Chapter 124: I hope the world will rain for me
Chen Xinyan is not very stupid, the underlying meaning implied in Ye Zhenzhen's words, he is even slow to be aware of it, but he really didn't expect that Ye Zhenzhen's cold temperament would have such a deep dependence on him.
For him, he just did all the obligations of a friend, but for her, a little light is the sun in life. The sun rises in the east and sets in the west every day, and life is the same, there are days and nights. Some people are always under the light of the warm sun, turning a blind eye to a little firefly, but there are also people who live in the dark and dim night all their lives, they have never seen the dawn of the morning sun and the sunset, and when they see a little starlight falling, they will think of the stars as the sun and the night as day.
This story tells us never to be a warm man, unless you like a girl who is lonely at heart, otherwise it is a loving Shura field if you are not careful.
Chen Xinyan was a little melancholy at the moment, of course he liked her, but it was the kind of love between friends, and there may be a little bit of liking beyond this feeling, but he paid more tribute to a girl who couldn't be described by color. So he was very melancholy, because he didn't know how to refuse so as not to hurt people's hearts. Ye Zhenzhen is not an ordinary girl, she is a girl who has wandered on the snowfield for many years, her heart is full of holes, and her eyes are as cold as ice. When it comes to warmth, the ice that has finally melted away will condense again if you are not careful.
He didn't want to be sad, but he didn't think that his silence was a kind of sadness.
"If you can't answer now, it's fine. Ye Zhenzhen's long eyelashes trembled slightly, and she said casually, "I'll tell me later." ”
With that, he turned around and was about to leave.
"Wait a minute. Chen Xinyan panicked in his heart and called out to her, "I think it should be made clear, if this is a request, then I promise you, if this is a request, then I want you to think about it again?"
The request is not the same as the request, the request is more unreasonable than the request, and it is also more cordial. The request between friends is not the same as the request between a man and a woman, the former he can accept with a clear conscience, and the latter he does not dare to make a commitment. We often say that someone asks her boyfriend to do something, but we don't say what someone asks her boyfriend to do, except for the unequal relationship between men and women.
But Ye Zhenzhen didn't care about this, she paused, suddenly turned her head and said menacingly: "What request is not requested, what request is not requested? Don't talk about anything, you are wrong about one thing, I like you is my business, whether you like me or not is your business, I may have drunk too much today, but what I said is serious, one day I will also turn the matter of whether you like me or not into a matter of you and me." ”
No matter how cool a person is, he is willing to be slimy in love. Her words were full of determination, determination, and violence, and this was the first time Chen Xinyan had seen Ye Zhenzhen have such a big mood swing because of someone other than her father. To tell the truth, he never thought that Ye Zhenzhen, who was as cold as a goddess in the ice, would be so different when she liked a person, without the sadness of ordinary children, and without the bitterness of infatuation and watch, some were just resolute and stubborn not to hit the south wall and not look back.
What do you do if you like someone so much, but they don't like you?
What do you do if you like someone very much, but they don't like you very much?
Out of strong self-esteem, after we hit the wall and ate the ashes, it was clearly unnecessary, but most of the time we still hid in the dark bed and swore that we would regret the person we liked in the future, or we didn't want to admit this failed relationship and deny our love. But people can't deny their feelings, our love is a part of ourselves, we are composed of the joys, sorrows, greed, hatred, and resentments of the past, and people are the superposition of themselves when the countless seconds hand turns in the past. The reason why you are who you are and not others is precisely because your unique experiences and feelings are combined to form your unique life experience, and this experientiality is the individual standard by which we judge and measure life and life, that is, our thoughts. To deny one's own feelings is undoubtedly to deny one's past self and one's own thoughts.
Of course, there are also a small number of people who are infatuated and continue to insist on that hopeless love, that is, the so-called "you don't marry, you don't marry", so it doesn't matter if you waste the years. But such people are generally unhappy, because they are prone to self-pity and easily put themselves in a state of sorrow and misery. In their hesitation, they grabbed the unrequited umbrella and walked among the deserts in a dilemma, fantasizing that there would be a torrential rain to favor themselves who were always alone. Unfortunately, it doesn't always rain in the desert, but when it does, it doesn't always rain everywhere in the desert. The heart of the infatuated lover is a desert, looking forward to a long drought and a rainy day.
But Ye Zhenzhen's difference is that she no longer embraces the sunshine when she believes that starlight, and day without starlight is also night, just like her without him. It may be that her early experiences have shaped her unique character, and she has a spirit of never letting go if she is determined. She doesn't resent, and she doesn't care about self-pity, there is a truth in the world that if you like it, you must get a response, even if the seemingly true law of conservation of energy has lost its meaning in the microcosm of the world. She may be sad, but she will never let go, because that is the only light she has left.
Some girls are willing to give up their dignity for the sake of the person they like, is that cheap? Maybe cheap, but it's also priceless. Some girls like to be a spoiled little princess in the arms of their sweethearts, will it be so sweet that they lose their teeth? Even if they are tired of losing their teeth, it is a happiness that others cannot envy. I can't say which one is better, but if I love, I always like to give. It doesn't matter if there is no return, one day quantitative change will lead to qualitative change, and it is good for me to be alone. A wise man never hangs himself from a tree with a crooked neck, nor does he give up an entire forest for the sake of a tree, only a fool is obsessed, but in fact, I have always been that fool.
"Here's to you. ”
Ye Zhenzhen was silent for a moment, then suddenly stepped forward quickly and kissed Chen Xinyan's eyebrows, and a small ice blue light fell from between her lips into the heavenly eye of his eyebrows.
"You...... What is this for?" Chen Xinyan was subconsciously stunned, and there was a strange feeling of warmth in the center of his eyebrows.
"Do you still remember the reward we won the first place in Shennongjia at that time? I chose a month's access to the library to browse, I stayed in it for a whole month, and finally researched a method to use sword qi as a seed to give birth to sword intent. Originally, I wanted to use it to improve your body-breaking formless sword qi realm, but I didn't expect your sword dao to improve so quickly, and now I'm afraid I won't be able to use it. After that, Ye Zhenzhen floated away, like a fairy who was so cold that she couldn't eat the fireworks of the world, leaving Chen Xinyan alone to stand in place.
It's just that where he couldn't see, she still shed two lines of tears.
Of course, there will still be sadness, how can you not be sad if you are not liked by someone you like?
Grief is inevitable, but the flood will eventually come.