Quit smoking and drinking to see you, where have you been ten years ago?

Seeing the name "Xiaoshuang", friends who are familiar with the story should feel a little excited, because I can finally solve some of the doubts in your hearts, and let you know what happened between me and Xiaoshuang, and why I have only missed her alone for so many years!

There is only one word difference between Xiaoshuang and my mother's name, to be honest, this name is quite earthy, and Xiaoshuang's appearance is also very average.

Isn't there such a saying, it's called one white covers three ugliness, one fat destroys everything, Xiaoshuang cleverly avoided these two points, she is neither white nor fat.

When we first met through introductions, we didn't meet directly, but kept chatting with "penguins", since the topic of chatting without meeting was a bit unscrupulous, and it would be slightly exaggerated and blew a little calfskin.

When it comes to height, it is a little exaggerated, originally only 1.82 meters, I said 1.85 meters, but when we met, a small pair of 1.72 meters deliberately wore a pair of high-heeled boots.

It was said that it was the first time she had worn high heels, and watching her walk in that strange position, I was 100% convinced that it was definitely the first time for her.

When meeting someone who may become a lifelong partner, she has to dress up to look more formal, but she is really plain and dresses very casually, and when she meets for the first time, she is still a little shy and doesn't like to talk.

Fortunately, my eloquence is not bad, and I am good at talking, and gradually we talk more.

Xiaoshuang's personality is very boyish, with neat short hair, when she learned that I like long hair, she has always been very serious, suddenly showed a mischievous smile and said to me: "Hey, how about I keep long hair for you?"

I said, "Wow!" Later, when we separated, Xiaoshuang still had neat short hair, and I should have realized that we couldn't have a future.

My personality and Xiaoshuang are similar, and we belong to the kind of people who are very noisy in front of acquaintances, but they are very quiet on weekdays.

At that time, she worked as a cashier in a supermarket, and I worked as a steel worker at a construction site, working more than ten hours a day, so we had very little time to meet, and the happiest time of the day should be when I didn't have to work overtime, riding my own small broken motorcycle to pick her up from work, and then taking her to eat a few dollars a bowl of rice noodles across the bridge.

I don't like to eat that kind of thing, every time I ask for two cold beers and watch Xiaoshuang eat alone.

About a month after we officially dated, during a meal, Xiaoshuang finally couldn't help but say to me, can you order a few more beers, she also wants to drink a little, and then that day we were all drunk, and bottles were thrown everywhere.

After that, I rode the S-shaped route on my scooter and took her to a barbecue stand, and then we continued to drink.

After drinking and drinking, I went to her dormitory in a daze, and then it was broken, and I felt quite a loss afterwards, and the most precious thing in the confusion was gone.

We really like each other, but I don't know why both parents don't agree, in order to let me break up with Xiaoshuang, the family asked someone to find me a blind date, and let us know each other for only 38 days and quickly got married.

Everything was in such a hurry, and by the time I reacted, I already had a marriage certificate in my hand, and the bride was not Xiaoshuang, but another person, someone I didn't like very much.

I don't think anyone would believe that my mind has been blank for 38 days since I got married to that person.

I really hope it's a nightmare, just a false alarm, and when I wake up I'll be able to be with my little pair.

But reality is not a dream, dreams can come again, but in reality it can't, I feel very sorry for Xiaoshuang, and I don't have the face to contact her again, so I deleted her friends, blocked her mobile phone number, no longer had any contact with her, and didn't even say goodbye.

On the night of the wedding, I said that I was going to go to the toilet, and I sat on the rocks by the river in front of my hometown for more than an hour.

The next morning, my throat hurt and I couldn't speak, and I didn't have any energy like a frosted eggplant.

A few buddies who played with me in the same village were still very uninteresting and joked with me, let me pay attention to my body leisurely, and the days will be long in the future, and I am not in a hurry.

I didn't bother to explain to them, but at dinner that night, I had another big drink with a few of them, and I can't remember how much I drank, anyway, by the end there were few people at the table who were sober.

But I was very awake that day, and I sat down on the big rock by the river and smoked, and after only one puff, I couldn't help coughing, and then I began to vomit, until my bile was about to vomit out.

I don't know if it's a hallucination, I saw Xiaoshuang standing on the other side of the river, and when I was excited to run over, Xiaoshuang disappeared again.

The next day, while my new wife was not around, I called a friend of mine, and the girlfriend of that friend was the introducer that Xiaoshuang told me, and the two of them had a good relationship with Xiaoshuang.

I asked him if he knew how Xiaoshuang was doing now, and he sighed and said, "It's all like this, why do you ask so much, since you are married, live your own life, don't think about her anymore."

When my friend persuaded me like this, his girlfriend heard it, and snatching the phone was a scolding for me, but fortunately, my friend took the phone back in time, otherwise I guess I would definitely be scolded to death by her mean language.

Xiaoshuang's home is out of town, I have known her for more than a year, I don't know where her home is, only know her dormitory, but when I found her dormitory, the people there have changed, the person said that Xiaoshuang has resigned a long time ago, and she doesn't know where she went.

In this way, Xiaoshuang and I completely lost contact, and that meeting on the other side of the river became the last time we met.

My marriage lasted less than three years before it was announced, and since then I really don't believe in fate anymore, let alone that there will be a woman in this world who will accompany me for the rest of my life.

Now I don't smoke or drink, you may not believe it, it was Xiaoshuang who told me to quit, she told me in a dream that if I really quit these bad hobbies, we will meet again one day sooner or later.

I haven't smoked a cigarette or drunk a drop of wine in seven or eight years now, but where are you, Xiaoshuang!

Xiaoshuang, I'm still waiting for you, I hope you are happy!