That's it.

After thinking about it, I made this decision anyway.

Although I don't want to admit it very, very much, I really can't do it, and I can't continue it.

I've always wanted to write stories that are purely airy, intricate, grandiose, and messy, but the reality is that I don't have the talent.

This is really shocking, and I am not convinced, at least unwillingly.

Just like my first book, originally titled "Free Humans", you can know how many middle two there are when you look at this name, and the name of the protagonist is even called "Wang Er", and the reader's first reaction is probably a black question mark on his face, plus an EXM expression.

Sure enough, "Wang Er" finally signed a contract, and the editor kindly instructed me to delete the first few chapters directly, because I didn't need it, it wasn't direct enough, in short, all kinds of shortcomings.

It's really insufficient, looking back, there is nothing in that book except for the enthusiasm and the dream of the second year of secondary school, and I don't know any skills in writing books, so I wrote it as soon as my brain crackled.

The title of the book was eventually changed to "My Wife is a Witch", which was a shameful name, but it didn't save the book.

The final subscription was in the single digits, and I insisted on the 700,000-word outline.

At that time, I was very lost and at a loss, but more than that, I was not convinced.

I'm Zhao Ritian, cough cough, wrong, how can I XXX be a person who kneels and cowards?!

No, another copy must be made!

So I tried to write a book about the city, which is said to be the most suitable type for new beginners.

As a result, I was rejected for continuous application for signing, and it was almost 200,000 words that I was about to admit it, and then I suddenly came to sign a short station.

This is the previous book, "Mystery Chest".

In this city, I tried to learn the commercial way of writing, that is, the legendary three-piece set of pretending to be forced to slap the face and pick up the girl, but my knees just couldn't go down, and I often committed literary and youthful diseases, so that I was not embarrassed or embarrassed, and I was blue and thin with shiitake mushrooms.

Later, a gunfight plot was blocked in violation of the ban, causing me to be a soldier, and the originally designed outline had to be abandoned, and almost all the sensitive plots involving domestic and foreign families and organizations were deleted, and I didn't even dare to write about a Japanese gang or something.

So from the third volume onwards, I forcibly turned to foreign development, and the plot also jumped to the fantasy part of the supernatural that I didn't want to write about.

And then there was no then.

With more than 1.3 million words, the complete version of "Mysterious Treasure Chest", or more accurately, it should be the end of the fantasy part of the ability.

The subscription is more than 200, and the monthly manuscript fee is about 1,000.

It's still bad, but it's much better than the first book.

Maybe I should continue to write about the city?

The result is that I am not reconciled, or I still want to write a purely empty messy story.

Yes, the rich seem to be so capricious!

cough cough cough, in fact, money is not money, but you have to be big!

I happened to see a martial arts essay, and the request was for the future ancient martial arts, so my brain was hot, and I came to die again.

The setting is a major revision of the main setting of the first book, establishing a pseudo-wasteland pseudo-martial arts story, essentially trying to write a great adventure story in the era of great chaos.

And then that's it.

"Wasteland Martial Arts", more than 10,000 words received the signing station.

So I happily wrote this big story that I liked, big big ......

Big your sister, big girl, motherfucker, the concubine really can't do it, woo woo!

I am not convinced, I am not reconciled.

But it's useless to be unconvinced, I don't have this talent.

When writing this kind of fantasy story, I can't help but babble and make the setting more and more complicated, and I made more than a dozen of the setting tables alone.

From the history of the sect and family grievances, to the weapons and equipment, and the names of monsters, I have to pick at them for a long time.

I'm sick, really, can't be cured.

Sometimes, I comfort myself -

The things you like are often not what you are good at.

Talent and destiny, and self-struggle, are often two different things.

Jin Yong, a generation of martial arts masters, likes not to write martial arts novels, but to be obsessed with Go and his "Ming Pao".

Well, I admit, these are all reasons, but also excuses, and the truth is-

The old man really can't make it up, woo woo!

The brain capacity is too small to carry a big story.

Obviously, there is a setting and an outline, but I just can't write the rush I want, the grandeur and insignificance of human beings themselves, the so-called serious and lively sense of history.

I have to admit that what I'm good at may be the love of children and clear eyebrows, rather than the golden iron horse and the pen walking the dragon and snake.

I like the latter, but I can't do it, I grit my teeth and persist every time I am unwilling and unwilling to admit defeat, and the result is a tiger dog and a failure.

It's embarrassing to think about it, the boss is not small, and he still insists on not knowing the so-called persistence, is it possible to really believe that people will win the day?

"Eternal words are worthy of life, and they seek more blessings. 」

These words come from the Book of Songs, and I remember that the general idea should be to be a human being, and to think more about whether you are following the heavens in order to pursue a happy life.

Going against the sky or something, it sounds very emotional, but it's no different from doing it.

So if you like it, you still like it, but in life, it's better to do what you're good at, or what you're good at.

Why bother to suffer from hardships and seek abuse again and again?

No one likes setbacks, especially desperate setbacks that don't know what the meaning is.

Just let me give up, even once.

I tried to convince myself to let go of this obsession, a childish obsession.

Okay, so much of it, that's it.

"Wasteland Martial Arts", that's it!

Although there are not many readers, I still apologize, especially a few friends who have supported me all the way, please give me the address privately, and I will send you my knee by courier.

As for the next book, uh, if there is, it should be a female frequency city, and you pure men and real men will probably not read it, so say goodbye here.

Farewell, gentlemen!