Fluttershy walks over to the tea shed, and the shopkeeper, who doesn't look much older than her, smiles at her as she cleans up the table, "Girl, do you want tea?" ”

Fluttershy licks her dry lips and nods, "Hmm...... That, how much is a bowl?" his hand subconsciously pinched a corner of the cloth bag.

Qin Gu said: "A penny and a bowl." ”

"Please bring me a bowl..."As soon as I sat down, the tea arrived.

Reluctantly, the man comes over and sits across from Fluttershy. Fluttershy says, "Please bring him another bowl of tea..."

The man muttered: "What a waste, isn't it just a bowl of water, it costs a penny a bowl, which is enough to buy half a catty of coarse grain." ”

Fluttershy is aggrieved, and the other party complains along the way because she didn't bring any more jewelry and silver when she "escaped".

She began to wonder if the other party's words that he kept saying that he loved her as a person rather than her identity and family background were true.

The tea and fruit are really fragrant and refreshing, and after a few bites, the whole person is tired and gone.

As the tea rises, Fluttershy feels her gaze drift for a moment.

- The eloping couple nervously drank their tea, burying their heads as much as possible, for fear that someone in the crowd would recognize them.

I was even more afraid that a team of people would suddenly run out from the end of the road and catch them back......

But until they finished drinking tea, these coincidences and bloody episodes did not happen.

Fluttershy looks at the end of the road, feeling inexplicably lost, and is pulled away by the mountain in a hurry.

Recovering their strength, the two once again embarked on the thorny and bumpy road of elopement.

Fluttershy never expects that the mountain says that her home in the "mountains" is so remote, and what makes her more and more uneasy is that she realizes that the farther away she is from town, the mountain is not as caring and tolerant of her as she used to be.

Her shoes are broken, her feet are worn out, and Yama's true nature is revealed, but Fluttershy has no way back.

It was deserted, densely forested, and the howls of wild beasts from time to time came from the forest......

No matter how tired and painful she was, she had to grit her teeth and keep up with Dashan's more and more calm footsteps.

She recalled that when she was at home before, she was an only daughter, and she was the young lady in the family, even if she was eating and dressing, she was served by someone, how could she have suffered like this.

Fluttershy has begun to miss her carefree life and regrets eloping with this man. Because of the other party's diligence in front of him, because the other party said that he would be good to himself, he rushed into it without shame.

However, Fluttershy still has a glimmer of hope in her heart: Dashan has said that he is a man of strength and does not understand the wrinkled mood of those who read, but he is more down-to-earth and able to live a better life than those who read.

Therefore, in fact, with a man who can live a down-to-earth life, it is not bad to have a peaceful life and a harmonious couple in the future.

When she finally arrives at the "home" of the two thatched huts, Fluttershy feels a sense of loss in her heart, but subconsciously thinks that if Dashan is as hardworking and down-to-earth as he says, why are there only two thatched huts and they are so dilapidated?

They took her baggage and told her to cook and sweep the ......

So in her indifferent and mocking eyes, she went straight from a boudoir woman to a servant woman serving the family.

Dashan looked at her with no more admiration, no warmth, no care, in addition to drinking and reprimanding her with those people during the day, there was also no pity at night.

She thought about leaving, but she was no longer innocent, and she had eloped with this man of her own free will. If you go back, even if you have the protection of your parents and will not be punished, the final result will definitely not be better.

Then she found that she couldn't leave—she was pregnant.

The new life in her belly is like bringing new hope to her dead and depressed life, and she thinks that the arrival of the child will change the mountain and the family's attitude towards her.

However, with the birth of her daughter, the reality has not only not improved, but has become more difficult.

Not only the family, but even everyone in this place looked at her with contempt, as if it were incompetent and shameful for her to give birth to a daughter.

She was puzzled, in her short life of more than ten years, she was the only daughter in the family, although she occasionally heard rumors that some people were patriarchal outside, but she did not have any experience of it.

In this environment, people's behavior and personality will also change subtly, and she subconsciously caters to the rules of survival here, strives to cater to her husband, and breaks through the values of others.

The next year, she was pregnant again, and she hoped that she would have a son, just like everyone else. However, the reality is still so bad, she gave birth to a daughter.

At this point, Fluttershy realizes that her heart has unconsciously changed, assimilated by everything here, and she realizes that she doesn't like her daughter either, and even resents her because of her daughter's low status in the family and the village...... She thought that if she gave birth to a son, her husband's fairness and the attitude of others towards her would definitely not be like this.

Fluttershy becomes numb from the days of toiling and cold talking, and becomes the same as the women around her: old and coarse.

In the end, she was so numb that she didn't know when her belly was getting big again, and she lay numbly on the delivery bed, someone in her ear said, "It's another money-loser, it's a useless thing, drown" She didn't respond to anything said by the rough voice at all, and only mechanically did what they asked, even if the fist rolling pin fell on her, she would only giggle.

Fluttershy finally falls, and she feels like her life is passing and her consciousness is gone...... Is this going to die?

At this moment, she didn't even have the most instinctive desire to survive in life, and her godless eyes were dead and gray.

Hmm-

But why did I feel so painful in my heart, and a tremor came from the depths of my soul.

It's so painful, it's so depressing, it's so uncomfortable...... Fluttershy realizes that even this feeling of pain and discomfort is long and foreign to her, but it is because of this pain and depression that she realizes that she exists.

The most painful thing about living is not because you feel that life is painful and depressed, but because you can't even feel the pain and depression.

At this moment, Fluttershy, whose perception returns to her body, wants to cry, instinctively trying to struggle, trying to escape the numbness and darkness.

Ahh

Fluttershy screams with all her strength - she cries and shouts except when she follows the mountain to the "house" she just gets, and is greeted by insults and punches, and then she learns to be obedient and doesn't shout again.

A feeling of weightlessness sweeps through her body, and Fluttershy feels like she's falling from a great height......