Chapter 40 (6)
In the hall is a gathering of martial arts high-rollers from all over the world. The famous factions still know the etiquette, but the people from the small sects who spontaneously gather are not only impulsive, but also have lower literacy, and the trend of scolding is almost all driven by this group of people. Someone shouted: "You are right, who forced him to go to the frontier?" "That's it! The emperor hasn't sent him yet, but he himself is happy first! Is it reliable to be so fond of being a dog to the Qing court?" "By the time he recovers his spirit, the Demon Sect will have already unified the Central Plains! At that time, the daylilies were cold. "I heard that the Manchus and the Demon Sect were in cahoots, and since the leader of the Li League was close to the Manchus, it was difficult to guarantee that there would be no ...... within the Demon Sect."
Nangong Xue's face turned red with anger, and she raised her voice and said: "Please believe me! You are all aspiring people who are interested in adultery, since the most important thing is to gather together, you should trust each other, otherwise, everyone else will not be allowed to talk! If you start an internal strife in your own house first, how can you hope to defeat the Demon Sect? Those who are full of cool words, with all due respect, are precisely the people who do not know the truth of the matter! If you don't want to stay, the door is open in front of you, you can go, and no one wants you to stay. If you have one more in the Martial Arts League, you will not be able to destroy the Demon Sect immediately. If you are missing, it may not be a waste of time for others. But if you are still willing to trust me, I, Nangong Xue, can pat my chest and vouch, and Li Mengzhu will definitely be able to live up to everyone's expectations. Please give him three days. Three days later, he will definitely be able to arrive on time and preside over the overall situation. ”
A shirtless man sneered: "What if he can't keep the contract?" Nangong Xue took a deep breath and said, "That proves that your concerns are not groundless." At that time, everyone can raise another alliance leader, and the little woman has no objections. ”
When everyone got her promise, they were like taking a reassuring pill, and said, "Okay, then we will believe you once." Nangong Xue sighed, she said impassionedly in front of people, but in fact, she always had a handful of sweat in her palms, lest she would not be able to settle the current situation, in case someone was in turmoil, it would be tantamount to another blow to the already scarred Martial Arts Alliance.
Li Yijie was locked in the room alone, leaning against the window frame, and his heart was turning a thousand times. Back in the capital, the weight of the balance moved again, and the weight of the choice he had always avoided was added a few points. What had once been a "one-sided" situation that he could easily suppress was now out of ammunition and almost immediately ready to surrender.
It's one thing to have nothing to do, it's another thing to have a choice, but you're under pressure to accept it. That kind of situation is a hundred times more painful than having no way to start at all.
Thousands of troubles are entrenched in the mind, but there is no one to talk about. Nangong Xue will certainly strongly oppose it, but it only represents her opinion, but it can't completely erase the hesitation in his heart. Thinking of the pain, he raised his hand and clenched his fist, slapped his forehead hard, and cursed: "You are really a useless thing. If a good person doesn't do it, but wants to be a demon, do you think the same way as the Seven Demon Heads? Crazy disease is really contagious?"
But another thought kept biting in his mind, and he said: "No, the Seven Demon Heads became demons in order to destroy the world. And you want to become a demon, just to deal with him, to 'save the world', that is a very noble spirit of self-sacrifice. You can't be so selfish and make excuses for yourself......"
Almost pounding the Venus in front of him, suddenly a figure appeared beside him, putting his palm in front of his forehead, blocking his ferocious fist. But he was also taken aback by his ruthlessness, and said, "Senior brother, what are you doing, why do you torture yourself like this?" Li Yijie concentrated his scattered gaze, looked at the woman in front of him, and said, "Oh, I'm just too tired." Maybe a harder knock will wake me up with a headache. ”
Nangong Xue smiled bitterly: "How old are you, how do you do things, and you are still like a child? If you knock down so hard, I am afraid that before you have a clear mind, you will knock yourself out first." Come, brother, wash your face. As he spoke, he took a basin full of water and placed it on the square table in front of him.
Li Yijie responded in a daze, picked up a handful of water, and unconsciously splashed it on his face, trembling slightly by the cold water. Water droplets rolled down from the tips of his hair and forehead, and Mu Ran watched his reflection in the water surface being cut into thousands of swaying fine lines, all of which seemed to be so elusive. The heart said: "Who am I? Who am I? The name is just a signboard, a status that has been passed down from generation to generation, and what is the real 'me'? It depends on the existence of the individual, whether it is based on his independent consciousness that has not died out, or whether his body can move? What if it is a person whose mind has been manipulated by puppetry? Once he becomes a demon, that person is still not me? If so, he should act according to my will, and if not, who occupies my body?" His mind was filled with this series of new thoughts, and he was in a mess, cold sweat mixed with water droplets rolling down, and he stood in front of the table, and he was stunned.
Nangong Xue gently stroked her braids. I was thinking about how to comfort my brother, but there was still no movement for a long time. She was also too engrossed for a while, and even when she didn't see the sound of the water at the beginning, she didn't know how long she didn't know. When he turned his head, he saw Li Yijie looking lost and depressed, his hands hanging in the air in a daze, as if he had been hit by a nightmare technique, and the whole person was motionless.
Nangong Xue's heart hung in her throat, and she called twice tentatively: "Senior brother...... Senior brother?" Seeing Li Yijie's sudden shock, he finally woke up from his fugue state and smiled apologetically at her. Nangong Xue felt a little relieved, but she still felt a faint layer of worry in her heart, and asked, "Senior brother, don't blame me for being too careful. I always feel that after you came back from Liaodong, you became ...... It's weird. But when I heard that you had won a great victory, it was said that there was no reason not to be happy and worried, could it be that something had happened?
Li Yijie sighed, turned his head to look at the water, and saw that the waves shook repeatedly, gradually falling silent, and the scattered fragments regathered into a clear reflection. His hair was disheveled, his face was pale, and he was staring at him with blank eyes, which made him shudder for no reason.
Only then did he hear the lingering sound in the air, and said, "Xue'er, if I say ...... I'm afraid of the final battle with the Seven Demon Bosses, and I'm thinking about it right now, not how to win, but how to escape, will you be disappointed in me and think I'm useless?"
Nangong Xue thought to herself that if Li Yijie really bothered about this matter, it would be fine. Smiling and shaking his head, trying his best to make his smile warmer and more sincere, to be able to give him more encouragement, said, "Of course not." Everyone will have an inexplicable low point, and after a while, it will naturally pass. Having said that, you are the leader of the martial arts alliance, and everyone's hopes are pinned on you, and the burden will inevitably be heavier. But...... Don't push yourself too hard. ”
Li Yijie wanted to smile gratefully, but halfway through the laughter, the muscles on his face froze first, and said, "No." If I say...... I don't think I can afford it. I am not even worthy of being the leader of the martial arts alliance, and I can't take the lead and lead everyone out of a desperate situation. I'm just a cowardly coward like they say, I'm tired, I want to give up, you're going to look down on me, right?"
Nangong Xue stepped forward slowly, put her hand on Li Yijie's shoulder, and said softly: "Listen to me, senior brother, you are not sorry for anyone." Not everyone is born destined to be a savior. Since there are heroes in the world, there will naturally be ordinary little people, but no one has to be too proud or inferior to this. The value of a person's existence is not to see how much he has done his best for others, but how much he has enjoyed life. As long as he feels that everything he does makes him feel happy and can live his life in the way he likes, this is also the embodiment of his meaning in life. You can run away from responsibility, but never run away from yourself. I don't dare to ask you how meritorious you are, I just ask you to cheer me up. If it doesn't work, I'll give up with you. I just want you to know that at all times, I will be there for you and will not leave you alone. Please don't push me away, too. ”
Li Yijie was silent for a long time, and when he listened to what Nangong Xue said, he was certainly moved. But what annoyed him was that he couldn't tell her in detail after all. Let Nangong Xue's head rest lightly on her shoulder, and subconsciously reached out to hold her in her arms, immersed in her thoughts. After a while, he muttered, "No...... No, I can't be so selfish!"
There are some paths that you don't choose, but once you set foot on them, you can't help yourself. It's like a one-way street, surrounded by cliffs on both sides, there is no dilemma, and the key to everything is whether he really has the idea of moving forward.
Three days later, Li Yijie carefully freshened up and looked new from head to toe. When he reappeared in the lobby, he was already a young man with a lot of energy. The hall was filled with guests from afar, and these days, many refugees have come to join them, and the number has increased dramatically.
Li Yijie thought that there were still so many people on the rivers and lakes who trusted him and trusted the Wulin League, and his heart felt warm, as if his long-term obscurity had finally paid off. No matter what the future holds, he has the confidence to forge ahead.
Cleared his throat, waited for the noise to fall silent, stood up from the seat, walked in a square move, looked at one end, and said: "At the critical juncture of martial arts, everyone can not remember the old evils of the past, gather together to fight against the evil demons, I am here to say thank you for the people in the world." In addition, we must also thank all friends for their love and gratitude, which cannot be repaid. And forgive me for Li Yijie's incompetence, a few days ago, because of the fatigue of the journey, I caused confusion in my heart, so I snubbed you. It makes some friends suspicious of me, and it is indeed an indulgence in the next moment, no wonder everyone. Failing to lead the Martial Arts Alliance to be invincible is to be held accountable, and there is no excuse for it......"
Everyone in the audience listened to his words with humility and decency, and was able to keep his promises, and they admired Mr. in their hearts, and said busily: "There is no such thing! Alliance leader, your old man is too humble." As the saying goes, victory and defeat are a common thing in soldiers, how can there be an eternal victorious general on the battlefield?" "The alliance leader can think for us, be anxious about the people's anxieties, and completely misbehave, which has already given us enough face!" "A few days ago, I was confused for a while, and I was suspicious of the alliance leader, please don't be weird!"
Nangong Xue saw that everyone was respectful to Li Yijie, which was completely different from the few days ago when she was on the verge of turmoil, and she couldn't help but have a smile of relief on her face.