Chapter 30: It is difficult to get rid of self-blame

Kong Xuan was resurrected from the dead, and everyone was excited and tired. To say, the happiest are Kong Muyang and Xiangning.

Kong Muyang and Xiangning looked at their son lovingly, and their tears were already pouring down like a river bursting its embankment.

As for Kong Xuan, he stood with his back to everyone. Kong Xuan's eyebrows locked slightly, and his eyes slowly fell on the soul bell, he couldn't believe that he really came back from the dead, but this was the real fact.

Kong Xuan looked at the soul bell in his hand, and secretly asked in his heart: "Could it be that everything is over?"

Until Kong Xuan's soul and body were completely fused and his divine consciousness was awakened, it was difficult to erase the burning pain in his heart.

The soul bell fell on Kong Xuan's palm, the purple light gradually dimmed, and Kong Xuan's eyes were on the bell body when he was dying.

"Star ....." (the soul bell turns into an MSI like dust and melts into the world)

The conjuring bell disappeared above the palm of his hand, and Kong Xuan was stunned: "This... Why is that?"

Kong Xuan escaped from the ghost gate, Gu Qiu was not happy because of this, the soul bell disappeared from the world, and Gu Qiu was not lost because of this, and it was difficult to distinguish between his expressions.

Gu Qiu walked to Kong Xuan's side, waved his sleeves lightly, pulled them behind him, turned his back to the sky, and said slowly: "This is the will of heaven, presumably the existence of this soul bell is to exhaust all the ancient spiritual power today in exchange for my grandson's life." ”

The words in Gu Qiu's mouth seemed to be solving Kong Xuan's doubts.

Kong Xuan fell and was able to come back from the dead, among the people, the most worried, anxious is Kong Xuan's mother Xiangning. Of all the love in the world, only the mother's love is greater than the sky, the child is conceived in October, and once she gives birth, the child is a piece of heart that falls from the mother's body, and the son is in dire straits, how can she not worry about it as a mother? Not to mention that her son is hovering at the boundary between life and death.

Fang Cai, although he didn't see Kong Xuanwan's painful expression, he could clearly hear his heart-rending struggle, which was undoubtedly not tearing at Xiangning's heart, as if the scorching sun was burning her heart.

At this time, Kong Xuan had already woken up and was able to come back from the dead, Xiangning was excited, stepped forward and took Kong Xuan in his arms, his voice choked in his throat, and tears fell, as if he only felt deeply down-to-earth by holding his most beloved son tightly in his arms.

Xiangning leaned into Kong Xuan's ear and sobbed: "Xuan'er, you are really worried about being a good mother." ”

Kong Xuan's expression was sluggish, without a trace of change in expression, and he looked around at everyone through his mother's hair.

In Kong Xuan's eyes, none of the people were intact, all of them were injured, their clothes were splashed with blood, and their faces were haggard.

Everyone gathered not far from Kong Xuan's side, and their eyes were concentrated. The homeland was destroyed, the relatives died, and the Feng tribe was facing a situation of disintegration, but Kong Xuan did not feel that kind of sadness in the eyes of everyone, but expected! No! It was not so much an expectation as a kind of sustenance.

Kong Xuan faced everyone shamelessly, and when he was in reverie, he hurriedly dodged everyone's eyes and buried his head in his mother's arms.

Kong Xuan is like a child who has done something wrong, hiding in his mother's arms, perhaps, only his mother's warm embrace can make him find the slightest sense of security.

He was helpless, hesitant, and there was a deep sense of self-blame and guilt in his heart, he knew that if he hadn't killed the mother and son of the Red Flame Giant in the barren valley that day, he would not have caused today's disaster, and he knew that for this, the tribe had paid a heavy price, this price was too great, and Kong Xuan couldn't bear that deep self-blame in his heart.

Although none of the surviving clansmen in the tribe complained or resented themselves, when he thought of the tragically dead clansmen, the ruined tribe, and the embarrassed and homeless appearance of everyone, Kong Xuan could no longer suppress the guilt in his heart, and his hands kept patting his cheeks, as if he had buried the lives of countless clansmen with his own hands, and hot tears flowed freely.

"It's all my fault!

When everyone saw Kong Xuan like this, they wanted to step forward, but Kong Xuan's hand stayed weakly in mid-air. It was Xiang Ning's hand, holding Kong Xuan's wrist tightly and stopping it.

Kong Xuan's eyes were still rolling with tears in his eyes, his head was slowly raised, his expression was guilty, and he looked at his mother, but he didn't dare to look at his mother.

Kong Xuan is like this, his mother understands the pain in his heart, but she doesn't want to see her son live in guilt and self-blame.

Xiang Ning was calm and calm, and comforted: "Xuan'er, you listen to your mother, it's not your fault, it's not your fault!"

"No, it's all my fault! It's all my fault! If I hadn't killed the Red Flame Giant, how could I have been so killed...... today"

"No! it's not your fault!"

"It's all my fault......"

Kong Xuan lost control of his emotions several times, and Xiangning tried her best to guide her son, so that the self-blame in his heart could be reduced.

After several repetitions, Kong Xuan's mood swings slowed down slightly, but the tears in his eyes were endless.

Kong Xuan broke away from his mother's embrace, squatted on the ground, curled up slightly, and Xiang Ning also squatted down with him, and the two faced each other.

Xiangning slowly raised her hands, holding Kong Xuan's face, and looked at Kong Xuan lovingly: "Xuan'er, you look at your mother's eyes." ”

Kong Xuan slowly raised his head, his eyes met his mother's.

Xiang Ning said earnestly: "Xuan'er, no matter what the cause of today's incident is, it doesn't matter, after all, this is an ironclad fact, and the only important thing now is that you have to cheer up, you must know that you are now the only hope of our Feng tribe!"

The patriarch walked away from the fire to Kong Xuan's side, leaned down and said: "Good boy, the fault of today's incident is not you, you are a genius that our tribe has never met in ten thousand years, everyone regards you as a lucky star, not only to blame, then can only blame me, blame me for failing to fulfill the responsibility of a patriarch, the Red Flame Giant can easily break through the wall, this is something we never expected, and it is my dereliction of duty." ”

Kong Xuan was silent.

At this time, Kong Muyang, who was standing on the side for a long time, suddenly shouted: "Kong Xuan, if you are the warrior of my Feng clan and the son of my Kong Muyang, you will stand up for me, our Feng clan has no cowards, let alone clansmen who are overwhelmed by difficulties, that is our shame!"

Kong Muyang's voice was sonorous and powerful, touching Kong Xuan's flustered heart.

After Kong Muyang finished speaking, there was silence around him.

The wind mixed with sand and dust, slowly blowing, floating through Kong Xuan's face, a few strands of hair dancing gently, and a trace of perseverance appeared in his expression.

"You stand up for me! You coward!" Kong Muyang saw that his words worked, and he roared again.

The word coward is like a sharp sword, straight into the heart.

Kong Xuanteng stood up and yelled at his father: "I'm not a coward!"

"You're a coward!"

"No! I'm not!"

"Coward!"

"I'm not a coward! I'm a warrior of the Feng Clan!"

Kong Xuan roared, his voice was almost hoarse, and his whole body was trembling.

Kong Muyang looked resolute, walked to Kong Xuan's side, patted him on the shoulder twice, and said loudly: "Okay! This is my Feng clan warrior, Kong Muyang's son, you have to remember what you just said, you are not a coward, you are my Feng clan warrior, the hope of my Feng clan, you are responsible for what you said." ”

Kong Xuan turned around, stood in front of everyone, and shouted hoarsely: "Elders, seniors, today, I, Kong Xuan, swear to the deceased clansmen: I will not insult the reputation of my Feng clan, let alone disappoint everyone, I will work hard to cultivate, improve my strength, and strengthen my department, so that those so-called strong people will stop and be frightened, today's incident will definitely not happen a second time." ”