I want to die. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info I can't find my way home.

"Grandpa, do you know the way home?" I asked Grandpa.

"What's home?" Grandpa was at a loss.

What is home? I'm at a loss. Home, what is home? Dazed. Dazed. The way we walk is home. I still have you, you still have me. We can walk together......

Where can we go? There is nowhere to go. I'm going to find a space ingot, build a safe place, my grandfather is practicing ghost cultivation in it, I will take a human body, and then snatch a lot of vitality, and go to that space ingot, and continue to cultivate. Do not collide with the horrors of the outside world. That's a lot of fun.

There are a lot of things I need to do to make this idea, this beautiful idea, a reality. I feel like I'm having a hard time getting it done. But I can't die now, I'm dead now, right? I'm a ghost without a body now. How else can I die? When I wander alone in this world, with no end in sight, I can't think about this kind of despair.

Why did reincarnation collapse? How good it is that it doesn't collapse. Why do you want to cultivate the truth alone? How good it is that reincarnation has not collapsed, I can die. Eliminate the ability to perceive pain and loneliness. Again, over and over again from birth to death, endless reincarnation?

Despair, a deep despair enveloped me. I wanted to cry, but I couldn't make tears. I want to die, but I don't have a way. There is nothing more desperate in the world.

The demons in my heart completely wrapped me.

Don't go. Let's go here, lie down here, lie down all the time, don't move.

Grandpa and I were like lying in the same place since we died. We lay down for a long time. The mortal world does not see us. Occasionally, the spirits of the dead come to us and we ignore them.

"Grandpa. ”

"Huh?"

"Are you okay?"

"Don't speak. Just lie down and don't move, and you'll be fine. ”

The blood moon in the sky turned into a gray cloud. The gray clouds in the sky turned into a blood moon. One after another, the undead pass by us. A herd, a horde of zombies, robots walked past us. Even if there were monks, they didn't notice us.

I'm starting to miss the days when I used to be with Wu Yang at the "Reincarnation Transit Station". Our memories keep fading, and I love that time. Why did I come out at that time? If I hadn't come out, would I not have the ability to feel loneliness and pain, and I would not have the ability to see the endless pain and sorrow of this world?

I do not know. All I know is that I'm so sad. I want to die, I want to sleep and never wake up again. I don't want to dream.

By the way, cast an illusion. Grandpa and I will go to the world of illusion to have a good rest.

The world of illusions.

Quiet room, comfortable bed. I'm going to sleep here to death. Don't let anyone come, don't come and bother me.

But I can't sleep. I couldn't even sleep. I have no body, and weariness does not come to me. But I just want to sleep, and the heart that wants to sleep has been tormenting me, but I can't achieve it. The extreme pain of life is that you can't realize nothingness!

I don't know how much time I've spent in my room, but do I have time for my life? It turned out to be a mouse. The mouse actually could talk, and he spoke to me: "Are you like this?"

I lay down on the comfortable bed and looked at its mouse face: "How?"

"Are you just lying here, doing nothing?" its face seemed angry.

I wanted to laugh, but I wasn't in the mood, "So what? No one can ask me anything. Is there anything that needs to be done to be alive?"

"Don't you need it?"

"Do you need it?"

"Yes!" the rat became angry and jumped up and pulled my legs. I was dragged to the cold ground by him. I didn't want to dwell on it, so I went back to my bed, looking at the white wall, and I didn't want to think about anything.

"I want you to wake up and stay with me!"

I turned around, and the face of the mouse changed to ...... Du Xinyu, the beautiful girl who rode a snow pig in a long time - Du Xinyu.

I looked at her beautiful face and didn't feel anything.

"Whatever you want me to do with you, we will all be approached by endless pain, and then struggle endlessly in endless pain. In samsara, you won't find a home to rest in. I can't give you a home to rest in. "I closed my eyes in pain and wanted to cry.

"When I'm blind! I'm looking at you wrong!" The tears on her beautiful face were so flooding, and after letting go of the painful words, she didn't leave, she was waiting for me......

"Where's your snow pig?" I got up and stroked her beautiful hair gently, my voice surprisingly gentle.

Love, I can love you because I want you to give me solace, comfort in my pain, my loneliness, my life. People may need love, but they can't live without lovers, at least not for long.

Du Xinyu: Is this woman still alive? If she is alive, where is she living? If she still wants to bully me, will she not be able to bully me? Yes, she must be beating me now.

Go to her and see if she can beat me? Wouldn't it be fun to do? Maybe.

I'm interested, I'm interested in living in this world for the time being. I'm going to find her, I'm going to teach her a good lesson, and she's going to dare to bully me like that before! And her cold and arrogant sister, I'm going to take a human body, and I'm going to knock her down a hundred times, a hundred times! It's going to be funny. I've never knocked down a woman, so I can try it.

Out of the world of illusion. I shouted happily, "Grandpa, let's go find two beautiful women!"

"Woman, yes, I like women the most, pretty women!" said Grandpa, laughing and dancing happily.

However, his idea did not last long, we had not been on the road to find those two beautiful women for long, grandpa wanted to separate from me, he said: "Go and go your way, you gave me this ghost cultivation method, I want to find a place to cultivate quietly." I want to go back and see your father, and your grandmother......"

I kept saying I wanted to go back, but I didn't go back with him. What are you going to do when you go back? Seeing that there is no longer the past, only to increase the sorrow?

He insisted on it. I had no choice but to say, "Don't go with the undead, they're dangerous." Don't take it, your soul can't bear it. Also, wait for me when you get home, I'll be back. ”

"Go your own way, don't think too much about it. You're always thinking too much. Maybe it's better to think too much. I don't even have the ability to say a few nice words to you. Hehe...... Anyway, Deming, you're the best. ”

That's the last thing I heard my grandfather say to me. One day, I was thinking that if the **** hadn't separated from him because he wanted to find two beautiful women, what happened in my life would definitely be different.

But what can it be? I am me, and what kind of encounter is also me.