Tears still flowed uncontrollably.

Accidentally, the cigarette choked on me, and I couldn't stop coughing.

Realizing that the people around him were watching him, whispering something to each other, and pointing fingers at him.

He was very disgusted with the situation and the atmosphere, do you really care about me?

No, you don't care about me at all, so what are you pointing at me?

Bai Yujie was puzzled.

I was puzzled, I had to puff up my chest and wave my hand to wipe away my tears, but the tears still couldn't stop flowing, it didn't matter, nothing was important at this moment, the important thing was that no matter what, he Bai Yujie had to straighten his waist and walk out from here.

Not for anything else, just to fight for yourself.

Thief God!

Listen, he hasn't lost yet!

...

There is a lot of darkness in this world, cruel that you can't imagine, and the reason why you feel that life is beautiful is because you haven't experienced these things yet.

It is only when you have actually experienced these things that you will understand that the world is far from being as beautiful as you imagined.

At the end of the day, there are a lot of things in this world that you don't understand and don't get angry at all if you haven't experienced them.

Bai Yujie now has mixed feelings in his heart, with remorse, anger, and unwillingness.

But more than that, he felt a deep despair about this society, about the world, and he didn't understand why all the bad things were put on his own.

Ask yourself, although he Bai Yujie is not a saint and gentleman, he is by no means a treacherous villain who does all kinds of evil. But why is the heavens so unfair to him?

July is the middle of summer, the sun is shining, the wind is beautiful, the pedestrians on the street are bustling, talking and laughing, and who can feel his sadness at this time?

Walked under a tree, leaned back against the tree, picked up the old old iPhone, forcibly squeezed out a smile to take a selfie with himself, and posted a circle of friends with a line of text.

"I wish I could be a person who truly wants strangers to be happy"

After the hair, Bai Yujie sat under the tree, closed his eyes, felt the breeze, his brain was blank, and he lost both of the two lawsuits that he thought he would win, and he had not told his mother at home that he was already a Ben San person, and his mother was over sixty years old now, and he was already in poor health because of overwork, if he added this news like bad news, he was really afraid that something would happen.

He doesn't understand it very much, and he doesn't want to understand it, why he worked hard and chased his dreams desperately, but in the end he didn't move in the same place?

Why is it that kindness is exchanged for a cold wolf's heart and dog lungs?

Now he regrets it, why did he restlessly seek an ordinary but stable job in college, why did he chase that seemingly unattainable dream?

Now that he has lost everything, is all he has left for himself is the sentence "I have worked hard, I don't regret it"?

You can't turn back time, and there is no regret medicine in this world to take.

Pick up the phone, enter the screen for fingerprint verification, open the WeChat circle of friends, and see the news you just posted, a few likes, and a few comments. Former classmates, friends on the way to growth, and my own mother.

This may be the biggest charm of WeChat Moments, behind the seemingly dazzling Moments of Friends, no one knows what kind of mood you are in at this moment.

Bai Yujie suddenly thought of an old saying that people often say but don't realize it. The ancients did not deceive me, and it really is in this world.

"Self-Knowledge"

There happened to be a small river not far from the court, and Bai Yujie walked on the riverside path, trying to calm down his mood. Look down at your own reflection in the river.

The height of one meter eight, the standard northerner face, the short head, the undried tears on the face and the slight flushing of the cheeks caused by excitement are mixed together, and the expression at this moment is extremely weird.

Because he likes fitness, his body is unusually strong, and many of his classmates have lost their bodies a few years after graduation, but he not only maintains a good figure, but also has a large range of muscles.

The cold and warm are self-aware, and the cold and warm are self-aware.

Bai Yujie muttered as he walked, it wasn't that he jumped into the river like this without thinking about it, but unfortunately he was good at water, and his instinct to survive couldn't let him drown.

What's more, there is the old mother at home, and she can't just go so irresponsibly.

The most important thing is that he doesn't want to end like this, he is unwilling, and his anger slowly accumulates in his heart, gradually surpassing regret and sadness.

Raising his head, this is the first time that Bai Yujie wants to kill this thief.

When night fell, Bai Yujie wandered by the river all day, recalling a lot in his mind, and never knew how to face his mother, so he called home halfway and told his mother that he would go back later.

Emotional and the fact that he hadn't eaten well in the past few days, he was hungry and accompanied by the dark night, and walked to a fried skewer restaurant that he often went to at home.

In the past, whenever Bai Yujie came home late and didn't catch dinner, or when he couldn't sleep in the middle of the night and was hungry, he would come to this small shop to eat some fried skewers, not much, but he could always fill his stomach.

Bai Yujie, the owner of the fried skewer shop, has known each other for more than ten years, as early as when he was still in junior high school, the owner of the shop has been pushing a cart to sell fried skewers at the east end of the street.

Seeing Bai Yujie's arrival, the boss who had known him for so many years seemed to see that he was not in a good mood, so he simply asked, "As usual"? Bai Yujie nodded, and went into the house to find a table where no one was and sat down.

After eating for so many years, Bai Yujie likes to eat so many things, and the boss knows it well, and everyone knows it.

After a while, all kinds of skewers that have just been fried and are still steaming are on the table, pick up the usual favorite real eggs and take a bite, but I don't know why today's real eggs are tasteless, and I have eaten a few strings of snacks that I usually don't get tired of eating today.

Obviously very hungry but without appetite, my heart seemed to be blocked, and my chest seemed to be pressed with a big stone and I couldn't breathe.

You can always see all kinds of people in the fried skewer shop at night, because usually the restaurants are closed at this point, and the people who come to eat the fried skewers are either good bites, or they are not very hungry to come here to eat something to cushion their stomachs, so there are three teachings and nine streams in the fried skewer shops at this time, and there are everyone, including young waiters who have got off work in nearby restaurants, and successful people who wear high-end tweed coats.

Bai Yujie usually likes to eat some fried skewers alone, by the way, observe the people around him, listen to what they say, or have a profound truth, or simply brag, either he is happy to listen to it, or he can get some small insights.

There are very few people in the store today, except for Bai Yujie, who has just come in, there are only the two eldest brothers at a table next to him, and the wine bottles on the table and the sticks on the ground prove that the two have drunk some kung fu.

Listening to the conversation between the two should be good friends who haven't seen each other for a long time, sighing at each other's difficulties in life, complaining about the unsmooth career, and nagging about the trivial things of their wives.

Until one of the glasses said slightly drunk, "Alas, I have been struggling for so many years since I joined the work, and now I am in my forties, isn't it still like this?"

I don't know why, Bai Yujie, who heard this, couldn't control his tears again, he didn't understand, he didn't know if it was the words of others that moved him, or because of the suffering these days tormenting himself. Or both, I only knew that the moment I heard this sentence, Bai Yujie finally collapsed.

With the words of others, Bai Yujie couldn't stop crying, and slowly began to whimper until he cried.

The shopkeeper sitting at the door, the proprietress wearing strings in the back, and the two next to him. No one bothered Bai Yujie, and they all remained silent at this moment, not because they knew each other, nor because they were polite.

Just at this moment, the five people in this small shop can feel the same way.

The night is still so dark, the time is still passing by second, and the world is still moving.

Except for Bai Yujie, who was crying loudly at this moment, and the four people who felt the same way.

The starry sky is still so bright.