the *lead that will explode at any time? Why don't you ...... At this point, don't mess with both sides. I will go back to the palace and take revenge on you no more, I ...... I'll forgive you, okay?"
This is tantamount to making excuses for himself, the two of them have been together for a long time with the relationship of master and apprentice, and it is really unbearable to kill him. After all, he's not a downright cold-hearted person.
Jiang Yanchen's expression changed, and he said: "No! The path you have chosen, even if your head is broken and bleeding, you must finish it while kneeling and crawling! You should strengthen your convictions, what is the purpose of learning martial arts? Even if you don't pursue anything else, you should have revenge, and you should kill me wholeheartedly." Unless I die, you will be truly free, or until then, you will always be in heavy shackles, and you will not be able to turn over. Kill me and realize your dreams, this is your choice, and it is also your destiny! If you want to be so silent, draw a line with me, and you don't even have a door! I haven't asked if I will say yes or not!"
Xuan Shuang said: "Aren't I asking you now? It's okay to force others to learn martial arts, why do ......you want to force others to kill you?" But because the two have been grudges for a long time, this sentence is difficult to say after all.
Before Jiang Yanchen could answer, he suddenly saw a woman walking in the distance. His clothes were ragged and tattered, and he had a floral turban wrapped around his head. The head and neck are buried deeply, dragging step by step, slowly swallowing, looking like a terminally ill person. A long braid on the back of his head, loosely dragged on his back, the sunset was dying, and there was no life. Holding a cloth bag in her arms and holding it tightly to her chest, it was like all her wealth, even if she threw away the whole world, she couldn't give it up.
Xuanshuang frowned and said: "This area is a forbidden place, that aunt is so decent, how did she break in? Looking at her appearance, she seems to be a person who went to the field to visit her husband? In that cloth bag, it is estimated that it is the food she brought." ”
He is annoyed in his heart, but because he thinks of the past, his heart is as soft as cotton, and he will feel a sense of sympathy for others who are suffering. He took the initiative to say hello and said tentatively: "Hmm-auntie, are you okay? Where are you going? I know this area well, I can show you the way, and it is very dangerous to run around alone." ”
The woman let out a sneer and said, "Thank you, little brother, you are such a kind person." This is the forbidden land of the Blood Demon Sect, isn't it? But now, I'm not afraid of any danger-" He slowly raised his head and said, "I'm not thousands of miles away, and I finally got here, and there is no reason to retreat." I...... I'm here to find my husband. ”
Xuan Shuang suddenly saw her face covered by her long hair, although her appearance was haggard, she was still delicate, which showed that she must have been a stunning beauty in the past. Looking at her face full of vicissitudes, it seems that she has gone through seventy or eighty years of wind and rain, but if you look closely, she is only a young woman in her early twenties. Sympathy suddenly appeared in his heart, and he said with relief: "Don't worry, what's the matter, your husband is on an errand in the church? What is his name? I can take you to ......."
The young woman raised her head, and her gaze went straight to Jiang Yanchen, with some pleading and a little confusion. It seems that there are thousands of words hidden in my heart, and I want to talk about it. Jiang Yanchen couldn't bear to glance at it, but when he saw her pair of watery eyes, now they were covered with a layer of dust and were gloomy. was taken aback, frowned, and said, "Are ......you Ji Qiannian?" Why are you here?"
Xuan Shuang was also taken aback, and said, "Ji Qiannian, is the sect leader of the Five Poisons Sect......?" I've always admired you the most. People say you're a big beauty......"
The young woman was really Ji Qiannian, and when she heard him ask, the smile on her face became even more sad, and she said, "Now I am just the ugliest ordinary woman, and I am no longer qualified to be the leader of the Five Poisons Sect." It's a pity to disappoint you...... Even my husband doesn't know if he can keep him......" Jiang Yanchen was initially stunned, and then changed to an indifferent expression, and said, "What are you making a name for?"
Ji Qiannian said: "You promised to marry me." You know, since then, I've lived almost all of my life for this sentence. Even if it was a lie to me, it was the most beautiful lie I have ever heard. Originally, people and things that I didn't want to let go of would be entangled for the rest of my life, but recently, I changed my mind and came to see you for the last time, and I won't bother you again in the future. I want to say a few words to you, and it won't be long before I'm - the last pleading, and you'll give in to me one last time, will you?"
Xuanshuang heard her pitiful, and she was already sympathetic, and said: "Go! You have caused such a miserable situation to others, you should have a good talk with her, and you must be responsible for everything." ”
Although Jiang Yanchen was full of impatience, even if she died in front of her, she would not have a trace of mercy. But looking at her attitude, it seems that she has really suffered a major blow, and her attitude is very different from the domineering outside the Yinxue Palace more than a year ago. You might as well give her a chance, and it's okay for herself anyway. said lightly: "Okay, then I'll listen to what you have to say." ”
Ji Qian said, "Thank you...... Last mercy to me. After speaking, he turned around and went first, Xuan Shuang was still not at ease, and told Jiang Yanchen again: "Be kind to her, people are already pitiful enough, don't say bastard words to stimulate her." ”
Ji Qiannian walked silently all the way, stepping on a layer of mottled leaves on the ground with the soles of his feet, rustling, but he was speechless. I don't know how long I have been gone, Jiang Yanchen said impatiently: "Hey, is it enough?" If you have something to say, tell me quickly, if you still want to redeem it, then please don't open your mouth." There's no way I'm going to be with you. ”
Ji Qiannian sighed: "You really hate me so much? even if you stay with me for a while, it will make you upset, right?" Jiang Yanchen said: "That's not annoying, it's just a waste of time." ”
Ji Qian smiled and said, "I can't give up, if I want to spend all my time with you, I am willing." If one is willing to be the other...... To give her the most precious thing, that must be to love him deeply...... It is a kind of happiness to be able to stay with you, even if we don't say anything to each other and walk silently. Do you know? I miss us very much, and the few days in Miaojiang were the happiest days of my life, although they passed in a hurry. It's like my whole life was for those days. I know that your favorite is still Meng Lin, and no one can replace it. But...... You've loved me too, haven't you?
Jiang Yanchen said: "Don't deceive yourself. You should know better than me that the reason why I play with you on the spot is to break the love, and if you get it, you will be useless. It is already merciful to be willing to let you live, don't be ignorant of what is good or bad. I have never loved you before and never will be. There has been no connection between us, and since then, it should be completely broken. ”
Ji Qiannian smiled bitterly: "You said it easily. We will not be clear, the fate of you and me is destined to be fetters between each other. Especially since that day, fate has been closely linked, and it can no longer be separated or untied. Jiang Yanchen listened to her lingering words, but there was an infinite indescribable sadness hidden in it, and said unhappily: "How can you say this?"
Ji Qiannian picked up the cloth bag in his arms, gently uncovered the layer of fabric wrapped in the upper end, handed it to him, and said: "If I insist on being entangled, I can use this as a basis, but in the past year, I have thought a lot, and I still decided to leave you and fulfill your grand ambition." But my love for you will never change until the end of my life. And thank you for giving me something worth remembering......"
Jiang Yanchen has always been cold and constant, and after listening to her words, his expression was faintly moved, and he glanced at the cloth bag. But it was a thin baby girl wrapped in it. The willow eyebrows are like the moon, the petite red lips are very delicately pursed, the delicate nose bridge is raised high, the cheeks are pink and tender, and they are sleeping sweetly. Although it is still only a baby lying in swaddling clothes and waiting to be fed, its appearance has been very beautiful, and it is clear at a glance that it must be a beauty in the coming day.
Jiang Yanchen condensed for a moment, his eyes suddenly became like lightning, and he swept towards Ji Qiannian, and said, "What is the purpose of you showing me this kind of thing?"
Ji Qiannian said softly: "I want to show you, this is our child." She was only a few months old, so small, so cute, looking at her, it seemed as if all the pain in the world was gone, only happiness and beauty remained-" Jiang Yanchen interrupted: "What's the matter? Didn't I tell you to take the child away early in the morning?"
Ji Qiannian didn't expect to be able to touch his heart with a child. But from the beginning, he was so desperately questioned, and he still felt pain in his heart. "Yes, I did promise you. But I ...... How can I bear it? This child is growing up in my body little by little, she is my blood and bones, and all my love and sustenance. The pain of pregnancy in October is so tormenting that it is difficult for those who have never experienced it to understand. It's amazing that the two of us, who have always lived by killing, can create a small life together. When a woman becomes a mother, her heart is the softest, and she is even willing to give everything she has in exchange for her growing up peacefully. Unlike you, I have a selfish desire to keep her because it's a single thin line. Once it is cut, the end of the world is separated from each other, and they can only be strangers to each other. I don't want to be like you, even if I can't stay together, as long as I know that you are the father of my child, we will always be the closest two people. Not having your heart, but keeping a little place with you, is my most humble luxury. ”
Jiang Yanchen's face twitched slightly, obviously this hand was beyond his expectations. After a while, he said, "What's the trouble?" Since ancient times, there have been gains and losses, and now all the possession will only become a deeper pain when it is lost. I am destined to be lonely all my life, unworthy of love, and unworthy of love. No matter how much you give me, I still won't get anything in return. It's nothing but to make you sad and sad, so why do you cherish me?"
Ji Qiannian shook his head, still leaned the child closer to him, and said, "Don't say so much." You...... Look at her, is she very beautiful? That's nature, how can our children not be the most perfect in the world? I think she must learn from each other's strengths, inherit our good points, and avoid those unsightly shortcomings. My life has been terrible, and I just want it to be wasted! I just hope that my daughter can live again in my place and realize my ambitions. You say, when she grows up in the future, will she be as strong in martial arts as you and as glamorous as me?"
No matter how emotional she was, Jiang Yanchen's attitude was always cold, and said: "Don't be sentimental, I don't need her to be like me." She shouldn't even exist at all! If you want to be the supreme ruler of the world, you must get rid of all humble feelings, and never allow anything to be enough to be a constraint on my progress! You are obsessed with it, and in the end you will not get anything! Don't you understand? Why do you come here because you are willing to work thankless?"