"Later, ......" Yue Shuaishuai pursed his lips as if he was recalling something intriguing, and continued, "Later, I was born very smoothly. ”

"At the beginning, our family was really good, with money, a house and a car, and a really good life...... It's very beautiful. ”

"Later, when I was five years old, my xylophone became pregnant again, and this time in his womb was my sister, the same father and mother, my biological sister. ”

"My sister...... It can't be said that the birth didn't go well, at least it was much smoother than mine, at least she didn't encounter any illness after she was born, and she didn't encounter anything. ”

"But all of this, when I was six years old, when my sister was one year old, was all ruined, all of them were in vain. ”

"Why, it's because of my fucking biological father!"

"What the fuck...... Cheating ......"

"It was a young, pretty, well-built woman. Younger than my mother, prettier than my mother, and in better shape than my mother. ”

So he cheated without hesitation, and since then, I no longer have the image of a good and conscientious father in my impression, and all the memories of him in my mind are all ...... He scolded me, his mother, his sister. 、”

"I remember very vividly that when I was about seven years old, he threw something at home, he broke all the dishes, he broke the air conditioner, the TV, and later, he picked up an iron toy and threw it at my mother. ”

"I got on my knees, I knelt down straight at that scumbag, I cried and said please, please don't hurt my mother. ”

"My mother pulled me, she was crying like crazy, she pulled me, she said child, don't kneel, don't kneel at him......"

"Later, I heard him slam the door and I never saw him again. ”

"I heard...... When I grew up, I heard my mother tell me, she said that after that time, my biological father, sold the company, took all the savings, and quickly sold the house, and ran away with the woman, to the ends of the earth, to the place where we could not find it. ”

"I really hate him, I hate his irresponsibility, I hate his selfishness, I hate his totality. ”

"So I hope I'll never be like that, but I feel like I'm moving in his direction right now. ”

"In my ...... When I was a freshman in high school, I met a girl who was short, skinny, and dark, but she was very cute, and although she was a little introverted, she loved to laugh. ”

"I couldn't help but like her, but I never told her that I was always with her as a friend. ”

"I bought her makeup, and I even taught him how to put on makeup, yes, I went to learn makeup because of him, and I was a boy, because of this cute and weak little girl, I went to learn makeup. ”

"We later ...... Everything went very smoothly, we were really like a couple, holding hands, feeding each other, looking at each other and smiling......"

"It didn't last long, and he told me he was going to change schools, a year later, just before I was about to graduate from high school. ”

“......”

“......”

Yue Shuaishuai was silent for a while, and after that, he continued.

"I know I'm not going to have her anymore, but I still want to make an effort, and I'm going to ask her out and tell her what I'm thinking, what's really going on in my heart. ”

"But he didn't have time, he told me that he had to prepare for going to a new school, and there were exams, and many, many things were happening at the same time, and he didn't have the time or energy to come out with me. ”

"I can't help it, I told her on the Internet, I like him, very, very much, I feel like I can't live without you, I feel like you're everything to me. ”

"I don't know if he believed me, but what I do know is that he rejected me. ”

"Then I heard that he had a boyfriend, and you know the most ironic thing about it?"

"Her boyfriend is taller than me, more handsome than me, richer than me, better at studying than me, can dress up, and, the most fucking thing, and only fucking one thing to my heart - his boyfriend, and I have the same name,"

"I'm relieved, I've been uncomfortable for a while, but time really wears everything down, I'm really relieved, and now my heart really doesn't have any waves, I don't think there's anything anymore. ”

“......”

“......”

"But I met another girl before, and he was very bad. ”

"He didn't go to school very early, he had tattoos, he smoked and drank, he scolded the streets, and he didn't have a very good temper. ”

"But he would comfort me when I was sad, and he would call her in the middle of the night and cry and call me for being a fool and comfort me well. ”

"He would restrain his bad temper in front of my family, my friends, he would cover his tattoos, he would refrain from smoking or drinking. ”

"He loves puppies, he loves kittens, he loves lots and lots of little animals. My friend has a puppy at home, and every time I take her to see it, she can't hide the smile in her eyebrows. ”

"He's a very, very, very, bad guy and he's a very, very, very good guy. ”

"I really, I have to admit, I do like him. ”

"I've said more than once that after graduating from high school, I have a path that I choose to take, and that this path will be lonely, and I may not be able to keep in touch with my old friends for a long, long time, and I may lose many, many old friends because of it. So I don't want to like anybody, and I don't want to delay anybody. ”

"yes, I lied, I fucking lied, I liked him, I liked him so much. ”

"But what the fuck can I do about it...... I guess I was born with a spare tire. ”

"It's been so many years now, and many people have told me that I have big eyes, a straight nose, and I look pretty good, and I'm quite complacent. ”

"But my character is probably extremely cowardly, and I have no experience in this aspect of feelings, and I have no opinions, so I can only follow behind other people's butts, and I am still in the dark when I am bored and dumped. ”