Chapter 29 (8)
But Nangong Xue was treating him with affection, how could he be ruthless and shake her hand? But for her good, it was absolutely impossible not to send her away. So I secretly made a painful decision to enjoy the last moment of warmth on this path. Just wait for her to get out of the cave and let her go immediately. At that time, no matter what she said, for the sake of her life, she could not agree.
In the eyes of people who are anxious to escape, this road is extremely long, but Li Yijie is panicked in his heart, and hopes that this road will be delayed for a longer time, so that he can stay with his junior sister for a longer time. If you persuade her to leave today, maybe the two will have a feud, and even if not, she may die at any time, and she will never have the opportunity to see her again. Fighting alone, although it is a little lonely, fortunately, there are no worries. For an emotional person like him, this section is even more important.
Seeing the light in front of me gradually expanding, finally the road opened, and the familiar blue sky and earth appeared in front of me, the breeze was slow, the sun was warm, and the gloomy and dead air in the cave was swept away here. Nangong Xue was so happy that she ran out of the cave in a few steps, opened her arms, turned in a circle, put her hands together to her mouth, and shouted: "We are out! We have returned to the world alive! Senior brother's internal injuries have also been healed! Heyββ"
Li Yijie looked at her cheerful appearance, and thought that it would not be long before he would break her joy with his own hands, although he was the one who wanted to see his sister happy the most. The words choked in my throat, and I wanted to spit it out several times, but I really couldn't say it, I only felt that it was better to delay for a while. His hands clenched into fists at either side of his body, and his nails pierced his palms painfully.
But what is really cruel? Is it not cruel to ignore her safety and let her follow her and kill Jiang Yanchen one day? I know very well that if I want to say this, I must say it quickly, and after a long time, I am afraid that I will soften my heart again, that is, this inappropriate soft-hearted will hurt her. The corners of his mouth grinned back, and he tried to make a mouth shape with the word "snow", but he couldn't bite down on that syllable.
Nangong Xue laughed a few words, but she didn't hear the slightest response from Li Yijie behind her. In the past, even if he was no longer interested in what he was doing, in order to make her happy, he would definitely deal with a few words casually, but this time, how could there be no movement? Could it be that the injury recurred and fainted?
turned around and saw that Li Yijie was standing upright, but his face was a little gloomy than the sky before the rainstorm. The hanging heart was put down. After going through many difficulties and dangers, he finally got out of the cave, he really had no reason to be unhappy, so why bother to look at it......?
Li Yijie finally spit out a sentence that was in his mouth: "Xue'er, you can go." As soon as the words of the long-standing determination were spoken, he did not feel any relief, but a heavier feeling of guilt pressed into his heart, which made his chest and abdomen heavy, and he almost couldn't breathe.
Nangong Xueqi said: "Let's go, where are you going? Why are you talking without a head or a brain? Of course, let's go together." β
Li Yijie swallowed a few mouthfuls of saliva, and felt that there was always a hard lump in his throat, and he couldn't moisten it. He took a breath, slowly exhaled it, looked at Nangong Xue's eyes, lowered his eyebrows, and said softly: "Don't stay by my side, Xue'er." After leaving...... Find a good family to marry, and live a husband and children, without quarrel with the world...... Go for the peaceful life you yearn for. β
Nangong Xue was shocked, looked straight into Li Yijie's eyes, and said, "Senior brother, are you driving me away?" What did I do wrong, and I don't even have the qualifications to follow you?"
Li Yijie said: "It's not that you did anything wrong, you are very good." It's just that...... It's just that I took a dangerous road, and my head was tied to my belt to live, and I don't know which day, at what time, my head fell to the ground. You listen to me, it's not a temporary idea, I've been thinking about this issue for several days, but I still can't make up my mind. You are facing the wall at the top of the mountain, although the days are a little boring, but you can still spend six years in peace, but you have just come down the mountain, as soon as you see me, you will go around in front of the ghost gate several times. Seeing Jiang Yanchen using you to blackmail me, I even ...... I can't wait to ...... The man under his sword is me, not you, you know?"
Nangong Xue said: "Born for chivalry, die for morality, all my sons and daughters of the rivers and lakes, which one is not like this? Besides, you will protect me, and you will never let anyone hurt me, right? Am I not your most beloved junior sister? You are also my most respected senior brother, where will I go if I leave you? I don't want anyone, I just want you! Besides, aren't these few times all of them dangerous, and in the end, they still saved the day?"
Li Yijie said: "It was good luck once or twice, and it is impossible not to die every time." If it weren't for me this time, you wouldn't be trapped in a cave again. I had already made up my mind that if I could survive, I would let you go. Xue'er, I don't dare to say anything about sacrificing my life for righteousness, but you have to believe that I am really for your good. β
Nangong Xue wept and said: "For my good, so you are ready to go on an adventure alone, once you are injured and die, let me collect your body, bury you, set up a monument to pay tribute, and come to your grave every year to offer incense? If you are not there, I will die with you and never live, do you think I don't have the courage?"
Li Yijie broke out in a cold sweat and said: "No, of course I believe it, but I just don't want you to die with me! As long as you ...... Take care of yourself. You are a simple and kind good girl, not suitable for the days of fighting and killing and bloodshed in the martial arts, what you want is the countryside in the mountains, with a husband who guards you, protects you, and is always by your side. We...... Maybe in this life, there is only the fate of brothers and sisters. β
Nangong Xue let the tears fall from her face, and no longer raised her hand to wipe it, and sneered: "Now even this only fate, you have to cut it off with your own hands? You are so cruel! You are really a hundred times more ruthless than the Seven Demon Heads! Very good, since you are not any one of mine, how can you control my future and my destiny? Decide what kind of life I am suitable for? What is your position...... You ......"
It was decided to be strong, but as soon as a few words came out, he couldn't go on with a choked voice, Li Yijie's image was twisted and shaking in the mist of tears, his eyes were sore, I don't know if it was stinging to the tears, or it was stabbed by this ruthless senior brother. He took a hard breath, raised his eyes, made it difficult for tears to fall, and gritted his teeth and said: "What if I say, I won't leave? I like to lick blood from the knife in the rivers and lakes, and live like this life when my life hangs by a thread and is precarious?"
Li Yijie saw Nangong Xue crying bitterly, and was so distressed that he just wanted to wipe away her tears and take her in his arms to comfort her softly, but at this time, soft-heartedness could only hurt her, forcing himself to be ruthless, and said, "If you don't go, I'll go." Jiang Yanchen is right, if you want to achieve great things, you have to cut off all kinds of emotional fetters with your own hands, and only cold-blooded can be invincible in the world. You can naturally choose to continue to live in the rivers and lakes, be your Nangong heroine, and be happy with revenge, but in the future, your life and death will have nothing to do with me, and no one can use you to threaten me. Orβif you change your mind and are willing to marry, I can also give you a large dowry, so that my good sister can marry in style. I can't bring you a stable life, so let someone who has the ability to give it!"
Lu Qian and Cheng Jiaxuan also walked out of the cave at this time, the two of them walked slowly, and as soon as they came out, they saw Li Yijie and Nangong Xue having a quarrel, and they also happened to hear Li Yijie's last few words. Lu Qian hurriedly stepped forward and hugged Nangong Xue's shoulder, patted her gently, and said angrily: "What are you arguing about? It's a happy thing to be able to get out of the cave alive, are you all dizzy with joy? Brother Li, what did you just say? Does it count? If you don't want Xue'er, just leave her to me to take care of." β
Nangong Xue ignored the hand he put on his shoulder, her eyes just stared at Li Yijie with tears, and said, "Senior brother...... You...... You didn't mean to hurt me by saying these things, did you? You ...... because you were worried about my safety. Let me stay, I won't cause trouble for you, let alone become a burden to you, I will definitely practice hard and be your good helper...... Please, senior brother......"
Li Yijie said coldly: "That doesn't work." As long as I see you, my heart will be in turmoil, and I can't concentrate on fighting the enemy. If you don't protect yourself, a little skin trauma will distract me. In the fierce battle, it is most taboo to be inattentive, and it is very likely that at that moment, the enemy's sword will take the opportunity to stab at it. Do you still have to rely on me even if I die, just to fulfill your own pleasure?"
Nangong Xue's tears dried up, showing a kind of resolute hatred, and said: "There is no need to say anything, are you anxious to get rid of my burden? Even if the person I want to marry in the future is a poor bastard, a country man, a cripple, or a fool, you will let me marry?"
Li Yijie was silent for a moment, and then said: "Yes, yes, as long as he has a good conscience, he will treat you well enough, I ...... You can rest assured. β
Nangong Xue's face changed miserably, tears were scattered on her face, and she sneered: "Very good, I finally heard your sincere words, senior brother." If my existence only hinders your progress, then I don't need to be so embarrassed by you, I know how to cut myself. But you will regret it, I remember every word and every sentence I said to me today, and you will regret it one day!"
Li Yijie already regretted it a little at this time, secretly wondering if he was going too far, and subconsciously tried to seek a way back, saying: "If I can not die in the future......
Nangong Xue sneered and interrupted: "Then you don't have to apologize to me, I'm not the garbage you want to shake off, pick up when you want, do you understand? I will never forgive you again, I hate you in this life! As he spoke, he stomped his foot hard, shook off Lu Qian, and rushed out quickly. The wilderness was overgrown with weeds, and she was soon obscured.
Li Yijie opened his mouth to exhale, at this time he really wanted to put everything behind and chase Nangong Xue back obediently, at least explain it to her clearly, and find a proper place to settle down. Don't ask for kindness, just get her resentment. When she died, she would mention this deceased senior brother again, and she would hate it with hatred.
He is not a saint after all, for the sake of justice, he can kill himself to become benevolent, but he does not want to bear a bad name and die in the world. The arm was only halfway raised, but it was stopped by Lu Qian, and said, "Brother Li, what happened to you and Xue'er?" I didn't recognize her on the first day, but she has always been a very strong girl, no matter how much she suffers, she still pretends to be indifferent on her face. No matter how serious it is, at most, she hid in the corner and secretly wiped her tears, and she has never seen her so sad and desperate as she was just now. If you have any misunderstandings, you still have to talk about them in time, because the more this matter drags on, the worse it gets. β
Li Yijie smiled bitterly: "That's not a misunderstanding, but it's also a misunderstanding...... I'm really ...... for her good" At this time, he was so tormented that he was about to collapse, and he urgently needed to find someone close to pour out the bitter water in his stomach. He pulled Lu Qian and Cheng Jiaxuan to sit down by the cave, and explained all his thoughts to the two of them, and finally said: "What do you say, what should I do?"