Chapter 990: The Heart of Disobedience (Part II)
"Well, because it's all my fault-" Xiao Tian nodded squarely, "You hate me because of me, if I can understand you and understand your thoughts, even if you hate me and resent me, I will feel better......"
Xu Shuang listened, and was faintly silent on the side, as if he was hesitating about something-different from his own thoughts, the "Canglong Hero" in front of him did not have the deterrence of "invincible in the killing array" just now, nor did he look at the arrogance of seeing people, but lowered his status in front of a person who hated him, and felt guilty...... Unconsciously, the complexity in Xu Shuang's heart became more and more entangled, for Xiao Tian, and even for Su Jia, Xu Shuang had other thoughts. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info
"Little Shuang......" looked at Xu Shuang's hesitant expression, and Wu Xian, who had always understood feelings, said silently.
Xu Shuang's eyes calmed down slightly, as if he had decided what he thought in his heart......
"You let me say, it's a good ......" Xu Shuang finally let go of his paranoia and said from the bottom of his heart, "Senior Sister Yi Yao and I have been sisters since childhood, no matter joy or sorrow, we were very happy every day when we were children. It's not just me, Wu Xian, Taotao, and the dead Sister Xiaohong, and Chen Shijin, who didn't betray the teacher, we are like a family every day, and we are happy......"
Xiao Tian listened patiently to Xu Shuang's narration, and Ran Dou's heart gradually calmed down just now, and looked at Xu Shuang's face quietly.
"But on that day, everything changed...... Xu Shuang seemed to say the sore spot, and gritted his teeth in a low voice, "On the day I went to 'Emei Sword', the officers and soldiers of Mengyuan attacked...... Senior Brother Chen, whom we have always respected, actually became a lackey of the imperial court in order to enjoy glory. Senior Sister Yi Yao killed Chen Shijin with her own hands, and she did not hesitate to lose her mind and fight for her life......"
Speaking of which, Wu Xian and Lu Tao on the side also felt the same way - the "incident" of that day, the two of them were also present, they witnessed Chen Shijin in the Mengyuan army, facing the ugly face of the martial arts soldiers, and Li Yiyao (Su Jia) desperately killed the scene, it was a painful picture that they will never forget in their lives......
"After Chen Shijin left, Senior Sister Yi Yao also went crazy...... Xu Shuang continued to say sadly, "She lost her mind and broke into the sect's forbidden place 'Water Moon Cave'...... I don't care what Senior Sister Yi Yao is for, after being discovered, she was hunted down and killed by assassins hired by Master Mo, and Sister Xiaohong also died tragically in order to protect Senior Sister Yi Yao...... On that day, our 'family' was broken up, and we haven't seen each other again for three years......"
Hearing this, Lu Tao on the side couldn't help but feel sad - he clearly remembered that when Su Jia left the Wind Chasing Sect three years ago, his senior sister and himself swore goodbye.
"Chen Shijin rebelled, Sister Xiaohong died, after Senior Sister Yiyao left, the remaining three of us have been living in loneliness and sorrow, and there is no longer the ......happiness of the past," Xu Shuang continued, "Until half a year later, Senior Brother Zheng Yuhua Zheng came to the Wind Chasing Sect, I thought I could go back to the old days, but who would have thought that ......" Xu Shuang said while choking up.
Hearing "Zheng Yuhua", Xiao Tian couldn't help but be stunned in his heart - like Su Jia, thinking of the fiasco of the "Mogu First Battle", Xiao Tian didn't feel a faint pain.
"Three years later, I finally reunited with Senior Sister Yiyao, I thought I could reminisce happily, but how did I think that Senior Sister Yiyao had changed--she had become cold, and she had become strange...... "Xu Shuang said sadly, "And Zheng Yuhua's purpose is to kill Senior Sister Yiyao and avenge the dead Sister Xiaohong...... Why, it was originally a family, but now it is so cannibalistic that it can't ...... it"
"Little Shuang......" Wu Xian couldn't bear to listen to it on the side, and squeaked silently on the side.
"Senior Sister Yi Yao too, completely ignoring the original sisterly relationship...... Xu Shuang continued, "Senior Sister Yi Yao and I are also close sisters who have been together for more than ten years, I came here to reunite with her, and she didn't even smile at me once...... Has everything really changed, why did Senior Sister Yi Yao become like this? It's not all because of Chen Shijin, it's because of Zheng Yuhua...... Besides, it's because of you, the 'Dragon Hero'—"
Speaking of which, Xu Shuang finally pointed the "spearhead" at Xiao Tian. When Xiao Tian heard this, his expression was calm, but his expression was indifferent.
"In the past three years, Senior Sister Yi Yao has been with you-" Xu Shuang raised his head slightly, glanced at Xiao Tian and cried, "With you, Senior Sister Yi Yao has become more indifferent than before...... Why, I have been with Senior Sister Yi Yao for more than ten years, but you have only been with her for three years, but you have made her a different person!
finally vented the resentment in his heart, and Xu Shuang felt better. And Xiao Tian felt a little better, he finally understood Xu Shuang's heart......
"Little Shuang......" Finally, Xiao Tian slowly spoke, "I'm sorry because of me, making you feel indifferent to me and your senior sister......"
"Uh......" Xu Shuang never expected that Xiao Tian would really admit his "mistake" and apologize in front of himself - although she knew very well that all this was just a personal grudge in her heart, and if it was right or wrong in the final analysis, it was not Xiao Tian's fault.
Xiao Tian smiled slightly, then cast a friendly gaze at Xu Shuang and said, "Xiaoshuang, are you willing to listen to me......"
Xu Shuang choked up and didn't speak, but nodded tremblingly by default.
"You're right, these three years...... No, it's true that your senior sister has changed,......" Xiao Tian smiled, his eyes gradually becoming determined, "However, she has not become cold-blooded and ruthless, on the contrary, she is more enthusiastic and mature than before...... You may not know that before we got along, she was even colder than now, and when she was in Liusha Town, she only thought about hatred in her heart, and even used me for revenge, and she did not hesitate to use me, and she ...... more than once."
"Senior Sister Yi Yao...... Use your ......" Xu Shuang couldn't help but be stunned when he heard this.
"Yes, she used me, deceived me lightly, the most serious, and gave me a sweat pill, hehe......" Thinking of the "interesting" past, Xiao Tian couldn't help but smile, and said calmly, "However, she is not lonely after leaving the Wind Chaser faction - she met me, met Sister Jing, met Brother Tang Zhan, met Brother Zichuan and sister-in-law Yuru, met Brother Huang Ji and Sister Ying...... She is not lonely, but more open than before, her heart is more worried about her sisters and friends, she is no longer only worried about the hatred in her heart, and her personality is much more cheerful than before......"
"How could it be ......" Hearing this, Xu Shuang's expression was a little dazed.
"She used to be in the Wind Chasing Sect, and she more or less told me about it......," Xiao Tian continued, "Maybe, compared to her when she was a child, maybe she is still more 'ruthless' now, but she must care about and cherish the people around her more than before, let alone the life and death that has experienced the war...... I believe in Jia'er, I believe in your senior sister, she must care about you more than anyone else, and she will not ignore you. The reason why she "treats you coldly" may be the torture of fate - the enemy Chen Shijin is in front, the life experience of Zheng Yuhua and Sister Xiaohong, and the truth about her parents back then, all of which keep her awake at night and unable to feel at ease...... Of course, these are just the tip of the iceberg, she has experienced more and more in the past three years, and it is not the ...... that she used to be in the Wind Chaser."
"But even so...... Even so...... Even so......" Xu Shuang seemed to be unable to get rid of the estrangement in his heart, choked up a few words, and cried sadly, "I know, all this is not ...... It's not your fault, Brother Xiao...... If you want to blame, blame this unfair fate - why Senior Sister Yi Yao is the daughter of Su Ren and Lin Yufei, why is Master Mo her father-killing enemy, why is she the heir of 'Jianghu Bo', why is the lover of the dead Sister Xiaohong turn against Senior Sister Yi Yao...... Senior Sister Yi Yao will become like this, and she will blame this ruthless fate!"
continued to listen to Xu Shuang's venting, and everyone felt embarrassed in their hearts.
"My wish is very simple, I want to go back to the old days, the family is harmonious and harmonious, and I ......am happy every day," Xu Shuang continued to cry, "But why, why is fate like this?" Chen Shijin left, Sister Xiaohong left, Senior Sister Yiyao also left, and the reunion was an enemy...... What the hell is going on, what's going on in this world, why can't we go back to the 'happy days' we used to have in the wind chasing faction...... Whose fault is it, who can tell me?!" The last sentence sounded through his heart, expressing the deepest cry in Xu Shuang's heart.
The scene was suddenly silent, and there was no echo for a long time......
"Because Jia'er, she has matured ......," Xiao Tian whispered slowly for a long time.
"What......" Xu Shuang didn't understand what Xiao Tian meant, and turned his head and asked.
"Her fate, the fate of the world will eventually change, destined to experience the catastrophe, Jia'er will never escape, but bravely face-" Xiao Tian raised his head and said righteously, "I have witnessed it in the past three years-I am not afraid to face Lu Huan's pursuit alone, Bianliang stood up to save the 'Yangzhou Woman', in exchange for the reputation of Xiaojia Villa, and jumped off the cliff on the Shenfeng Cliff to save me, and it was incumbent on the Shenfeng Cliff to protect the daughter of Yixian Zhangmen to fight the thieves, and now for the righteousness of the world, he waved the Northern Expedition and saved the Central Plains...... Jia'er has changed too much in the past three years, and the calamities she has experienced are innumerable, which is not comparable to just one 'Chen Shijin's rebellion' and 'Mo Tianxing's revenge for killing his father'. You can't understand the hardships and hardships that Jia'er has experienced, but what remains unchanged is that no matter what situation she faces, Jia'er has never given up her determination to fight against fate. Take the fiasco of the 'Valley of Ghosts' as an example, after she woke up after fainting, she still did not sink because of the cause of Sister Xiaohong's death and her own madness, but got up again from the place where she fell, and continued to fight tenaciously against fate - this is the real Jia'er, although the original sixteen years lived in lies and deception, but in the three years by my side, I witnessed her maturity and will!"
"Senior Sister Yi Yao...... Mature......" Xu Shuang's expression couldn't help but change when he heard this.
Not only Xu Shuang, but Wu Xian and Taotao listened to their senior sister's experience, and their hearts couldn't help but be moved.
"Whether it's fate or injustice, maybe the 'happy' days of the past can't come back," Xiao Tian continued...... "But people are still there, and beliefs have not changed - people always have to grow up, and Jia'er can do it, put aside the illusory indulgence of the past, bravely face the fate of the future, and move forward step by step." And I believe that from the bottom of my heart, Jia'er also hopes that you can face the joys, sorrows and sorrows of the past calmly, and look forward with maturity!"
"Senior Sister Yiyao......" opened their hearts to each other, and the estrangement in their hearts seemed to be swept away, and at that moment, Xu Shuang seemed to understand Xiao Tian's thoughts, and even understood his senior sister's true heart......
Xiao Tian said, and couldn't help but think of what he had said to Xiaohua......
(in recall)......
"Big brother ......" Xiaohua looked at Xiao Tian's confident gaze, and felt a little touched in her heart, holding inexplicable expectations in her heart, she clenched her hands and said, "Big brother, if only you could always be by Xiaohua's side, you are the best brother Xiaohua has ever seen......"
Xiao Tian thought for a while and smiled slowly, but the next sentence seemed to have a deep meaning...... "Little Flower ......" Xiao Tian's expression was a little calm, and he said slightly, "One day, people will grow up......"
"Huh?" Xiaohua didn't understand for a while, but for some reason, hearing this, Xiaohua secretly harbored a sadness and hope in her heart, an indescribable feeling, I don't know whether to be sad or happy......
(In reality)......
"That's what I wanted to tell you at the time, Xiaohua ......" Thinking of the heart-to-heart chat with Xiaohua that day, Xiao Tian couldn't help but secretly say, "It's not just Jia'er, it's not just Xiaoshuang, I'm the same, from the immaturity of the past, through countless setbacks and hardships and the common feelings of the world, I have come to this point......"
Xiao Tian couldn't help but think of his former self - the "ambition of the bird" in Xiaojia Villa was pinned on Brother Xiao Bo, who could always take care of him, and after meeting Su Jia, he thought that Su Jianeng had always protected himself from danger...... But since the "parting of life and death" on the Shenfeng Cliff, Xiao Tian has really become more mature, knows how to face the tribulations of fate, stand up for himself, and even protect the people around him.
And here today, Xiao Tianzi has a firm belief that he will fight for his life to save Xu Shuang and Wu Xian......
"Hmph, anyone can say beautiful things, but not everyone can do it......" However, Sima Hanyi, who had been silent on the side, said "mockingly" this time, "You are different from her, you are a dignified 'Canglong hero', you have experienced countless experiences in the world, and you can naturally say the words of 'rebelling against fate'." Why don't you want to, you are the 'Canglong Hero', the descendant of the 'Jianghu Bo', your original destiny is not comparable to ordinary people......"
"Hmm......" Xiao Tian heard Sima Hanyi's "sneer" and knew that he was deliberately instigating, so he couldn't help but stare at it......