Chapter 310: Lingxue
"He saved me. Shu Lingxue smiled with relief, at this time Shi Zique had stopped, ten zhang away from Qi Chu. There were two stout old trees beside him, one of which seemed to be unable to withstand the cold and had frozen to death.
Shu Lingxue turned to Qi Chu, although she looked at his people, she was thinking about something else. It seems that she just wants to find someone to talk to, and it doesn't matter who this person is, as long as she can keep it a secret for her.
No matter how many people in the world are like this, there is no one who wants to keep a secret. Therefore, we can only bear the pain brought by the secret alone, and enjoy the joy and happiness brought by the secret alone.
They wish that someone could share their joys and sorrows, but there is no such person.
That's why the ancients said that life has to be a confidant and die without regrets.
Qi Chu is not Shu Lingxue's confidant, but he can keep her secrets.
"To outsiders, I am a gambling god with unlimited scenery, with world-class gambling skills and rich wealth, but no one knows that all this is not what I want. The world's best gambling skills were forced to learn by the lord of the Charm Phoenix, and the wealth of the rich country naturally belongs to the Charm Phoenix. And I am just a tool for the charm to collect money and a pawn to keep their secrets, and the purpose of my life is to win money and then hand it over to the charm. And I don't have anything myself, the only thing I have is this rotten life that others envy!"
She was sad and angry, and her emotions that had been suppressed for many years could finally be vented. In this icy and snowy night, he was presumptuous without scruples. In front of his beloved, there is Qi Chu listening, perhaps this is the best opportunity, and the only opportunity. Because after tonight, tomorrow she will be the rich gambling god again.
"In fact, I envy others for living an ordinary life, even if sometimes they don't have enough food and clothing, but their hearts are stable and they don't have to drift with the years. When I was tired, I lay on the bed and slept peacefully, and when I was sad, I hugged the pillow and cried, but I was too tired to sleep, and it was useless to cry when I was hurt. All you can do is endure, walk alone, walk into the darkness, and one day go to destruction. ”
Qi Chu could understand her feelings, Meihuang cultivated her just to let her collect money for herself, and never regarded her as a person, let alone give her a little freedom. He can imagine that Shu Lingxue must have suffered a lot over the years, and these hardships are like hell's spells for a woman in the mood for love, tormenting her all the time, destroying her will, and consuming her appearance.
"One day I finally couldn't take it anymore and I wanted to give up. The only way to give up is to end his own life, because only death can make him stop controlling me. ”
The "he" in Shu Lingxue's mouth is the master of the charm phoenix, the master that Sheling fears, and the devil in her eyes.
"A year ago, it was spring, the season of rejuvenation. And I was about to end my life, and by the river, which no one knew about outside the city of Yangzhou, I wore the most beautiful clothes, painted the most gorgeous rouge, and carried the most expensive jewelry, walking towards the depths of the river. ”
Thinking of the time when she was dying, Shu Lingxue left crystal tears, and no one knew how she felt at this moment. She didn't know it herself, maybe she was happy, happy for her death, maybe she was sad, regretting her lost years, or maybe she was unwilling, no matter who was young, she had her own style. And she didn't, behind the high-spirited spirit at the gambling table, she was forced to do helplessly.
"The river was bitterly cold in the warmth of the spring, and the slightly icy water soaked through my clothes, wetting my makeup, and removing the heavy beads and earrings. The icy water of the river was like a pair of merciless hands pulling my feet and dragging me into the bottomless abyss. The river went past my ankles, engulfed my knees, and spilled down my spine. It gagged my mouth and covered my nose, but when it was about to blindfold me, it made me see the boat floating in the distance, and the worried eyes on the boat. ”
"A puppet like me, who only wants to live in peace, never thought that he would meet a beloved. I don't have the luxury of thinking that that person will fall in love with me too. But God is like that, when I despair, it brings hope. The icy river poured into his chest, and although he lost consciousness, he picked up a life. It was he who picked me up, like a wounded kitten in the field. ”
Shu Lingxue looked at Shi Zique's back, and he didn't look back. But she knew that he was also reminiscing about the past like herself, and in the night, although they did not gaze affectionately, although they did not rely on each other, their hearts comforted together.
"Since ancient times, there have been too many stories of heroes saving beauty, but he is a hero, and I can't afford to be a beauty when my makeup is decadent. In spite of this, he fell in love with me, and what about me?"
Shu Lingxue asked Qi Chu rhetorically, as casually as if she was chatting with a friend.
Qi Chu smiled rarely, he and Shu Lingxue could not be regarded as friends, and he was even deceived by her twice, but at this time, he pitied her from the bottom of his heart. A delicate flower will always experience wind and rain, and only after a towering tree grows next to her, will she bloom carefree.
"Naturally, you fell in love with him, and you told him who you really are. As for why he trusts him so much, people who want to be happy with each other are like this. Qi Chu thought of Xu Jinyu and remembered many happy days, and he couldn't suppress his emotions.
"Yes, people are so strange, they want to jump into the river to kill themselves when all their thoughts are lost, but they have the courage to break free from the cage when they rekindle hope. Shu Lingxue's tears flowed into the corners of her raised mouth, sour and sweet.
"It's not surprising at all that a person has courage as long as he has love, and if he has love for both people. Qi Chu looked up at the moon, the light was like a veil, hazy and beautiful, just a little cool.
The years are cold, and only the snuggling of love can warm the world.
"If two people have love, there will be miracles. ”
Snowflakes fell, and Qi Chu stretched out his hand, letting the white and crystal snowflakes fall in his palm. The temperature of his palm melted the elf in the night, and Xu Jinyu's voice sounded in his ears.
"You see I caught the moonlight. ”
"You see I made a snowman out of the moonlight. ”
"Look at the snowman, haha!"
"Why don't you call it the Moon Flute?"
Qi Chu's palm flipped, the snow on the ground flew like a dragon, and a fat snowman appeared in front of him in an instant.
He said to himself, "But why don't you call it the Moon Flute?"
This sentence alarmed Shu Lingxue, and she looked at Qi Chu slightly.
Qi Chu stretched out his hand to touch the snowman's face, still muttering to himself, "Because the moon flute is not good." ”
The "Hula" snowman disappeared and melted between heaven and earth.