My name is Yun Chuhang, and I was forty years old when I wrote this letter. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

Tomorrow, I will marry the only daughter of the Zuo gang leader to be my wife. I heard that she was seventeen years younger than me, and I had no intention of doing this, but all this was arranged by my father, and I had no choice but to obey.

People only say that I have devoted the first half of my life to strengthening Yunjiabao and martial arts, but I don't know that I am waiting for someone, waiting for someone who will never come back.

When I first met Xiaozhu twenty years ago, I was twenty years old. Coincidentally, she also happened to be twenty years old.

I vividly remember the first time I met her was an autumn day of lightning and thunder, torrential rain, and hail the size of an egg falling from the sky. Dressed in a thin pink shirt, she walked barefoot in the woods, occasionally reaching out to brush the snow from the peach trees.

She had a lot of fun dipping her feet in the muddy ground, and she wasn't annoyed when the hail hit her.

I had never seen such a beautiful and glamorous girl, and a feeling of pity welled up in my heart, and I immediately took off my cloak and draped it over her. She was scared, looked at me, and ran away.

She walked in a hurry, and the rain was so heavy that it shattered all the footprints she had left on the ground, as if she had never existed.

I was sure she would come back, so I stood there and waited. I don't remember how long I waited, but I remember that the rain was getting heavier and the weather was getting colder and colder, and my stamina was depleting faster and faster.

On the verge of despair, she finally showed up and brought me back to her home, almost freezing.

Her home is small, but the yard is full of cherry trees. Even though it's autumn, the trees are full of red cherries. Take a bite and it's sweet...... But no matter how beautiful the cherry is, it can't be sweet for her after all.

I lived in her house for more than half a month, watching the sunrise and twilight and clouds with her every day. She laughed beautifully, and her soft words were very beautiful. Especially when she told me her name was Xiaozhu, my whole heart melted in her tenderness.

Xiaozhu is a very common name, but it sounds wonderful to me. I joked more than once that if I had a daughter, I would also be named Xiaozhu, and she smiled and pointed to the cherry trees and said, if she had a son, she would name her Dashu.

I asked her what she liked besides cherries, and she said she liked to see the white clouds in the sky and the phoenix flying in the sky.

I laughed at her for being stupid, how could there be a phoenix in this world, let alone flying in the clouds, and she just laughed and said nothing about my ridicule.

Xiaozhu is a clever girl, she is very good at embroidery, and all the embroidery that passes through her hands is lifelike like a living thing. She embroidered the poems I taught her on the silk handkerchief, entered my lovesick door, knew that I was lovesick, long-term lovesickness, long-term memory, and short-term lovesickness.

This was the first poem she recited, so she cherished this silk handkerchief very much, and even if I asked for it many times, it was to no avail.

Later, she suddenly asked me if I loved her. I didn't know how to answer for a while, and I didn't know whether to love or not.

In the past, when a matchmaker came to Yunjiabao to say goodbye, I used all kinds of excuses to shirk it, but that time, I came up with the idea of marrying a wife and having children for the first time.

I confess, I was hooked on her...... Even though I didn't know where she came from and who she was, I still fell into it.

I couldn't control my heart, so I showed her my heart. I promised her to stay until the first spring rain of the following year, when the cherries were drenched, and that would be the day I married her.

But things were far from going as smoothly as I thought, and after I told my parents about it, my mother was angry with me on the spot, and my father became seriously ill. After recovering from my illness, my father slapped me hard, and he would never allow a woman of unknown origin to be his daughter-in-law.

It was the first time I cried since I was a child, and I knelt on the ground and begged for a long time, but in exchange for my father's scolding and house arrest.

My father locked me up in my room, and this was until the second year, and I did not go to the appointment to marry her. One morning, she came to my window unexpectedly, she said that she missed me, she said that the cherry tree had been baptized by the spring rain, she said...... She has been waiting for me to go back and marry her.

She sewed a wedding dress for herself and wore it every day and sat in front of the door waiting for me to come back. She took out the silk handkerchief and showed it to me, and after a long wait, it was lonely at all, and she embroidered two lotus flowers in the lower left corner of the silk handkerchief.

One is her, and the other is me.

After waiting for a long time, she tossed and asked, and finally sneaked into Yunjiabao to find me. She was a weak woman who didn't know anything about the world, and I can imagine the hardships she went through to find me.

When I said that my father did not approve of our marriage, she looked at me with great determination and said that she would take me away, and I agreed without even thinking about it.

But God didn't fulfill people's wishes, and we were arrested by my father's people only half a day after we left Yunjiabao.

After my father sealed my acupoint, he looked at Xiaozhu with fierce eyes, and he even blamed Xiaozhu for his mother's death. He asked Xiaozhu to swear that she would never appear in front of me in this life, and she would not tell anyone anything about me, otherwise he would kill her with a sword.

Xiaozhu didn't swear, but told her father about the past with me in her soft Wu Nong. That's when I realized that she cared so much about me.

The story between us was simple, but she said it so much that every time she said it, my heart ached. She took out a silk handkerchief to show her father the peach blossoms on it and read the poems on it.

Xiaozhu originally wanted to impress her father, but unexpectedly, her father, who couldn't bear it, would be angry at her and drew his sword to cut off her tongue.

Even though I have killed countless enemies, I was frightened by this scene, and Xiaozhu was also frightened. Her lips closed as if she were begging for help, but she couldn't say anything, only blood kept pouring from her mouth.

The blood flowed to the ground, to the silk handkerchief, to the back of her hand, and to my heart.

Later, Xiaozhu, who couldn't bear the severe pain, fainted.

I went crazy and broke through the acupuncture point with my true qi and held her unconscious in my arms. My father, who had lost his kindness, was determined to drive her away, and I didn't know where I got the courage to draw a sword and stab myself in my body to blackmail my father, and she would not marry in this life.

Fearing for my life or death, my father granted my request.

I thought that we could finally win a lifetime together, but Xiaozhu had a high fever the night before we got married. When she woke up, she had completely forgotten about me, and her eyes were full of indifference and detachment when she looked at me.

I showed her the handkerchief, but she still couldn't remember anything.

Finally one day, she quietly left Yunjiabao and left the place where I was there.

She took nothing with her, including the silk handkerchief she treasured, and she just left.

She was still in a hurry, and I never caught up with her again. The yard full of cherry trees has also changed hands, and no one knows anything about Xiaozhu.

I was going to look for Xiaozhu, but my father fell for the enemy's tricks by mistake at this time, and lost most of his skills.

My father gave birth to me and raised me, and my mother died because of me, and between filial piety and righteousness, I finally chose the former. Since then, I have resumed my identity as the son of the Yun family, and I have returned to the high-spirited Yun Chuhang.

I worked hard to practice swordsmanship, refining the Tianyun swordsmanship to the point of perfection, and added a move "Cloud Flying Phoenix" to the original foundation.

With this move, I defeated Mu Daoren, a famous swordsman at the time, in one fell swoop. But for some reason, at this time, I kept thinking of Xiaozhu's figure and her tongue that was cut off by my father. Because my emotions were out of control, I actually drew my sword and cut off Mu Daoren's legs, and it was so bloody, exactly the same as Xiaozhu at that time.

After defeating the Mu Daoren, my prestige in the martial arts was greater than before, and my father was so happy that he handed over the Yunjiabao to me. In my early twenties, I sat on the throne of the lord of a castle and became a young talent praised by everyone in the martial arts.

But none of this is what I want. I wanted it, but I couldn't get it anymore.

Twenty years have passed, and in Hongchen's experience, I have long lost the innocence I had at that time, and I have given up that obsession.

Just now, a friend told me an interesting story, the housewife of Liaocheng Jinfu adopted a mute girl. Although the mute girl could not speak, she was very angry.

It is said that the mute girl is very beautiful, but no one knows her identity and origin, only that she likes to wear pink clothes.

I don't know if the woman in pink is Xiaozhu, if so, is she still waiting for me to marry her?

But I'm going to be someone else's groom tomorrow, I've been a good son all my life, and I don't want to go against my father's decision at the last minute.

Xiaozhu and I were destined to have no chance for life as early as 20 years ago.

I don't know if I ever loved her or not, but I know that the smile I showed for her at that time was real, the tears that flowed for her were real, and the heart that accompanied her to old age...... It's also true.

Even if I loved her, so what?

Since then, it has been difficult for the old people to reunite. My only regret in my life is probably that I didn't let her see the phoenix flying in the sky with her own eyes.

But now, what about love, what about regrets? If there is an afterlife, I will never go to that peach forest again, and I will never let her meet me again. How many people can bear this unbelievable longing? Xiaozhu forgot about me, which is a good ending for her.

And all I remember is the girl playing barefoot in the rainstorm forest. She is like a bright moon in my heart, beautiful and incomprehensible.

When the sun comes out, no matter how beautiful the moon is, it will recede.

Enter my lovesick door, know that I am lovesick, long-term lovesickness, long-term memory, and short-term lovesickness are infinite.

I don't know when my life will come to an end, the only thing I know is that I will be closely associated with the girl of the Zuo family for the rest of my life.

I will try to be a good husband, and my wife will never know that her husband was deeply in love with someone before he married her.