"Where am I......" Zheng Yuhua was in a daze, his eyes were dim, and he muttered to himself. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

Zheng Yuhua, who didn't know where he was, didn't even know whether he was awake or faint, only felt that his consciousness was in a trance, and the picture that seemed to be ethereal in the darkness flashed, his limbs drifted away and he was depressed, and he didn't even feel the pain he suffered before when he went mad.

However, there was a faint sound in my ears, and the darkness in front of me gradually turned to gray, and in the mist, it seemed that I was in another world......

"This is ......" In a trance, Zheng Yu muttered, looking at the street scene under the fog in front of him, it seemed that a young but familiar picture came into view.

In front of me is a long corridor and laneway, pedestrians on both sides of the street come and go, the city is still flowing, under the blue-gray clouds, everything seems to be quiet and peaceful, but it gives people a faint sadness, like a turbidity in the clear spring, no matter how you wash it, you can't wash it off.

And along the corridor to look forward, looking at the distance, the city tower is on the two big characters "Xiangyang" come into view.

"Here it is...... Xiangyang?!" Zheng Yuhua seemed to understand something, looking at the familiar bits and pieces around him, he couldn't help muttering, "I understand...... This is Xiangyang, here is ...... My home ......"

can't tell whether it's reality or a dream, today's Zheng Yuhua is impregnated by the inexplicable old scenery of his hometown, and everything is in his nostalgia, and he has long forgotten his "fateful battle" with Su Jia.

"But why...... Why am I here......" Zheng Yuhua didn't know why he was here, seeing the once familiar picture, his hands, feet and body seemed to have no perception, like a soul floating in it, others couldn't see him, but he could see everyone......

"Whew...... Call...... Ha ......" Suddenly, behind Zheng Yu's incarnation, there was a rush of wheezing and footsteps. At that moment, an inexplicable heartache came to his heart, and Zheng Yuhua couldn't help but turn around - he saw a little boy about ten years old, holding a few sweet potatoes, running in a hurry, as if he was rushing home.

But seeing this scene, Zheng Yuhua was stunned - this little boy was none other than himself......

"That's not ...... I......" Zheng Yuhua also saw clearly, and at the same time understood that he was in a dream at this time, but he couldn't wake up for a while.

The little boy couldn't see himself and ran straight home. Zheng Yuhua's eyes wrinkled, as if he remembered what happened back then, and a sore feeling hit his heart, and he subconsciously relied on his own memory to follow the footsteps of the little boy and run in the direction of his former home.

But I don't know why, I clearly remember where my home is, but I can't run away from the little boy in front of me, and I can't run away from myself when I was a child. On the side of the civilian house on the corner of the street, Zheng Yuhua lost the little boy......

"Why...... Gone......" With the inexplicable pain in his heart, Zheng Yuhua couldn't help but whisper to himself, but knowing that his home was not far ahead, Zheng Yuhua gradually slowed down, full of memories and sourness, and walked forward step by step......

"Whoosh-bang-" However, the sound of artillery fire from the castle tower shattered the silence of the memory......

"Run, the thieves are coming-" "Help, ......" "Ah-......" In the postponement of his own memories, the entire Xiangyang City seemed to turn into a sea of fire in an instant. Zheng Yuhua remembered that it was on this day that Chen Youliang and other warlords rioted, thieves and soldiers were devastated, and the entire city of Xiangyang turned into a hell on earth......

"Riot in the city...... It's not good—" Zheng Yuhua seemed to remember the key, and quickly ran towards the door.

But when I rushed home, what came to me was the most unforgettable scene in my life, but I didn't want to recall it the most......

"Please, I beg you to keep this child no matter what, so as to atone for your sins......" A man in his early twenties, holding a baby girl who had just made a move, knelt down in front of a couple and said, "The kindness of the two will be repaid on the next day!" After speaking, the man also kowtowed in front of the couple.

The picture in front of him, Zheng Yuhua will never forget for the rest of his life - the couple is his father, and the man kneeling down is Mo Tianxing, who was young at the time and has not yet achieved martial arts fame, and the baby girl in his arms is Su Ren and Lin Yufei's widow Su Jia......

"Uh......h Woo ......" is like hearing the smoke and screams of war outside the door, Su Jia, who is still a baby, is afraid to cry on the side.

"Okay, since it is the entrustment of the Su couple, our family must do our best......" Zheng Yuhua's father said calmly, and then pointed to a secret passage in the backyard, "There is a tunnel in the backyard, which has been left by the ancestors, and from there, you can go outside Xiangyang City...... If you go from there, you should be able to escape the pursuit of the officers and soldiers......"

"Thank you two, Mo will be grateful in this life!" Mo Tianxing sobbed and said gratefully, then got up and took the baby girl and left the courtyard together......

"On that day, Mo Tianxing left, and the fate of me and my family changed......" Recreating the memories of the past, Zheng Yuhua said in a secret voice.

However, the memories were fleeting, and at the moment when Mo Tianxing left, the picture in front of him changed......

"Mother, I'm afraid of ......" Zheng Yuhua, who was young, hid in the stove and choked with fear.

"Don't be afraid, Yu'er ......" The mother comforted her son, touched Zheng Yuhua's head, and said with tears in her eyes, "Be obedient, hide here quietly, don't come out, don't make a sound...... When all the officers and soldiers outside are gone, you can escape again......"

After speaking, the mother closed her eyes ruthlessly and closed the lid of the boiler.

Zheng Yuhua was very obedient and hid inside without saying a word......

"Ahh............h

Zheng Yuhua was scared and curious, and secretly opened the lid of the pot, but what he saw in front of him was that his father and mother died tragically under the knives of officers and soldiers......

"Woo...... Woo woo...... "Zheng Yuhua was very frightened, and he didn't dare to make a sound casually, so he could only witness the cruelty of his father's death, hiding in the stove and crying secretly, and he didn't wake up from the pain for a long time......

Seeing these pictures of the past, Zheng Yuhua felt very painful in his heart, how could he be powerless, and he couldn't change anything.

"Hmm......" Zheng Yuhua couldn't help clenching his fists in pain, and said angrily in a low voice, "That's right, it was the daughter of Mo Tianxing and Su Ren Lin Yufei back then...... If it weren't for their cover, my father and mother would have been able to escape from the backyard without losing their lives in the riots......"

However, the grief and indignation flashed in his memory, but the picture turned to the corner of the city - Zheng Yuhua was also familiar with this scene, and he finally escaped the chaos at that time, Mo Tianxing looked for dry food, and temporarily handed over Su Jia, who was still a baby, to Hongyun to take care of, and placed her in a safe place, and went to find food alone......

"This picture ......" Zheng Yuhua looked at everything in front of him, and seemed to remember - this is also a scene that he can never forget, his choice in the face of hatred......

Sure enough, next to Zheng Yu's incarnation, he was still a ten-year-old himself, holding a dagger in his hand, quietly pacing in the direction of the baby.

Su Jia was already asleep, lying quietly under a grass hut, Zheng Yuhua was approaching with a dagger in his hand, looking at the sleeping baby in front of him, and secretly resentful: "It's all because of you and Mo Tianxing...... It's all because of you, the evil seed - if it weren't for you, my father and mother wouldn't have died, and I wouldn't have been where I am now...... I want to kill you and avenge my dead father!" After speaking, Zheng Yuhua's eyes turned red, his murderous intent suddenly rose, and he waved his dagger towards Su Jia.

"Stop-hmm......" At the last moment, a girl about ten years old suddenly appeared, grabbed Zheng Yuhua's knife-wielding hand, and stopped his killing intent.

"Forehead ......" saw the girl in front of him, Zheng Yuhua in reality was stunned at that moment, and his heart suddenly stinged for a while-it was no one else who stopped him, it was his lover Hongyun, and she was also the maid who had been accompanying Su Jia......

In the memories of "Red Cloud ......", Zheng Yuhua saw that Hongyun stopped him without hesitation, and his mind gradually calmed down.

"Brother Zheng, you're crazy-" Hongyun couldn't help but reprimand as he looked at Zheng Yuhua's "crazy behavior".

"This little sinister ...... She killed my father, and I want to avenge my father!" Zheng Yuhua was still immersed in the grief of the tragic death of his parents, looking at the sleeping baby in front of him, and said with tears and resentment.

"Jia'er is just a baby, what can she change?—" Hongyun continued to reprimand, "Your father and mother were killed by those officers and soldiers...... Yes, if it weren't for Mo Tianxing and Jia'er, my uncle and aunt wouldn't have died, but Brother Zheng, you took all your sins on a baby-Jia'er is so young, what's wrong with her, isn't it cruel for you to do this?"

"Woo...... At that moment, Zheng Yuhua seemed to have an emotional breakdown, threw away the dagger in his hand, and fell to his knees in pain.

Hongyun looked at his lover sadly, and also suffered on the side, so he walked to Zheng Yu's incarnation with a soft heart, gently hugged his forehead in his arms, and cried and comforted: "Brother Zheng, I know that because of the death of your uncle and aunt, you are very sad, not only you, but also me...... But Jia'er also lost her father and mother at such a young age, and she suffered the same fate as you...... Same as you...... Like you......" Hongyun kept repeating the last sentence, the more he cried, the more sad he became.

Zheng Yuhua finally let go of his murderous intentions and fell into Hongyun's arms and cried for a long time......

After reading the picture of memories, Zheng Yuhua in reality, his heart suddenly cramped, and suddenly at that moment, he felt that his hatred for Su Jia seemed to have a faint grief and injustice - empathy, Su Jia and himself also suffered the tragedy of the death of their relatives, and they have always had murderous intentions, where is the reason and power?

Gradually, the picture in front of me appeared, Hongyun, Su Jia, and the streets and alleys in front of him all disappeared without a trace, leaving only the sad back of himself kneeling on the ground when he was a child, and he didn't leave for a long time.

Slowly, when I was a child, I got up from the ground, full of tears of grief and indignation, and turned my head to insult myself: "What are you, what kind of man are you? The death of your father and mother is all your incompetence and cowardice, but you have to blame a baby - you are a useless coward at all, you can not protect anything, but you just blame your cowardice on others!"

This is not a picture in my memory, but I don't know why I saw this scene - when I was a child, I scolded myself, it seems to be a true portrayal of my soul and an indelible sense of pain, Zheng Yuhua at that moment, the pain in my heart added an extra part, but it was no longer resentment towards Su Jia and Mo Tianxing, but the anger and guilt of shirking responsibility and incompetence and cowardice......

Holding this guilt, Zheng Yuhua didn't have time to say a word, and his figure when he was a child finally gradually disappeared into the darkness, and his eyes returned to darkness......

"I see, that's what happened in Xiangyang, isn't it......" Suddenly, in the inexplicable direction in the dark, Su Jia's voice came, "Senior Brother Zheng, in order to protect me as a baby, your father and mother covered Mo Tianxing's escape from the dark passage, and as a result, he died in the riot...... If it weren't for me, your father and mother wouldn't have died, it was I who brought a tragic fate to your family, and it is reasonable that you would hate me and Mo Tianxing......"

Zheng Yuhua couldn't see Su Jia's figure, he could only hear the voice, but he was not surprised, but he subconsciously responded in a haze, "Actually, the moment Hongyun stopped me, I gave up my hatred for you, junior sister...... But the reason why I have rekindled my old hatred is because...... It's because ......" The more he said, the more sad Zheng Yuhua seemed to become, and he choked up.

"It's because I killed Sister Xiaohong, and killed Senior Brother Zheng, your lover, right......" Su Jia said in a sad tone, "Three years ago, Chen Shijin, the wind chasing faction, betrayed, I lost my mind, broke into the forbidden place of the sect 'Shuiyue Cave' alone, violated the gang rules, and was chased and killed by Mo Tianxing...... In order to save me, Sister Xiaohong broke through the siege and escaped into the cave, but she was seriously injured, and finally gave her life because of me - it is because of this that you hate me to the core......"

"That's right, from the day I knew the truth about Hongyun's death, I swore to kill you with my own hands and avenge Hongyun......" Thinking of the belief in revenge, Zheng Yuhua said calmly, but his tone was not as passionate and sad as in the duel, but a little more desolate, and his emotions were also slow, "And it just so happens that Mo Tianxing is also the enemy who killed my father and mother, so I joined the Wind Chasing Sect as a new disciple, and made friends with the playmates who used to live with you as a little junior sister, Xu Shuang, Wu Xian and Taotao......"

"You learned the truth of that year from Xiaoshuang and them...... Su Jia continued to whisper, "And in the process of getting along with them, you gradually got to know me, and waited for the day when you will meet me, kill me with your own hands to avenge the death of Sister Xiaohong......"

"Actually, no, there is an episode in this......" Suddenly, Zheng Yuhua's tone changed slightly.

"Interlude?" Su Jia asked puzzled when she heard this.

"Yes, it's in these ......days of chasing the wind," Zheng Yuhua calmed down, and then recalled, "The imperial envoy 'Divine Sword', born out of hatred, 'went mad', this is not the first time ......"

When Su Jia heard this, his eyes were stunned......