"Third sister, I think it's really boring to live. ”

"Little sword, why do you think that?"

"I have the same nightmare every night, always being eaten by all kinds of terrible monsters. When I woke up, I was still scared, so I couldn't concentrate on anything, and my sisters laughed at me for being too slow to learn, and said I was a fool. ”

"Xiaojian, it's not your fault, you don't enter the country quickly, then take your time and don't care about other people's opinions. ”

"But they all said that I was the only boy in the family, and that I would inherit the position of the owner of the village in the future, and that since I had a heavy responsibility, I should study hard and make progress by leaps and bounds, and I could not use any excuse to shirk it. ”

"It doesn't matter if you're a boy or a girl, you should do everything within your means, and you don't need to force what you can't do. ”

"Third sister, thank you. But I really feel a lot of pressure when they are so strict with me and what they expect from me. ”

"Xiaojian, your fifth sister and sixth sister will go out to practice recently, and they won't put pressure on you anymore. ”

"What about the seventh sister and the eighth sister?"

"I'll tell them, don't bother you. ”

"Third sister, I want to ask you one more question. ”

"What's the problem?"

"Can I not be the owner of the village in the future?"

"Little sword, if you don't want to do it, you don't have to do it, it's not a responsibility you have to carry. ”

......

"Third sister, I think I'm really slow to learn things. ”

"I remember telling you that you don't need to be stressed. ”

"However, now even Xiao Su has more books on his back than me, I will be the owner of the village in the future, is it very irresponsible not to seek progress like this?"

"What, you want to be the owner again?"

"Xiao Ai Xiaosu is my sister, and the ninth sister is also like my sister, I can't put this burden on them, I should take care of them. Actually, those sisters are right, I really should work hard, but I just can't do it. ”

"You can't learn because you have a shadow in your heart, and it's no wonder you. ”

"Although you said so, third sister, I still feel very ashamed. ”

"Xiao Jian, think about it, Xiao Ai was born blind, if we must ask her to see things, can she do it?"

"Of course it can't be done. ”

"yes, so you don't have to be disappointed in yourself, it's not that you don't want to be motivated, it's that you can't do it in the first place. ”

"Third sister, the situation between me and Xiao Ai is different. It's not that I don't want to learn, it's just that I can't forget my old nightmare, so can't I get rid of it?"

"Do you really want to forget this memory of the past?"

"Of course I want to forget, I really can't stand this torture!"

"Okay, Xiaojian, you take this pair of glasses, follow my steps, slowly breathe, focus, calm your mind, restrain your thoughts, reimagine your life, you have always come back safely, and you have never encountered any terrible past. ”

......

"Third sister, I'm fine during the day now, I can forget everything when I wear glasses and read, but I think back when I dream at night. ”

"In your dreams, will you know that you are the original little sword?"

"Yes, every time in a dream, those terrible memories that disappeared suddenly reappear, and the feeling is so deep as if it was the first time I encountered it, I feel that my heart really can't stand it. ”

"In that case, let's have a deeper stage of thinking about the mind, you think of yourself as another person, and it has nothing to do with Xiaojian at all. ”

"It sounds so hard, but how do you think of yourself as someone who has nothing to do with the original?"

"Xiaojian, you imagine that you have gone to another world, where you were born, raised, and studied, experienced all kinds of red dust, and have a real life. ”

"Gone to another world? ”

"If you like myths and stories, you imagine yourself flying to the fairy world and seeking immortality, if you like historical legends, you imagine that you have gone to the ancient troubled times and reorganized the broken rivers and mountains, if you like exotic customs, then you imagine yourself to the extreme western continent, from knight struggle to king ......"

"That's it, third sister, I understand. ”

......

"Third sister, whether it is the fairy world or ancient times, the appearance and appearance are basically the same as ours, and I often feel touched in my heart and realize that I am just in an illusion. ”

"And what if you imagine going to the West?"

"It's even more useless, as soon as the people there open their mouths are all Chinese, I immediately know that it is fake. ”

"It seems that you need to build a world where the customs and styles are completely different, but you must also be in the same vein as China in terms of cultural foundation, so that you will not be easily recognized. ”

"Ah, such a world is too contradictory, how can it exist?"

"Not necessarily, Xiaojian, try to imagine the future land of Shenzhou. ”

"Future?"

"Yes, you assume that human technology is constantly accelerating, so after a few years, the appearance of the whole world has changed dramatically, and everyday utensils have become what we have never seen before, but the local language and culture have been passed down, and there is basically no obstacle to your ability to understand. ”

"Third sister, I can't imagine how technology alone can completely change the face of the world......"

"It's okay, let's deduce it slowly. Did you know that there is a boom in the West where machines are replacing human labor, and we are optimistic that it may be possible to develop to the point where machines make machines, and the use of efficient energy from underground excavation is widely used? ”

"If machines replace human labor, aren't humans going to be eliminated?"

"No, no, we have to look at this trend from a positive perspective: thanks to the widespread use of machines, which have greatly increased agricultural production and household goods, the planet can carry ten times the population of today, if not more. ”

"There are so many people, third sister, do I want to imagine the future as heaven?"

As long as there are human beings, there will always be a class structure, and there will always be conflicts of interest. However, you can let go of your imagination, and after the rapid progress of human technological capabilities, it has brought about a sharp expansion of the industrial cake, which is good for mankind as a whole, and what will the world become in the future, and what will China become in the future?"

"Oh, I see what you mean...... Just now, third sister, you said that technological innovation started from the West, and if it can really bring about such huge changes, it seems that our China will be one step behind, will this go through a process of falling into deception?"

"It's very reasonable for you to predict this, it's very likely, so just use your mind to imagine it. ”

......

"Third sister, I feel like I'm getting more and more confused, and I can't tell who I am. ”

"What do you say?"

"Sometimes I sit at home and feel like it's a strange place, as if I'm a person from hereafter. ”

"Do you still have nightmares?"

"It's much less anymore, sometimes it's only once in many days. ”

"That's fine, when you feel like you're a different person at all, you can forget about the shadows of the past. ”

"But, but, then I feel like I'm dead! Third sister, that person is not me!"

"How could this not be you? Xiao Jian, this person was also created by yourself, and he is the same person as you. ”

"I don't think so, because he doesn't remember anything about me. Third sister, I'm so scared, I don't want to be another person, I don't want to forget you, and I don't want to forget everyone!"

"Then do you think it's more terrifying to be a different person or to be haunted by nightmares?"

"Woo woo, third sister, I don't know, I don't even want it!"

"Little sword, don't cry. Rest assured, you'll be fine in the end. ”

"Huh?"

"Sometimes, giving up is to gain better, and forgetting is to remember more deeply. Although you really can't get rid of the nightmare now, when you really think that you are someone else, you can grow without burden, until your mind can easily digest the shadow of horror, and at that time, you will naturally recall everything that was before. ”

"Really, really?"

"Xiaojian, the third sister also once traveled to another world, and during that time, the third sister also forgot her origin. But when I finally completed my mission in that world, I immediately knew who I was, where I came from, and where I was going to return. ”

"Third sister, what do you mean?"

"The other personality that we have created for ourselves actually has a special mission, and when the mission is over, there will be a return of the Buddha-figure. Xiaojian, you have to believe the third sister, okay?"

"Yes, I believe the third sister...... However, I feel so weak, why should I use this way of dodging to overcome my demons?"

"This is not called weakness, for a strong enemy that cannot be defeated for the time being, we must avoid its edge and seek opportunities to attack, this is the correct tactic. ”

"I see. Third sister, if I really can't remember you anymore, will you blame me?"

"The third sister has confidence in you, you will definitely become the last master of your own soul and stand on the top of the innate world! ”

......

It was a day when the grass grew and the warbler flew, and the spring was bright.

"Young Zhuang Master, we are the rising star of Jiangnan martial arts with you, listed as the Nine Swordsmen, and we specially came to greet us today, and we hope to meet friends with the owner of the village. ”

"Okay, just point to each other. ”

......

"Miss, Miss, young master, he was beaten to death by someone!"

"My brother has also practiced authentic martial arts since he was a child, and it is not so easy to hold on, Xiao Xun, go and get my medicine box. ”

......

In the thick smell of medicine, the boy struggled to open his eyes slowly, and found himself in an antique bedroom.

A thought from the memory of the future world suddenly popped up in his heart.

"Hey, I've crossed over?"

(Memories of the year, the end) (To be continued.) )