Chapter 368: A Mess
"That's because we've known each other since we were kids. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info" Chu Hao shook his head and said undeniably.
"Han Lu is not just with you, she has known you since childhood, do you see that she has been in close contact with other boys like you. Xia Yun continued.
Chu Hao shook his head again, this is really not true.
Han Lu has grown up, except for being close to him, and other boys, basically without pretense.
"Besides, if you don't like you, how do you think a girl would be embarrassed to live in a boy's house, and what she said before that your mother made her look at you, isn't it just thin-skinned, but she wants to be with you, so she makes excuses. ”
Speaking of this, Xia Yun blushed a little, how did she say this, she felt like she was talking about herself.
Isn't it because she likes Chu Hao that she lives here.
Chu Hao's face changed, and when Xia Yun said this, it was true.
Han Lu likes him, so where is he?
Chu Hao's heart instantly became chaotic.
"Don't be so entangled, don't you like her too?" Xia Yun said lightly.
In an instant, Xia Yun felt her heart sting violently, but fortunately, it didn't hurt as much as she thought before, she had hidden this sentence in her heart for a long time.
However, in the next moment, Xia Yun was relieved, these were not already predestined, and she had already accepted them, but now that she finally began to face it, she should be happy.
"I like Han Lu?" Chu Hao raised his head, his face blank.
"Isn't it?" Xia Yun smiled, with a shallow smile on her soft cheeks, like a pool of quiet and cool water.
Is it?
Chu Hao asked himself with his heart.
He didn't know.
But what he did know was that since he was a child, he had become accustomed to Han Lu's existence.
Although in the previous life, since going to high school, they suddenly realized that they had grown up with each other and began to be estranged, but when they arrived at college, one was in the south and the other was in the north, thousands of miles apart, and they would still communicate with each other.
Yes, they rarely talked on the phone, but in the old way of writing letters.
I don't seem to like it very much, after hanging up the phone, there is a faint trace of sadness and loneliness, but I chose to write a letter and use letter paper to soothe each other, the letter is warm, it is carrying feelings, and it can be recalled.
But in the letter, most of them were sharing each other's joys, sorrows, and various experiences, and never talked about any topics about relationships, but he knew that he didn't have a girlfriend, and she didn't have a boyfriend.
Let the two of them go further, Chu Hao never thought about it, and it can even be said that such a thought never came to his mind at all, maybe it was too familiar, for him Han Lu was like family.
After graduating from college and working, although he was too busy to write letters, the most common name in Chu Hao's call record was Han Lu, and even the names of his mother and college dormitory brothers were not as frequent as Han Lu.
It can even be said that most of the apartment he lives in is cleaned up by Han Lu, and he should be busy with work and games, and he never seems to notice this, as if these are all taken for granted.
Chu Hao's heart was even more chaotic, like a mess, thousands of threads were intertwined, and he couldn't even find a head.
"Then let me ask you, can you watch Han Lu marry someone else?" Xia Yun said suddenly.
Chu Hao paused for a moment, and then his heart instantly pinched together, as if cold sweat was coming out of his forehead, and it hurt his heart!
Seeing this, Xia Yun smiled, "Don't you already have the answer now." ”
Xia Yun said this sentence very relieved, she knew early on that Han Lu liked Chu Hao, and Chu Hao also liked Han Lu, they were a pair of childhood sweethearts, and in this case, she was forced to insert between Han Lu and Chu Hao, which was an immoral in itself.
She also thought about leaving Chu Hao far away and never seeing Chu Hao again, but there was no way, she couldn't control it, her heart for Chu Hao, when she thought that she would never see Chu Hao, her heart was like the current Chu Hao, and she was violently pinched together, and her heart hurt!
During that time, she was really in pain, although she could still see Chu Hao every day when she opened her eyes, and she could see Chu Hao's happy and satisfied smile when he ate the food he cooked for him.
But she knew that this was just a flash in the pan, the last good thing before death, and she would have to leave him sooner or later.
And this is the most painful, just like a person can clearly see how long she is from death, the countdown to death, ticking and ticking, every second is reminding her of the existence of death.
But Han Lu saw this, and confessed to her that she had liked Chu Hao since she was a child, and when her complexion changed drastically, she was ready to reassure Han Lu that she would leave Chu Hao.
Han Lu persuaded her to stay, and even said that she was willing to quit.
Of course, she naturally did not agree, and the final result of the discussion was that everything was handed over to Chu Hao, and Chu Hao would choose.
However, in her heart, it had already been determined that the person who was with Chu Hao in the end was Han Lu.
She figured out more, what she wanted, she just needed to be by his side, it was good to be able to see him, it was good to be able to cook for him and clean up the housework, and her reputation was like a floating cloud for her.
Moreover, her goal in life is to become a singer, and as a public figure, it seems that it is not very suitable to have a boyfriend.
By the time she was in Yanjing, she had already gotten everything she wanted.
So, that's good.
Xia Yun's words opened up a clue for Chu Hao in an instant.
To be honest, he really hadn't thought about this question before, and he never thought that knowing that Han Lu was going to marry someone else, his heart would hurt so much.
Indeed, the answer he now knows, and his heart has told him what the final answer is.
He likes Han Lu, this kind of feeling has been there since his previous life, he is used to the existence of Han Lu, and his life cannot be without the existence of Han Lu, for a moment, Chu Hao faced his heart.
"But where are you?" Chu Hao raised his head and asked with some bitterness.
I like Han Lu very much, that Xia Yunna, when she was in Yanjing, the warm hug seemed to have put an indestructible chain between the two of them, tying the two together, but Chu Hao felt that each other was still young and the future was not very sure, so he didn't think about it anymore, and went further.
In other words, the relationship between himself and Xia Yun should actually be regarded as a quasi-boyfriend and girlfriend, but the two have never made it clear.
But now that Han Lu also likes herself, and she doesn't seem to be clear with Ling Shuang, Chu Hao feels even more chaotic.
"Me. ”
Xia Yun smiled, stroked the hanging hair in her ears, and a hint of cunning flashed in her eyes.
"Do you like me?"
Chu Hao thought for a moment, then nodded heavily, "I like it." ”
Although such an answer was very immoral and shameless, Chu Hao could no longer go against his true heart at this time.
He does like Xia Yun, likes her people, her smile, her gentleness and demureness like water, likes her cooking, likes to be taken care of by her in life, it can be said that his life is inseparable from Xia Yun, he really can't deceive himself.
"That's it, hold me. ”
Chu Hao paused for a moment, then let go of his arms, and then, a soft and warm body rolled into his embrace, as if it had no weight, really weak and boneless, and a faint fragrance rushed towards his nose.
As soon as Chu Hao lowered his head, Xia Yun's beautiful face instantly came into view, his skin was better than snow, his eyes were like a pool of clear water, and his pink lips were like roses waiting to be released.
Chu Hao's throat couldn't help but move, he swallowed his saliva, it was really beautiful, speaking of which, in the two lives combined, he had never been so close to a girl, let alone Xia Yun was so beautiful.
And it was so close to him, so close, it seemed that as long as he lowered his head, he could catch that incomparably attractive pink lip, and he knew that Xia Yun would not refuse.
It seems that except for some extravagant and wasteful bad habits, Xia Yun has never refused any of his requests.
Although she had already made up her mind in her heart, but being looked at by Chu Hao like this, straight and chiguo, Xia Yun couldn't help but blush, and shame welled up in her heart, her dense and slender eyelashes instantly covered a pair of beautiful eyes, and amazingly, this red quickly spread downward, from the cheeks to the neck, shoulders, arms, everything was pink, pink, just like a newborn baby.
Feeling Xia Yun's slightly trembling body, Chu Hao suddenly smiled, "You are automatically sent to the door." ”
"There's no way to automatically send it to the door, who makes me like you. Xia Yun endured her shame and pretended to say casually, but her still trembling body and the pink color of her whole body seemed to indicate that Xia Yun was not as calm as she said.
Chu Hao's heart moved, and a warm current surged into his heart, you must know that Xia Yun is an extremely shy person, but now he can take the initiative to throw himself into his arms, I am afraid that he really likes himself to the core.
In an instant, Chu Hao's heart was full of guilt, how could he Chu Hao, how could he be favored by Han Lu and Xia Yun at the same time, it was really the most difficult to accept the grace of the beauty.
Chu Hao's mouth opened, and he just wanted to say something, but Xia Yun immediately stretched out two fingers and gently pressed Chu Hao's lips.
"You don't have to feel guilty, it's all our own choice, and you don't have to worry about my existence, accept Han Lu's liking for you, and also express your liking for her to Han Lu, just fine. ”
"But!"
"It's nothing, it's my own choice, and it's my willing choice, as long as you have me in your heart, I'm satisfied. Xia Yun said with a smile.
"This ......"
As soon as Chu Hao opened his mouth again, he was blocked by Xia Yun.
"Are you waiting for me to say yes, if I don't finish it this time, I really don't have the courage to say such things next time. Xia Yun said softly.
As soon as the words fell, shame came back to my heart.
But this sentence was like a sharp sword, piercing directly into Chu Hao's heart, he was already somewhat aware of what Xia Yun was going to say, he felt that he really owed Xia Yun too much.
He himself didn't understand what good things he had done in his life to make a gentle and understanding girl like Xia Yun like him, and he liked him so deeply.
"You know, my dream is to be a singer, and as a public figure, it's not suitable to have a boyfriend on the surface, that is to say, even if you choose me now, I am very likely that I will not be able to put you on the bright side, which is too much for you. Han Lu said seriously.
However, she knows very well that in fact, this is just a lie to Chu Hao, just like Chu Hao is really her boyfriend, even if she can't be liked and accepted by fans, she has to loudly announce to the world that Chu Hao is her boyfriend.
But she couldn't do this, Han Lu was able to agree to her to continue to be by Chu Hao's side, which already made her very grateful, and now let Chu Hao be her boyfriend again, her conscience really couldn't get by.
Besides, as long as she and Chu Hao can identify each other in their hearts, then what does it matter if there is a nominal boyfriend or not.
"Moreover, I know that you and Han Lu like each other, but I forcibly inserted between the two of you, which is immoral in itself, Han Lu can agree to my continued existence, I already feel very guilty. ”
"Xia Yun!"
Chu Hao said gratefully, there is no doubt that Xia Yun has made great sacrifices.
"Really, you have me in your heart, and I can accompany you, and I am already very satisfied. ”
Saying that, Xia Yun's arms gently wrapped around Chu Hao's waist and hugged him, whether it was the solid muscles like a hill or the masculine aura on Chu Hao's body, it made Xia Yun feel extremely down-to-earth.
Although this kind of doing seems to be a great loss for herself, she believes that she will definitely get the happiest life, and she has confidence in Chu Hao and herself.
"I'm so sorry for you. ”
Xia Yun shook her head, like a kitten, and rubbed on Chu Hao's body, "Then you can compensate me, just write me a few more songs like "Coward". ”
"That's fine. Chu Hao agreed.
But having said that, the guilt in Chu Hao's heart still hasn't diminished a bit, and the songs he memorized in his head were originally intended for Xia Yun, so this is not any compensation at all.
"You really don't have to feel any guilt about me, I really feel good now, I can even say, I've never had a better time, you know, I've dreamed about this moment many times in my dreams. Xia Yun muttered.
Chu Hao's heart moved, his arms tightened again, and he hugged Xia Yun even tighter, it was really the most difficult to accept the grace of the beauty, Xia Yun's love, he felt that he couldn't pay it off in this life.